My Lord,
I can at most resistYour Compassion-Eye,
But I shall never be able to resistYour Forgiveness-Feet.
```If obedience
Is your life-boat,Then in your life’s uncharted journey
You are bound to succeed. ```Alas, our expectation-key
Is apt to openOnly the wrong door.
```Today’s minute expectation
Can turn into tomorrow’sFrustration-volcano.
```I can completely empty
My life’s dark problem-roomWhen the Name of God
Becomes the very breath of my heart. ```God tells me that I have become
A choice instrument of HisPrecisely because
I have carpeted my entire beingWith humility-grass.
```God can and will
Do the right thing for youOnly when your love for Him
Is pure and genuine. ```The mind craves attention,
The heart longs for reward.Therefore, alas,
Neither the mind nor the heart is readyTo have unconditional love for God.
```How I wish I could always speak
To my Lord SupremeExactly the way my soul does:
In silence-whispers. ```We feel that God does not hear
Our cries,But do we, even in our imagination,
Try to make our criesPrayerful, soulful and self-giving?
```I ask my Lord
To come to me quickly.My Lord asks me,
“Are you really readyTo receive Me?”
```If there is anybody,
Either in Heaven or on earth,As furious with me as myself
For wasting so much of God’s TimeOn earth,
Then that person is none otherThan my own soul!
```A purity-mind,
A devotion-heartAnd a surrender-life
Must rule my very existenceAt every moment.
```My Lord Supreme,
How I adore You!Do You know why?
Because You transformMy helpless despair
Into most powerful and intense delight. ```What saves my life
At every moment?Only one thing:
My heart’s gratitude-breathTo my Lord Supreme.
```If you love your Master
Unconditionally,Then he becomes your heart’s
Emperor supreme.But if you love him conditionally,
Then you can at any timeTurn him into a veritable beggar.
```When I tell God
That I love Him only,Alas, do I really mean it?
```I ask God,
“My Lord, when You tell meThat You desperately need me,
Do You really mean it?”My Lord tells me,
“I mean it, I mean it,I shall always mean it, My child.”
```I ask my Lord Supreme,
“Do tell meWhat is wrong with me.”
My Lord Supreme tells me,“My child, only one thing:
You must love Me infinitely moreThan you love Me now.”
```“In God we trust.”
This is an American motto.Does God trust us?
Poor God tells usThat He has not yet learnt
The art of distrust. ```Learn to look at yourself seriously.
Ask yourself,“Do I really need God?”
Ask this question every day. ```Perfection will always long for
More perfection,Abundant perfection
And infinite perfection. ```God-eagerness,
God-manifestationAnd God-fulfilment:
Indeed, a supremely high trinity! ```My soul not only loves
My God-dreams,But also shelters my God-dreams.
```Dream and dare,
Dare and dreamIf you want to proceed fast
In your spiritual life. ```Do not expect anything spectacular
Either from God or from yourself.Just give yourself to God
Happily and proudly.The rest you must leave to God.
```Joy has failed to teach you.
Therefore, God has sent painTo teach you.
```My Lord Supreme,
You have given meA most difficult task:
You have asked me to countAll Your disappointments.
```My Lord Supreme is telling me
That He will enter into my heartOnly through my self-dedication-door.
```Be careful, O seeker,
Of your insecurity!Today’s insecurity
Will most likely turn intoAbsurd haughtiness.
```My Lord Supreme,
Do give meThe beauty of love divine
And do give meThe fragrance of devotion divine
So that I do not have to removeMy prayerful gaze
From Your Compassion-flooded Feet. ```The more I am sincere
With my spiritual life,The more it is clear to me
That I need only one thing:God’s ceaseless Compassion-Eye.
```Alas,
We do not believeThe undeniable fact
That our lives are full ofDivinity-manifestation-possibilities
And opportunities. ```God has made it a point
Every dayTo take a new picture
Of my prayerful and tearfulGratitude-heart.
```The beauty of my surrender
And the Power of God’s WillAre fond of living inseparably.
```God blessingfully and proudly
Accepts usAs His choice instruments
When we turn all our thoughtsInto prayers.
```O humanity,
Do not give up!God’s Patience
Has not yet given up. ```My Lord Supreme,
Do bless meWith an ever-expanding faith
To please YouWith every breath of my heart.
```Only he who has surrendered,
And not he who saysThat he is going to surrender,
Will be cradledIn God’s ever-loving Embrace.
```Your Lord Beloved Supreme
Is eagerly waiting for you.Just step inside your heart-temple.
```God the Love has invited me
To see His Heart, to feel His HeartAnd to become His Heart.
```You are looking
For God’s Throne.Alas, you are looking
In the wrong place!The right place is your own heart.
```My life-boat treasures
Many passengers,But peace-passengers
It treasures the most. ```O seeker, can you not see
That you have lovingly and proudly keptAll-destroying doubt
As your beloved friend? ```Self-giving is, indeed,
An everlasting,Self-transcending journey.
```The mind can doubt
Its own doubts,But the heart always agrees
With its faith. ```If you are afraid
Of your failure-life,Then this very failure-life
Will never allow youTo make any progress
In your spiritual life. ```Not what you think
Will make you ever happy,But what you prayerfully
And soulfully giveCan and will make you happy.
```I am so grateful to my soul,
For it has come todayTo excavate
All my heart’s old buried dreams. ```The human mind does not realise
That there areInfinitely more important things
In lifeThan just increasing life’s speed.
```Everything that my heart does
I enjoy immensely,Specially when my heart
Prayerfully and soulfully weepsFor God.
```O my sunshine-hope-heart,
I sleeplessly and breathlesslyDepend upon you.
```When you aspire,
You realise that Heaven hearsAll your heart-whispers.
```A sleeplessly self-offering heart
Will definitely haveThe highest mastery
Over the unaspiring life. ```My Lord tells me
That my very existence on earthIs worthy of His deepest Concern.
```A sleeplessly self-giving heart
Is, indeed, a God-loverOf the first rank.
```A universal oneness-heart
Will always remainA dire challenge
To modern science. ```The human mind has changed
Next to nothingOver the course of centuries.
```Every morning
I enter into my heart-homeTo pay my prayer-visit
To God’s Compassion-EyeAnd His Forgiveness-Feet.
```The beauty of love
And the fragrance of surrenderSee each other everywhere.
```Each snow-white prayer
Is, indeed,A God-inspired messenger.
```I want my life
Every dayTo be ruled
By my soul-emperor. ```My life is running
Towards God’s Feet.God’s Eye is soaring
Towards my heart. ```During my deep meditation
I clearly hear the voice of my soulRinging melodiously with celestial love.
```My God-given faith
I sleeplessly treasure.My man-given doubt
I vehemently abhor. ```The latest news
From God’s Universal HeartIs this:
God’s Forgiveness-FeetWill never leave me,
And God’s Compassion-EyeWill always take care of me.
```May my future life
Be flooded with Divinity’sImmortality-Dreams.
```When I live inside my heart-home,
I clearly see that my faithCan run infinitely faster
Than my doubtTo carry me to my destination.
```A soulful smile
Is definitely a signOf love-devotion-surrender-progress.
```God tells me
That it is definitely possibleTo free my mind
From the tangle of brooding doubts. ```A selfless life is, indeed,
A beautiful and powerful experienceOf God Himself
Inside the seeker. ```There is not a single time
When the heart-flute does not playSweetness-melodies.
```God gladly and proudly
Adds beauty and fragranceTo each service-moment
Of my life. ```Where is abiding security?
It is onlyInside our oneness-heart.
```If your life becomes
A torrential rain of eagernessAnd intensity,
Then you are bound to becomeA tree of God-Satisfaction-fruits.
```Every day when I meditate,
God blesses meWith His own Heart-Silence-Whispers.
```To be an unaspiring mind
Is the beginningOf self-destruction.
```The disobedience of your darkness-mind
Will disappearWhen inside your heart
You discover your God-devotion-magnet. ```When we obey God’s Call,
God blessingfully invites usTo come
To His Heart-Kingdom. ```My small heart
Is nothing but frustrationAnd exasperation.
My big heartIs nothing but compassion
And illumination. ```If we can adorn
Our sacred heart-shrineWith love, devotion and surrender,
Then we shall never be blindedBy the desire-world.
```What is determination?
Determination is somethingThat conquers the undivine in us
For the full manifestationOf the divine in us.
```Oneness is ultimately
The full victoryOf our aspiration-heart
And dedication-life. ```Our throbbing
Aspiration-heartbeatsPlease God infinitely more
Than we can ever imagine. ```The mind never runs out of
Doubt-poison.The heart never runs out of
Faith-nectar. ```Our love of God
Chases the unwillingness-thiefFrom our mind.
```Surrender, surrender to God’s Will
Happily and proudly!Lo, all your frustration-tears
Have completely disappeared. ```Each seeker has to be armed
With indomitable determination.If not, he may sink
Into utter despairAlong the spirituality-road.
```The secret of sleepless aspiration
Lies in singing the songsOf Heavenly glory.
```It is not my self-confidence
But my God-relianceThat feeds my heart
With Infinity’s Joy. ```Finally,
My ignorance-vital-volcanoHas surrendered
To my wisdom-heart-garden. ```Each good thought of my mind
Immediately addsTo my perfection-qualities list.
```Every day I pray to God
To help me seeThe beauty and divinity
Of my silence-soul. ```What is obedience,
If not the first requisiteOf God-aspiration, God-realisation
And God-manifestation? ```I can cheer up my sad heart.
But alas,I can never tame my mad mind.
```Every day my Lord is eager
To help me growAspiration-heart-wings,
But alas, I am never ready. ```If we do not possess
The full measure of obedience-light,Then we shall never be able
To come out of ignorance-night. ```A God-server
Has to be a God-lover.He cannot be otherwise!
```God tells me
If I want to see His Compassion-Eye,Then I must sweep away
My mind’s confusion-dust. ```A constantly cheerful self-giver
To God’s WillIs the sweetest God-singer.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 249, Agni Press, 1998
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