Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 17

1601

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My Lord Supreme,

What will happen

If I obey You unconditionally?

“My child

Your entire life will be flooded

With My Heart’s sweetest Intimacy.” ```

1602

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With my praying hands

I go to see God.

With my meditating heart

I invoke God to come and see me. ```

1603

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You want to know

Where I live in the inner world.

In the inner world I live

Between my Lord’s powerful

Smile-Ocean

And my heart’s soulful

Tear-river.

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1604

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You are telling me

That you have nothing to do

And therefore

You are not doing anything.

But I am clearly seeing

That you are doing something:

You are starving poor God to death.

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1605

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Now that you have put your desire-life

On a perfect diet,

God is definitely going to invite you

To His Nectar-Silence-Feast. ```

1606

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You tell me

That you are very brave.

Then show me your bravery

By fighting against your lower self

Constantly

And by loving your higher self

Unreservedly.

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1607

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You are telling me

That you do not have any friend.

Nobody thinks of you,

Nobody likes you,

Nobody loves you,

Nobody treasures you.

Well, I clearly see that you have

An excellent friend.

Your ignorance-friend does think of you,

Does like you,

Does love you,

Does treasure you at every moment. ```

1608

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What else can you expect

Your confusion-mind-boat to do

But to carry you

To an alien destruction-shore? ```

1609

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The dawn of a permanent purity-day

Has made its permanent abode

Inside his heart.

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1610

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God the Lover created this world,

And not man the doubter.

Since God the Lover

Created the world,

How can you trust or even ask

Man the doubter to take care of it? ```

1611

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The life that does not believe

In hope-power

Is nothing but a nightmare

To itself. ```

1612

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God does not think

That you are unworthy

Of realising Him.

But He knows

That you are unwilling

To realise Him. ```

1613

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You want to show the world

The smiling sweetness-moon

Of your eyes

Without having a oneness-life.

You simply cannot do that!

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1614

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When are you going to come out of

Your self-pity-sea

And jump into

God’s Satisfaction-Ocean?

When?

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1615

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Alas, it was too late

For him to save himself,

For a false saviour

Had totally destroyed

His aspiration-heart.

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1616

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I have two teachers:

God and ignorance.

I have so many questions.

God the Teacher

Does not answer my questions.

Ignorance the teacher

Is unable to answer my questions.

Alas, what am I going to do now?

I am totally lost.

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1617

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It creates a tremendous

Encouraging excitement

In his vital and body

When his mind’s doubt-thunder roars.

But his soul and heart

Laugh and laugh

At his mind’s shameless stupidity.

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1618

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You have been accepting

Temptation’s invitation

For such a long time

And not accepting

God’s Invitation.

Do you not think

That it would be nice of you

To accept God’s Invitation

At least once?

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1619

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My Lord,

Open my heart’s new eye

So that I can prayerfully watch You

While You are flying towards me. ```

1620

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God asked me to sing one song:

The song of aspiration.

I sang that song for Him.

He liked my song so much

That He asked me to sing

A few more songs.

I was so delighted and excited

That I sang two more songs

One after another:

My life’s surrender-song

And my heart’s gratitude-song.

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1621

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You are begging God

For a gift.

Has He not already given you

His best and highest Gift:

Compassion?

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1622

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The roots of his happiness-life-tree

Are so strong

That the wild winds of despair

Will never be able to frighten him. ```

1623

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God’s Life has already touched

My compassion-heart.

But alas, when shall my life touch

God’s Compassion-Feet? ```

1624

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You call it

A dying temptation,

But I call it

A vanishing destruction. ```

1625

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A new aspiration-hope is rising

For him to reach

The highest height

Of his soul’s promise-land. ```

1626

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Tell me, my friend,

Is it your dream

Or is it your mental hallucination?

Tell me, my friend,

Is it your vision

Or is it your perfection?

I do not see the difference

Between your dream and your hallucination.

Again, I do not see the difference

Between your vision and your perfection. ```

1627

```

There was a time

When I used to live

On frustration-flames.

But now that I have a new life

Of aspiration-cry,

I am living inside the heart

Of the illumination-sun.

```

1628

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God was his Teacher.

The Teacher and His student

Were unable to please each other.

The student left the Teacher

And found a new teacher:

Ignorance.

God the Teacher is not sure

Whether it is worthwhile for Him

To look for a new student.

```

1629

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Before you

Is a powerful silence-sea.

Behind you

Is a powerful doubt-storm.

Do not delay, make the right choice!

Let the world be inspired

By your right choice.

Then it will also make the right choice

When the time comes

For it to make a choice. ```

1630

```

If you do not want to forget

Your desire-language completely,

No harm,

But you must not use it.

God-Language is so soulful and powerful

And now that you have learnt it

Most satisfactorily,

Why do you have to use

Your vulgar desire-language?

Anyway,

In the new world that you are living in,

Nobody will understand

Your old desire-language.

```

1631

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This morning

My Lord Supreme said to me

That if I can show Him

That I have the capacity

To speak less,

Then He will give me the capacity

Not only to hear Him more

But also to fulfil myself

Infinitely more.

```

1632

```

My Lord Supreme

Do tell me one thing:

Determination —

Is it something

That I do not have at all

Or is it something

That will remain indefinitely dormant

Inside my heart? ```

1633

```

Do not pay any attention

To your unaspiring mind.

Just feed your hunger-heart

Even more than you have been feeding it

And let your unaspiring mind

Starve and die. ```

1634

```

God is always ready

To grant me His two giant Wings

To lift me from my heavy despair.

But alas,

I have no confidence

In God’s two Wings. ```

1635

```

Unless you are ready to enjoy

The immediate collapse

Of your earth-bound mind,

How will you be able to enjoy

The infinite beauty and expansion

Of your heart’s Heaven-free bridge? ```

1636

```

In the outer world

When I run, I use new shoes

Once in a blue moon.

In the inner world,

God gives me a new pair of shoes

Every day.

He tells me

That a new pair of shoes every day

Will give me

A new inspiration, a new aspiration

And a new destination.

```

1637

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When I cry,

I cry only to see God’s Face.

When I smile,

I smile only to feel God’s Heart. ```

1638

```

To see God’s Face

You do not have to face

The mounting wave of doom.

To see God’s Face

You have to love more and more

Your own mounting wave

Of inner bloom.

```

1639

```

You are your life’s

Selfish pleasure.

Yet you want God

To treasure you!

What can be more absurd?

```

1640

```

You do one thing every day:

You admire your mind-elephant

To your satisfaction.

God also does one thing every day:

He loves your heart-deer

To His Satisfaction. ```

1641

```

You are such a fool

That you cannot appreciate

The beauty and divinity of truth.

Yet you want

A monopoly on truth!

```

1642

```

God’s Illumination-Building

Does not believe

In having a conference room.

```

1643

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Do not go anywhere alone —

There is no safe place on earth.

You must always carry with you

Your soul’s silence-smile. ```

1644

```

His vital-bull and his mind-panther

Have at last decided

To sign a peace treaty.

Therefore

God in Heaven has invited

His heart and soul

To enjoy a supreme feast.

```

1645

```

There is every possibility

That an unemployed God-lover

May eventually become

A true God-hater. ```

1646

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O my mind,

You are asking me why

I do not want to utilise you

The way I utilise my heart.

Every day my heart,

On its own,

Goes to the soul-laundry

To be laundered,

But you do not want to do that.

How do you then expect me

To use you every day

When you do not at all

Keep yourself clean?

```

1647

```

You are telling me

That you do not know

What stupidity is.

I am telling you,

Stupidity is the thing

That tortures and ruins

Your God-given flower-heart.

```

1648

```

O insecurity-weakness,

I never thought

That you could be

So unimaginably powerful! ```

1649

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When one soldier is out of step,

An army loses its strength.

Similarly, when one good thought

Either disappears from the mind

Or is out of employment,

It creates a serious problem

In one’s inner life.

```

1650

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Your eyes are telling me

That you want to destroy

My teeming weaknesses.

Your heart is telling me

That you want me to transform

My weaknesses into strengths,

My imperfections into perfections

And my suffering into delight. ```

1651

```

Now that your life

Is completely saturated

With surrender-nectar,

Your God-realisation-hour

Cannot remain a far cry.

```

1652

```

You can borrow

Your heart’s illumination-saw

To cut into pieces

Your confusion-treasuring mind. ```

1653

```

In the morning

My Beloved Supreme

Keeps my soul filled

With promise-perfection,

And during the entire day

He keeps my heart filled

With hope-aspiration.

```

1654

```

Do you want to know

What you can do

With your naughty mind?

You ask your mind

To look for and live for

The compassionate Heart of God. ```

1655

```

Unless you deliberately set fire

To your mind’s rubbish-store,

Your mind’s fire-pure transformation

Will not take place. ```

1656

```

O seeker,

Always be on the alert.

Your heart’s blossoming faith

Can be devoured

By your mind’s brooding doubts.

```

1657

```

With your deception-life-boat

How can you ever reach

Perfection-shore

To see God’s Satisfaction-Dance? ```

1658

```

If you want to escape

From desire-fire,

Then ask your soul

To grant you every day

A new aspiration-flame.

```

1659

```

God does not want to revise

Your mind-book,

For there is nothing to revise.

It is all meaningless and useless.

God will be pleased to revise

Your heart-book,

For it embodies profound wisdom-light.

There are a few minor mistakes

In the book,

But God will be more than pleased

To correct them

And make your heart-book

Absolutely perfect,

Illumining and fulfilling. ```

1660

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Your eyes want to tell me

That you have realised God.

Your heart tells me

That your God-realisation

Is still a far cry.

I am sorry,

I have to trust your heart

And not your eyes. ```

1661

```

God expects

Each and every human being

To play at least one melody

Correctly and soulfully

Before his life-lease expires

On earth. ```

1662

```

He always does unthinkable things.

We are dying to escape

From darkness to light.

And what has he done?

He has escaped from light

To ignorance

Consciously and deliberately.

```

1663

```

Your soul kept its promise.

It did listen to God every day

And please God every day

In every way.

But your blind body, blind vital

And blind mind could not see it. ```

1664

```

He is giving you

His affection-rainbow.

But if you do not value

His affection,

Do you think he will ever

Care to give you

His illumination-sun?

```

1665

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While he was sailing,

Both the illumination-shore

And the temptation-shore

Wanted him.

He did not want to satisfy

Only one of his hosts.

Therefore he offered

His mind to temptation

And his heart to illumination.

```

1666

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Not only on earth

But also in Heaven

There is a book that can never be

A best-seller.

Do you know what book this is?

God’s Justice-Book. ```

1667

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O my doubtful mind,

Your life is ridiculous.

O my fearful heart,

Your life is ridiculous.

O my uncertain soul,

Your life is ridiculous.

O my sleeping body,

Your life is ridiculous.

O my strangling vital,

Your life is ridiculous. ```

1668

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Hammering and hammering

At your ignorance-rock,

Poor God has become extremely tired.

Do you not think

That it is high time for you

To start hammering

At your ignorance-rock

And give poor God a little rest,

Which He so rightly deserves?

```

1669

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Not only the doubt-tumour

In his heart

But also the heart itself

Has been surgically removed.

And now God the Compassion-Doctor

Has transplanted into him

A new heart of perfection-faith.

```

1670

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He has very strange theories about God.

He thinks that he can live

Without thinking about God,

Whereas God cannot live

Without thinking about him.

He also thinks that there are two Gods.

One God is a strict disciplinarian.

This disciplinarian God wants nothing

But perfection from the world.

The other God is God Himself

Who always remains Self-enamoured

And Self-satisfied. ```

1671

```

God wanted me to show Him

My heart-garden.

Alas, I am able to show Him

Only my impurity-futility-weeds. ```

1672

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God wants you to be

His perfection-partner.

Instead of listening to Him,

You have become a partner

Of the temptation-world.

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1673

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If you love the touch of the world

More than the Touch of God,

How can you expect

Eternity and Infinity

To claim you as their own?

```

1674

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His heart’s life-boat has capsized

Because he did not care

To see the bloom

Of the aspiring consciousness-bud. ```

1675

```

Your life will never be

A fallen leaf

If you every day worship

The Vision-Eye of God’s Life-Tree. ```

1676

```

When the hour strikes,

Every athlete-seeker

Will win his God-realisation-medal

In the heart-Olympics. ```

1677

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Consciously if you do not deepen

Your heart’s love for God,

Unconsciously you will cheapen

Your life in God’s world. ```

1678

```

God will not let anyone else

Write your perfection-biography.

He has decided

To do it Himself. ```

1679

```

You are your self-offering race,

God is His Self-Transcendence-Eye,

And I am my life-satisfaction-smile.

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1680

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At last you have made God happy

By becoming

Your heart’s rising aspiration-star.

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1681

```

Increase your aspiration-appetite

Every day.

You will not be daunted and haunted

By disappointment-dart. ```

1682

```

The desire-storm of your vital

Has totally destroyed

Your heart’s faith-flames

And even your life’s aspiration-sun. ```

1683

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Who says that God does not need

Any favour from you?

He does need one favour:

Your heart’s unconditional

Aspiration-cry.

```

1684

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If your heart is a faltering

Faith-flame,

How can you ever dance

Perfection-dance

In God’s Immortality-Hall?

```

1685

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You do not have to offer

A gratitude-sea to God.

Even a dribble from your heart’s

Gratitude-well

Can and will satisfy God.

```

1686

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O my mind,

You have overfed my ego,

And now what is happening?

You are suffering pangs

That are unimaginably excruciating.

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1687

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Try to remain

On your life’s dedication-diet.

You will soon be able to celebrate

The death of your desire-life. ```

1688

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You have asked your mind

To drive your life-car.

Quite often the car

Is out of control.

Why do you have to blame

God the Driver,

Whom you have not invited

To drive your life-car? ```

1689

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Luminosity is looming large

In your life

Because you have successfully

Commanded your mind

To be constantly in touch

With your soul. ```

1690

```

Tranquillity comes from

The heart’s diving.

Tranquillity comes from

The life’s surrendering. ```

1691

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What does he do regularly?

He regularly dethrones his doubting mind

Early in the morning,

And then he enthrones his aspiration-heart

And keeps it

Inside his beautiful soul-room

For the entire day.

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1692

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Alas, my heart’s gratitude-drop

Is so fearful

That instead of entering into the sea

Of light and delight,

It is ready to be tortured constantly

By limitation, division and frustration. ```

1693

```

Only your heart’s

Detachment-injection

Can cure you of your life’s

Attachment-failure-infection. ```

1694

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God has given His Realisation-Life

A specific job.

Every day

It goes out to install

Sweet oneness-will

Inside all human hearts. ```

1695

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Aspire to win

Your oneness-belt

In God’s cosmic Fulness-Game.

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1696

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Do you know

How God has become

The Possessor of infinite Wealth?

God has become

The Possessor of infinite Wealth

By investing countless Smiles

In His cosmic Vision-Stock.

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1697

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Every day

You are mercilessly persecuted

By temptation dreams,

Yet you are not longing for

A perfection-reality-life.

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1698

```

Your deviation from oneness-goal

Has turned your entire life

Into meaningless and useless coal.

```

1699

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My Lord Supreme,

Do tell me if there is a way

To cure man of his chronic invention

Of destruction-weapons. ```

1700

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If you want to achieve

Perfection and satisfaction

Within and without,

Then enthrall your world

With nectar-spreading enthusiasm

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From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 17, Agni Press, 1983
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