I pray and pray
And prayTo see God’s Feet.
```APR 4190. These prayers were given in Istanbul, Turkey — 21 November 2006.↩
I meditate and meditate
And meditateTo feel God’s Heart.
```I contemplate, contemplate
And contemplateTo become one with God’s Will.
```When my prayer
Is sincere,God blesses my head.
```When my meditation
Is deep,God embraces my heart.
```What do I need?
A heart-throbbing prayer. ```What do I need?
A time-stopping meditation. ```I was born
With a heartOf God-beauty.
```APR 4197. These prayers were given in Istanbul, Turkey — 22 November 2006.↩
I was born
With a lifeOf God-duty.
```The desire-life
Is always busy —It has no free time.
```God wants our heart’s hopes
Always to be hopeful,And not hopeless.
```I ask God
How He spends His time.He says to me,
“My child, I spend My timeWithout thinking of Me.”
```God-realisation
IsA solo run.
```God-manifestation
IsA relay run.
```Every breath of my heart
Is neededTo worship the golden dust
Of God’s Feet.```
APR 4204. These prayers were given in Istanbul, Turkey — 23 November 2006.↩
Every day
The Godward speedOf my heart
Baffles my mind. ```The aspiration-heart
Knows no sunset years,But the doubtful mind does.
```There is not a single day
That God does not showHis red caution-flag
To our disobedient mind and vital. ```Our heart’s God-devotion-tears
Are full ofGod-Touch-thrills.
```God the Creator
BlessesMy climbing aspiration.
```God the Creation
EmbracesMy spreading dedication.
```The human in me wants
The world’s thunderous praiseAll the time.
```APR 4211. These prayers were given in Istanbul, Turkey — 24 November 2006.↩
The divine in me needs
Blessingful Grace from GodAll the time.
```To meditate
Is to have a quick diveInto God’s Heart-Swimming Pool.
```Standing, I can see
The Golden ShoreFrom my wide-open
Heart’s door. ```Limitless delight I enjoy
When I remain namelessIn my God-love,
In my God-devotionAnd
In my God-surrender-service. ```Pride
Openly challenges.Soulfulness
Secretly wins. ```Every morning when I meditate,
The singing flowers,The dancing branches
And the climbing treesJoin me in my meditation.
```God’s outer Presence
IsDefinitely needed.
```APR 4218. These prayers were given in Istanbul, Turkey — 25 November 2006.↩
God’s inner Presence
IsAbsolutely indispensable.
```The mind thinks only
Of pleasing itself. ```The heart dreams
Of pleasing its ownAbsolute Lord Beloved Supreme.
```The tears of my heart
Are most devotedly followingThe Footsteps
Of my Lord Supreme. ```I wish my heart
To beA ceaseless God-hunger-cry.
```I wish my life
To beA breathless God-Touch-thrill.
```I have made
My heart-cottageWith my tears.
```APR 4225. These prayers were given in Istanbul, Turkey — 26 November 2006.↩
I have built
My soul-palaceWith God’s Smiles.
```When my meditation is deep,
Very deep,My heart breathes in
God-hunger-breaths. ```We must brave
All our difficulties,Problems and failures
In our lives. ```My Lord
And my Lord’s ForgivenessAre inseparable.
```Alas,
I always overestimateThe sincerity
Of my prayers. ```Alas,
I always underestimateThe infinite Power
Of God’s Grace. ```With Silence-Beauty
And Sweetness-Fragrance-Steps,My Lord enters into
My tiny human heart.```
APR 4232. These prayers were given in Istanbul, Turkey — 27 November 2006.↩
When I cheerfully
And unconditionallyObey God,
I become immediatelyHis favourite toy.
```Conscience
Is the aspiration-heart’sClock-alarm.
```Alas,
The way to God-realisationIs very, very long.
```The desire-life
Is utterly ignorantOf hidden dangers.
```Out of His infinite Bounty,
My Lord tells meThat my gratitude-heart
Has the capacity to drownAll my life’s blunders.
```Sleeplessly,
My heart-eye is focusedOn God’s Compassion-Eye-Star.
```God-realisation-trees
Come into existenceFrom God-surrender-seeds.
```APR 4239. These prayers were given in Belek, Turkey — 29 November 2006.↩
Hope-sun
Does not set.Hope-sun
Is immortal. ```To walk with life
Is beautiful. ```To sleep with death
Is peaceful. ```My God-surrender
MeansA life of constant surprises.
```Heaven beckons only
The sleepless self-givers. ```God sings and sings;
I sleep and sleep.I sing and sing;
God dreams and dreams. ```Each additional responsibility
Is another golden opportunityTo please the Inner Pilot
In His own Way.```
APR 4246. These prayers were given in Belek, Turkey — 30 November 2006.↩
An aspiration-heart
Without fail embodiesMany divine qualities.
```Each seeker’s life
Must fly intoThe highest aspiration-sky.
```When I pray,
I use my humility-knees. ```When I meditate,
I use my world-oneness-heart. ```A readiness-life
NeedsAn eagerness-start.
```Every day
The Master isHis torrential Heaven-blessings,
His Heaven-loveAnd his Heaven-concern
For his disciples. ```The Master keeps
His disciples’ sorrowsNot on his shoulders,
But deep insideHis compassion-heart.
```Centuries ago, my Lord,
You created me.Since then,
You have been taking care of meWith Your infinite Compassion,
Infinite AffectionAnd infinite Concern.
My Lord,I wish You to take rest!
From now onI shall most lovingly,
Most soulfullyAnd most self-givingly
Look after You.```
APR 4254. These prayers were given in Belek, Turkey — 1 December 2006.↩
Immeasurable is my joy
When God asks meTo devour the dust
Of His Feet. ```In the morning
God blesses me with the JoysOf His Higher World.
In the eveningGod blesses me with the Peace
Of His Inner World. ```In the small hours of the morning,
My Lord checks and checksAnd checks
My love, devotion and surrender. ```Every day, unmistakably,
God’s Eye cradlesMy aspiration-heart
So lovingly and so fondly. ```God’s Compassion-Eye,
God’s Affection-HeartAnd
God’s Concern-LifeAre renovating my old life.
```God’s unconditional Compassion
Has drawn my life close, very close,To His Heart.
```May my whole life
Be inundatedWith God-obedience-fulfilment-promises.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 53, Agni Press, 2007
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