I do not know
Where I lived before,But I do know
Where I am living now:I am living
In God’s Compassion-Power-Nest. ```I question and doubt
Whether any human being on earthIs not curious
To know and grow intoThe Unknown.
```You have all along been a student
Of the brain.But I am begging you to study
Something new —I mean the heart —
And become a professorOf the heart.
```Although we live in time
And are captured by death,God the Compassion
Can liberate us easilyIf our longing is fire-pure.
```First walk along the road
Of progress,And then you may study the map
Of the invisible worlds. ```The fathomless sorrows
Of the worldQuite often come from
The ruthless tortureOf uncomely thoughts.
```Fear not the assault of hell!
You can invokeGod the Lover
And rest in the ArmsOf His Protection-Certainty.
```You have come down
To the suffering, tearful earth.Do you know why?
Just for a lasting experienceFrom the Light of the Beyond.
```If you lose enthusiasm,
If you lose determination,You are bound to suffer
From the sore feetOf hurtful failure.
```Every day he increases
His wonder-producing faith.Therefore he saves his life
From doubt’s destruction-doom. ```Where is your free will
If you live insideYour binding mind?
Where is your bondage
If you live insideYour all-encompassing heart?
```If you see that Heaven
Is frowning at you,Then love earth more
And care moreFor its soul-stirring smile.
```Why does doubt-courier carry
Many undivine things every day?Because it enjoys carrying
The bundle of curiosity. ```Now that you have learnt the art
Of conquering your despair-life,Try to develop more purity-joy
Inside your mind. ```Because you live
Inside your heart-garden,God is inviting you to visit
His own Delight-Sanctuary. ```The heart that obeys
Knows notWhat earth’s night is.
It only knowsWhat Heaven’s day is.
```Aspiration is always ready
To shake hands with you.But ask yourself:
Are you ready to shake handsWith aspiration?
```The mind that obeys
The division-power of the worldIs far away from
The Oneness-Power that God eternally is. ```Two unknowing eyes
The mind has, alas.Yet it is so proud
Of those stark blind eyes. ```God is always ready
To publish your heart-book.But have you ever written
Or will you ever writeA heart-book
That God can publish happily and proudly? ```What is failure?
It is somethingThat unconsciously exposes
Its own attachment-weaknesses. ```Each flash of inspiration
And each flight of aspirationCan increase the fragrance
Of our perfection-longing-life. ```Silence speaks.
It speaks quietly.It speaks slowly.
Also,It speaks with the voice
Of oneness-love. ```To face failure and greet success,
One must deliberately go out ofThe doubt-territory.
```I obey God.
That means my heart loves God.My heart loves God.
That means my life needs God. ```If your heart does not aspire,
Then your mind can easily be capturedBy indifference-emptiness.
```The mind’s suspicion-dream
ExpandsWhen the heart’s aspiration-candle
Is not kindled. ```He is a true seeker.
Therefore, every dayHis soul inspires him
To renew his life’s perfection-pledge. ```If your aspiration is based on
Feeble uncertainty,How can you become
A chosen instrument-soulOf Heaven’s Divinity?
```O my mind,
If you have nothing else to do,Then at least admire
Your soul’s lofty God-fulfilment-promisesOn earth.
```No wonder you are slowed down
By hesitation-handicap!Can you not see
That your heart’s aspiration-flowerIs totally withered?
```Often, the ambition-castle
Of the vitalIs nothing other than
The hallucination-castleOf the mind.
```You cannot be both
At the same time:Your mind’s oversized ego-tree
AndYour heart’s small happiness-plant.
```Man’s aspiration-heart
And God’s Compassion-EyeEvery day barter their hopes.
```Ask your mind-pessimist
To stop dominating your life.Beg your heart-optimist
To be in charge of your life. ```Each aspiration-cry
Can reach the heightsOf all-fulfilling peace-clime
And become God’s divinely proudPeace-representative on earth.
```Each soulful prayer
And each heartful meditationCan and will, without fail,
Create a confidence-giantIn the God-seeker’s life.
```Your doubting mind
Has already challenged you.It is up to you
Either to ignore its challengeOr to destroy its volcano-attack.
```Why do you have to keep
Unparalleled frustration-recordsOf your life?
Can you not start keepingSatisfaction-records
Founded upon your heart’s aspiration-cry? ```Not because he does not want God,
But because he wants to destroyHis own life,
God has crossed him offHis Compassion-List.
```A disciplined mind
And a tamed vitalAre the seeker’s
Perfection-promise-builders. ```When he cared only for success-life,
He was compelled to sufferFrom a paralytic progress-stroke.
```It is you
Who do not want to walkTowards the open Heart-Gate
Of God.Why do you blame
Falsely and shamelesslyYour innocent fate?
```At last I know
Where my mind lives.My mind lives
In my desire-life-cemetery. ```You are known to be
UnworthyBecause you never arrive on time
To join God’s God-Expedition. ```It is not uncommon
For a self-lover to becomeA manufacturer of misdeeds.
```Confusion-colleagues:
Fear, doubt and anxiety.True, I lived with them;
I am still living with them.But before long
I shall not even knowWho they are.
```Remember,
Your life is not and cannot bePermanently devoid of
God-Satisfaction-Promise. ```You think it is only
An unconscious act of delay.God thinks that you do not want
To play His celestial Game. ```My life and I
Need only one thing:Ignorance-proof divinity.
```You are your stupid mind.
ThereforeUnhappiness has a free access
To your stupid life. ```You are your mind’s
Illusion-destruction,Yet you think you are
A choice instrumentOf life-illumining light.
```Happiness can never be found
In loneliness.Happiness can be found only
In a desire-forsaking life. ```Strike hard, very hard!
Then only will your ignorance-thief knowThe gravity of his misdeeds.
```Your life is not a stinging wasp
Of abiding frustration.Your life is the repertory
Of God’s birthless and deathlessLuminosity.
```If your heart is crying,
Then make it sincere.And if your heart is sincere,
Then make it perfectIn God’s own Heart-Nest.
```If you do not deny
Your lower vital emotions,You will unmistakably betray
Your higher self. ```You are an amateur
In your aspiration-life,But you want to get the rewards
Of a manifestation-pro! ```There is no difference
And there can be no differenceBetween your gratitude-smiles
And God’s Satisfaction-Tears. ```A life of certainty
Does not find it difficultTo make friends with
Infinity’s Beauty. ```If you do not keep
Your God-appointmentEarly in the morning,
Then during the entire dayYou will be blessed with
Bitter disappointment. ```Your mind knows only
How to compile complaints.Your heart knows only
How to sing oneness-song. ```If you do not pray for the extinction
Of your suspicion-mind,How will you be able to watch
Your soul’s delight-documentary? ```How can you discover
Your highest realityIf you do not breathe in the purity
Of your heart’s freedom-light? ```My Lord Supreme chides me
If I do not pray to HimEvery day.
And I speak ill of the worldIf it does not praise me
Every day. ```If you are a strong soul,
Then you must liveYour heart-life
In God’s Vision-Eye. ```Do not neglect or forget
The Beauty of God’s Compassion-EyeAnd Satisfaction-Heart.
```If you do not fly above
Your mind-clouds,How can you succeed
In God’s Vision-JourneyThrough you?
```God never minds
When you converse with HimFamiliarly,
But He does mindWhen you converse with Him
Unwillingly or indifferently. ```If you are prompted
To measure your service-life,Then your entire being
Cannot reach outTowards God-Perfection.
```Your continual thirst for God
Is not enough.Unless you have a sleepless God-hunger,
You will eventually failIn your Heaven-reaching attempt.
```If your seeker-heart
Is flooded with hope,God will definitely come to you
With a Liberation-Smile. ```If you enjoy
Your lethargy-treasure,How can you escape
The dangerous bite of failure? ```You will have only the freedom of loss
If you do not want God to beYour loving and illumining Boss.
```Because you live inside
Your heart’s flower-garden,You have seen God’s smiling Face
Everywhere. ```The life of a true seeker
Is not only an aspiration-cry,But also the beginning
Of a perfection-smile. ```Your mind is enjoying
The absence of doubt.Therefore
God is planning to createA new universe for your mind.
```Unless you consciously climb up
Your aspiration-ladder,Your heart is not going to feel
God’s Satisfaction-Delight. ```Anxieties and worries
Hound usBecause we do not look at
God’s Compassion-EyeBefore us.
```He who wants to rise
Is bound to rise.He who does not want to rise
Will, without fail, sinkAnd live in the abysmal abyss.
```What is ignorance-life?
Ignorance-life is another nameFor man’s failure-cries and sighs.
```Your self-seeking smiles
Cannot illumine you.Your self-seeking tears
Cannot save you.Your God-seeking life
Will not only illumine youAnd save you
But also fulfil you. ```Because of your continuous
Indulgence-life,Your soul has finally withdrawn
Its sweet intimaciesFrom you.
```True, doubt comes disguised.
But you do have the capacityTo expel it from your mind-room
At your own sweet will. ```Your Inner Pilot is ringing
His Heart’s Compassion-Bell.Therefore
Your life-boat can never sink. ```Your heart is always ready
To clean your mind-room.It is only waiting for
Your mind’s kind wisdom-permission. ```Now that your disobedience-days
Are numbered,Make a new attempt
To become inseparably oneWith your heart’s obedience-life.
```Do not visit the worlds
Of ego-exhibitionIf you want to keep your own ego
Under perfect control. ```God definitely wants you
To take notesWhen He gives talks
On heart’s aspirationAnd life’s dedication.
```From intellect to intuition
Is indeed a long journey.From intuition to perfection
Is infinitely longer. ```Perfect thinking you had.
Perfect living you are.Absolute self-transcendence
You shall become. ```If you want to run the fastest
In your life of aspiration,Then every day you must remember
That doubt is a clever,Life-deceiving stranger.
```If you can become
Your heart’s confidence-room,Then nobody will be able to compel you
To live insideYour mind’s frustration-palace.
```You are not your mind’s
Desire-jungle.You are not your vital’s
Destruction-beast.You are your heart’s
Aspiration-lamp. ```Surrender to God’s Will
And become an unconditionalGod-lover.
Do it!You can!
Lo, you have already done it. ```Do you know that every day
God invites us to participateIn His Heart’s Satisfaction-Contest?
But where are you?Why are you never available?
```God definitely puts pressure
On your life.Do you know when?
He puts pressure on your lifeWhen you deliberately enjoy playing
With destructive ignorance-night. ```If you do not have the courage
To conquer your lower self,How can you see
The Master-Architect, God,And His creation-design?
```Put your heart-life-feelings
In God’s Blessing-Hands.Your soul’s satisfaction-sun
Will soon come to the fore. ```Follow, follow every day
The promptingsOf God’s Compassion-Eye
And His Forgiveness-Feet. ```From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 101, Agni Press, 1985
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