My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 7

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Secretly

God travels everywhere

Only to find

A gratitude-heart

And a surrender-life.

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APR 597. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 9 January 2001.↩

2

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I need faith

To the same extent

As I need breath

In my life. ```

3

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We must realise

That God is always ready

With a helping Hand

To take us

To the Promised Land.

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4

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Religion is the body.

Spirituality is the heart.

Yoga is the breath.

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5

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When I pray,

I see the height of greatness.

When I meditate,

I feel and become

The depth of goodness.

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6

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My Lord Supreme,

In Your Compassion-Eye

I see my heart's

Forgotten beauty. ```

7

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My Lord,

You feel my heart's

Helpless tears

Long before they fall. ```

8

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My Lord tells me every day

The same thing:

"My child,

Intensify, intensify

Your heart's inner cry!"

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9

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My physical health

Every day I need.

My spiritual health

I sleeplessly and breathlessly need. ```

10

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My Lord,

I most sincerely thank You,

For You love my tiny world.

My Lord,

I am sleeplessly grateful to You,

For You love the entire world

In and through my tiny heart.

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11

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Everything in life

Will drive me into the shadows

Of utter failure

Until I start loving God unconditionally

In His own Way.

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122

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The beauty of my self-giving

Is my God-satisfaction

In God's own Way.

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APR 608. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 10 January 2001.↩

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God is asking me

To tell Him most sincerely

How far I am willing to go

To please Him in His own Way. ```

14

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Self-interest, self-pity

And self-indulgence:

These words are not to be found

Any more

In my life-dictionary.

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15

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No more self-justification,

No more!

God-adoration more

And ever more! ```

16

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Nothing is as beautiful

And compelling

As my Lord's Compassion-Eye-Smile.

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17

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We love to play

Many, many games,

But God loves to play

Only one game:

Hide-and-seek.

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18

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He is the hero supreme

Who longs to fulfil God's

Each and every expectation.

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19

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My Lord,

I need only

Two devotion-flooded hands

And one sleeplessly

And breathlessly crying heart

From You. ```

20

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May each breath

Of my aspiration-heart

Be a communion with God.

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21

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My Lord tells me that

My heart's sincere cries and tears

Can never remain unheard.

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22

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O my doubting mind,

What you right now need

Is severe punishment,

And not enlightenment. ```

233

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God-devotion-fire

Can definitely burn to ashes

All earthly obstacles.

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APR 619. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 11 January 2001.↩

24

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Since God is all Protection

For me,

Can I not be all affection

For Him? ```

25

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God does not believe

In my self-doubts.

Therefore He always maintains

His implicit Faith in me. ```

26

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God tells me

That mine does not have to be

A lifetime of blunders.

It can be a lifetime

Of my perfection

And God's Satisfaction. ```

27

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My Lord Supreme,

I shall not take,

Even for a fleeting second,

Your Compassion-Eye

And Your Forgiveness-Heart

For granted. ```

28

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Alas,

I do not know how

God is not miserable

When we, all His children,

Are so unspeakably spoiled!

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29

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Like my Lord's Heart,

I shall make my heart, too,

Ever-new, ever-inspiring,

Ever-aspiring, ever-illumining

And ever-fulfilling.

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30

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I must always give utmost importance

To my

God-remembrance-sweetness-moments.

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31

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My life thrives

Only on one thing:

My sleepless God-devotion.

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32

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Without a one-pointed

Heart-intensity,

There can be no

God-realisation-achievement. ```

33

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O seeker,

You must realise

That no God-request

Can ever be trivial

Or insignificant.

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34

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May my morning

God-enthusiasm-leaps

Never stop

During the entire day. ```

35

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I must silence

My mind-counsellor,

My mind-commentator,

My mind-commander

And

My mind-dictator. ```

36

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My soul and I can easily see

That God is constantly smashing

His own

Compassion and Forgiveness-records. ```

37

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My heart cherishes

Everything that my Lord does

And every move that He makes

For the betterment of the world. ```

38

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How I wish I could be

With all the real God-representatives

When they walk the earth!

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39

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God laughs and laughs at me

When I do not want to control

My impatient

God-Arrival-anticipation. ```

40

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The Master's heart

Is the silence-voice

Of the Unknowable.

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41

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To meditate deeply

Is to soar high, very high,

On the wings

Of God's Compassion-Eye. ```

42

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My Lord,

I do not mind Your zigzag path

At all,

As long as I find You

And Your Lotus-Feet

At every turn. ```

434

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For me to sit

At the aspiration-shrine

Is not enough.

I must become

The aspiration-shrine itself.

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APR 639. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 12 January 2001.↩

44

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My Master's joy

Knows no bounds

When he sees

My inner progress reports. ```

45

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My heart, my mind,

My vital and my body

Have to be always full

Of my

God-manifestation-determination-fire.

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46

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God wants me

To breathe in deep

Purity-flower-fragrance

All the time. ```

47

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O my mind,

My unaspiring mind,

Will you ever listen

To the pleadings

Of my bleeding heart?

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48

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I shall no more spend

Even a fleeting moment

In my mind's desire-market.

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49

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From now on

I shall always find myself

In my heart's aspiration-garden.

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50

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It is simply impossible

To love God only

And enjoy ignorance-sleep

At the same time. ```

51

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God's Compassion, God's Love,

God's Affection and God's Concern

Have ever-transcending destinations.

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52

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Humanity is humanity's

Slowest progress.

Divinity is Divinity's

Deepest Concern. ```

53

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To my greatest joy,

This morning I was able

To wave good-bye

To my desire-life. ```

54

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A real devotee

Takes his Lord's Footsteps

As his own heartbeats.

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55

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God tells me

That it is His supreme Task

To beat my life's victory-drum

At His own choice Hour. ```

56

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My Lord Supreme,

I have only one desire:

Do bless me

With a never-dying

Gratitude-heartbeat.

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57

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My Lord keeps

His smiling Eye

Inside my heart

And His blessingful Hands

Upon my head.

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58

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I shall never allow my mind

To be dressed in a dark robe

Of God-disbelief,

Even for a fleeting second. ```

59

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I came into the world

With Heaven's Plenitude-Smiles.

I shall return

With earth's infinitude-tears. ```

60

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God wants me to know and feel

That every hour has to be

A new God-discovery-journey.

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61

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My heart cries and dies

Only for one thing:

The next ambrosial

God-Touch. ```

62

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May my life always be

Enraptured

In God-manifestation-dedication.

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635

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No sincere heart

Will ever believe

That God's Will

Is extremely difficult

To grasp.

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APR 659. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 13 January 2001.↩

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If we live in the heart,

Only in the aspiring heart,

Then we can definitely discover

Ever-new ways to please God

In His own Way.

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65

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My aspiration-heart

Began its journey

From God's Heart,

And it will forever continue

To God's Feet

Of ever-transcending Compassion. ```

66

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When a genuine seeker

Leaves the path,

God's Compassion-Eye suffers

Infinitely more

Than the seeker can ever imagine.

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67

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God secretly and blessingfully

Gives whispering hints

For our continuous inner progress.

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68

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In the spiritual life,

A doubt-enjoyer

Eventually suffers

Enormous failure. ```

69

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May my gratitude-heart-waves

Constantly rise and rise

And rise.

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70

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A faith-dislocation-heart

Is extremely difficult

To heal.

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71

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Each seeker must discover

The secret and sacred passageway

From the aspiring heart

To the illumining soul. ```

72

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My only happiness in life

Is my sleepless faith

In my Absolute Lord Supreme.

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736

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From my Master's fastest glance

I receive

A million blessings.

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APR 669. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 14 January 2001.↩

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O seeker,

Do not sigh, do not sigh,

Do not sigh,

For with each sigh

You slightly die.

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75

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The thrill

Of God-service

Is unparalleled.

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76

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The mind says to God,

"God, can You not give me

What I truly want?"

The heart says to God,

"God, do give me

What I need

At Your own Time."

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77

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The tears of my heart

Are my only aspiration-guides

To take me to Heaven.

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78

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No impurity of the mind

Can dare to enter into

My God-gratitude-heart.

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79

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Either in the near future

Or in the distant future,

My dedication-life-train

Must reach

The God-Bliss-station.

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80

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Without God-devotion-tears,

We can never have

God-realisation-smiles.

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81

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When I bow to God

With my humility-heart-prayers,

He immediately blesses me

With His own Crown and Throne. ```

82

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Every day

I deeply enjoy the beauty

Of my aspiration-seeds

And the fragrance

Of my surrender-deeds.

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837

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The desire-mind says,

"God is nowhere."

The aspiration-heart says,

"God is right here."

The realisation-soul says,

"God is here and all-where."

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APR 679. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 15 January 2001.↩

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In the aspiration-election,

The heart always wins.

God the Supreme Judge

Summarily rejects the mind. ```

85

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The heart unreservedly spends time

On the mind

For its transformation.

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86

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O endless desire-mind,

Be careful!

Your own frustration-night

Will not only frighten you,

But also devour you.

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87

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Quite often

The desire-mind fails

Because God's Compassion prevails.

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88

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The heart does not

Inspect the mind.

It only tries very hard

To connect the mind

With God.

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89

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When the God-realisation-hope

Disappears,

Bring it back

With your heart's streaming tears. ```

90

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A tiny progress-step

Is, indeed, a giant victory

In the inner world.

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91

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My God-adoring heart cries,

"Where, where, where?"God's Compassion-Heart echoes,

"Here, My child, here,

And nowhere else." ```

92

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If necessity demands,

Start with a curious mind.

If so is the Will of God,

He will turn your curious mind

Into your serious and precious heart.

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938

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I must dare to dream

Of God's transcendental Smiles

Every night

So that I can manifest God's Light

During the entire day.

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APR 689. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 16 January 2001.↩

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Alas, God's Grace

Is crying for a tiny place

In my heart-room.

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95

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God wants me

To strengthen my prayer-life

Every day.

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96

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God wants me

To lengthen my meditation-hours

Every day.

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97

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No more shall I cry

For earthly fame.

I shall cry only

For a Heavenly flame

Inside my heart.

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98

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The earthly mind

Does not believe in apology.

It only believes in eulogy

From God. ```

99

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Hope disappears.

This is, indeed, an earthly experience.

Tears appear.

This is, indeed, a Heavenly experience. ```

100

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God does not want me to think

Of my life's sunset.

He wants me only to think

Of my heart's all-illumining sunrise. ```

101

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My progress

Is in my constant

God-adoration.

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102

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No more

My mind's pride-commotion,

No more!

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103

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My heart's silence-sea-invocation

More,

Ever more!

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104

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O seeker,

Can you not feel even once

That your faith in God

Is infinitely stronger

Than your self-doubt?

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105

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I was, I am

And I shall forever remain

A God-meditation-heart.

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106

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Those who sincerely invoke God

In the depths of their heart

Can easily become

Life's frustration-depression-challengers. ```

107

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The beauty

Of soulful prayers

My life is.

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108

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The powerful fragrance

Of meditation

My heart is.

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109

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A desire-bound life

Is infinitely poorer

Than a street beggar's life.

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110

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A God-surrendered life

Enjoys God's

Infinite Delight.

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111

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The mind-wall

I see.

The heart-bridge

I become. ```

112

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My God-love

Has to be one-pointed.

If not,

My God-realisation-hope

Shall sadly fail.

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There is only one

Perpetual problem in my life:

My self-indulgence.

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APR 709. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 17 January 2001.↩

114

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My Master's earthly presence

Is a rare opportunity

For me to conquer

Ignorance-night forever. ```

115

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Unimaginably beautiful

And powerful

Are the tears of my gratitude-heart.

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116

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My Lord tells me that what I call

Insignificant disobedience

Is nothing short of a fatal blunder.

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117

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Alas,

All good hearts are crushed

By humanity's cruelty

And indifference. ```

118

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When I live a moment

Without God's Breath,

Death immediately becomes

My possessor. ```

119

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There is no difference

Between a desire-life

And an everlasting

Ignorance-play. ```

120

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To make striking progress,

The human in me prays to God

For repeated chances;

The divine in me prays to God

For His absolutely last Warning.

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121

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My Lord Supreme,

I have only one desire-prayer:

Please, please send me back

My long-treasured old hope. ```

122

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This morning I was so happy

To offer even

My life's last surrender-prayer-breath

To my Absolute Lord Supreme. ```

123

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God wants me to be myself first.

Only then will He turn me into

Another God.

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124

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May all God-seekers

Every day pray

For the universal conquest

Of self-doubt. ```

125

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Alas,

Even the outstretched arms

Of God's Compassion

Cannot reach my dry mind. ```

126

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My Supreme cries and cries

Before He reads my confidential letters.

After reading my letters,

He heaves a very heavy sigh of relief. ```

127

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To me,

Each Smile of my Lord Supreme

Is the Smile of the Millennium.

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128

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Only adamantine

Determination-hammers

Can destroy the mind-walls.

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129

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May each thought of mine

Be shaded

By my Lord's Protection-Tree.

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130

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When we most confidently

And most powerfully select faith,

Doubt rejects us immediately.

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131

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E-mail is man-connection,

And not God-communication —

No, never!

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132

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My life can escape

From God's Justice-Light,

But it can never escape

From God's Compassion-Height. ```

133

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God-obedience

Is not God-slavery.

God-obedience

Is life-mastery. ```

134

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Sweet is God's Eye.

Sweeter is God's Heart.

Sweetest is God's Will.

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135

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Religion talks.

Spirituality acts.

Yoga becomes.

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May my mind's

God-ignoring ignorance-rocks

Be totally shattered

Once and for all.

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APR 732. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 18 January 2001.↩

137

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May the entire world

Accept God's Peace-Message

Every day, every hour,

Every minute and every second

For the radical transformation

Of this world. ```

138

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No cruel intimidation

Can ever succeed.

Only illumination shall succeed,

Here, there and everywhere. ```

139

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The frustration of my vital

Can be conquered only

With my heart's patience-light.

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140

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What I desperately need

Every day

Is a God-commitment-prone heart.

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141

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Expectation-demolition

Is the secret and sacred way

To run the fastest

In the inner life. ```

142

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If you hide

From your Lord's Presence,

How can He give

His ignorance-conquering Lance

To you?

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143

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My mind-thought-expulsion

I want. ```

144

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My God-invitation-will

I desperately need. ```

145

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God tells me

That if I want to explain Him,

Then He will not allow me

To claim Him. ```

146

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In the spiritual life,

Do not go

Where simplicity, sincerity

And humility-virtues

Are ridiculed.

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147

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God tells me

That I must not try to understand

Others' tears.

I must only become implicitly one

With others' tears.

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148

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If we do not want

To feed God's hungry Heart,

Then we have to face

Sooner or later

God's angry Eye.

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149

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Fear strangles us.

Courage liberates us.

Courage gives us

What God wants us to have:

God's Victory-promise-manifestation

Here on earth. ```

150

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God will never allow

Our God-hunger-heart

To starve.

God will definitely feed

Our God-hunger-heart sumptuously

At His choice Hour. ```

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May each life

Be a giant

God-enquiry.

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APR 747. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 26 January 2001.↩

152

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There comes a time

When we realise

That it is only our mind

That has the capacity

To defeat us.

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153

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In my case,

The moment I lost my mind,

I gained my heart.

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154

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Fault-finders

Can never be

True God-servers.

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155

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God refuses to accept

Our resignation

Because He wants desperately

Our illumination. ```

156

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There is no seat

For frustration

In my life-home.

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157

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The mind asks,

"Who is right?"

The heart replies,

"Only God is right,

Always right."

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158

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My life is made of

Aspiration and dedication.

I wish to utilise them equally.

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159

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The mind-education

Will never be able to give us

Heart-elevation

And life-illumination. ```

160

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Every morning God sings

A very special song

In my heart-home

To inspire me and show me the way

To His Golden Palace.

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Editor's note

Sri Chinmoy offered these morning prayers during his visit to Bali, Indonesia in January 2001.

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 7, Agni Press, 2002
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