My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 14

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A birthday

Is the blossoming

Of a new

Consciousness-delight-dream.

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APR 1237. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 3 February 2002.↩

2

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The world demands

The very best from me. ```

3

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My Lord desires

To have

Everything of mine.

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4

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The final and last choice

Has to be made here and now.

No more chances

Shall be granted. ```

5

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Not my outer belief,

But my inner faith

That decides who God is,

Where God is

And what God actually expects

From my life. ```

6

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The outer success

Reaches the fleeting

Pride-crown-destination.

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7

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The inner progress

Reaches the abiding

Happiness-throne-goal.

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8

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What we have

Is a false outer smile.

What we need

Is a sincere inner cry. ```

9

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An open mind

Is a very rare achievement.

A God-surrender-life

Is a God-achievement. ```

102

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I must examine

The beauty and fragrance

Of my own happiness-heart

Before I offer them

To humanity’s heart.

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APR 1246. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 4 February 2002.↩

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My knowledge-light

Is the quantity-beggar.

My wisdom-delight

Is the quality-chooser.

My Lord Supreme tells me

Not to worry.

He will gladly take care of

The beggar in me

And the chooser in me.

I just have to love Him only

And need Him only.

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12

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To me, the highest height

Is not the happiest privilege,

But the greatest and heaviest

Responsibility. ```

13

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My Lord has chosen

My utterly insignificant life

To accomplish the impossible:

The full manifestation of God

Here on earth.

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14

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If my life really desires

To be a God-server,

Then God’s Heart will be

My life’s untiring supplier. ```

15

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I measure my life-boundaries.

My Lord counts only

My heart-garden-flowers.

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16

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There are God-doubters.

There are God-believers as well.

Who can prevent me

From being a God-believer,

And who can prevent me

From being a God-lover,

A God-server

And, finally, a God-manifester? ```

17

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In God’s Eye

I am never insignificant.

In God’s Heart

I am eternally and infinitely

More significant

Than I can ever imagine. ```

18

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My life-book begins with

The God-aspiration-chapter

And ends with

The God-realisation-chapter. ```

19

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The heart has another name:

Aspiration.

The mind has another name:

Suspicion.

The vital has another name:

Restlessness.

The body has another name:

Idleness.

Life has another name:

Uncertainty.

Man has another name:

Complexity.

The soul has another name:

Observer.

God has another Name:

Forgiver. ```

203

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My Lord blessingfully whispers.

Alas, I pay no attention.

My soul compassionately whispers.

Alas, I pay no attention.

My heart lovingly whispers.

Alas, I pay no attention.

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APR 1256. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 5 February 2002.↩

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My mind speaks to me.

I immediately obey.

My vital speaks to me.

I proudly obey.

My body speaks to me.

I lovingly obey.

Alas, when shall I stop

Obeying them, when?

Alas, when shall I be

The choice instrument

Of my Lord Supreme, when?

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22

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In this life

I need only one qualification:

God-obedience.

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23

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Only one thing

I shall never, never, never desire:

God-disobedience.

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24

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My God-obedience

Is my God-closeness.

My God-disobedience

Is my God-aloofness. ```

25

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My God-satisfaction

Asks my God-obedience

To run side by side with it

All the time. ```

26

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My God-defiance

Bravely marches along the road

That has no goal.

My God-disobedience

Proudly follows my God-defiance.

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27

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We cannot merit

God’s Transcendental Consciousness

And His Universal Consciousness,

But we can inherit and do inherit

His Transcendental Consciousness

And His Universal Consciousness. ```

28

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My outer beauty

Attracts and welcomes

All the hostile forces of the world.

My inner beauty

Frightens and transforms

All the hostile forces of the world. ```

29

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If I am a real God-lover,

Then I must always remember

That God the Power infinite

Is my constant helper. ```

30

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I love God.

This may be an iota of truth.

God loves me.

Indeed, this is the bloom of truth,

And this is the blossom of truth.

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314

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I dare and dare to say

That my Lord and I

Love each other intensely

And care for each other immensely.

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APR 1267. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 6 February 2002.↩

32

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God wants only

The selflessness-hearts

To broadcast His most glorious

Life-Activities here on earth. ```

33

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God tells me that spirituality

Is not something fanatic,

Fantastic, eccentric and idiotic,

But really realistic and idealistic. ```

34

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My prayers and I

Together

Climb and climb.

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35

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My meditations and I

Together

Dive and dive.

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36

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My life is absolutely safe

Only when I can remain seated

At the Feet of my Lord Supreme.

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37

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The inner worlds

And the outer world

Are clashing and crashing together.

Yet my Beloved Lord Supreme

Has kept me

Absolutely unshaken. ```

38

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Alas,

In an unknown and mysterious way,

We cherish our endless

Worries and anxieties. ```

39

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In the battlefield of life,

My Lord has granted my heart-tears

The supreme victory

Over the darkest ignorance-night. ```

40

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Only inside the heart of silence

Does God give us

His Nectar-flooded Smile.

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415

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My Absolute Lord Supreme,

I love You, I really do,

But the Cosmic Game

That You play with me

Is so confusing.

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APR 1277. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 7 February 2002.↩

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“My child,

I love you, I really do,

But the earthly game

That you play with Me

Is so uninspiring.”

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43

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I prayerfully offer my Lord Supreme

The streaming tears of my heart.

My Lord Supreme blessingfully Offers me

The beaming Smiles of His Heart. ```

44

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The mind, the vital and the body

Ruthlessly attack

The poor and pure heart,

But they eventually

And deplorably lose.

Why?

Because God always

Takes the side of the heart. ```

45

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This morning

My Lord Absolute

Compelled me to discard

My long-cherished ignorance-mask. ```

46

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I am the owner

Of sincerity-weakness-tears.

God is the Owner

Of Forgiveness-Divinity-Smiles.

God is commanding me to barter

My tears for His Smiles,

And I immediately obey.

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47

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O Heaven, do accept

What I have to offer:

My prayers.

O earth, do accept

What I have to offer:

My service. ```

48

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Spiritually my soul is fully grown

Precisely because for centuries

My soul has been sowing

God-Smiles and God-Ecstasies

In every heart.

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49

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My outer life loves

The success-dance.

My inner life loves

The progress-song.

I love my Lord’s

Victory-Banner. ```

506

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My only desire is to obey

My Lord Absolute Supreme

All the time

With a flower-pure heart.

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APR 1286. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 8 February 2002.↩

51

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God tells me that

I do not need His Permission

Before I trust others,

But I do need

His express Permission

Before I distrust others. ```

52

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In the spiritual life,

To see humanity

Without the heart of beauty

And purity

Is the height of stupidity.

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53

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A caring heart

Is a daring glory. ```

54

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My life and I

Faithfully follow

The tears

Of my ever-climbing heart. ```

55

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There is a sure way

To make oneself happy,

And that way is to bury the past

In oblivion-cave. ```

56

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The aspiring heart

Is always an open door

To a new God-hope

And a new God-promise. ```

57

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Alas, it is not God,

But it is I

Who have forsaken myself.

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58

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There are many paths to reach

The God-Summit-Heights.

Each path is absolutely right

In its own way.

But my heart and I have chosen

The path of love, devotion

And surrender.

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59

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Our heart-aspirations

And

Our life-dedications

Are very carefully examined

By God Himself

Before He allows us to live

In His Infinity’s Heart-Home.

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607

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At last,

At the very peak,

I discover what I seek.

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APR 1296. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 9 February 2002.↩

61

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O friendship-flower,

O friendship-flower,

Do not wither,

Do not wither. ```

62

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Come what may,

Come what may,

My heart must pray,

My heart must pray. ```

63

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No dead end,

No dead end.

Just a bend,

Just a bend. ```

64

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My Lord gives me

A new lesson

At every hour

So that my heart can be

His Beauty’s flower.

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65

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God is not an iron rod,

God is not an iron rod.

Let us all go quickly,

Go to the Shelter of God. ```

66

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Meditation, meditation,

Meditation:

My God-preparation,

My God-preparation. ```

678

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No prayer, no prayer,

No prayer:

Life is an ignorance-lair.

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APR 1303. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 10 February 2002.↩

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No meditation, no meditation:

Life is an utter imperfection. ```

69

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Sound

Is man-cheering.

Silence

Is God-becoming. ```

70

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Life-river flows.

Patience-tree grows. ```

71

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Life is a thunder-gong.

Death is a silence-song. ```

72

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My life-story

Is painful.

My heart-song

Is Godful. ```

73

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What is peace?

The absence of selfishness.

What is bliss?

The presence of oneness. ```

749

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Wake up, my mind,

Wake up

To our Lord’s

Sweetness-Presence-Smile.

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APR 1310. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 11 February 2002.↩

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God’s nationality

Is a Self-Transcendence-Vision-Reality. ```

76

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God feels me

Only when

My heart kneels.

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77

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My bleeding heart-tears

Are my alarm clocks

To put an end

To my ignorance-slumber. ```

78

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My soul-smiles whisper,

And I arrive at God’s Heart-Door

Always on time.

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79

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Only a God-obedience-life

Receives from God

His real Reward:

His Heart of Infinity. ```

80

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My tears and my smiles

Have created my human life.

My God-promises

And my God-fulfilments

Are creating my divine life.

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8110

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Meditation means

The beginning of

A God-becoming-life.

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APR 1317. These prayers were given in Sabah, Malaysia — 14 February 2002.↩

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Meditation-sun shines

Around the clock

Throughout Eternity.

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83

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Peace-dreamers

Are

Heart-givers.

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84

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God warns us inwardly

Long before darkness comes down

Upon our lives.

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85

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O my ignorance-mind,

You can cherish your proud opinions,

But I shall cherish only

My God-union-heart-hunger. ```

86

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God never misses an opportunity

To tell the aspiration-hearts

That He is all for them.

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87

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My convictions

Are always founded upon

God-Opinions.

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88

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God wants only

My gratitude-heart-tears

To introduce me to Him.

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Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered These prayers during his visit to Malaysia in February 2002.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 14, Agni Press, 2002
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