Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 44

4301

```

When God came and told me

That He would make me

A perfect instrument of His,

I shared this good news

With my heart

Immediately. ```

4302

```

If you are really afraid

Of your dry mind,

Then why do you not offer it

To God’s Compassion-Eye?

He will transform your dry mind

Into His Vastness-Smile

And Calmness-Dance.

```

4303

```

My Lord Supreme,

Is it too late for me

To please You?

My Lord Supreme,

Is it too late for me

To claim You?

My Lord Supreme,

Is it too late for You

To make me Your choicest instrument?

```

4304

```

Do you not know

What is wrong with you?

I am telling you

What is wrong with you.

You do not allow God,

Your Inner Pilot,

To whisper in your ear

That you are a choice instrument

Of His.

```

4305

```

My earth-bound life

May not be certain,

But my self-giving heart

Is certain.

And what else is certain?

My arrival at my God-ordained

Destination

At God’s choice Hour. ```

4306

```

My Lord Supreme,

My heart-vessel is filled

With Your Love.

What can I have,

What will I have

To fill Your Heart-Vessel? ```

4307

```

God-success is attainable

On the strength of the seeker’s

Heart-progress.

```

4308

```

God has given you the capacity

To be His Dream-Wave

And kept for Himself the capacity

To be your Satisfaction-Shore. ```

4309

```

My seeker-friend,

This time do not find fault

With God.

Just give Him a chance,

Only once,

To redesign your life. ```

4310

```

You do not have to wait

For earthly fulfilment

To realise God.

To realise God

You do not have to wait

For anything.

Also, do not ask God

To wait for you.

Just keep your heart’s door wide open

And let Him enter.

His Compassion-Presence

Is your earthly and Heavenly fulfilment

All at once.

```

4311

```

For me there is no other way

To reach my goal

Than to claim God secretly

And openly

As my own, very own.

```

4312

```

There is only one rule

For God-realisation:

When God the Referee

Starts the game,

Just play and play and play

And never ask Him when to stop.

If you can play continuously,

Sleeplessly and endlessly

While being observed

By your Beloved Supreme,

Then God-realisation is bound to dawn.

```

4313

```

His mind lived

With success-illusion.

His heart lives

Only with progress-illumination. ```

4314

```

How can you receive

Your Beloved Supreme

When you have not allowed

Your own heart to receive you? ```

4315

```

If you are lost

In your mind-confusion,

Just mention soulfully only once

The Name of your sweetest Lord.

Not only will you come out

Of your mind-confusion,

But also your mind-confusion itself

Will be illumined. ```

4316

```

What is temptation?

Temptation is something

That unconsciously helps

The divine within us

To conquer the human in us.

```

4317

```

You will not be able to count

The number of times

You have delayed your meeting

With your Beloved Supreme. ```

4318

```

Do not lock your problem-door.

Break asunder your problem-door

By listening to your soul’s

Thunder-silence-voice. ```

4319

```

When God came to you,

You forgot to ask Him

Where He kept

His Forgiveness-Delight.

Therefore

Today your entire being is miserable. ```

4320

```

The idle cannot find God.

Therefore, God has to exert

Extra effort

To make the idle dynamic

So that God and they can enjoy

Mutual oneness-pride. ```

4321

```

God has sown His Promise-Seeds

Inside you.

Now He expects you to grow into

Nothing other than

His Satisfaction-Fruits.

```

4322

```

Selfless service

Keeps your faith in God

Sweeter than the sweetest

And makes your oneness-love

With God

Stronger than the strongest. ```

4323

```

For years and years

You have begged God unconsciously

To fulfil your venom-desires.

Now for a fleeting day

Can you not consciously thank God

That He has not fulfilled

Your venom-desires

Out of His infinite Bounty? ```

4324

```

God plays the role

Of the Satisfaction-Emperor

Only when He is able to address

An aspiring audience. ```

4325

```

He wants to learn from you

How to become another God,

How to love God

And how to serve Him

Soulfully and unconditionally.

```

4326

```

Unless you have

The willingness to transcend,

How can God grant you

His Satisfaction-Eye? ```

4327

```

Alas,

Your mind’s ignorance-island

Is surrounded by

Your helpless surrender-sea. ```

4328

```

O my heart’s silence-singer, sing!

How I wish I could learn

Some God-pleasing songs

From you. ```

4329

```

When I played the role

Of a giver,

I did not know what to give

Or how to give.

Now that I am playing the role

Of a taker,

I not only know how to take

But also what to take. ```

4330

```

An able man

Has confidence enough

To feel that his burdens

Cannot surpass his capacity. ```

4331

```

My first mistake was

I did not love God

Unconditionally.

My last mistake was

I did not rectify

My first mistake. ```

4332

```

Your mind wants

To deceive God.

Your heart longs

To receive God.

And you want God

To immortalise you

Either as a sinner or as a saint.

```

4333

```

If you have a seeker’s heart,

Then it is bound to vouch

For your soul’s victory.

```

4334

```

The mind’s hesitation

And the soul’s illumination

Can never be found together

In the same boat. ```

4335

```

I must improve the accuracy

Of my heart’s

Soulful aspiration-arrows.

```

4336

```

Your mind’s rising doubt-river

Must surrender to your heart’s

Expanding faith-sea.

```

4337

```

A humility-host

Has the unparalleled capacity

To soulfully bow

To any guest. ```

4338

```

God has kept

His Compassion-Pillow

All ready.

Now where is your head?

Where is it?

```

4339

```

His life’s helplessness-cry

Melts even

The coldest heart.

```

4340

```

Enough!

Do not stage any more

Your self-accusation-play.

The world is quite sick of it. ```

4341

```

Even God,

Not to speak of human beings,

Does not want to walk

On your mind’s slippery path. ```

4342

```

Not your naked sword

But your surrender-cries

Will be able to awaken

His heart. ```

4343

```

In the spiritual life

A surrender-life

Is the only source

Of a satisfaction-heart. ```

4344

```

If you want to live

Under God’s Protection-Canopy,

Then destroy the breath

Of your ego-prince. ```

4345

```

How is it

That there is such a yawning gulf

Between you

And your heart’s unswerving faith? ```

4346

```

You want to know

Where your gratitude-heart is.

Alas, it has gone to dig

Its own grave. ```

4347

```

It is not enough

To browse in God’s Bookstore.

You must buy at least one book

To illumine your heart. ```

4348

```

Who is the real culprit,

If not the strangling vital?

Who else,

If not the suspecting vital? ```

4349

```

Prosperity

Has made my heart beautiful.

Adversity

Is making my life powerful. ```

4350

```

You are a real saint

If you do not have the capacity

To delight in others’ despair.

```

4351

```

Unless you have totally forgotten

Your failure-past,

God is not going to invite you

To dine with Him. ```

4352

```

Since your heart knows how

To hear God’s Voice,

Can you not ask your mind, too,

To hear the Voice of God? ```

4353

```

How can you expect

Anything divine and perfect

From a non-seeker’s sterile life?

```

4354

```

The divinity

Of a purity-heart

Has always to be sought

And invited. ```

4355

```

His is the beautiful life-garden

That allows no weeds

To grow.

```

4356

```

When he dived deep within,

He realised

That God’s Silence-Heart

Is nothing other than

God’s Thunder-Voice.

```

4357

```

If you want to fly back

To your heart-nest,

Then be a conscious partner

Of your soul-bird. ```

4358

```

You want me to tell you

What kind of sword you need

To slay your ignorance.

I wish to tell you

That you need only one sword,

And that is your heart’s

Mountain-aspiration-cry,

Conscious and constant. ```

4359

```

As it was you

Who allowed your life

To be infested with delusions,

Even so, it is you

Who can inspire your life

To be flooded with illumination. ```

4360

```

To fly the Banner of the Supreme,

During the day I shall cry

With the cries of the Unknown

And at night I shall smile

With the smiles of the Unknowable.

```

4361

```

His vision-eye

Leaves nothing unseen.

His compassion-heart

Leaves nothing untouched.

His forgiveness-oneness

Leaves nothing unillumined. ```

4362

```

The other day my Beloved Supreme

Told me in secret

That when He put me on earth,

It was for His Amusement,

And when He puts me in Heaven,

It will be for His Enchantment. ```

4363

```

The strength of dissatisfaction

Cannot be measured.

It defies everything inspiring,

Aspiring and illumining. ```

4364

```

The joy of the heart

And the willingness of life

Shall eternally remain inseparable.

```

4365

```

The outer failure

Quite often embodies

The beauty of inner fulfilment-necessities.

```

4366

```

O seeker-friend of mine,

Pray daily, meditate daily.

Otherwise, you are bound to develop

A confidence-shattering fear

Deep inside you

That God-realisation

Is not meant for you.

```

4367

```

You have come to tell God

That you are going to love Him.

God says to you,

“My son, if you have the capacity

To love Me,

Then I have the capacity

To follow you.”

```

4368

```

I can easily dare to imagine

Everything in God’s entire creation,

But I am always afraid of imagining

Only one thing:

That God is really pleased with me.

```

4369

```

If you have a mind,

Then make it fertile.

If you have a fertile mind,

Then make it fertile

With something totally new:

God’s God-Will. ```

4370

```

Time and again

I have seen my heart’s sorrow

Serving my Beloved Supreme

Far beyond my imagination’s flight. ```

4371

```

He who has God’s Satisfaction-Heart

Already has God’s Compassion-Eye

As well.

```

4372

```

No star

Ever wants to blossom

In your mind’s

Tenebrous ego-sky. ```

4373

```

Do not worry!

God Himself

Will keep a flawless record

Of your self-transcendence-cries. ```

4374

```

I am learning something

Most important about delight.

Delight is the unparalleled

Transcendental Beauty

Of God’s Satisfaction-Heart.

```

4375

```

What God teaches you,

You have to prove to God

That you have learnt.

```

4376

```

God needs you.

Therefore, He has forgotten

Everything else.

You want God.

Therefore, you have to forget

Everything else.

```

4377

```

Do you see

What you are becoming?

You are undoubtedly becoming

Happier today

Than you were

The day before yesterday. ```

4378

```

The Love-Sea of our Beloved Supreme

Invites all soulful seekers.

What for?

To swim sleeplessly,

Not to sink immediately.

```

4379

```

Do you not think

It is high time for you

To worship another God

Than your ego-god? ```

4380

```

You want to please God

In His own Way,

But you do not know how.

But do you not think

That God will give you

The capacity,

Since He has already given you

The aspiration

To please Him in His own Way?

```

4381

```

You are such a fool!

You are devoting your life to the God

That you do not want to become

Instead of to the God

That you actually want to become.

```

4382

```

Each God-beginning

Marks not a man-end

But God’s Self-Transcendence.

```

4383

```

If you are desperate

To realise God,

No, not even the most powerful titan

Can keep you separate

From God’s Oneness-Smile

And Satisfaction-Dance. ```

4384

```

A silence-seeker

Needs only the fragrance

Of his own self-giving heart

To enter the Heart-Garden

Of his Beloved Supreme.

```

4385

```

If you are a soulful seeker

And if you enjoy wishful thinking,

Then God loves you powerfully

Along with your wishful God-thinking. ```

4386

```

You commit Himalayan blunders

Almost every day.

But when God’s swift Justice-Blow

Is upon you,

You do not want to accept it

As His Compassion-Touch.

Today’s Justice-Blow of God

Is tomorrow’s Illumination-Touch

For you.

```

4387

```

You want to represent God,

But are you sure that God wants

To present you to the world

As His choice gift? ```

4388

```

In my life-house

I have quite a few rooms

To live in,

But God wants to live with me

Only in my heart-room.

```

4389

```

To misuse God’s

Compassion-Smiles

Is to lose them

Forever. ```

4390

```

A life of success

You have been.

Can you not prepare yourself

To be a heart of progress? ```

4391

```

You want to know

What you should desire from God.

I am telling you to ask God

To free you from your desire-slavery. ```

4392

```

You are miserable

Because you have

Deliberately abandoned

Your heart-child. ```

4393

```

Before, he begged

For satisfaction-alms.

Now he is ready to be satisfied

Simply with aspiration-alms. ```

4394

```

To see a doubt-free mind

He is prepared to go

To the farthest part

Of the world. ```

4395

```

Not where I meet God

But when I meet God

Is of supreme importance

To me. ```

4396

```

How can you fail God

When He Himself wants you to be

A passenger

In His Heart-Boat? ```

4397

```

Disobedience,

The deadliest weapon,

Has destroyed the human in him

And ignored the divine in him. ```

4398

```

If you disown your doubt-sky,

Then God will help you own

Your faith-sun.

```

4399

```

Every day

My soul sings God-songs

For me and my heart,

And we are measurelessly enlightened

By them.

```

4400

```

My Lord Supreme,

I have not realised You,

I may not realise You

In this lifetime.

But will You not do me

A big favour?

Will You not give me the capacity

To love You,

Only love You, only love You?

```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Twenty-Seven Thousand Aspiration-Plants, part 44, Agni Press, 1984
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