My Lord,
Do break my doubting mindWith Your Thunder-Feet.
My Lord,Do remake my aspiring heart
With Your Splendour-Eye. ```Every day
Mine is the life that gaspsFor the breathless Breath
Of God’s Forgiveness-Smile. ```Yesterday my Lord granted me
A receptivity-heartSo that today He can speak
A private word to it. ```If you want to be relieved
Of your heartache,Then you must fracture
Your ego-mindRuthlessly.
```Your Heaven-passport is ready.
Are you readyWith your silence-life-fee?
```Your mind is confined
In confusion-cageBecause it does not believe
In the heart’s illumination-palace. ```Every morning
I sing my mind to sleepAnd then immediately
I inspire my heart to fly. ```My mind, may I offer you
A simple suggestion?Since you want to be really good,
You must be a strangerTo your own greatness.
```Surrender unconditional
Will be the next sceneIn his life’s
God-pleasing drama. ```As your insecure eyes
Are quite familiarWith a mob of fears,
Even so, your unsurrendered heartIs quite familiar
With the sob of tears. ```If you play with doubt-clouds,
Your heart’s faith-parachuteWill never open.
```I shall not underestimate
God’s Compassion-Ocean.I shall not underestimate
Man’s surrender-life. ```There is only one thing
Easy to earn,And that thing is
God’s Compassion-Salary. ```Today I am commemorating
The death-anniversaryOf my doubting mind.
```Every day his heart’s newspaper
Covers storiesAbout God’s Perfection-Vision
And God’s Satisfaction-Manifestation. ```You can hide
Anything you want to.But never hide
Your faith-key. ```Someday your aspiration-journey
Will definitely bring youTo the shore of Realisation-Sea.
```You only know
The poverty of my faith.But you do not know
The infinity of my Lord’sCompassion for me.
```Who needs to enjoy the guidance
Of his insecurity-boss?Yet who revolts against it?
Not you, not he;No, not even me!
```When doubt-drought destroyed
His heart’s faith-plant,His spirituality’s life-clouds
Immediately gathered. ```God will grant you
His unconditional Satisfaction-Certificate.You just have to go to Him
And receive it from Him. ```God the Inventor proposes
His Infinity’s Peace.Man the discoverer chooses
His eternity’s war. ```Just try to have
At least one powerful meditationEvery day.
Your temptation-tireWill automatically blow out.
```Your self-transcendence-marathon
Has shattered the summitless prideOf your ruthless life-devouring dragon.
```You will miss
The Heaven-bound flightIf you do not dismiss
Your mind’s uncomely thoughts. ```Mine is the gratitude-heart
That originates the powerful wavesOf my surrender-life.
```You do not have to cook,
You do not have to serve,You just have to eat daily
Your meditation-meal. ```Your heart’s surrender-flower
Is bound to outlastAll your previous blunders.
```There is not a single map
That can show youThe road to God.
Therefore, you need not readEven one map
Before you embarkOn your God-voyage.
```He left his heart of hope
As a great legacyTo aspiring mankind.
```The latest news from Heaven:
God will not mindIf I do not cry for Him,
But He will definitely mindIf I do not smile at Him
And with Him. ```Do not misunderstand God,
Your Eternity’s Boss,If He asks you every day
To come to HimAnd collect His Blessing-Bonus.
```Because you love to live
In your mind’s cluttered room,Your life has become
A totally shattered home. ```What can you buy
Either in Heaven or on earthWith reluctance —
Your counterfeit mind-coin? ```My Lord Supreme does not mind
When my account with HimIs overdrawn.
But He does mindWhen I stop withdrawing
Out of sheer embarrassment. ```Each dark corner of my life
Not only painsMy Lord Supreme
But also takes awayMy God-hunger
Indefinitely. ```Transformation without frustration
Is quite possibleIf I forbid my aspiration-dedication-life
To play with doubt. ```You have only one right place
To keep your victory-trophy,And that place is
Your heart’s gratitude-room. ```If your heart-checks to God
Are bouncing every day,Then God will disconnect
His Telephone Line to you. ```Is it not beneath your dignity
To become a second-class disciple?Is it not beneath the dignity
Of your divine soul?Do you not think
You will torture your soulMost ruthlessly
If you settle for beingA second-class disciple?
```My mind always runs away
When it sees my soulComing to inject joy into it,
Through its frustration-veil. ```The seeker in him finally realised
That the world-universityHad given him
Its most powerful ignorance-diploma. ```Alas,
I thought the circus of ignoranceWas all inside my little universe.
Now I see that the circus of ignoranceIs everywhere.
```Since everything must be transformed
Eventually,Why not let us start
With our life’s ego-horse,Which has to be transformed
Into God’s fondest lamb. ```Before it gets too late
You must return,You must go back
To your heart’s gratitude-garden! ```No earth-possessing life
Can ever be enlightened.No Heaven-longing life
Can remain unillumined. ```If love speaks
Through your heart,That means
Perfection has already started speakingThrough your life.
```I completely forgot
That God is old.I could have learnt
So much from Him.I totally forgot
That God is young.I should have invited Him
To come into my heart-gardenAnd play with me.
```Do you not recognise
Your soul’s old friend: God?Do you not recognise
Your heart’s new friend: man? ```Unless you powerfully announce
The end of self-doubt,You will never hear
The love-beatOf God’s Divinity-Heart.
```God’s Eternal NOW Radio Station
Every day broadcastsThe same most significant news:
God-lovers have chartered a planeTo God’s Satisfaction-Kingdom.
```There are many prisons in life,
But the destructive confusion-prisonOf man’s mind
Shatters man’s entire being. ```If you are acquainted with
Inner commitments,Then your life can never
Be a strangerTo sublime achievements.
```One solitary voice
Continues to call me.It says
My heart shall succeedAnd my life shall proceed
Forever and forever. ```The beauty
Of his sacrifice-lifeAnd the purity
Of his surrender-heartEvery day play
With God’s Vision-EyeAnd God’s Satisfaction-Heart.
```Beyond the walls of self-imprisonment
God standsAnd grants the true God-lover
And truth-seekerHis Immortality’s Enlightenment.
```The kindness-heart
Of onenessLiberates two slaves:
Doubtfulness and fearfulness. ```Fly out of your insecurity-nest!
Angels, with Heaven’s delight,Are eagerly waiting for you.
```Destiny sits at his feet
Because his God-surrendered headIs too small
For destiny to sit upon. ```His heart’s oneness-purity-smile
Far outweighsHis mind’s division-impurity-frown.
```Only a boundless purity-heart
Can pass throughThe fogbound ignorance-future.
```Don the garment of optimism!
You will immediately be ableTo free yourself
From your mind’s faded hopes. ```Within he feasts
On the fragrance of silence-light.Without he feasts
On the strokes of sound-drums. ```Your mind’s stubborn stupidity
Will never be ableTo see God-Beauty’s
Earth-transforming morn. ```You have at least one
Good quality:You do not consider
Your restful slumberAs your peaceful trance.
```The more I try
To hide my weaknessesFrom God,
The sooner God’sCompassion-Forgiveness-Radar
Finds me. ```Purity’s gratitude-heart
Is the main receptionistIn God’s humanity-transforming
Head Office. ```You are not
Your life’s faded hopes.You are
Your soul’s promise-sun. ```A life of volcano-ego
Is nothing butA self-addressed life.
```Although my mind
Is in the confusion-clouds,I am still a hope-bird
Of my Lord Supreme. ```Develop a voracious
Aspiration-appetite!You will meet God
Halfway to Heaven. ```My soul laughs and laughs
At my mind’s persistent effortsTo devalue my heart’s divinity.
```The malady of your life
Is ruiningThe melody of your soul.
```Purify your mind soulfully.
Otherwise, you and your mindWill be totally lost
In the labyrinths of obscurity. ```Commit your sincerity-breath
To God’s Compassion.He will teach you summit-prayers.
```Praise is something
That we mayOn very rare occasions need.
But justice-light is somethingThat we always need.
```To distrust your heart’s
Good qualitiesIs to increase your mind’s
Bad qualitiesTen times
Immediately! ```Alas,
Every day I ask GodThe same stupid question:
“My Lord,Do You really love me
More than I love You?” ```Two dreams are running together:
The transformation-dreamOf man’s life
And the Satisfaction-DreamOf God’s Heart.
```Your eyes have captured
God the Inspiration.Your heart has captured
God the Illumination.Your life has captured
God the Perfection.And finally
You are going to captureGod the Satisfaction.
```Unless your life becomes
The humility-dustOf God’s Compassion-Feet,
How can you ever drawEvery detail of God’s Face?
```I am so happy
That my mind has at lastResigned its chairmanship
Of the doubt-committee. ```Take a close look
At your inner life!Are you not ashamed
Of your continuousInsecurity-illness?
```God may consider the world-mind
As His finished product,But He considers each human heart
As His unfinished product. ```No matter what kind of seeker
You are,No matter how developed
You areIn your spiritual life,
You have to be carefulOf your mind’s impurity-pickpocket!
```God’s turn came.
He showed youHow to realise Him.
Your turn is coming.You have to show Him
How you are goingTo manifest Him.
```Every morning
I sing my prayer-songAt my Lord’s Feet.
Every eveningI dance my meditation-dance
Inside the Heart-GardenOf my Lord Supreme.
```When the God-Hour strikes,
The Absolute Supreme willWithout fail
Grant you His Confidence-PowerSo you can become
His transcendental Tower. ```The arch-enemy of your soul
Is not your impure mind,Not your insecure heart,
But your unwilling life. ```No wonder you have lost
Your security-wallet!You forgot to put
A picture of God’s Satisfaction-FaceInside it.
```Alas, what shall I do
And what can I do?Heaven is already disgusted
With my imperfections,And hell is already overcrowded.
```A man may be
OrdinaryBut his dreams can be
Extraordinary. ```A man’s desire-life
May torture himBut his aspiration-life
Can illumine the world. ```If you are unwilling to learn
At your own heart-university,Yours will be a life
Of paralysing grief. ```If you encircle your ego
With a victory-fence,Then you remain a stranger
To perfection-achievement. ```Because you are lost
In a crowd of unruly emotions,Heaven does not want
To accept youAnd earth does not want
To recognise you. ```No matter how thick
Your mind’s doubt-fog is,The Hope-Light of God’s Heart
Can easily shine through it. ```There was a time
When I knew nothingExcept my mind’s business hours.
But now I know two things:My heart’s aspiration-hours
AndMy life’s dedication-hours.
```As God’s Eye can tell
Where the seeker’s heart is,Even so, the seeker’s heart
Can tell where God’s Eye is. ```If God is pleased with you,
Deliberately He may not fulfilAll your desires.
If He is extremely pleased with you,Then He may fulfil
Some of your innocent desires.But if He is completely pleased with you,
Then He is not going to satisfyEven one earthbound desire of yours,
For He wants you to be a co-sharerOf His Infinity’s free Delight.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 23, Agni Press, 1984
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