I do not want to be
The thoughtOf a great thinker.
I long to beThe breath
Of a good server. ```Earthly duty
Is its fleeting moment.Heavenly duty
Is its everlasting life. ```An unaspiring man
Is his own boundlessDarkness-ignorance-pride.
```May I be satisfied
All the timeIn my God-belief-freedom.
```Fear, doubt and jealousy:
These are the thingsThat endlessly waste
Our human life. ```When I do not
Pray and meditate self-givingly,I roam
In sorrow’s despair-desert. ```The only mistake
That seriously displeases GodIs my unwillingness to be
A choice instrument of His. ```My Lord,
I need from YouOnly two kinds of smiles:
My enthusiasm-multiplying smileAnd my frustration-destroying smile.
```God is always ready to bless you
With His Divinity’s Simplicity-Boon,But you prefer to have
The web of complexity. ```If you are relentlessly unselfish,
Then no fearCan torture your mind.
```My daily prayer to God
To grant me a pure heartProtects me
From my own selfishness-mind. ```My Lord Supreme feels sad
And not madWhen I want to change the world
Untimely,Plus in my own way.
```The heart-runners
Every day runThe self-transcendence-joy-marathon.
```Insecurity
Spreads its jealousy-wingsWhen I water
My mind’s negativity-plants. ```I am so happy
That at long last I am ableTo reveal my heart’s
Aspiration-illumination-bridge. ```Unless I reduce myself
To humility-zero,I will not be allowed
In God’s ever-transcending Elevator. ```The path
To God’s Golden ShoreHas to be discovered
And not invented. ```If you do not
Bring your mind’s ego-tripTo an end,
You will remain alwaysAn aspiration-dedication-dwarf.
```Only a heart
Of prayerful and soulful aspirationCan compose
God-oneness-songs. ```My eyes
Rise and riseTo meet
The planet sun.My heart
Dives and divesTo meet
The knowledge-sun. ```God’s Obedience-Rules
Are not for the punishmentOf our life,
But for the enlightenmentOf our entire being.
```God never wants to end
Your inner conversation with Him.It is you who allow
Your restlessness-mindTo depart from God’s company.
```If your mind
Is a genuine truth-seekerAnd your heart
Is a genuine God-lover,Then why do you have to
Pay your visits to GodIn secrecy supreme?
```If you do not give up
Living in the lapOf mind-vital-luxury,
Then how can God bless youWith the Smile
Of His Satisfaction-Heart? ```Alas, my self-doubt
Is so powerfulThat it can easily blow out
My mind’s inspirationAnd my heart’s aspiration-candles.
```Compete against
And defeatYour mind’s
Ignorance-darkness-night. ```My Lord,
Let me ask You something:Can I dare to cherish
The hopeThat one day I will become
A supremely choice instrumentOf Yours?
```When I see the world
With my enthusiasm-mind,When I feel the world
With my willingness-heart,I feel that
There is nothing I cannot doFor the world.
```The more you love God,
The sooner you will be ableTo declare God’s Victory
Over your own nature. ```O seeker,
Never be complacent.There is always time
For more deplorable mistakesIn your life.
```It seems that there is
A constant battleBetween
The desire-follower-mindAnd the aspiration-inspirer-heart.
```My life’s outer prosperity
And my heart’s inner povertyAre generally found together.
```My Lord tells me
That He has given me the mindTo charm His Ear,
And He has given me the heartTo feed His Heart.
```You do not have to find out
If God loves you and needs you.You just need to ask your heart
To cry inwardlyAnd ask your life
To smile outwardly. ```I am not living on earth
To see tomorrow’s sunrise.I am living on earth
To be one with Eternity’s sunshine. ```World-withdrawal
Is no solution.World-acceptance,
World-transformationAnd world-perfection
Are the real solutions. ```Alas,
I did not knowThat I was all along living
On unfounded dreams. ```Irrespective of their development,
The souls proudly orbitAround their Lord Beloved Supreme.
```If you do not aspire,
Your life will definitelyBe riddled with
Useless feelings of unworthiness. ```Not to see good in others
Is not only a seriousBut also a dangerous
Defect. ```You make a monumental blunder
When you do not respondTo God’s Compassion-flooded Eye.
```Prayer and meditation-highways
Can be used onlyBy constantly self-giving seekers.
```God’s Compassion
And God’s ConcernChampion the God-hunger-cries
Of the seeker. ```Happiness is not
A hallucination.Happiness is not
An illusion.Happiness is
An unmistakable illumination. ```At times the human mind
Loves to hearNot only flattery
But also absurdity. ```He is so happy
That at lastHis God-existence-doubts
Are withering away. ```Expectation itself
Is a most deplorable experience.We must avoid it
If at all possible. ```Every day
I get tremendous joyIn taking care of
My deep-rooted faith-plant. ```O my mind,
Can you not seeThat you are suffering
From chronic God-disobedience? ```I am fully prepared
To be a total failureAs a human being
To please my Lord SupremeIn His own Way.
```I am really happy
Because I no longer allowMy heart to be invaded
By my past insecurities. ```The mind-ego’s thunder-road
Can never reachThe heart’s oneness-fulness-shore.
```God’s favourites
Are those who areExpectation-freed detachment-smiles.
```I protest popularity contests,
I protest supremacy contests,For these contests interfere with
My inner oneness-life. ```Do not cherish your failure-life.
That is the taskOf your enemies.
Do not cherish your victory-life.That is the task
Of your Lord Beloved Supreme. ```No peaceful eyes,
No soulful heartCan remain unnoticed
By the God-loving humanity. ```A readiness-mind
And a willingness-heartKnow no limits.
```How can God grant you
Your oneness-freedom,When you have become
Your own aspiration-extinction? ```God is always
His Compassion-descent.Can I not become
My aspiration-ascent? ```Can you not see
That God is swimmingIn the sea of tears
Because ofYour love-devotion-surrender-decline?
```O seeker,
Since you haveAn astonishing capacity
For self-deception,How can you ever expect
To see God’s Satisfaction-Face? ```If you make yourself
An easy targetFor ignorance-night,
How can you be a loverOf wisdom-light?
```To clear the horizon
Of self-doubts,I must challenge
Fear withinAnd fear all around.
```How I wish I could have
The heart of a child,So that I could become
A perfect stranger to sorrow! ```Let us all try
To make our mind silentAnd peaceful,
And give no importanceTo the dramatic mind.
```I am simply mortified
When I considerThe long-neglected promise
That I made to my soul! ```Peace is the only inner beauty
That constantly singsGod’s Glory.
Therefore,It can never be defiled.
```My Lord,
My heart is all gratitude to You,For You have saved me
Time and againBy adamantly ignoring
My endless pleas. ```Deliverance does not come from
Renunciation.Deliverance comes from
Sleepless self-offering. ```My Lord tells me
That unless I seek HimWith my heart
And not with my eyes,He will not fulfil
My aspiration-cries. ```What have you
To give to God?Your inner assurance
That you cannot do anythingWithout His Compassion-Light.
```The moment I see and feel
God’s FootstepsPressing upon my heart,
I singGod’s world-illumining Songs.
```God has come to you
So many times.Alas, each time
You fall asleepJust before His Arrival.
```God is always kind
And compassionate to you.Can you not give Him some rest
From your constant world-complaints? ```God tells our souls
To challenge our weaknessesAnd bring them to the fore
For their complete transformation. ```Sleeplessly I shall fly
UntilI prayerfully arrive
At my Lord’s Heart-Nest. ```O seeker,
Challenge the defianceOf your mind’s falsehood
If you want to pleaseYour Lord Supreme
In His own Way. ```You are a fool
If you have no reverenceFor virtue.
Do you not knowThat even the devils themselves
Ultimately develop respectFor virtue?
```God does not want you
To be afraid of Him.He wants you always to love Him.
But at times if to fear HimIs the only way
For you to make progress,Then God feels that is
Absolutely the right way for youAt that moment.
```The inheritance
Of restless dreamsIs an empty and useless
Reality. ```Intolerance
Has invaded my mind-house.Therefore
My mind is totally emptyOf sanity.
```Mine is the progress-heart
That can never imagineA life that is vacant,
A life that is barren,A life that moves backward.
```If you listen prayerfully
To your soul-song,Then your mind and your life
Will be inundated with obedience. ```When I look at
The compassion-eye of my soul,All my heart’s gratitude
Comes to the fore. ```You may say that the soul
Is hard to see,Harder to feel
And hardest to converse with,But I tell you,
The soul-reality is the only realityThat will eventually give you
The oneness-fulness-breathOf Immortality.
```O my heart,
So many timesI have deceived you,
But still your faith in meIs not only beautiful
But also fragrant. ```I am absolutely sure
That no harm can be doneTo my oneness-earth-life’s
Heart-breath. ```If you do not surrender
Every drop of your unworthiness,How will you ever receive
God’s unconditional Compassion-Eye? ```My Lord’s Confidence-Light
In the aspiring heart of humanityCan never be measured.
```Since your belief in God is lukewarm,
How can you ever becomeA perfect stranger
To your own life of misery? ```Alas,
Every dayGod has to face
The naked swordOf my doubting mind.
```O my mind and vital,
There is only one real path,And that path is
The path of the heart.Walk along that path
If full satisfaction is somethingThat you want and need.
```Pray and meditate self-givingly.
Your life-possibility-blossomsWill turn into
Inevitability’s beauty-fragrance. ```You do not find what you seek.
Why?Precisely because
You do not try to silenceYour life’s monkey-mind-activities.
```Finally I have dethroned
My deception-mind-kingAnd enthroned
My illumination-heart-emperor. ```What is deception?
It is something that goesRound and round
In the unaspiring human mind. ```Remain always inside
Your heart-blossoming hopesAnd not inside
Your mind-multiplying jungle. ```Vast
Is love-field.Fertile
Is devotion-field.Invincible
Is surrender-field. ```Each human heart
Is the most desirable fountainTo quench hope-thirst.
```If you can put your earthly life
Back on the Heavenly aspiration-track,Your ignorance-intoxication
Will sooner than at onceCome to an end.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 209, Agni Press, 1994
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