My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 20

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My mind

Never wants to change.

It is I who have to force

My mind to change.

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APR 1722. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 16 January 2003.↩

2

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Heaven is not infinite miles

Above my head.

Heaven is right here,

Deep inside my God-gratitude-heart. ```

3

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God’s Desire and my desire

Have the same goal:

Love.

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4

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How can my limited mind

Ever experience

The beauty and majesty

Of my Absolute Lord Supreme? ```

5

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Nothingness and Infinity

Are the two shores

Of God’s Life Universal.

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6

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To my greatest surprise,

I seek freedom

And yet I love captivity.

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7

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Alas, we all are in love

With a real stranger-thief:

Ignorance.

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8

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In vain

Death, the finite,

Tries to hide

Life, the Infinite. ```

9

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The acceptance of Light

And the rejection of darkness

Must be done

With utmost sincerity,

Willingness and eagerness.

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10

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My heart is no more mine.

My heart is all Yours,

My Lord Beloved Supreme.

“My Heart is also no more Mine,

My sweetest child.

It is all yours,

Yours it was,

And yours it will forever be.” ```

112

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My Lord,

My prayers

Do not touch Your Heart.

My meditations

Do not touch Your Heart.

My cries

Do not touch Your Heart.

My tears

Do not touch Your Heart.

What else can I do, my Lord?

“My sweet child,

Patience, patience!

Wait for My choice Hour.”

```

APR 1732. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 17 January 2003.↩

12

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Never give up hope!

Hope ultimately succeeds. ```

13

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The unlit man

Is his mind.

The illumined man

Is his heart.

The perfect man

Is his soul. ```

14

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Fight against mankind —

You are a fool.

Fight against yourself —

You are a saint. ```

15

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My life belongs

To my faith.

My faith belongs

To God. ```

16

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Each pure thought

Is a strong bridge

To cross

To God’s Heart-Home. ```

17

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I wish to be

A God-loving heart

And not

A world-interesting man. ```

18

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Forget the past.

Guide and lead the present.

Tomorrow’s golden dawn

Will bless you and embrace you. ```

19

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Oneness from Above

Is sure illumination.

Oneness from below

Is sweet devotion. ```

203

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Only the aspiring heart

Has the capacity to bury itself

In the ambrosial Lap

Of its Beloved Supreme.

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APR 1741. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 18 January 2003.↩

21

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Only the unconditional

God-surrender-seekers

Receive very special lessons

From their Beloved Supreme. ```

22

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The unaspiring mind-land

Is a dangerous place. ```

23

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My life’s greatness

Has badly failed to please God.

My heart’s goodness

Has sadly failed to please God.

My sleepless gratitude-heart-tears

And my breathless surrender-life-smiles

Have unreservedly pleased God.

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24

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My prayer-life began

With begging.

My prayer-life now is singing

Only God’s Glories.

My prayer-life shall end

With surrendering my all

To the Will of my Beloved Supreme.

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25

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God is a strange matter

With the arid intellectuals.

My Lord, do give me

A simplicity-life and a purity-heart

To sing always

Your Victory-Songs. ```

26

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Self-lovers and self-servers

Are to be found all-where.

God-lovers and God-servers

Are extremely rare achievements. ```

27

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Nobody can ever dare

To take away from me

My God-Touch-Thrill.

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284

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Morning begins.

I begin to pray.

God begins to give.

In silence supreme

He gives me His All.

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APR 1749. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 19 January 2003.↩

29

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When my mind thinks of God,

God lightens

My life-burdens.

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30

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When my heart prays to God,

God removes

All my life-burdens.

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31

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When I meditate on God,

God says to me,

“My child,

All your burdens

Are self-imposed.”

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32

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My sweet Lord,

May the sound of Your Footfall

Frighten my doubting mind.

May the sound of Your Footfall

Awaken my sleeping heart.

May the sound of Your Footfall

Enlighten my serving life.

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33

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My Beloved Lord,

Today I have nothing to spare.

“My child,

Come, come closer to Me!

Empty your heart.

I have everything

To share with you.”

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34

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In the morning I sing

With the blissfully ascending waves

Of my heart-sea.

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35

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In the evening I sing

With the peacefully descending waves

Of my heart-sea.

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36

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

Today You have made me

Immeasurably happy

By allowing my heartbeat

To mingle, sing and dance

With the golden dust

Of Your golden Feet.

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375

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I know, I know,

My heart-tears for God

Will never be lost

In the dust of the earth.

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APR 1758. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 20 January 2003.↩

38

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O my mind-doubts,

I shall not cherish you any more!

You must leave me alone.

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39

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O my heart-fears,

I shall not shelter you any more!

You must leave me alone.

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40

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O my life-weaknesses,

I shall not carry you any more!

You must leave me alone.

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41

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Once more

I have won back my heart-kingdom

From the hostile forces.

From now on

My heart-kingdom and I

Shall forever remain together. ```

42

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My Lord,

Your Flute has stolen

The tears of my heart.

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43

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“My child,

Your songs have stolen

The Smiles of My Eye.”

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44

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God’s choice Hour

Has struck.

His Hunger-Heart

Has devoured my devotion-life. ```

45

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This morning

My Lord said to me,

“My child, if you once more weep

At your unworthiness,

Never shall I visit you!

As I claim you

To be My All,

Even so, you must claim Me

To be your All.”

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466

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My Lord,

Please tell me

When Your Hour will strike

For You to place Your Feet

Inside my crying and bleeding heart.

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APR 1767. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 21 January 2003.↩

47

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Ignorance-sleep

Attacks us

With no warning.

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48

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Like my heart,

I must make my mind,

My vital and my body

Always available

To my Beloved Supreme.

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49

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My Lord,

This time when You enter

Into my heart,

Please bring with You

Your Enthusiasm

And Dynamism infinite. ```

50

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Each God-lover

Is a direct instrument of God

For God’s full manifestation

Here on earth. ```

51

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My Lord Supreme has graced me

With His divine Presence,

But alas, I am not ready

To race against ignorance-night

And win the supreme Victory

For my Lord Supreme. ```

52

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My Lord never disappoints me.

It is my expectation-cleverness

That disappoints me.

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53

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True,

I cannot sprint,

I cannot run,

I cannot march,

I cannot walk,

But I can easily crawl

Towards my Lord Beloved Supreme.

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54

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God’s long Stories

Awaken me.

God’s beautiful Poems

Charm me.

God’s soulful Songs

Thrill me.

God’s Tears and Smiles

Perfect me and fulfil me. ```

557

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When I go to God

As a beggar,

He immediately closes

His Eyes and Ears.

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APR 1776. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 22 January 2003.↩

56

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When I go to God

As His own child,

He immediately stands up,

Blesses me and embraces me. ```

57

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Wisdom-light

Is giving and giving.

Ignorance-night

Is self-styled and self-multiplying. ```

58

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God does not appreciate

My shyness.

He appreciates

My openness. ```

59

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Earth needs

God’s Descent.

Heaven needs

God’s Consent. ```

60

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My immediate

And eternal need

Is God-fulfilment

In God’s own Way. ```

61

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Every second,

Many, many, many God-seekers

Are pleasing God in His own Way.

How I wish I could be

One of those fortunate ones!

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62

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God-worshippers

And

God-lovers

On any path

Are my only

Divine brothers and sisters. ```

63

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Like my soul,

How I wish I could spend

All my time

Only with my Lord Beloved Supreme! ```

64

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To realise God, reveal God

And manifest God here on earth

Is the birthright

Of a selfless God-lover. ```

658

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The day my Lord

Cannot come to see me,

He sends His Heart to me.

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APR 1786. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 24 January 2003.↩

66

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The day my Lord’s Heart

Cannot come to see me,

He sends His Eye to me.

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67

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The day my Lord’s Eye

Cannot come to see me,

He sends His Ear to me

To receive messages

From my soul, heart,

Mind, vital and body.

In this way, every day

My Lord keeps

A very, very special connection

With me. ```

68

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Every morning

My Lord’s Heart

Says something very nice

To His Eye

About me.

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69

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God-believers are, indeed,

God’s happiness-harbingers

To mankind.

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70

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Disappointment,

I do not know you

And I do not want to know!

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71

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When we run

On the aspiration-track,

God says to us,

“My children, no slow speed

Is allowed!”

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72

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No impurity-bite

When we pray.

No mind-intrusion

When we meditate. ```

73

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God tells His seeker-children

That without the climbing

Aspiration-flames

From their hearts,

They will never be able

To satisfy Him in His own Way. ```

74

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When I am able to offer

Even an iota of satisfaction

To my Lord Beloved Supreme,

My heart immediately gets

Throbbing joy.

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759

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Forgiveness

Is the only real happiness

That lasts.

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APR 1796. These prayers were given in Cairns, Australia — 25 January 2003.↩

76

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To become a happiness-fountain,

I must forgive those

Who ruthlessly hurt me

Every day. ```

77

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My Lord,

Today I am praying to You

To think of me

And work in and through me

To the fullest.

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78

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My Lord,

You have taught me

Many, many, many things

Right from my very birth.

Only two more things

Please teach me:

How to have tears in my heart

When I pray to You

And how to have poise in my heart

When I meditate on You. ```

79

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My Lord says to me

That from today

Until I breathe my last,

He will decide for me

And choose for me

My life’s “yes” and “no”. ```

80

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To my soul

My Lord has given the capacity

To be a maker of bliss,

My heart, to be a maker of peace

And me, a maker of gratitude.

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81

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Every day

I must give myself

The time I need

To please my Lord Supreme,

Not only when I am fully awake,

But also when I am dreaming. ```

82

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I must not enjoy any more

Unrealistic expectations

In my life.

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83

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Every morning

My Lord’s Compassion-Eye

Comes to me

To guide and lead me

On the golden path ahead.

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Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered the following prayers during his visit to Australia in January 2003.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 20, Agni Press, 2003
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/apr_20