I am begging God to give me
His Satisfaction-Smile.God is begging me to give Him
My aspiration-cry. ```Alas, why do I fail God
When He expects great thingsFrom my life
And good thingsFrom my heart?
```Your spiritual health
Will decline very abruptlyIf you do not pay attention
To your heart’s aspiration-disciplineAnd your life’s dedication-discipline.
```First your heart has to become
A God-listener,And only then can your life become
A God-lover. ```The heart’s willingness-capacity
Must go side by sideWith the mind’s readiness-capacity
So that the seeker can safely arriveAt the perfection-shore.
```The eagerness and willingness
Of the heartCan easily break all the speed limits
Of the doubting and unaspiring mind. ```Why waste another minute?
Pray to God to bless you once moreWith a hope-heart.
```Do not allow your self-doubt-mind
To destroy your heart’sGod-breath-blossoms.
```“God for God’s sake only!”
This has to be your final thoughtBefore you place yourself
At God’s Feet. ```If you do not leave
Your mind’s thought-jungle behind you,Then your heart’s aspiration-garden
Will not be visitedBy the denizens of the higher worlds.
```The stupidity of the mind
Invites only one visitor:The giant ignorance-intruder!
```Do not keep your heart-door closed
When God Himself invites youTo fly with your soul’s luminosity-stars.
```The silence of the heart
Has and is the capacityTo control the mind’s
Turbulent thought-winds. ```Your heart’s faith-medicine
Will definitely relieve youFrom your mind’s chronic doubt-headache.
```The world knows that the human mind
Is the inventor of sin.But when will the world know
That the divine heart is the discovererOf all hidden virtues?
```May each morning-prayer of my heart
Please God the Creator’s HeartAnd God the creation’s eye.
```I love myself dearly
Only when I can bow my headIn humble prayer to my Lord Supreme.
```With each prayerful thought
A God-satisfying chance blossomsIn the depth of our hearts.
```I do not want to know
When my golden God-day will dawn.I just want to know,
Will it ever dawn? ```No, not even God
Can afford to wait indefinitelyFor the transformation
Of my doubt-cherishing mind. ```The world will not,
Because it does not want to,Forget
Its failure-sadness-stories. ```May an aspiration-mountain
Be my heart’s constant companion.May an inspiration-river
Be my mind’s constant companion.May a dedication-star
Be my life’s constant companion. ```No human mind-produced thought
Can for long eclipseThe divine beauty
Of the immortal soul. ```Compassion must flourish first
In every heart.Then only will peace reign supreme
Here on earth. ```Every aspiration-breath of mine
Raises my lifeTowards Heaven’s infinite
Light and Delight. ```My heart warned me
When I was devotedly listeningTo my doubting mind.
```Alas,
My heart has not yet learntHow to sing the gratitude-song
Without making mistakes. ```Our oneness-earth’s
Peace-dreamCannot forever remain
Unfulfilled. ```I have decided
Once and for allTo issue death-sentences
To my doubts. ```I have used up all my doubts.
I have not savedEven one single doubt
To use either for this lifeOr for my next life.
```Do not misuse
Your Master’s compassionIf you want joy to be
Your heart’s constant companion. ```My oneness-heart
Feels responsibleWhen the world
Does anything wrong.My division-mind
Does not think it necessaryTo be responsible
Even for its own unpardonable blunders. ```My Lord,
I love YouMore than You can possibly imagine.
“True, My child, true.“My child,
I need youMore than you can possibly imagine.”
Not true, my Lord, not true. ```In order to sprint
On the aspiration-track,What you need most
Is an eagerness-heart-cry. ```My meditation is perfect
Only when my restless mindSurrenders
To my ageless and soundless heart. ```My Lord, I cannot love You.
What shall I do?“My child, then love My devotees.”
My Lord, I cannot love Your devotees.“My child, then love your purity.”
My Lord, I cannot love my purity.“My child, then love your sincerity.”
My Lord, I cannot love my sincerity.“My child,
Then love your sincerity-necessity.You will eventually become
A perfect instrument of MineTo please Me always in My own Way.”
```God’s Forgiveness-Boat
Sails and sails.It never fails.
But it reachesIts fulfilling and fulfilled destination
Only when God’s choice Hour strikes. ```If your God-love is unconditional,
Then only can you bypassThe lesser gods
And even the lesser God,To be with the true God.
```My mind’s sound-door
I keep openFor all and sundry.
My heart’s silence-door
I keep openOnly for my Lord Beloved Supreme.
```A complexity-mind
Cannot permanently escapeA sorrowful descent.
```Each day is a golden opportunity
For God-awareness,God-receptivity
And God-manifestation. ```O my stubborn unwillingness-mind,
You will soon be replacedBy my willingness-eagerness-heart.
```My soul-peace-bird
Soars aboveMy sunrise-heart-beauty
Only whenI happily and unconditionally surrender
My aspiration-breathAnd dedication-life
To my Lord Supreme. ```When I arrived at
My aspiration-heart-home,I discovered to my astonishment
That I had never really left. ```My Lord Supreme,
Do give me a pilgrim-heartTo offer my aspiration-flames
Far and wide,Lovingly and self-givingly.
```The world’s insanity
Adds confusion to my mind.The world’s beauty
Adds illumination to my heart. ```When I am inside the sound of my mind,
Nothing is attainable.When I am inside the silence of my heart,
Everything, everybody and even GodIs easily attainable.
```Only ceaselessly self-giving lives
Can save, perfect and illumineThis world.
```When each and every thought of mine
I place at the FeetOf my Lord Beloved Supreme,
I see myself sailingWith the prayerful, soulful
And fruitful peace-windAt my back.
```When my heart is empty of peace,
I am at warWith everything that I accept
And everything that I reject. ```This is the day
When I must cut offAll my connections
With my ugliness-mind. ```O my heart’s sunrise-flowers,
I need you to worship my Lord Supreme.Where are you all?
I cannot brook any further delay. ```If you cannot swim in the sea of tears,
How can you unburden yourself?If you cannot unburden yourself,
How will you be able to arriveSafely and gloriously
At your destined goal? ```When my heart-sky is clear and pure,
God HimselfProudly and triumphantly
Roams there. ```Nobody can prevent you
From arriving at the highest heightOf your self-awareness,
Self-offering and self-perfection. ```May everything in my life
Be as it was before:Once more I shall love God’s Heart
In God’s own Way,I shall worship God’s Feet
In God’s own Way,I shall carry God’s Life-Breath
In God’s own Way. ```My greatness-mind
Is not sufficient unto itself,But my goodness-heart is.
```My mind is a satisfaction-stranger.
My heart is a satisfaction-dreamer,Satisfaction-lover,
Satisfaction-sower,Satisfaction-grower,
Satisfaction-enjoyer. ```Yesterday
Doubt-supremacy I enjoyed.Today
I am enjoying doubt-intimacy.Tomorrow
I shall enjoy oneness-ecstasy. ```O my mind,
What you needIs perfection-preference
And notWorld-adulation-indulgence.
```The sound-bondage
Frightens me.The silence-freedom
Enlightens me. ```O my mind,
For God’s sake do tell me,Who gave you the authority
To sit on the world-judgement-seat? ```The human mind is a product
Of only one thing:An undisciplined thought-mart-mob.
```The heart is always ready
To settle its sad disputesWith the mind.
But the mind is never ready,And will never be ready.
```Ambition-fire,
How hurtful you are.Aspiration-flames,
How Godful you are. ```Suspicion my mind was.
Frustration my mind is.Perdition my life will be.
```On second thought,
God still thinks of me,He still loves me,
He still cares for me. ```Every thought
Eventually becomes a thornWhen I keep it for myself.
Every thoughtEventually becomes a rose
The moment I offer it to God. ```Hope never loses its beauty.
Hope never loses its joy.Hope never loses its power.
Hope never loses God’s Compassion-Eye. ```When I am in my mind,
I do not know which way to go.When I am in my heart,
Not only do I know which way to go,But also I clearly see
That God is beckoning me. ```My Lord’s soul-stirring flute-melodies
Will always be heardBy my heart-ears,
If not by my mind-ears. ```God’s Compassion is always eager
To exchange storiesWith my aspiration-heart.
```I have only one home,
Eternity’s Home,And that Eternity’s Home
Is the Immortality-BoatOf my Lord Supreme.
```Alas, years have flown by,
But I have not yet takenGod’s side completely,
Not to speak ofConcentrating on God’s Victory.
```Who will apologise for me?
No, not the human in my mind,But the Divine in my heart.
```When our gratitude-heart
Comes to the fore,Our doubting mind
Can easily be replacedBy our aspiration-heart,
Even on short notice from God. ```A sincere seeker knows and feels
That the beauty, purity and fragranceOf a flower
Can easily humble his life. ```God wants our aspiration-flames
To rise high, higher, highestAnd then dance around
His beloved planet-son-sun. ```God’s Compassion strengthens us
So that we do not fearOur darkness-mind.
God’s Forgiveness energises usSo that we do not fear
Our ruthless foe:Ignorance.
```When God is not the centre
Of your attention,How do you expect to have
A satisfaction-heart? ```When the silence of your heart
Leads you,There is no mind-barrier
That you cannot surmount. ```Make your decision:
What you want to get from lifeOr what you want to give to life.
Do not allow yourself to be engulfedIn your mind’s indecision-mist.
```Be not afraid of
Your teeming weaknesses.Confront them valiantly.
You are bound to succeed. ```My Lord Supreme,
May Your CompassionAnd Forgiveness-moments
Forever liveInside my gratitude-heart.
```Each time I cherish a wrong thought,
I lose my inner heightAnd am dwarfed by my own misfortune.
```My Lord, do give me the capacity
To sleeplessly knockAt Your Heart’s Compassion-Door.
```I am not going to waste any more time
In my mind’s thinking room.I shall spend my time only gardening
In my heart-garden. ```Each attempt at perfection
Opens a new doorTo the beauty of a new world.
```Alas, I do not know
How my heart can endureThe excruciating pangs
Of a Godless future! ```The mind that is flooded
With Infinity’s PeaceIs entitled to have
A universal passport to freedom. ```Be not trapped
Within yesterday’s unaspiring memories.Open your heart-door
To tomorrow’s new dawn. ```When the activity of life
Is supported byThe serenity of the mind,
Man can accomplishWhatever he wants to.
```If you are a God-obedient seeker,
A world-oneness-heartYou will be able to claim
As your own. ```If you do not give
Your undivided attentionTo God-Utterances,
You are bound to remain insideYour mind’s temptation-deception-room.
```The smiling dawn
Invites my mind to pray.The weeping evening
Invites my heart to meditate.And I always
Soulfully accept their invitations. ```Consciously you are enjoying self-doubt.
That meansUnconsciously you are paralysing
All your God-lovingAnd God-serving limbs.
```Whenever I am in the company of my mind,
It gives me a very hard time.Whenever I am in the company of my heart,
We mutually give each otherBlossoming happiness.
Alas, I do not know why and howI still spend so much time with my mind.
```I am absolutely certain
That the emptiness-mindAnd the fulness-heart
Need each otherTo complement each other.
```You are sad
That your pleasure-life is fleeting.You will be infinitely more sad
When your heart’s aspiration-boatStarts sinking.
```O my heart,
You are walking along the pathOf progress.
Although you may at times sufferFrom a stumbling sadness,
Here there is no permanent defeat. ```From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 196, Agni Press, 1994
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