My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 10

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My Lord asks me

How I can be so low

That I want to give Him

A solo performance.

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APR 920. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 14 December 2001.↩

2

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God the Eye

Feeds my God-aspiration-hunger.

God the Heart

Feeds my God-manifestation-hunger. ```

3

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Nothing else is our birthright

Save and except

Our inner delight.

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4

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The more possessions,

The more processions.

The less outer prosperity,

The more inner divinity. ```

5

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God comes down

From His transcendental Height

To measure my heart,

And not

To measure my house.

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6

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God’s visible Love for me

Is my sleepless service-life. ```

7

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I must transform

All my mind-stories

Into my God-pleasing

Heart-songs. ```

8

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The soil of faith

And the seed of love

Receive from God

His transcendental Blessings

And Pride.

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9

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God cries and cries

When the fulfilment of our desires

Gives us endless pleasures.

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10

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We must not ask God

Why, how, when and where.

We must tell God

That we are sleeplessly ready

With our eagerness-heart

To please Him in His own Way. ```

112

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In our heart-garden,

Each flower reminds us

Of our meditation-hours.

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APR 930. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 16 December 2001.↩

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Every morning

We shall have to make a choice:

Either to remain in our mind-sighs

Or in our heart-skies. ```

13

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Only the God-devotion-heart-seekers

Are allowed to drink deep

God’s Affection-Ambrosia.

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14

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Infinitely more concern has to bloom

In the heart of Heaven.

Then only

Peace will blossom

On the lap of Mother Earth.

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15

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May my heart beat sleeplessly

Only for the full manifestation

Of my Lord Beloved Supreme

Here on earth. ```

16

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The heart is a dream.

The soul is the dreamer.

God is the Reality-Bridge

Between the heart-dream

And the soul-dreamer.

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17

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Greatness likes to sit.

Goodness likes to stand.

Selflessness likes to serve the world

While sitting and while standing. ```

18

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When the talkers begin to listen

To the Inner Pilot,

This world will be flooded

With God-lovers and God-servers. ```

19

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God loves our small jokes,

But He never likes our big jokes.

Our biggest joke is:

God does not need us. ```

20

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God does not want me to be

A slave to my every desire.

He wants me to be

A master-fulfiller of every promise. ```

21

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Every morning

God’s Compassion-Eye descends

And helps me fly

To far horizons of self-transcendence. ```

223

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In my outer life,

God is His Compassion-Eye.

In my inner life,

God is His Inspection-Eye.

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APR 941. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 18 December 2001.↩

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My mind,

Do not dare to delay

My heart’s blooming.

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24

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Every day

My Lord pilots my life-boat

Between the shore of my heart’s tears

And the shore of my soul’s smiles. ```

254

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Each time I offer my heart-tears

To my Lord Supreme,

He immediately comes one step closer

To my life.

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APR 944. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 19 December 2001.↩

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Each time I offer my life-smiles

To my Lord,

He immediately grants me a visa

To enter into a new country

In His universal Life.

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27

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My Lord,

I would like to remain

Eternally a server of Yours,

And I do not want to become

Your Eternity’s partner.

“My child,

Then your heart will be empty

Of My Love,

Your life will be empty

Of My Concern

And your breath will be empty

Of My Satisfaction.

My child,

If you become My partner,

Then you will take so much

Of My world-transforming responsibility.”

My Lord, forgive me.

I shall abide by Your Request. ```

28

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Each self-giving life

Is a very special God-emissary

Here on earth.

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29

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The inner life

Is a blissful dream.

The outer life

Is a painful reality. ```

30

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Like my soul,

I must become

A bliss-discoverer

And

A doubt-invader.

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31

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My aspiration is not a substitute

For God-manifestation.

My meditation is not a substitute

For God-manifestation.

My constant God-oneness-life

Is an infallible substitute

For God-manifestation.

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325

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We must sing

All our God-manifestation-songs

While paving

Our golden life-road.

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APR 951. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 20 December 2001.↩

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My heart’s God-obedience-flower

Must forever last.

My life’s God-obedience-hour

Must forever last.

My mind’s God-obedience-tower

Must forever last. ```

34

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Every day

I must self-givingly bend and kneel

Before the Will

Of my Absolute Lord Beloved Supreme. ```

35

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Only one thing is needed —

A oneness-heart —

For peace to bloom and blossom

On the lap of Mother Earth. ```

36

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My mind wants to interpret

All my dreams.

My heart wants to love

All my dreams.

My soul wants to fulfil

All my dreams. ```

37

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In my outer life,

My Lord wants me to be

His inspiration-voice.

In my inner life,

My Lord wants me to be

His aspiration-choice. ```

38

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My day I begin

With my God-obedience-nectar-drink.

My night I begin

With my God-surrender-nectar-drink. ```

39

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My aspiration-sunrise-shore

Is inside my heart,

And nowhere else.

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40

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Our God-gratitude-road

Is absolutely safe,

And it is never

Overcrowded. ```

41

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When I am in my mind,

My mind gives me what it has:

Sighs.

When I am in my heart,

My heart gives me what it is:

Delight. ```

426

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My Lord compels me

To sleep.

He promises

To remain awake.

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APR 961. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 21 December 2001.↩

43

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My faith clears my way

To God’s Palace.

My love shortens my way

To God’s Palace. ```

44

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I take most valuable lessons

From my past failures. ```

45

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Real forgiveness

Does not remember

The past.

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46

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My heart-tears

And my soul-smiles

Are discovering everything

That my Lord has kept hidden

From me.

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47

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The hour of struggle

Is powerful.

The hour of victory

Is blissful.

The Hour of God

Is Godful. ```

48

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I love.

That means I am ready to trust.

I trust.

That means I am not sure

Whether I shall love or not.

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49

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My Lord tells me

That there is only one safe place

For me,

And that place

Is His Heart-Home.

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50

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When God is in my heart,

I start the race.

When I am in God’s Heart,

I complete the race. ```

51

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My soul is asking me

Not to be afraid

Of the unknown tomorrow,

For my soul is already there. ```

527

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The Golden Boat

Has just arrived.

I must go

Immediately.

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APR 971. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 22 December 2001.↩

53

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I love to fly

On the blue-gold wings

Of my selfless God-service.

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54

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When the heart speaks to you,

Take it as an infallible

And invaluable truth.

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55

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God’s Forgiveness-Power

Has shattered

All my mind-boundaries.

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56

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Cheerfully and sleeplessly

I must cultivate

The art of a oneness-heart.

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57

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Each divine thought

Is a new God-fulfilment-promise

Of my heart.

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58

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My Lord,

The fragrance of Your Compassion-Eye

Is all I need

To become a choice instrument

Of Yours.

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598

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My Lord Beloved Supreme

Gives me His tearful Eye

And sorrowful Heart

To carry with me

When I go back

To my old desire-land.

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APR 978. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 23 December 2001.↩

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Sincerity-prayers succeed.

They do not fail. ```

61

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O seeker,

You are such a fool!

How do you expect your mind-forest

To be without desire-thorns? ```

62

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My God-Friend

Has been indefinitely waiting

For my desire-friends

To leave me permanently. ```

63

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Selfless service is the golden bridge

Between this world of aspiration

And the world of God-realisation.

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64

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Alas,

When will I be able to meet

With my divine tutor,

My soul? ```

65

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God’s Compassion-Eye

And His Forgiveness-Heart

Know what I do and what I have become,

Yet His Love for me

Is always on the increase.

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66

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I may not know

What God’s Eye looks like,

But I do know God’s Heart

Unmistakably plus perfectly. ```

67

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At long last,

Today I have given up

My God-disbelief-profession.

I have now seen

My life’s real teacher:

My illumination-soul. ```

689

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My Lord,

May my longing

For Your Smile, Compassion,

Love and Affection

Be sleepless and breathless.

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APR 987. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 24 December 2001.↩

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My Lord tells me

That my heart must not miss

Even a single opportunity

To be in His Presence. ```

70

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My Lord tells me

That He will meet me

At every point

Where my meditations

And my actions

Are inseparable. ```

71

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Unless I have convinced myself

That I am a supremely chosen child

Of my Master,

My Goal shall perpetually remain

A far cry.

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72

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God is always ready and eager

To remove the veil

That exists between Him and me,

But alas,

I enjoy watching the veil.

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73

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My Lord tells me

That He definitely wants me to have

Indomitable courage and strength,

But He wants to walk, march,

Run and sprint

All the time ahead of me

To reach the Goal.

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74

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My Lord,

I love You beyond measure!

“My child, I never thought

That you would be a perfect stranger

To truth.

If you really love Me,

Then you will leave

All you have and all you are

In My safe Hands.”

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75

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Alas, it is too late

For me to ask God

Where I can find Him,

When it will be the right time

And how I can please Him.

Now my desire-bound life and I

Can tell my Lord only this:

“O Lord, we love You.” ```

76

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My mind must live

In prayers.

My heart must live

In meditations.

Only then shall I be able to have

A full life of God-Beauty

And God-Fragrance.

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77

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My Lord tells me,

“My child,

Do not reverse the truth.

Dive deep within.

My Dictates are not binding you.

It is you who are binding My Dictates

And delaying My manifestation

Here on earth.” ```

Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered these prayers during his visit to Malaysia and Cambodia in December 2001.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 10, Agni Press, 2002
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/apr_10