O let my heart sow!
Let others’ lives reap! ```When I mix with earth-wallowers,
I feel that it is too lateFor me to aspire.
When I mix with Heaven-followers,I feel that it is too soon
For me; I am not ready. ```If we do not have
A burning yearning,We cannot succeed
Even in our ordinary human life. ```O humanity,
I do not want to beEven one step above you.
I want to beOn the same footing,
Not only to make you happyBut also to make myself really happy.
```Where is God?
I wish I knew.Who is God?
I wish I knew.What is God to me?
I wish I knew.In how many ways am I pleasing God?
I wish I knew.Have I ever disappointed God?
I wish I never knew. ```O my Lord Supreme,
Do empty my mindOf all my unpleasant
Disobedience-stories. ```Anger thinks that
It can rule the world.Depression thinks that
It is ruled by the world. ```The divine in me is rising
With the promise-sun.The human in me is sinking
With the hope-moon. ```My Lord,
Will You continue to forgive me?“Yes, my child, I shall.”
My Lord,Will I continue to show You
My gratitude?“My child,
You should and you must!But even if you do not give Me
Your gratitude-heart,My unconditional Love for you
Will forever remain the same.” ```The mind treasures
Stupid expectations.The heart welcomes
Wise hopes. ```If we do not chase away
The hostile force-cloudsThe way we chase barking dogs,
How can our divinity fully blossom? ```Alas,
The distance betweenThe mind’s suspicion
And the heart’s aspirationIs almost unbridgeable.
```If your devotion
Is a mere display,Then your God-receptivity-reservoir
Is bound to shrink. ```If you are a victim of pride,
There is only one wayFor you to free yourself:
Take shelterIn your humility-heart-garden.
```Lethargy
Has millions of excuses.Dynamism
Does not believe in excuses.It only shatters lethargy’s pride.
```Every day
Try to memoriseOne God-dream-song
To make yourself divinely happyAnd supremely perfect.
```Each doubtful thought
Deliberately reducesThe brightness of my life’s day.
```I am not
A weeping weakling.I am
God’s own Confidence-StrengthIn the depths of my heart.
```Each unaspiring thought
Is indeed as uselessAs pure nonsense.
```What you need is
Determination-fire.Uneasiness, unwillingness and unreadiness
Will all surrenderTo the beauty and fragrance
Of determination. ```Each desire of the mind
Has the capacityAnd is the capacity
To wither the aspiration-heart-flower. ```What do we gain
By interfering?We gain nothing.
We just become a victimOf our own stupidity.
```Not only your meditation-tree
But also your prayer-plantMust never be uprooted.
```O my Lord,
Do give me another chanceSo that I can plead
For Your Forgiveness.“My child,
I shall definitely give you another chanceTo remove the desire-list
Of your mindAnd replace it with the aspiration-list
Of your heart.” ```If you are a good man,
Then reject violence.If you are a better man,
Then detest violence.If you are the best man,
Then transform violenceInto the heart of oneness-love.
```Do not allow
Your heart-satisfaction-pocketTo become empty
If you want to flyHigher than the highest
And faster than the fastestIn your aspiration-life.
```Doubt thinks
That it is extremely strong.Faith knows
That it is infinitely stronger. ```Be not afraid
Of your God-dreams.Your God-dreams are
Your life’s futureSatisfaction-perfection-realities.
```If you can love
The beauty of the world,Then not only the beauty
But also the fragrance of the worldWill be your permanent possessions.
```Talkers,
I see you everywhere!Listeners,
I see you occasionally!Doers,
I see you nowhere! ```If you do not remain
In the desert of your mind,Every day your heart
Will be able to weaveA beautiful, fresh and pure
Devotion-garlandFor your Lord Supreme.
```Silence-fragrance within,
Activity-flower without:This is precisely
What my life needs. ```Both the saints
And the sinnersAgree on one point:
The transformation of human natureIs a most difficult task.
```You are impoverished
Not becauseYou do not have rich material possessions
But because ofYour very strong attachment-life-chains.
```Even the wisdom in us
Sometimes surrendersTo deplorable pleasure-life.
```If your heart has
Plenty of inner light,Then your mind can be
Empty of outer fears. ```My Lord Supreme,
There was a timeWhen I was afraid
Not only of Your eternal JusticeBut also of Your infinite Compassion.
But now my surrender-heartNeeds them equally
For my life’s complete transformation. ```God’s Fondness-Joy
Dances inside our heartOnly when
Purity’s tears and beauty’s smilesBlossom inside our heart.
```We suffer
From a distorted mindJust because we allow the mind
To house self-centred thoughts. ```There can be no human mind
That does not give its ownerA hard time.
```I do not want
A flood-tide of fame.What I need is
A blessingful assurance from GodThat He will make me a choice player
In His Cosmic Game. ```An aspiring heart
Desires to liveOnly in God’s ecstasy-flooded Eye.
```My Lord,
Many things I desired from YouIn the past,
But now I desire only one thing:A sleeplessly self-giving gratitude-breath.
```God Himself tells me
That the confusion-darkness of my mindIs no match
For the illumination-candle of my heart. ```To me
There are no absurdity-dreams,But there are many
Absurdity-realities. ```God’s Tears
Have flowed so many times,But this time
My heart is fully awakenedAnd is responding
Cheerfully and self-givinglyTo my Lord’s Tears.
```I must force my eyes to see
That God’s BeautyIs the only thing to look at.
I must force my heart to feel
That God’s CompassionIs the only thing to live for.
```No matter what
The outer weather of the world is,The inner weather of the world
Is always inspiring, encouragingAnd elevating.
```Nothing displeases God more
Than when I sayThat I am unchangeable.
```Be wise!
You must overcomeAll your difficulties,
Not try to escape from them,For there is no such thing
As escape. ```I am now enjoying
Real freedomBy liberating myself
From self-importance. ```God looks at everything
ExceptMy unworthiness-realisation-life.
```My Lord,
It is too horrible to mentionThat my mind has betrayed me,
My vital has betrayed me,My body has betrayed me.
Everything has betrayed meExcept Your Compassion-flooded Oneness.
```God does not want to know
What I want to say.God just wants to know
What I want to eventually become:His own Oneness-Heart
Or the division-mind of the world. ```O temptation-face,
You have brought tremendous disgraceTo my climbing aspiration-heart.
You are forcing meTo run backwards
Fast, very fast,To my total destruction-shore.
```The unaspiring mind
Unconsciously but sleeplesslyProduces
Anxiety-worry-clouds. ```Idleness,
God wants you to remain alwaysA perfect stranger
To the seeker’s newness-desiring mindAnd fulness-aspiring heart.
```No uncomely thought
Is negligible.No smiling heart
Is insignificant. ```The ordinary human life
Is nothing but an excursionInto a thick and endless
Desire-forest. ```Yesterday
Temptation was treacherous.Today
Temptation is ferocious.Tomorrow
Temptation will be voracious. ```The mind is
Its own constant,Unlit ego-impatience-supremacy.
```O desire-despair-life,
You may thinkThat you are invincible,
But definitely you are not. ```Aspiration,
My desire-frustration-antidote,I love your beauty,
I need your fragrance.Illumination,
My confusion-temptation-antidote,I love your beauty,
I need your fragrance. ```Peace
Beckons the wandering mind.Peace
Silences the roaring vital.Peace
Garlands the aspiring heart. ```O my mind-train,
Why do you delay so longAt each and every progress-station?
```The confidence of the heart
Is the removerOf all the doubt-obstacles of the mind.
```I make God happy
By offering HimMy devotion-heart.
I make God infinitely happierBy offering Him
My surrender-life. ```Every day
I shall keep my heart-channel tunedTo my Lord’s
Compassion-Affection-Broadcast. ```The summit-bliss
Of aspiration-mountainWe can achieve
Only with our meditation-ladder. ```When we walk along
Our heart’s devotion-road,Aspiration and satisfaction
Will devotedly follow us. ```May my mind always remain
Beyond the reach of thought,So that I can see, feel and grow into
God’s Satisfaction-Smile. ```Time is very limited.
Life is very short.Alas, when will I have
The burning desireTo realise God, manifest God
And fulfil God in His own Way? ```Every dream
Has a beauty of its own.Every dream
Has a fragrance of its own.Every dream
Embodies tomorrow’s God. ```Inside each grain of hope,
Every dayGod is dreaming
Of a new creation. ```The mind
And its shallow thoughtsSeem so odd
To our aspiration-heart. ```O seeker,
Instead of makingWhining complaints to God
Against humanity,Can you not offer
Your soulful appreciationOf humanity?
```Each man can be a perfect copy
Of God’s Dream-Fulfilment-RealityOn earth.
```My life,
I want to surprise youWith my heart’s
God-hunger-cries. ```My ego forgets
Even God’s unconditional Compassion-EyeAnd His unconditional Forgiveness-Heart.
```True,
Once upon a timeYou were a fool,
But you do not have to remain soForever.
Just become the songOf constant self-offering.
```O critic,
You always remain alienTo the beauty, divinity
And immortalityOf oneness-heart-delight.
```God’s Compassion-Eye
Brings God to meNo matter where I go,
Even when I hide. ```God counts Himself
Extremely fortunateWhen He gets
One unconditional seeker. ```Each desire of mine
Is a slaveTo my illusion-delusion-mind.
```I prayerfully asked God
To name a fewPerfect instruments of His.
God did listen to my prayer,But alas,
Somehow He forgotTo mention my name!
```Desire is so powerful
That it has the capacityTo compel us to run after
Even its shadow. ```Each choice instrument of God
Will one day prove to beA living God-monument.
```If you want to climb up
To your heart’s aspiration-mountaintop,Then you must liberate yourself
From your disobedience-exile. ```I love the beauty of a God-dreamer.
His beauty is real;His beauty is at once earth-illumining
And Heaven-fulfilling. ```You cannot acquire self-esteem
By fault-finding.You can acquire self-esteem
By becoming an aspiration-heartAnd a dedication-life.
```May my heart become
An excellent God-song-singer.May my life become
An excellent God-story-narrator. ```A vice does not remain a vice
When I am absolutely determinedTo transform it into a virtue.
```The vital and the mind are convinced
That they are always right.The heart is determined
To be always right. ```Your God-disobedience-cry
Will betray youInto endless crimes,
Long before your final hourStrikes.
```Where are You going, God?
“My child,I am not going anywhere.
In fact, I am coming to youTo hear from you
What your future plans areWith regard to our friendship.”
```Anybody who has strictly examined
His own mindWill find either an aspiration-famine
Or a desire-cyclone. ```I do not want to have a mind
That always quarrels with the world.I want to have a heart
That sportsWith the beauty of the world
And dancesWith the fragrance of the world.
```I call it
My heart’s gratitude.God calls it
His own Divinity’s Fragrance. ```O my heart’s aspiration-flames,
O my soul’s realisation-sun,Do tell me how far you are
Away from each other! ```May each page
Of our heart’s aspiration-bookHave three messages:
God the Creator,We are of You.
God the creation,We are for You.
God the Beloved Supreme,May You be found
In the tears of our heartsAnd in the smiles of our souls.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 202, Agni Press, 1994
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