My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 2

11

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Run, speedily run!

Covet, greedily covet

God-service-opportunities.

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APR 117. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 22 December 1999.↩

2

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My Lord,

Out of His infinite Bounty,

Pilots my life-boat

To His own Golden Shore. ```

3

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God begs us every day to study

The life-transformation-course

Given by Him.

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4

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Devotion is not

An emotional exuberance.

Devotion is

Our God-love-perfection

And our God-service-satisfaction.

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5

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I must never allow

My aspiration-heart

To be blighted

By God-doubts and self-doubts-

Even for a fleeting second.

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6

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May my present God-love,

God-devotion and God-surrender

Be dwarfed by my future giant

God-love, God-devotion

And God-surrender.

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7

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When my mind fails, my heart cries.

When my heart fails, my soul cries.

When my soul fails, my God cries.

When my God fails,

He tries again and again and again

Until He ultimately

And unmistakably succeeds.

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8

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As God's Forgiveness

Is not far away,

Even so, my life's absolutely new start

Must not take a long time. ```

9

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Day in and day out

God has made Himself available

So that He will not be assailable.

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10

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God loves and treasures

My sleepless selflessness

Infinitely more than

My uniqueness. ```

112

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A self-offering prayer

To God's Will

Is a most sacred sunrise

Upon my heart's horizon.

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APR 127. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 23 December 1999.↩

12

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God-seekers, God-lovers

And God-servers

Are definitely on the right track.

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13

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While asking ignorance-night

To get lost,

Alas, I find myself

Totally lost instead. ```

14

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Unlike our minds,

Our hearts are always

Deeply in love

With God's Sweetness-Will. ```

15

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I cried and cried

Pitifully and helplessly

When I saw God's Tolerance-Eye

Was narrowing. ```

16

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God's Eye receives

All the questions from me.

God's Heart immediately

Answers them. ```

17

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A sea of self-giving tears

Is needed

To open the floodgates

Of my inspiration-mind,

Aspiration-heart and dedication-life.

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18

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If I worship God's Feet,

Love God's Heart

And serve God's Eye,

Only then

My God-realisation-impossibility

Surrenders to me. ```

19

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My God-surrendered life

Is heading towards Heaven

To receive from God

His Infinity's Bliss. ```

20

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My deep ignorance-friendship

Is truly a great shock

For my Beloved Supreme.

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213

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I call it

My devotion-heart.

God calls it

His own living Body.

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APR 137. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 25 December 1999.↩

22

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Man's home in God's Heart

Is transient.

God's Home in man's heart

Is permanent. ```

23

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Without a devotion-ticket,

God does not allow any seeker

To participate

In His Cosmic Game. ```

24

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God loves everything of me,

Save and except

My indifference.

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25

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What I desperately need

Is a lion-roaring

Devotional life.

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26

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Alas,

I am a desire-boat

Without a boatman.

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27

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My meditation has taught me

How to escape

From the desire-mind-prison.

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28

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As it is true

That I am not God,

Even so, it is quite true

That I love God only. ```

29

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My unconditional

God-surrender-life

Is a high jump

Into Infinity's Immortality. ```

30

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A self-loving man

Is a half man and a half animal.

A God-loving man

Is not only a full man

But also a half God.

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314

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The greatness-mind

Of the Father Heaven

I wish to see.

The goodness-heart

Of the Mother Earth

I wish to become.

```

APR 147. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 26 December 1999.↩

32

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O God-seeker, be careful!

Your sacred compassion-heart

May be nothing other than

Your secret attachment-life. ```

33

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My Lord Beloved Supreme

Tells me

That everything I need

Is within the limitless orbit

Of my love divine.

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34

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No oneness-heart-love

Can ever be found

Inside the mind's abysmal abyss.

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35

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My mind's sincere God-acceptance

And God-surrender

Are, indeed, two great surprises

For my God-loving

And God-surrendering heart.

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36

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No tremendous zeal

Of a seeker's heart,

No true God-satisfaction-

Never! ```

37

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Alas, alas!

My mind's surrender

To God's Will

Is unthinkably overdue. ```

38

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I am absolutely sure

That my God-faith

Shall stand the test of time.

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39

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May all God-seekers,

God-dreamers and God-lovers

Be peace and bliss-melodies

To the aspiring world. ```

40

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O my desire-beggar-mind,

Step back from the public eye,

Step back from the spotlight.

Lo and behold,

God's boundless Pride-Heart

Is beckoning you. ```

415

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I have made my sleepless

And breathless commitment

Only to my Lord Beloved Supreme.

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APR 157. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 27 December 1999.↩

42

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My crying and smiling heart

Is a very important member

Of God's immediate Family.

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43

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My hopes are no match

For God's continuously

Torrential Blessings

Upon my devoted head

And surrendered life.

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44

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God's Pride in me is unlimited

When He sees even a partial death

Of my ego-life.

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45

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At long last

My heart has come to learn

How to implore and invoke

My Lord's express Presence. ```

46

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My inspiration-mind breathes

The breath of the earth.

My aspiration-heart breathes

The breath of Heaven.

I breathe the Breath

Of my Absolute Lord Supreme. ```

47

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My life of constant God-obedience

Entirely depends on the intensity-heart

Of my love for God.

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48

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I am

My mind's proud achievement.

My surrender-heart is

A most sublime achievement of God. ```

49

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What I desperately need

Is a God-sanctified heart

And not a computerised mind.

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50

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Alas, my disobedience-mind

Has completely muddled and polluted

The most charming

And the most peaceful pond

Of my heart.

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51

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My oneness-heart

Is God's infinite Breath.

God's Sadness-Eye

Is my immediate death. ```

526

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My Lord,

Out of Your infinite Bounty,

You have allowed me

To be a frequent visitor

To Your Forgiveness-Heart.

```

APR 168. These prayers were given in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil — 30 December 1999.↩

53

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My Lord,

The human in me

Wants to need countless things.

The divine in me

Wants to need You only.

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54

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My Lord,

When I obey You cheerfully,

I immediately become

The full Bloom of Heaven. ```

55

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O my mind,

You are such a fool!

You are forcing

Our Lord Beloved Supreme

To please you in your own way.

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56

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Alas, every day

We are squandering our Lord's

Blessing-flooded opportunities.

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57

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We must smile

With our God-ordained commitments

Long before we can shine

With our enlightenments. ```

58

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What is my self-doubt,

If not a formidable rival

Of my Lord's faith in me?

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59

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The aspiring heart knows

That there is a way out

Of every dark mind-corner.

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60

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God tells me that

My God-service-happiness

Can easily equal

God's Heaven-Happiness. ```

617

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My Lord,

You can do anything You want to

Except one thing:

You cannot escape my surrender-life.

```

APR 177. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 31 December 1999.↩

62

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God wants me to climb

Every day without fail

My life's spiritual progress-staircase.

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63

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My Lord,

May my inspiration-eyes

And my aspiration-heart

Every day long for a newness-dawn. ```

64

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My Supreme is telling me

That one disobedience-moment

Can give birth

To lifelong misery. ```

65

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God is extremely happy with me

And extremely proud of me

Even when I offer Him

My belated gratitude-heart. ```

66

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I want my heart

To be God's sleepless

Victory-drummer.

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67

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All the disciplines of the mind

Have to be tightened

If we truly want to expedite

Our Godward journey. ```

68

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My heart-home belongs

To God alone.

I shall not allow anybody

To trespass. ```

69

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Every day my heart and I

Write a book of devotion

With my devotional songs.

My God the Pride

Every day publishes it.

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70

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I must never, never

Spin out of

My God-Compassion-obedience-orbit.

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718

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My Lord Supreme,

Here and now

Do give me the capacity

To love You and need You only.

```

APR 187. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 1 January 2000.↩

72

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I am so ashamed of my mind.

It specialises in doubting

My Lord Beloved Supreme.

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73

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

Long before I prayerfully

And soulfully

Touched the dust of Your Feet,

You had firmly caught my heart.

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74

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My Lord,

With Your Love

I become a fulness-heart.

Without Your Love

I become Eternity's nothingness itself.

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75

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My aspiring heart

Accepts everything divine

Infinitely faster than

My unaspiring mind can reject. ```

76

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At long last

I have come to learn

That my loneliness-life

Is, indeed,

My heart-destruction-blow.

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77

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My Lord tells me that

My heart's soulful smile

Is my love divine in action.

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78

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We must never allow

Our God-manifestation-dreams

To gather dust.

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79

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Every day God wants

My God-searching mind

And my God-crying heart

To communicate. ```

80

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My happiness-heart paves

The clearest and brightest road

To my God-Destination.

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819

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Today God has given me

A new name:

An ever-blazing enthusiasm-sun.

```

APR 197. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 2 January 2000.↩

82

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The desiring mind

Does not need God.

The aspiring heart needs God,

But it is too impatient to wait

For God's blessingful Arrival.

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83

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May my God-fulfilment-promise-boat

Sleeplessly sail

In my heart-river.

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84

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Paradise is where

God asks my heart to cry,

And I ask God's Eye to smile.

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85

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May my heart be

An ever-blossoming

Purity-temple-flower.

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86

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O my mind, can you not see

That your prayerful and soulful attention

To our Lord Supreme

Is overdue? ```

87

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A minute out of

My Beloved Lord's Boat

Is a well-deserved, lifelong punishment.

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88

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I call it

My God-obedience-heart.

God calls it

His Sweetness-Fondness-Nest. ```

89

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God wanted me, God wants me

And God will forever want me

To be His lion-roaring Power-Life.

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9010

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My divinity's heart

Lives far beyond

The sea of time.

```

APR 206. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 3 January 2000.↩

91

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My life loves the beauty

Of the finite.

My heart enjoys the fragrance

Of the Infinite. ```

92

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When life knocked

At my door,

Joy accompanied my life.

When death shall knock

At my door,

Peace shall accompany my death. ```

93

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God's Forgiveness-Heart

Perhaps has time to waste,

But not God's Justice-Eye-

Never! ```

94

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God Himself cradles

My devotion-heart

In His Power-Blessing-Arms.

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95

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Mine is the life

Of sleepless and breathless surrender.

God's is the Heart

Of priceless and tireless Satisfaction. ```

96

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May my mind always remain empty

Of freedom.

May my heart be always full

Of God-surrender

And God-oneness-freedom.

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97

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A universe of book knowledge

Cannot quench even an iota

Of the heart's thirst for God.

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98

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I must trumpet

My soul-

The ignorance-challenger

And ignorance-conqueror. ```

99

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My mind,

The impossibility-sower,

Must finally surrender

To my heart,

The God-manifestation-fulfilment-grower.

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10011

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My aspiring heart prays and prays,

But it does not expect

Prayer-results

The way my desiring mind

Always does.

```

APR 216. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 4 January 2000.↩

101

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No enthusiasm-light,

No progress-delight.

No progress-delight,

No God-satisfaction.

No God-satisfaction,

Life is death itself

For a God-seeker.

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102

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God appears before me

And nears me

And finally enters into my heart

To see if my heart's streaming tears

Are fed.

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103

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My God-gratitude

And my God-surrender

Are two divine seeds

That God Himself has sown

Inside my aspiring heart-garden.

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104

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Prayer is a drop

That flows into the meditation-ocean.

Meditation is a drop

That flows into the contemplation-ocean.

Contemplation is a drop

That flows into the God-realisation-ocean. ```

105

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God does not want

His Justice-Light

Forever to sleep

Because He does not want

His beautiful world

To meet with destruction. ```

106

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Only a fully awakened heart

Can make a God-climbing

Progress-delight-journey.

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107

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My Lord Supreme wants me to take

My morning beauty-walk

Not only in my heart-garden

But also in every heart-garden. ```

108

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My sleepless and breathless

God-devotion-heart

Is a fountain-ecstasy

In my Lord's Heart. ```

109

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Only a heart that is blessed

By God's Compassion-Eye

Can wipe away

The mind's frustration-tears. ```

11012

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My Supreme, my Supreme,

You are killing Yourself

To please me.

The least I can do

Is give You a sweet smile

From my heart.

```

APR 226. These prayers were given in Curtiba, Brazil — 5 January 2000.↩

111

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My Lord, I beg of You,

Do not delay any more.

May Your Heart-Sun break through

My thick mind-clouds. ```

112

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My Lord Beloved,

Day in and day out

You try so hard to make me happy.

Can I not try

To do the same for You,

At least once in a while? ```

113

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I need a sincerity-mind

And an intensity-heart

Desperately

To be worthy of my Lord's

Infinite Affection.

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114

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My only desire

Is to desire You,

My Beloved Lord Supreme,

And nothing else and nobody else

In this incarnation.

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115

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My Lord, from now on

And for the rest of my life,

I shall need only

The Compassion-Beauty

Of Your Eye

And the Satisfaction-Fragrance

Of Your Heart.

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116

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Alas,

Why is it so difficult

Either for us to conquer

Our doubting minds

Or to allow God to conquer

Our doubting minds

Once and for all?

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117

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God loves to enjoy

My simplicity-mind

And not my stupidity-mind.

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118

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A purity-heart

God treasures infinitely more

Than we can ever imagine.

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119

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God runs infinitely faster

Than the speed of light

To reach me

When He sees that my heart

Has a burning need for Him.

```

Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered these morning prayers during his visit to Brazil and Paraguay in December 1999 and January 2000. Ten different groups recited the prayers turn by turn three times, then twice, then once.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 2, Agni Press, 2000
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