Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 122

12101

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My Lord Supreme,

May my life,

Even in its unconscious moments,

Not repeat

Its past imperfection-performances.

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12102

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Because you will remain faithful

To your final breath,

You are not going to miss

Either the Golden Boat

Or the Golden Shore

Of your Inner Pilot. ```

12103

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Yesterday my life was

The full growth of supreme greatness.

Alas, today I have become

Unforeseen frustration-night

And the hurtful sighs

Of ceaseless sorrows. ```

12104

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What is my inner silence doing?

It is searching for my outer life’s

Cheerful acceptance.

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12105

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How can you ever succeed

If yours is a poorly lit

Mind-street of self-confidence?

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12106

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What I give God

Is a tiny drop

Of my mind’s humility.

God in return gives me

His Heart’s Infinity-stretching

Appreciation. ```

12107

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Why do you allow your heart’s faith

To be blown away

By your mind’s unhealthy, uncomely

And conflicting ideas?

Why?

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12108

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If I can soulfully and unconditionally

Wait for my Lord’s choice God-Hour,

Then I have nothing to lose —

Only everything to gain. ```

12109

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Anger, O anger-beast,

You are, indeed, the greatest,

Quickest and surest waste

Of man’s life-energy. ```

12110

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Alas, I do not know

How long I shall remain

With my failure-fed fate.

Alas, I do not know

When I shall be illumined

By my problem-solving

Compassion-soul.

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12111

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His life is in between

His mind’s amazon ambition

And his doubt’s

Indiscriminate destruction. ```

12112

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A doubting mind

Is nothing short of

A fruitless reality

Rising from ashes of uselessness. ```

12113

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God demands your heart’s

Time-tested faith

Before He grants your life

Liberation-perfection. ```

12114

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Be a surrender-superstar.

Your life will be

Your victory’s delight

In profuse measure. ```

12115

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If you are not aspiring soulfully,

Then each new moment

Is found to be

A regular dose of disappointment. ```

12116

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The fleeting victory

Of a doubting mind

Is too inconsequential

To mention. ```

12117

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The final expectation-breath

Of my heart

Brought me a sea of peace.

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12118

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God-chosen seeker-souls

Only know how to walk

On the one-way truth-road.

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12119

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To give humanity’s heart

Ceaseless nectar-delight,

God always keeps open

His Heart’s Oneness-Store. ```

12120

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Fast, very fast

You will be able to run

If you see everything devotedly

From the angle of self-awareness. ```

12121

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Although my mind

Is full of problems,

It does not accept

My heart’s God-solutions. ```

12122

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O torture of uncertainty,

O torture of uselessness,

When will you accept

My rejection-resolution? ```

12123

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If you bid adieu

To your aspiration-heart,

How can you expect

A perfection-flooded

Satisfaction?

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12124

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Depend not too much

On chance-breath,

Or you will be standing

In a long line of failure. ```

12125

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God once

Unmistakably felt,

God forever

Tangibly and permanently found. ```

12126

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The human mind

Means doubt in the background.

The human heart

Means fear in the foreground. ```

12127

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God has blessed my heart

Unconditionally

With a faith-calendar

That has no doubt-days. ```

12128

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When it comes to God’s

God-Activities,

Most of us really know nothing.

We are just useless talkers. ```

12129

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I wanted to fly

On aspiration-plane.

Alas, I am now found

On ambition-flight

Bound for destruction-land.

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12130

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As one can drink water easily,

Even so, the human mind

Can twist truth easily

And mercilessly. ```

12131

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Try harder, infinitely harder!

Your heart’s aspiration-cry

Will last longer.

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12132

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No matter how softly and secretly

Doubt walks,

Its footsteps are unmistakably heard.

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12133

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Allow not your heart’s

God-manifestation-soldiers

To be plagued by bold “perhaps”-troops.

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12134

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Every day I pray to God

To keep me surrounded

By my heart’s God-surrender-will.

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12135

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You are bound to succeed

Since you have

An inexhaustible supply

Of hope-flowers. ```

12136

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He is flooded with happiness

Because he was able to eavesdrop

On the golden future.

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12137

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Lethargy,

Do not dare come near

My body-temple!

I do not want you

To clip the wings

Of my soulful willingness-bird. ```

12138

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With your ebbing faith-stamina,

How can you please God

The way you did once upon a time?

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12139

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I know not how or why

Suddenly a life of success

And a life of progress

Are beckoning me. ```

12140

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To my extreme sorrow,

You have buried yourself

In a tomb of self-pity.

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12141

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Every morning I tell my heart

What to save,

And promptly teach it

How to save. ```

12142

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Every evening I tell my mind

What to throw away,

And compassionately teach it

How to throw away. ```

12143

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To conquer your mind’s

Daily frustration-fatigue

With your heart’s

Cheerfulness-light

Is always worth a try.

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12144

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A long-lasting

Gratitude-heart-tree

Is, alas,

Beyond man’s grasp. ```

12145

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My Lord, do help me eat

Sweetness-gratitude-heart-fruits

Every day, without fail.

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12146

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O my aspiration-heart,

Do not go visit my mind

In its swelling

Selfishness-compartment! ```

12147

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O my mind,

You are the reigning monarch

Of self-doubt.

How can you ever please me? ```

12148

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Surrender, cheerfully surrender

To God’s Will.

You will not be buffeted

By the strong winds of worry. ```

12149

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I am simply shocked

To see the constant escalation

Of your mind’s blind suspicion.

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12150

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His final descent into his mind’s

Confusion-doubt-dungeon

Is utterly deplorable,

If not despicable. ```

12151

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May my love of God

Remain for me

Something indefinable

So that I will remain

Eternally joyful.

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12152

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Nobody is an exception —

At least, not I.

We all live in the fruitless

Frustration-world of desire. ```

12153

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What a fool I am!

I made my desires out of nothing,

And now I am allowing them

To be my everything. ```

12154

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God, You are my heart-accepted

Reality’s Divinity.

God, You are my mind-rejected

Stupidity’s futility. ```

12155

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When I close my eyes,

I become the dreamer

Of golden dreams.

When I open my eyes,

I live in the purgatory

Of eyeless fears. ```

12156

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Do not embark

On self-indulgence-journey.

You are bound to arrive

At self-destruction-destination. ```

12157

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I am sure there is a way

To escape from the grinding jaws

Of ignorance-tyrant.

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12158

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O quicksand-doubt,

I do not want you any more;

I do not need you any more.

You are totally forgotten

Folly of yore.

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12159

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Your head is full

Of profit-measurement,

But your heart is full

Of love-enlightenment. ```

12160

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O my mind,

I vehemently detest your scoffing

At my heart’s stupendous

God-manifestation-success. ```

12161

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The human mind is quite peculiar.

Secretly it enjoys living

In a thicket of obstacles.

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12162

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O my heart,

Every morning I want you to sing

My Lord’s Heart-Sky-Manifestation-Song

Before you do anything else. ```

12163

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I am not going to spend

The rest of my life

With my mind-made unworthiness.

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12164

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I am my heart’s flower-smile

Because I know that

I am in the everywhere-care

Of my Lord Supreme. ```

12165

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Now that wisdom-light

Has entered into my entire being,

I shall not drown

In the sorrowful seas

Of my expectation-tears.

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12166

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Because of my Lord’s

Unconditional Compassion-Light,

At long last my hesitation-minus-life

Has turned into

My willingness-plus-life.

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12167

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Who can destroy

Your selflessness-heart?

Nobody!

Who can take away from you

The seeker of the year award?

Nobody! ```

12168

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How can you love God

If you cherish the bitterness

Of your mind?

How can you love God

If you treasure the resentment

Of your vital? ```

12169

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Because you are a giver,

I see you as the morning sun.

Because you are a taker,

I see you as the evening moon. ```

12170

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Slowly, steadily and unerringly

He climbed up his life’s

Transformation-stairs.

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12171

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God blessingfully appreciates

Your life’s dedicated

Service-smiles.

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12172

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The moment I relinquished

My ego-trophy,

God gave me the most fruitful

Surprise-visit. ```

12173

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Momentous and prosperous

Are purity’s possessions.

Dangerous and imperious

Are impurity’s claims. ```

12174

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My Lord Supreme has told me

That no self-giving act

Can ever be trivial.

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12175

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O jealousy-dwarf,

You do not belong to me.

O oneness-giant,

I am of you

And I am all for you.

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12176

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O my heart’s aspiration,

Do you not think

That you are oversleeping?

Do you not think

That it is high time

For you to wake up? ```

12177

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Who or what can help you conquer

Your insecurity-addiction

If not your own

Mightier than the mightiest

Willingness?

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12178

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O happiness-rainbow,

My heart’s sky is sleeplessly

Crying for you.

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12179

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Live a humility-oneness-existence

If you want to swim in the Sea

Of God’s Fulness-Delight.

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12180

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An unwillingness-life

Was born to be frustrated

And is destined to continually fail.

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12181

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Say farewell to frustration-mind

If you want to be

A permanent member

Of your heart’s aspiration-group. ```

12182

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Even your midget-sized willingness

God can utilise,

And grant you satisfaction-delight

Far beyond your imagination. ```

12183

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If you want to qualify

For a spot on God’s Team,

Then make your heart

An aspiration-flame

And make your life

A dedication-plant. ```

12184

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Man’s favourite refrain:

“God, give me!”

God’s favourite refrain:

“Man, take Me!” ```

12185

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Envy based on stupidity

Is the real destruction

Of a true happiness-life.

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12186

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When I fail

To aspire regularly,

My life becomes wilted petals

Of expectation-flowers. ```

12187

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Every day, every hour, every minute

The human mind-night

Has to be brightened

By the divine heart’s

Delight-stars.

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12188

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There are many dark spots

In your life’s dedication-smiles.

Therefore,

You are not able to please

Either man’s eyes or God’s Heart.

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12189

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O my poor vital-fool,

I simply do not know

Who will ever be able to end

Your deathless aggression-sufferings. ```

12190

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What is insecurity?

It is indeed a limitless negative force

That destroys the beauty and purity

Of human life. ```

12191

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Easy to predict

The compassionate God’s next move,

But not man’s whimsical moves.

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12192

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I love the company of hope.

I shall not allow

My garden of hope

To be uprooted by doubt. ```

12193

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Wish-power tells me

That one day, someday,

I shall definitely be able

To realise God.

But will-power infallibly tells me

That I am another God. ```

12194

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Surrender now,

And you will see

Satisfaction will soon follow.

Aspire always,

And remain

An eternal gratitude-student. ```

12195

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To feed the hungry fear

With ceaseless failure

Is a common experience.

Each seeker, no matter how great he is,

Will agree.

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12196

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My mind’s confusion-flag

Is cut to pieces

By my heart’s

Illumination-sword. ```

12197

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I have decided to utilise

Both desire and need.

Desire, you I shall keep

Beneath my thunder-feet.

Need, you I shall keep

At my Lord’s Lotus-Feet. ```

12198

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The human mind stumbles

Through a suspicion-wilderness

Before it reaches

The heart’s oneness-garden. ```

12199

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To achieve unconditional surrender

To God’s Will

Is undoubtedly man’s hardest struggle.

But the struggle is finally embraced

By the Light Supreme.

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12200

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I was born to be perfect.

I was born to be a choice

Instrument of God.

I was born to fulfil God

In His own Way

In every way. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 122, Agni Press, 1989
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