My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 3

11

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I know, I know,

Definitely I know the way

To my Lord Beloved Supreme,

Even in the stark darkness

Of my ignorance-night.

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APR 236. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 7 January 2000.↩

2

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No more towering promises,

But flowering

God-manifestation-fulfilments-

More, ever more. ```

3

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Every day

My Lord Beloved Supreme

Devours the golden tears

Of my silver heart. ```

4

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To my great astonishment,

Today delight is dancing

From my lotus-heart

To my rose-eyes. ```

5

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Every day without fail

I ply my life-boat

Between my resolute mind-river

And my aspiring heart-river. ```

6

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God's Hand, God's Eye

And God's Heart

Are unconditionally showing me the way

To Eternity's Peace and Infinity's Bliss. ```

7

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My Lord, today I have

Two very special presents for You,

And I am placing them

Cheerfully and unconditionally

At Your Feet:

My tearful heart and my grateful life. ```

8

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God does not like at all

My fearful and doubtful mind.

God immensely loves

My tearful and blissful heart. ```

9

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My heart's aspiration-cries

And

My life's dedication-smiles

Thrive only

In my God-surrender-life.

```

10

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I keep my ever-blossoming

Gratitude-heart

Safe in the homeland

Of my soul. ```

112

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My heart's devotion-train

Knows

No full stop.

```

APR 246. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 8 January 2000.↩

12

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What is expectation

In my spiritual life,

If not an ever-empty cup?

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13

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My Lord Beloved Supreme

Allows me to feed Him sumptuously

Only when my aspiration-heart

Flies at top speed. ```

14

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God has been telling me all along

That self-pity

Is the worst possible crime

In a seeker's life. ```

15

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My mind has been studying for years

To receive a doubt-diploma.

My heart has been studying

For years and years

To receive God-love, God-devotion

And God-surrender-diplomas

From God Himself.

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16

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May the smiles of my inner sun

Illumine the dense clouds

Of my outer mind-sky.

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17

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We cry and cry

For the Compassion-Moon

Of God's Eye.

God cries and cries

For the satisfaction-sun

Of our heart. ```

18

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When our aspiration is on the rise,

Paradise lovingly, cheerfully and proudly

Beckons us.

```

19

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God tells me

That my expectations and frustrations

Do not have the last word.

He also tells me

That my love of God

Has ever the last word. ```

20

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Today I have made

A solemn promise to myself

That I shall not compel my Lord Supreme

To go hungry for my smile. ```

213

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My heart and I always whisper

Sorrows and joys

In our God-manifestation-activities.

```

APR 256. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 10 January 2000.↩

22

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Nobody is exempt

From God's ultimate

Justice-Light-Examination.

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23

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I shall not waste my life any more

By begging the mind

To be good.

I shall from now on

Love my heart more and more,

Infinitely more. ```

24

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The life of a seeker

Is meant to be ever-transcending

In his God-search

And God-discovery. ```

25

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I must realise by this time

That to try to perfect others

Is, indeed, a blind

And hopeless quest. ```

26

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May my life be

A long-forgotten

World-attachment-story.

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27

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All good seekers are commanded

By God Himself

To answer His Heart-Calls

On the very first ring. ```

28

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To run away

With the mind's freedom

Is to lose one's own

Heart-wisdom. ```

29

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My heart, keep climbing,

Keep climbing,

Even if on rare occasions

You slide down. ```

30

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Only a heart

Of sleepless God-surrender

Knows the way

To God's blissful Eye,

God's peaceful Heart

And God's powerful Feet. ```

314

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My Lord,

In my outer life

You are Your Compassion-Eye.

In my inner life

You are Your Protection-Feet.

```

APR 266. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 11 January 2000.↩

32

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I do not want to unearth

My past ancestry.

I want to prepare myself

For my future God-discovery. ```

33

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My Lord's Fulfilment-Ocean

Is eagerly waiting for the arrival

Of my life's enthusiasm-river.

```

34

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With our soul's indomitable heroism

We must silence

Our ignorance-terrorism.

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35

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The man-discussion-minds

I like.

The God-conversation-hearts

I adore and love. ```

36

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The human life is torn between

The division-mind-night

And the oneness-heart-delight.

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37

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O seeker, do not be afraid

Of temptation-obstacles.

You can definitely conquer them.

God is more than willing to help you. ```

38

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O seeker, do not bury

Your God-gratitude-heart

In the night of your mind-forest.

```

39

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We cannot climb

The liberation-mountain

Unless we have a heart

Of God-surrender-fountain. ```

4

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My Lord, do give me the capacity

To stop once and for all

My life's imperfection-downpour.

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415

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My Lord,

Although my spiritual progress

Is most deplorable,

I beg of You a million times:

Please, please do not allow me

To go back to my old,

Desire-bound, ordinary life.

```

APR 276. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 13 January 2000.↩

42

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My Lord, please, please devour

Everything that I have

And everything that I am.

Be pleased to start with

My abominable pride.

```

43

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My body-fitness-trainer

Is my resolute mind.

My heart-fitness-adviser

Is my luminous soul.

My soul-fitness-leader

Is my Absolute Supreme. ```

44

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My mind's

Insincerity and impurity-flights

Frighten me.

My heart's

Sincerity and purity-flights

Enlighten me,

My very existence.

```

45

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My unconditional God-surrender

Has paved the shortest

And brightest road

To Paradise. ```

46

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The unfortunate many

Cry and cry and cry ceaselessly.

The fortunate few

Fly and fly and fly sleeplessly. ```

47

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My mind and my vital

Are terribly afraid of God's

Forgiveness-flight-cancellation.

```

48

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My Lord Supreme wants

Every moment of my life

To be my aspiration-thrill-ride.

```

49

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Man's promise to God:

A very quick start.

God asks:

"Are you sure?"

God's Promise to man:

A very quick start.

Man says:

"Sorry, I am not interested." ```

50

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God immediately stops

Inspiring me and encouraging me

The moment He sees my mind's

Deliberate indifference-walls. ```

516

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To my greatest joy and satisfaction,

Mine is a God-enthusiastic heart

And mine is a God-energetic life.

```

APR 286. These prayers were given in Foz do Iguacu, Brazil — 15 January 2000.↩

52

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My mind, you are such a fool!

You are never ready to receive

Our Lord Beloved Supreme.

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53

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I do not know why,

But it is absolutely true

That God loves my God-claiming heart

Infinitely more than He loves

My God-loving and God-serving life.

```

54

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Only my happiness-heart

Embodies and reveals

Abundant God-Smiles.

```

55

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O my God-obedience-heart,

Shake, shake powerfully and ceaselessly

My shameless God-disobedience-mind!

```

56

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A world-indifference-mind

Is

A God-forsaken life.

```

57

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God's ever-blossoming

Compassion-Eye

Is my heart's rock-solid choice.

```

58

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Doubt, enough!

Get out, get out!

Faith, enough!

Get up, get up! ```

59

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An attention-begging mind

And an expectation-begging heart

Have turned my spiritual life

Into a complete failure. ```

60

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Each time you see God,

Think and feel

That you are meeting with Him

For the first time.

Only then your love, devotion

And surrender

Are bound to increase.

```

617

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My Lord,

My heart is all gratitude to You,

For You are shaping my life

To Your own liking.

```

APR 296. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 17 January 2000.↩

62

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Tomorrow's golden dawn-smiles

Are beckoning

My today's silver heart-tears.

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63

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God the Eye asks me

Many difficult questions.

God the Heart answers them

Very easily for me. ```

64

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If we soon do not change

The mind-channel,

Then we shall be forced

To enter into

The darkest and endless

Vital-tunnel. ```

65

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My curious mind is always eager

To collect world-news.

My spiritual heart sleeplessly desires

Only God-views in everything. ```

66

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Alas, when shall I realise

That my whimsical seeking

Is hurting very badly

The Heart

Of my Lord Beloved Supreme?

```

67

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God is extremely eager

To share with His

Unconditionally surrendered seekers

All His Heart-Secrets. ```

68

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My Lord loves to hear

Only my heart-history,

And He vehemently discards

My mind-mystery. ```

69

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This morning

I was so surprised and excited

To see my heart-river speedily,

Charmingly and self-givingly

Entering into my soul-beauty's sea.

```

70

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

Do make my aspiring heart

An eternal prisoner

Of Your Love infinite. ```

718

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My aspiration-heart-harp

Plays only God's

Infinite Ecstasy-Melodies.

```

APR 306. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 18 January 2000.↩

72

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Between my sleepless prayer-life

And the Satisfaction-Answer

Is God the Compassion-Eye.

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73

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Repeated defeats can make

A genuine seeker's life

Eventually invincible.

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74

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When we expect rush service from God,

God complies.

When God expects rush service from us,

In the twinkling of an eye

We disappear, we hide

And we continue our ignorance-ride. ```

75

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God wants each and every human being

To cherish God's uniqueness

In each individual.

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76

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God sleeplessly loves me

And breathlessly treasures my all.

This much is unmistakably true.

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77

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The silence-sky of my Lord's Heart

Immediately embraces

The thunder-sighs of my heart.

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78

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Every morning

God teaches my heart

How to become

An ever-climbing cry. ```

79

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God tells me

That my gratitude-heart-songs

Are extremely pure and sacred.

They must never be

Published or publicised.

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80

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My Lord, You are at once

The Breaker

Of my ignorance-frown-life

And the Maker

Of my heart's golden hopes

And my soul's diamond promises. ```

819

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My Lord, I really want to stop

Playing desire-games.

Please, please, please help me.

```

APR 316. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 19 January 2000.↩

82

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My Lord, I really do not want

To live any more in the desire-arena.

Please, please, please help me.

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83

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Alas, the mind-made compromise

In the spiritual life

Is a very, very serious heart-ailment.

```

84

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Today my Lord Supreme

Has commanded my soul

To proclaim

Worldwide ignorance-illumination. ```

85

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May my mind be liberated

From the loudest clamour

Of brooding frustrations.

```

86

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May I spend the rest of my life

With my life's pure prayers

And my heart's sure meditations

For the speedy progress

Of my fellow seekers.

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87

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Alas, an endless battle is going on

Between my heart's silence-light

And my mind's sound-night.

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88

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May my outer life and my inner life

Be suffused with the Sunshine

Of my Lord's Compassion-Eye.

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89

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Once we open the floodgates

Of our heart's aspiration

And our life's dedication,

Then God-realisation

Can never remain a far cry.

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90

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I must go forward.

I have no time to enjoy

My past stabs of remorse.

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9110

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My heart's blossoming

Rainbow-dawn

In my tomorrow's sky

Is predestined.

```

APR 326. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 20 January 2000.↩

92

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In the spiritual life,

Each forward step

In the march of time

Is extremely and extremely

Significant.

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93

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My strong, very strong

And extremely strong heart-muscles

I have developed

From my constant soul-obedience. ```

94

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I want everything that is divine in me

To grow and glow

And anything that is undivine in me

To shrink and fade. ```

95

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The mind's ego-assertion

Is the life's unavoidable

And inevitable destruction.

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96

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I shall devote my life to spirituality

Throughout Eternity

And never, never return

To worldliness and ordinariness. ```

97

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Anything divine, either in our inner life

Or in our outer life,

Can never be exhausted.

It can only be astronomically increased. ```

98

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The mind guesses quickly

But incorrectly.

The heart blesses slowly

But unreservedly. ```

99

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I shall no more read

My yesterday's failure-stories.

From now on, I shall sing and sing

Only my tomorrow's destined

Victory-songs.

```

100

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Humanity's faith-heart

Is a most admirable service

To Divinity's Life.

```

10111

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God proudly smiles

At the seeker's

Mind-vital-jungles' conquest.

```

APR 336. These prayers were given in Asuncion, Paraguay — 22 January 2000.↩

102

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God tells me not to forget

That the sadness, sorrows and tears

Of this world

Are overwhelming. ```

103

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My Lord, even yesterday

I tried hard, very hard,

To convert You to my side.

But today I am begging You

In all sincerity

To convert me to Your side. ```

104

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It takes many, many years

Of very hard work

To convict the clever mind,

But today I have done it! ```

105

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At long last I have come to realise

That compromise in any sphere of life

Is, indeed, the stupidity-flooded wisdom

Of two weak parties. ```

106

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I want my aspiration-life to end

At the Feet of my Lord Beloved Supreme

And not in the arms of my desire-life.

```

107

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God keeps His Heart-Room wide open

And most beautifully decorated

To welcome a seeker

Of sleepless obedience. ```

108

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Heaven selects

Both ignorance-fighters

And world-peace-dreamers.

```

109

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My aspiration-heart

And

My dedication-life

Thrive

Only on my Lord's Nectar-Smiles.

```

110

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It is only when

My unconditional surrender-life

Is complete and perfect

That my Lord's infinite Joy

And infinite Satisfaction

Befriend my soul, my heart,

My mind, my vital, my body-

Everything that I have

And everything that I am.

```

11112

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My gratitude-heart-prayers

Hasten my God's God-Hour

To transform my entire life.

```

APR 346. These prayers were given in Brasilia, Brazil — 29 January 2000.↩

112

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Each time I want to perform

Something divine,

I am immediately helped

By the firm hand of my God-faith. ```

113

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Alas, ceaseless, worthless and useless

Anxieties and worries

Are devouring the peace of my heart.

```

114

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Only the unparalleled power

Of my silence-mind

Can put an end to my topsy-turvy life.

```

115

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Run away, run away,

My mind, my vital and my body,

From the temptation-hounds!

```

116

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Alas, my unlit vital

Is obstinately continuing

In its own inimitable way.

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117

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If you want to live

All the time in the heart

To satisfy your Inner Pilot,

Then take proper care

Of your heart-vessel

And never allow it to spring a leak. ```

118

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If I constantly enjoy

My bondage-chain-life,

Then God is bound to withdraw

His Compassion-Fountain-Heart

From me.

```

119

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I am cultivating

My heart-blossoms.

No more do I see

My mind-weeds. ```

120

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May my life every day

Place a most beautiful flower

At the Feet

Of my Lord Beloved Supreme. ```

Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered these morning prayers during his visit to Brazil and Paraguay in December 1999 and January 2000. Ten different groups recited the prayers turn by turn three times, then twice, then once.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 3, Agni Press, 2000
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