My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 22

11

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My heart

Shall no more remain

A short-lived God-hunger.

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APR 1880. These prayers were given in Singapore — 24 November 2003.↩

2

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God’s Face

May at times be invisible,

But His Heart

Is always visible. ```

3

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God’s Closeness

Is my life’s fulness-smile. ```

4

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Alas, God’s Heart

Is a sleepless Tear for me. ```

5

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Doubt is dangerous,

And self-doubt

Is infinitely more dangerous.

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6

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By nature, man is not

A God-Conversation-attention-ear. ```

7

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My heart’s solemn promise

To God

Is my aspiration-return.

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8

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My God-unwillingness

Does not become me. ```

9

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Today I am my heart’s

Aspiration-candle.

Tomorrow I shall become my soul’s

Illumination-sun. ```

10

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My mind never opens.

God’s Eye never closes. ```

11

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I need only one thing:

I need a tireless

God-surrender-heart.

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122

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When God’s Compassion-Eye appears,

My sufferings start to disappear.

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APR 1891. These prayers were given in Singapore — 25 November 2003.↩

13

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When God’s Forgiveness-Heart appears,

My sufferings completely disappear. ```

14

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Heaven’s Beauty

And earth’s duty

I equally love.

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15

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Heaven’s Beauty

Awakens my heart. ```

16

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Earth’s duty

Energises my life. ```

17

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Oneness and fear

Are perfect strangers

To each other.

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18

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My Lord,

May I come close

To Your Feet?

“No, My child,

I want you to come close

To My Heart.” ```

19

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Even the abysmal abyss

Has more light

Than our conscious and deliberate

God-disobedience. ```

20

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No God-loving meditation

Can ever be an escape

From the world.

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21

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My constant self-offering

To the world

Is a local call

To my Lord Beloved Supreme. ```

22

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My hesitant self-offering

To the world

Is the longest-distance call

To God. ```

23

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My mind is determined

To possess the world. ```

24

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My soul is determined

To address the world. ```

25

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My heart is determined

To caress the world. ```

26

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I am determined

To become the world. ```

273

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God the Eye beckons me.

God the Heart speaks to me.

God the Breath embraces me.

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APR 1906. These prayers were given in Singapore — 26 November 2003.↩

28

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When God the Eye

Beckons me,

I offer my heart’s gratitude-tears.

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29

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When God the Heart

Speaks to me,

I offer my life’s gratitude-smiles.

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30

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When God the Breath

Embraces me,

I become the flood

Of oneness-gratitude-delight. ```

31

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Who is safe in today’s world?

No, not even multibillionaires,

Needless to say

The poorer than the poorest. ```

32

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Who is safe in today’s world?

Not he who is wallowing

In the supremacy-pleasures

Of unbounded power. ```

33

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Who is safe in today’s world?

He who is endowed

With God’s Protection-Assurance

Here, there and all-where. ```

34

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What do I learn from God’s Tears?

I learn from God’s Tears

That He has infinite concern for me.

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35

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What do I learn from God’s Smiles?

I learn from God’s Smiles

That He has confidence in me

In measureless measure. ```

36

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My Lord, please tell me,

Why am I so unkind to You?

Why, why?

Why do I keep You waiting for me

For Eternity?

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37

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“My child, if you come to Me

Even beyond Eternity’s Eye and Heart,

I shall not mind,

As long as you come to Me,

Enter into My Heart

And become the Beauty of My Dream

And the Duty of My Reality.”

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38

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God tells me

That He is not at all worried

About my transformation,

Since He has no fixed schedule for me. ```

39

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O ignorance-night,

I am not afraid of conversing with you,

But I am terribly afraid

Of your unthinkable vibration

That indefinitely lasts.

I am preparing myself

To conquer your vibration-power,

So that I can inundate my Mother Earth

With Infinity’s Delight.

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40

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No more

My mind’s outer eye!

No more

My mind’s outer ear! ```

41

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From now on,

My heart’s inner eye and inner ear

I shall immediately welcome

And eternally treasure. ```

424

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In the small hours of the morning

God comes to me

Not to preach, not to teach,

But to love me, my entire being.

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APR 1921. These prayers were given in Singapore — 27 November 2003.↩

43

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God comes to me in the evening

Not to bless, not to smile,

But to examine my love, devotion

And surrender. ```

44

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God comes to me at night

Only for one thing:

He comes to dream in and through me

His Infinity’s Dream. ```

45

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When I run forward,

I easily receive God’s Smile.

When I climb upward,

I more easily receive God’s Smile.

When I dive inward,

I most easily receive God’s Smile. ```

46

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My meditation

Is my God-invocation

In the heart of my silence-smile.

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47

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My meditation

Is my animal life-purification.

My meditation

Is my human life-transformation.

My meditation

Is my divine life-manifestation. ```

48

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No mind-emptiness,

No heart-oneness,

No God-fulness.

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49

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My streaming heart-tears

Strengthen my prayer-life. ```

50

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My beaming soul-smiles

Lengthen my silence-meditation. ```

51

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My madness-mind

Challenges God. ```

52

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My gladness-heart

Embraces God. ```

53

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God is all the time crying

For the illumination

Of the doubting and suspecting mind.

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54

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The doubting and suspecting mind

Is spying all the time on God

To discover some imperfection in God.

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555

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My Lord tells me

That every eager effort

Of my heart

He deeply values.

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APR 1934. These prayers were given in Singapore — 28 November 2003.↩

56

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An intense God-love

Means a desire-conquered life. ```

57

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Alas,

The fleeting moments of my life

Are empty of God’s Light.

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58

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God’s Flute

Awakens my heart.

God’s Gong

Awakens my mind.

God’s Drum

Awakens my life. ```

59

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I have millions of flowers

In my heart-garden,

But I love the silence-flower

Infinitely more than any other flower. ```

60

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Detachment — not out of shock,

But out of wisdom-light —

Permanently lasts.

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61

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A God-unwillingness-mind

Is, indeed,

A real God-failure-life.

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62

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What I sleeplessly need

Is a Heaven-ascending heart. ```

63

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My Lord,

Every day my love increases for You.

How is it that Your Love for me

Does not increase even once a year?

“My child,

I really do not know

How to answer your question.”

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646

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My Lord,

Please, please free me

With Your Compassion-Eye.

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APR 1943. These prayers were given in Solo, Indonesia — 29 November 2003.↩

65

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My Lord,

Please, please, please bind me

With Your Affection-Heart.

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66

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When I arrive

At my Lord’s Palace,

He immediately embraces me

Most fondly and most proudly. ```

67

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When my Lord arrives

At my cottage,

I immediately place myself

At His Feet

And devour the dust of His Feet.

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68

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My heart’s gladness

And my life’s sadness

Both hear my Lord’s choice Voice.

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69

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Impossibility-accomplishments:

This is what my Lord

Every day expects from me.

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70

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Each time I prayerfully cry

Or soulfully smile,

My Lord invites me

To enter into

His Heaven-Heart-Garden.

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71

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The divine Grace

Comes down from Above

Not when I want it,

But only when I desperately need it. ```

72

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Not God’s Eye,

But God’s Heart takes the timing

In all our Heavenward races.

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73

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A gratitude-God-lover

And a devoted God-seeker

Are God’s most favourite children.

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74

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God has a very big Desire:

His Desire is to see me happy

Twenty-four hours a day.

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75

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What is my mission?

My mission is the outer manifestation

Of my Lord’s inner Vision.

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76

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Heaven is nowhere else

Save and except

In my Lord’s Compassion-flooded Eye.

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Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered the following prayers during his visit to Singapore and Solo, Indonesia in November 2003.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 22, Agni Press, 2004
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/apr_22