When I place my life
In the Hand of God,I am happy, unimaginably happy.
When I place my heartAt the Feet of God,
I am not only happyBut also perfect.
```Every day
My soul begs my mindTo rise and run
With the blossoming dawn. ```We cannot read the entire book of life,
We cannot.We can only read
As many pages as we are allowed toBy our Lord Supreme.
```Those who sincerely seek God
Will inevitably find GodAt God’s choice Hour.
```God teaches us
Only what we need to learnAnd nothing more,
Nothing less. ```The most immediate priority
In my lifeIs my sleepless and breathless surrender
To God’s Will. ```We give God a plethora of excuses
Why it is impossible for usTo love God in God’s own Way.
Poor God just smiles at usWith His Infinity’s Compassion
And Forgiveness. ```O seeker, be extremely careful!
Never allow your aspiration-heart-riverTo run dry
If you really need God in your life. ```When I am in my mind,
I feel that God has run away.But when I am in my heart,
I feel and clearly seeThat God never runs away from me.
```If we can dive deep within
On the strength of our prayersAnd meditations,
We shall clearly seeThat peace comes to us
From all directions. ```Once, twice, even a thousand times
God has appreciated our aspiration-heartAnd dedication-life,
But we feel that it is not enough.We expect and we demand today
More Satisfaction-Smiles from God. ```Love of God
Must come from within.It can never be adequately taught
By an outer force. ```For God to take human form
Is, indeed, a realityThat is far beyond
Even our sweetest dreams. ```Our surrender to God
Is our prayerful and powerfulGod-expansion
Inside our heart-garden. ```He who has become
A victim of failureIn the inner life
Has already separated his very existenceFrom the boundless Love of God.
```Just because
It has never happened beforeThat I have loved God
For God’s sake,That does not mean
I shall never be ableTo love Him in His own Way.
```When I go down on my knees
And ask God for help,He says to me
Most compassionately and affectionately,“My child,
What have I been doing all along?” ```During my deep meditation,
I clearly seeThat I am participating with the sky
In singing its freedom-songs. ```My gratitude-heart
Always has a free accessTo God’s
Peace and Bliss-Treasures. ```God tells me I need only
My old faith-friend.I really do not need
Any other friend,Specially not my new friend,
Self-doubt. ```Each God-lover
Has entered into the worldTo propagate as fast as possible,
On a large scale,God’s Views with regard to His creation.
```My soul believes
In only one pilgrimage,And that pilgrimage
Is to God’s Compassion-flooded Feet. ```What is surrender?
Surrender is somethingIn which gratitude
Can take birth. ```My Lord,
Do give me the capacityWith my prayerful smiles
To wipe the TearsFrom Your Compassion-Eye.
```Spirituality
Will never be out of dateIf Mother Earth always has
Even a few thousand God-lovers. ```It is our outer lives
And never our inner livesThat contradict one another.
In our inner livesWe are all one,
All trying to illumine the worldAnd fulfil God’s Message-Light
Here on earth. ```Our obedience-mind
Gets the greatest opportunityTo become one, inseparably one
With the gratitude-breathOf our heart.
```O earth-bound worldly knowledge,
Can you not seeOnce and for all
That I am suffocatedBy your ignorance-darkness-night?
```What God has been trying to tell me
Over the yearsIs that I can become
A choice and perfect instrumentOf His.
```God’s Patience and Compassion-Stories
No human being on earthWill be able to finish reading.
```God does not ask a spiritual Master
To do two things.He asks him to do only one thing:
To transform humanity’sIgnorance-intoxicated animal nature
Into Divinity’s oneness-fulness-love. ```To doubt God’s Existence-Life on earth
Is, indeed, a universal diseaseOf millennia.
```I am so happy when I watch
The swiftness of my mind-clouds’Disappearance.
```Why does man fail God
Again and again?Because he enjoys
An undercurrent of deep unwillingness. ```Old desires
Are bound to raise their headsWhen we do not feed
Our fresh aspiration-heart-flamesRegularly.
```What is temptation?
Temptation is somethingThat examines
My God-realisation-resolve. ```Even the smallest glimmer of hope
Will definitely expediteOur aspiration-heart-journey
Towards the destined Goal. ```What is unwillingness?
Unwillingness is somethingThat not only delays but also slays
Our God-aspiration, God-realisationAnd God-manifestation-need.
```My Lord, my Lord,
Save me, save meFrom brooding doubts!
My doubts have compelled meTo be on the verge of self-extinction.
```Every day, without fail,
Early in the morning,God invites His chosen instruments
To go for a joy-ride in His Heart-Boat.Alas, even His choice instruments
Often fail to obey Him. ```Only when I live inside my heart
Does God teach meHis never-ageing
Oneness-Fulness-Song. ```Am I blind?
Why can I not seeThat my Lord Supreme
Is piloting my life-boatTo His choice Destination:
The oneness and fulnessOf humanity’s divinity?
```My heart,
You do have the authorityTo reclaim your capacity
To inspire mankind. ```My mind’s disobedience
And my mind’s resistanceCan never see the danger signs
All around me. ```I have written my Lord Supreme
A ten-page letterExplaining why I fail again and again
To please Him in His own Way.To my wide astonishment,
I see that GodHolds nothing against me.
He just smiles and smiles. ```What is the mind’s wisdom?
It is nothing other thanA volley of follies
In our life. ```Unless our God-aspiration
And God-fulfilment-prayersBecome extremely powerful,
We are bound to seeThat our shortcomings
Are overpowering us. ```God and God’s Forgiveness
Are always readyTo empty us of all our sorrows,
But our receptivity is never ready. ```Alas, our demanding
And self-aggrandising vitalFails to see
That it is heading towardsSelf-destruction.
```My Lord,
You are Your Compassion-Eye;You are Your Forgiveness-Feet.
Therefore,Even before I could search for You,
You have come to me. ```There can be no sweeter inner music
Than my soulful, cheerful surrenderTo my Lord’s Will.
```It is only my self-giving life
That can and shall reachMy Lord’s Bliss-Shore.
```It is humanity’s sincere aspiration
And Divinity’s sincere ConcernThat link
Heaven and earth. ```It is really surprising
That anything undivine in usIs always so punctual!
```My Lord Supreme always expects
Gratitude-tears and surrender-smilesFrom my aspiration-heart.
```O seeker,
God is insideYour own flower-garden-heart.
You need look nowhere else. ```We must choose everything divine,
Not only what is within our reachBut also what is far beyond our reach
At this moment. ```It seems that
In each human beingFaith is yet in its infancy.
```The day I do not aspire,
I just fallInto the sea of desires.
```When I am in my deep meditation,
I clearly hearThe whispering Heart
Of my Lord Supreme. ```All men are truth-seekers.
All men are God-lovers.All men are God-worshippers.
This sublime truthToday they do not know,
But tomorrow they will.They must!
```My Lord, how is it
That I can please YouAnytime I want to,
Whereas I cannot please any human beingNo matter how hard I try?
```Every morning I observe
A serious conflictBetween the aspiring man in me
And the desiring man in me. ```My Lord,
I never want to have a heartEmpty of aspiration-cries.
```Every day I lose
In the battlefield of lifeIn my fight against ignorance-night.
Again, every night I watchThe rising of hope-moon
Inside my heart. ```O my mind,
O my vital,O my body,
God’s Door is wide open.Where are you?
Come, come — just come in! ```There was a time
When I used to shop on a regular basisAt my mind’s confusion-store.
But now I only move aroundInside my heart-garden.
```If you want to liberate yourself
From the meshes of ignorance,Never, never hesitate
To meditate. ```I never knew
That God was an old friend of mine.What is more,
He has always beenMy only true friend.
```My Lord, You have blessed me
With many capacities.Do grant me one more capacity:
The capacity to stamp outDisobedience-night
From my mind. ```What has changed my life
Totally?Just a sorrowful glance
From my Master. ```You want to know
What I am doing now.I am enjoying the farewell speech
Of my ignorance-night. ```God is not interested
In what mankind thinks.He only wants mankind to believe in
What it is going to become eventually:A supremely choice instrument of God.
```A ceaseless God-obedience-life
Is an infinite waterfallOf God’s Delight.
```Every morning God comes to me
To bless me,And I never let Him leave me
With empty Hands.I give Him the beauty
Of my heart-cries. ```My Lord tells me
That since He is not tired of listening,I can continue telling Him
All the grievances I haveAgainst humanity.
```Yesterday God asked me
To purify my mind.Today He is asking me
To simplify my life.Tomorrow He will ask me
To beautify my heart. ```Although my dissatisfied mind
And dissatisfied vitalQuite often disagree,
UnfortunatelyThey often work together.
```God is extremely hungry
For humanity’s totalGod-manifestation-commitment.
```Self-doubt
Is a most serious obstacleTo God-aspiration, God-realisation
And God-manifestation. ```God has already planned my future
In every detail.Therefore, for me
There is nothing to worry about. ```Only a doubting mind
Does not want to make friendsWith God
To make itself happy. ```Two most significant things
The mind does not know:What to love
And how to love. ```My doubting mind
Does not bother God.It is my unwilling heart
That bothers God,For God expects everything positive
In abundant measureFrom my heart.
```My Lord, I have forgotten
What I started out to say.“My child, never mind!
Only rememberThat I am truly and sleeplessly for you.”
```In spite of all my attempts
To shake off lethargyFrom my life,
I am nowhere near success. ```My doubting mind
Does not knowWhether peace exists
At all. ```There can be
No exemptionFrom my God-manifestation-responsibility.
```No matter how hard
The doubting mind triesTo oust
My loving faith in God,It will always fail.
```Two things only are indispensable
In my life:My God-obedience-mind
And my God-surrender-heart. ```Poor God!
Every day He suffers and suffersWhen He reads
Mother Earth’s newspapers. ```I am so happy and proud to know
That my heart-temple is blessedBy God’s Peace
And God’s Delight. ```Alas, I do not know
Why my mind and my heartHave to remain always
Polar opposites. ```Help me, my Lord Supreme,
I am falling!“Help Me, My sweet child!
I am starving for your smile.” ```We must be all ready
To receive GodEvery morning,
For His Visit is not only swiftBut also brief.
```God always
Blessingfully, warmly and proudlyWelcomes
My gratitude-heart. ```Alas, I do not know how long
My Lord Beloved SupremeWill have to wait
To see my mind swimmingIn the beauty and fragrance
Of silence-sea. ```O my mind, surrender!
Surrender everythingTo God’s Compassion-Eye
If you want to liberate yourselfFrom the tyranny of obligations.
```The doubting mind
Deserves to be punished by God.The aspiring heart
Deserves to be embraced by God. ```My first and last lesson in spirituality
Is my sleepless and breathless onenessWith the Will of my Lord Supreme.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 245, Agni Press, 1998
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