Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 141

14001

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At the end of my morning meditation

I see the unparalleled sweetness

Of my heart’s dawning sun.

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14002

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I am simply astonished

To see that my tiny mind

Has imprisoned my vast heart.

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14003

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Early in the morning

I think of my own needs first

And not of God’s Needs.

This is how I create

My first disaster of the day.

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14004

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Unparalleled good news:

Today God has given my aspiration-heart

The capacity to be the bondage-breaker

Of my old way of life. ```

14005

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God is happy with me,

God is proud of me

Only when I cheerfully sail

My aspiration-boat. ```

14006

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Can you not see

That your machine gun-mind

Has completely destroyed your heart’s

Celestial rainbow-dream-palace? ```

14007

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In our human life

There can be nothing more beautiful

And more fruitful

Than a sleepless God-obedience-hunger. ```

14008

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My heart’s gratitude-cry

Is the last and only hope

Of my Lord Beloved Supreme.

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14009

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If you cannot believe

That God unconditionally loves you,

Then try at least to believe

That God is compassionately waiting

For you.

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14010

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Give up everything

If you have to.

But never give up

Your heart-beauty’s

God-manifestation-dream

On earth. ```

14011

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You have become a trusted friend

Of God.

Do you know why?

Because you are disgusted with

Your very old friend:

Self-indulgence. ```

14012

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Just a moment, only a moment

Of my unconditional surrender

To God’s Will

Makes me a perfection-superstar. ```

14013

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I have seen my mind

Time and again

In a dark depression-cave.

Alas, how can I help my mind

Reach reality’s satisfaction-palace?

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14014

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Today

My soul, my heart and I

Are celebrating the grand defeat

Of our division-mind. ```

14015

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If you want your life’s

Radical transformation,

Then your heart’s love of God

Must climb up

The highest meditation-mountain

Of your soul. ```

14016

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My mind’s ignorance-ocean-roar

Can no longer reach

My heart’s God-invitation-door.

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14017

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If you allow your mind-doubt-dog

To bite you at every step,

How can your heart develop

Its deer-fast speed

To reach its faith-flooded destination?

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14018

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God definitely gave me

A flawless mind.

But by constantly misusing it,

I have made it reckless and useless. ```

14019

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Can you not see

That God is shedding bitter tears

While counting the fragments

Of your heart’s shattered faith? ```

14020

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When my mind is on the brink

Of temptation-cliff,

My poor aspiration-heart cries

Like an orphan. ```

14021

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My prayer is breathlessly crying

For God’s higher Power.

My meditation is unconditionally waiting

For God’s choice Hour. ```

14022

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I am absolutely certain

That I was not born

With my mind’s unwillingness-wall

But with my heart’s willingness-fountain. ```

14023

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My heart wants me to have God

As my world-host,

To be fed by Him.

My mind wants me to have God

As my world-guest,

To feed Him. ```

14024

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The Buddha’s message:

Life-liberation.

My message:

Heart-expansion. ```

14025

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Today I want to bind God.

This is one of the countless things

I have decided to do.

Today God wants to liberate me.

This is the only thing

God has decided to do. ```

14026

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God wants me to tell Him

What destination I am walking

Towards.

God does not want me

To tell Him

With whom I am walking. ```

14027

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God does not mind

That I am imperfect.

But He does mind

That I am disobedient. ```

14028

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God comes to me every day

Not because I am pleasing Him,

But because He just loves to sing

His Heart’s unconditional Songs

To me.

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14029

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My mind prays to God

To enlarge its newly-found oneness.

My heart meditates on God

To enlarge its newly-discovered fulness. ```

14030

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Alas, I know that my Lord

Will never be satisfied

With my part-time aspiration, dedication

And surrender-service. ```

14031

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For centuries I depended on my mind.

Therefore, I have never seen

And perhaps will never see

The luminous gateway to God. ```

14032

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My Lord, You tell me

That my pain is Your pain.

Then what makes me stay away

From Your Compassion-flooded Heart? ```

14033

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O insincere soldier of spirituality,

It is you who will eventually

Be forced to see

The collapse of your mind’s ego-building. ```

14034

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My Lord,

I do not want to express my freedom

Either to You or to humanity.

I need only the capacity

To express my heart’s

Oneness-peace-beauty. ```

14035

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Alas, alas, my impurity-mind

Is deliberately eclipsing

My God-promise-manifestation-sun.

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14036

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Alas, alas,

I see my life doing nothing else

Except running in desire-circles.

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14037

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Inside our little hearts

We can feel the Presence of God.

But alas, our big ears do not care

For God’s Nectar-Message-Delight. ```

14038

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God’s supreme Pride abides

Only in those self-giving seekers

Who cheerfully dare to wait

For God’s Hour. ```

14039

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Today my Lord Supreme

Has commanded

My Infinity’s silence-soul

To devour my volcano-mind. ```

14040

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The human mind

And the divine Silence

Never think of establishing

A oneness-friendship. ```

14041

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Silence is always full.

Therefore, it likes to feed

Lovingly and compassionately

The starving sound. ```

14042

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Silence awakens the human in us,

Gladdens the divine in us

And fulfils the Supreme in us.

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14043

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My soul-bird loves to live

Only inside my heart’s

Tiny silence-nest.

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14044

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God’s Compassion-Eye

Enjoys satisfaction

Only after it has saved me

From my own stupidity-creation:

Insecurity-wildfire.

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14045

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Each soul is a God-representative

Flooded with a new

God-Heart-Fragrance.

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14046

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It is true

That we cannot make

Unconditional surrender to God.

It is equally true

That God cannot separate Himself

From His unconditional Compassion. ```

14047

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With your aspiration-heart,

Dive into the silence-sea

If you want to enjoy

The beauty of oneness

And the divinity of fulness.

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14048

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No matter how small and weak

My gratitude-flame is,

God treasures it

Not only lovingly,

But also proudly.

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14049

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If you do not hanker after

Your success-march,

Then God will bless you with

Your fastest progress-flight. ```

14050

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No genuine aspiration-cry

Will ever miss the stupendous power

Of the opportunity-moment.

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14051

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Like God,

You also must not worry

About your imperfection-possession-life.

Your surrender-heart to God’s Will

Can and will liberate you

From all bondage-fetters. ```

14052

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I have so many things to tell God,

But when He comes to me,

I tell Him only one thing:

“My Lord Beloved Supreme,

When will I be able

To come and see You?” ```

14053

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Are you a God-lover?

Are you a God-server?

If so, then you have already started

Awakening earth’s human mind

And satisfying Heaven’s

Divine heart. ```

14054

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The fragrance of my aspiration-life

Earth may not appreciate,

But Heaven incessantly breathes.

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14055

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God came to see you,

But when He saw that

You were competing with the world

And not completing His Vision-Game,

He went away.

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14056

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Every day

God is an unparalleled Dreamer —

Dreaming of your perfect self-offering life.

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14057

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It is your division-mind

That suffers from power-struggles

And never your oneness-loving heart.

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14058

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God-hunger is the only hunger

That does not ruthlessly

Torment the seeker.

It only enlightens, feeds

And fulfils the seeker.

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14059

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God’s Compassion-Satisfaction

In infinite measure

Can descend upon you

Only after you have separated yourself

From your mind’s teeming ambition-worries.

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14060

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Enthusiasm-fountain

Is nothing other than

A God-seeker’s ignorance-daring

And ignorance-conquering youth-fire. ```

14061

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Lovingly and devotedly

My heart’s purity-flames

Accompanied me

The day I entered into the earth-arena. ```

14062

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That each moment of glory

Is short-lived

Is something extremely difficult

For my unlit confusion-mind

To accept.

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14063

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The moment we enter

Into the spiritual life,

God blesses us

Not only with conscious possibilities,

But also with

Perfection-fulfilment-inevitabilities. ```

14064

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Where does my clever mind hide?

It hides inside my heart

After silencing

The supremely significant messages

Of my soul.

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14065

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Because I loved

Yesterday’s silver hope-dreams,

God has granted me

Today’s golden promise-realities. ```

14066

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Be careful when you invoke

God the Transcendental Power.

But you never have to be careful

When you invoke

God the Universal Love.

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14067

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It is not the inner school

That does not want to teach my mind.

It is my mind

That is reluctant to learn anything

From the inner school.

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14068

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My mind’s inspiration-seeds

And my heart’s aspiration-flames

Are telling me only one thing:

God the Giver and God the Receiver

Can never brook separation,

Even for a fleeting second. ```

14069

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At last my life-boat

Has arrived at Eternity’s shore:

God’s Satisfaction-Heart.

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14070

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Do not believe your mind

When it tells you

That you are extremely good.

Do not believe your mind

When it tells you

That you are unthinkably bad.

But believe your mind

When it tells you

That God loves your heart

And needs your life. ```

14071

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Every day increase the beauty

Of your heart’s purity-cries for God

So that He can claim you

Confidently and proudly. ```

14072

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Today God will not mind

Reading your long desire-list.

But tomorrow He will definitely mind

If you do not make it shorter. ```

14073

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You do not trust God,

But you want God to trust you.

Poor God does not mind trusting you —

In fact, He does trust you.

But rest assured,

Remorse-train is fast approaching you. ```

14074

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Yesterday you gave God

Your mind’s insincerity-sprout.

Therefore, God cried.

Today can you not give God

Your heart’s sincerity-blossoms

To feed His Compassion-Eye? ```

14075

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My Lord,

When You think of my mind,

What do You feel?

“My child,

I feel that I have to go

A very long way

To derive satisfaction

From My creation.” ```

14076

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My Lord,

What will You do

With my gratitude-heart

And my surrender-life?

“My child,

With your gratitude-heart

I shall build a bridge

Between earth and Heaven.

With your surrender-life

I shall immeasurably increase

My earth-Heaven-shuttle-speed.”

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14077

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When God saw you preoccupied

With yourself,

He did not care to leave

His Compassion-Eye and Satisfaction-Heart

With you.

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14078

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Every morning

My Lord’s Compassion-Eye tells me

That there is a world

Inundated with peace,

Far beyond my proud victory

And my sad defeat. ```

14079

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I am beautiful

Only when I love God the Creator.

I am meaningful

Only when I serve God the creation.

I am perfect

Only when I offer my surrender

To God the Creator

And God the creation. ```

14080

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I am blessed

With life’s revealing moments

Only when

I keep my mind-door closed

And my heart-door open.

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14081

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My purity-heart soulfully moves

Towards oneness.

My dedication-life cheerfully moves

Towards perfection. ```

14082

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If you have nothing else to do,

Then at least resist

The tide of insecurity.

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14083

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Alas, alas, alas,

I have long ago lost

My heart’s satisfaction-friend:

Gratitude. ```

14084

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My Lord,

Do liberate me from my mind’s

Anger-hunger-fire!

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14085

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What else can silence

Your inner voice

As easily as your animal pride?

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14086

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The surrender of a genuine seeker

Is always guided

By the benevolent Will of God.

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14087

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I must dare!

I must challenge the victory

Of ignorance-night!

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14088

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When my insecurity-cry

Ends,

My Lord’s Satisfaction-Smile

Begins. ```

14089

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O seeker,

Remember one thing:

Your cherished God-Satisfaction

Will never betray you. ```

14090

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May I every day grow into

My enthusiasm-blossom-smiles

In everything that I say and do.

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14091

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My heart is anchored

To the Infinite unknown

And my life to the Absolute Supreme

Unknowable. ```

14092

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Temptation-dance

Is something that one can perform

Without learning.

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14093

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A God-dreamer’s dream

Is a giant step

Towards the perfection of humanity.

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14094

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You fool,

Do not argue with your heart!

God will always take your heart’s side.

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14095

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Show me the man

Who has never been

A God-exploitation-fool.

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14096

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Never overestimate

Your mind’s sincerity-power.

Never underestimate

Your heart’s purity-power. ```

14097

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My Lord tells me

That I have infinitely more important

Things to do

Than enjoy world-criticism. ```

14098

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My heart,

Your aspiration-ebb

Is torturing me ruthlessly

And sleeplessly. ```

14099

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My Lord,

When I leave You,

Where shall I go?

“My child,

Why do you want to give Me

A new problem altogether?” ```

14100

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God, why do You need me

Every morning?

“My child,

I need you every morning

To cry with My Compassion-Heart.”

God, why do You need me

Every evening?

“My child,

I need you every evening

To dine with My Satisfaction-Heart.” ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 141, Agni Press, 1991
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