Hope
Is a supreme necessity-qualityIn our God-aspiring life.
```APR 1158. These prayers were given in Ho Chi Minh City, Viet Nam — 12 January 2002.↩
My God-oneness-heart
Is earth’s representativeTo Heaven.
```My purity-heart-friend
Tells me what to doTo please God
All the time. ```My divinity-soul-friend
Teaches me how to becomeA supremely choice child
Of my Lord Beloved Supreme. ```My Compassion-flooded Lord
Tells me:“Not the distance travelled,
But the destination reached.” ```I badly failed God
In my God-aspiration-examination.Is it not surprising?
No!Is it not shocking?
Yes! ```Every morning my Lord,
God the eternal Beggar,Comes to me
For my two sincerity-eyesAnd one purity-heart.
```I live in between
My life’s soulful sobsAnd my heart’s blissful throbs.
```APR 1165. These prayers were given in Ho Chi Minh City, Viet Nam — 13 January 2002.↩
Today my heart is awakened
To the beauty and fragranceOf a oneness-world.
```I have zero tolerance
For those who constantlyFind fault
With my Lord Beloved Supreme. ```Alas,
Whenever I look for my mind,I find it in the grip
Of God-ingratitude. ```The mind has no time
For God’s Tears.The heart gives its whole life
To be inseparably oneWith God’s Tears.
```At every moment
We must be careful!Ruthless and baseless
Worries and anxietiesInvade our lives
When we enter intoOur mind-jungles.
```“Nothing remains the same for long.”
Not true!My unconditional
God-surrender-lifeAlways remains the same.
```APR 1171. These prayers were given in Ho Chi Minh City, Viet Nam — 14 January 2002.↩
My Lord,
How will I recognise YouIf or when You come to see me?
“My child,You will be able to recognise Me
EasilyFrom your ecstasy-flooded
Heart-throbs.” ```When we are aspiring
For divine qualities,There is no such thing
As too much. ```When we greedily crave
For earthly possessions,Each possession can decrease
Our God-hunger. ```If you think and feel
That you are working extremely,Extremely hard,
Just think of the Old ManUpstairs in Heaven.
Your embarrassmentShall beggar description.
```Today’s God-adoration
Invariably tomorrowBecomes God-destination.
```All my prayers
And all my meditationsHave only one secret desire
Inside them:God-fulfilment in God’s own Way.
```To my greatest joy,
Every day my God-oneness-heartAnd my man-oneness-life
Are expanding.```
APR 1178. These prayers were given in Ho Chi Minh City, Viet Nam — 16 January 2002.↩
To fulfil our heart’s
Every divine need,God Himself
Comes down. ```In the doubting and suspecting
Mind-jail,It is extremely difficult
For the seeker-heartTo survive.
```The mind-newspaper
Carries only accidents,Catastrophes, crimes,
Obscure and impure news. ```The heart-newspaper
Carries only the newsAbout the Supreme Lord,
About the cosmic godsAnd goddesses
And about the archangelsAnd angels.
```Each moment
Comes to our aspiration-heartWith a new God-fulfilment-dream.
```Today is the day for me
To step out of my mind’sSelf-imposed insecurity-prison.
```Every morning and evening
I am mesmerisedBy God’s Self-Transcendence-Vision-Beauty-Eye.
```The mind lends.
The heart gives.The body and the vital
Do not giveAnd do not take.
```God is extremely proud of Himself
And extremely proud of meWhen He sees my life
In between His FriendshipAnd His Partnership.
```My Lord,
I cannot stop thinking of You,Although I may not think of You
All the timeEither highly or gratefully.
```APR 1188. These prayers were given in Ho Chi Minh City, Viet Nam — 17 January 2002.↩
There is a constant battle
Between God’s Pride in meAnd my own disappointment
With my life. ```Invincible faith
And nothing elseA seeker needs
In his spiritual life. ```The moment we enter
Into God’s Boat,He promises us
In His own inimitable WaySmooth sailing
On His Oneness-Fulness-Sea. ```My Lord tells me
That real spiritualityHas nothing to do
With idle and useless curiosities. ```My Lord,
Do tell me,How long can You ignore
The streaming tearsOf my broken heart?
“My child,There shall come a time
When I shall be able to prove to youThat My Kindness is always flooded
With My Wisdom-Light.” ```Spirituality’s heart-home
Is absolutely the wrong placeFor those who are craving
For world-supremacy.Spirituality’s heart-home
Is absolutely the right placeFor those who are longing
Only for God-intimacyAnd God-oneness.
```My gratitude-heart-tears
Do not fall down.They just fly up
High, higher, highestTo my Lord’s Heart-Home.
```My Lord,
Do give me the capacityTo devour the dust of Your Feet
Speedily and completely. ```My heart’s sobbing whispers
Reach my Lord’s HeartWith lightning speed.
```I wish to find my life
In between my aspiration-intensityAnd my Lord’s
Compassion-Immensity. ```God comes
Closer and closerTo my heart-tears.
```God becomes
Dearer and dearerTo my life-smiles.
```Alas,
Why do I liveIn my unlit mind-cave,
And notIn my fully illumined heart-home?
```In the morning
God examinesMy mind’s purity
And my heart’s beauty.```
APR 1202. These prayers were given in Ho Chi Minh City, Viet Nam — 21 January 2002.↩
In the evening
God examinesMy life’s tolerance
And patience. ```In the morning
I soulfully gatherHope-petals.
```In the evening
I prayerfully sowSurrender-seeds.
```My Lord’s soulful Eye
Shelters my heart-beautyAnd my soul-fragrance.
```At night
My Lord wants me to countThe unconditional love-moments
That I had during the day. ```Insecurity and pride
Have the same source:Ego.
```My Mother India tells me:
“Silence, my son, silence!Silence in your inner life,
Silence in your outer life.”```
APR 1209. These prayers were given in Brunei Darussalam — 27 January 2002.↩
My Mother India tells me:
“My son,Sail your heart-boat, sail.
Do not use your mind-volcanoTo assail,
Do not — never!” ```My Mother India tells me:
“My son,Power is not the answer.
Compassion is not the answer.Even forgiveness is not the answer.
God’s Vision-Eye-FulfilmentIs the answer, the only answer.”
```My Mother India tells me,
“My son,The world-crisis will be over
Only when the strength of the mindCheerfully embraces
The power of the heart,And only God knows
When and how it will happen.But it will definitely happen,
In the very, very, very, veryDistant future.
Until then,All God-seekers of the world
Must pray sleeplesslyAnd meditate breathlessly
Only for God’s Victory.” ```I must blame myself
And not the worldFor not taming
My undivine mind.I must blame myself
And not the worldFor not feeding
Regularly, cheerfully, proudlyMy God-hungry heart.
```We all must be careful,
Very careful!The patience of the world-soul
Is wearing thin, very thin. ```I want my life to revolve only
Around God-made yoga.Yoga means union,
Union with God,Union with God’s Will.
```I love and fulfil
The silence-whisper-messagesOf my soul.
```My imagination-mind,
Wake up, wake up!Sleep no more.
My aspiration-heart,Climb up, climb up!
Delay no more, delay no more!My dedication-life,
God Himself is watching.Be careful, be careful!
```My Lord has commanded
Hope, enthusiasm, encouragement,Promise and fulfilment
To accompany me wherever I go. ```My Lord,
What does prayer do?“My child,
Prayer makes and keepsYour heart-day bright.”
```APR 1219. These prayers were given in Brunei Darussalam — 28 January 2002.↩
My Lord,
What does meditation do?“My child,
Meditation makes and keepsYour mind-night illumined.”
```My Lord,
What does gratitude do?“My child,
Gratitude makes and keepsYour heart sweet and pure.”
```My Lord,
What does surrender do?“My child,
Surrender makes you feelThat you are absolutely Mine,
And also your surrender makes Me feelThat I am absolutely yours.”
```My Lord, what shall I do
With my stark enemies?“My child, if you really love Me,
If you really need Me,Then you will have nothing,
Nothing, nothing to doWith your enemies.”
```My Lord, some friends
Who have betrayed meAnd are no longer with me,
And some friends who areStill with me
But mix with themAnd talk with them
And receive wild and absurd gossipAnd spread it all around:
What shall I do with them?“My child, your time on earth
Is extremely precious.Throw them out of your heart,
Throw them out of your mind,And throw them out of your life
Immediately.You do not need
These so-called friends.” ```My Lord, please, please tell me
Who are my real enemies?“My child, your real enemies
Are those who areIngratitude incarnate.”
```My Lord Beloved Supreme,
When do I give You utmost joy?“My child,
When you claim only MeAs your own, very own.”
```APR 1226. These prayers were given in Brunei Darussalam — 29 January 2002.↩
My Lord Beloved Supreme,
When do I give You utmost pain?“My child,
When you tell me unthinkable things,Such as you are worthless,
You are hopelessAnd you are useless.”
```My Lord Beloved Supreme,
Am I really worthy of You?“My child,
Have you nothing better to doThan to hurl an insult at me?
I am your Creator.You are My creation.
It is My bounden ResponsibilityTo mould you and shape you
In My own Image.You have just to love Me unreservedly
And, if it is possible, unconditionally.Be happy. Remain happy.
Your zenith-perfection-lifeIs My sole Responsibility.”
```My soul is a perpetual
God-manifestationAnd
God-satisfaction-promise-hunger. ```My outer success
Takes a very, very long timeTo reach my Lord’s
Heavily burdened Ears. ```My inner progress
Sooner than at onceReaches my Lord’s
Eager Ears. ```My Lord,
Do You ever get tired?“My child, I do.
I get tired when I readThe lengthier than the lengthiest
Complaint-list from My childrenAgainst My creation.”
```My Lord Beloved Supreme,
Out of Your infinite Bounty,You have made me
A mountain-success.Now I pray to You to make me
A fountain-progress. ```My Lord Beloved Supreme,
Today I have a volley of questions.“My child, I am all ready.”
My Lord,Where does my obedience stand
In my spiritual life?“My child, your obedience
Is your pre-school course.”My Lord,
Where does my love standIn my spiritual life?
“My child, your loveIs the kindergarten course.”
My Lord,Where does my devotion stand
In my spiritual life?“My child, your devotion
Is the primary school course.”My Lord,
Where does my surrender stand?“My child, your surrender
Is your high school course.”My Lord,
My unreserved surrender,Where does it stand?
“My child,Your unreserved surrender
Is your college course.”My Lord,
My unconditional surrender,Where does it stand?
“My child,Your unconditional surrender
Is your university course.”My Lord,
Where does my sleepless, breathlessAnd unconditional surrender stand?
“My child,That is your Ph.D. course.”
```APR 1234. These prayers were given in Brunei Darussalam — 30 January 2002.↩
My Lord,
When I exploit Your indulgence,What happens to me?
“My child,You are the one to feel and know
What happens when you exploitMy indulgence.”
My Lord,We all talk about self-indulgence.
What actually is self-indulgence?“My child,
Self-indulgence drastically reducesThe God-oneness-dream-capacity.”
```My Lord,
Will I ever be able to please YouIn Your own Way?
“My child,You will be able to please Me
In My own WayOnly when you live on earth
Only for me,And not for your doubting,
Criticising, suspecting, torturingAnd annihilating mind.”
```From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 13, Agni Press, 2002
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