My child, you and I are in the same boat

1.

```

My Lord,

I am utterly lost.

My child,

You and I are in the same boat. ```

2.

```

It took my Lord Compassionate Supreme

A whole day to teach me how to laugh,

A full month to teach me how to giggle,

And an unending 365 days to teach me how to chuckle.

Then God said to me,

"My child, you may be a very slow learner,

But now you have become a perfect professor."

```

3.

```

My Lord,

Is there any way

I can make You laugh?

Just ask Me to trust you.

```

4.

```

My Lord,

How is it possible for You

To remain always happy?

My child,

Unlike you, I talk to Myself,

And I listen to Myself.

```

5.

```

My Lord,

Are You aware

Of the bad things

That I do?

My child,

No, I am not aware,

And I don't want to be.

My Lord, why?

Just because

You don't care to know

How many good things I do.

```

6.

```

My Lord,

Do tell me

When You are really

Pleased with me.

My child,

I am really pleased with you

Only when you hate Me.

My Lord,

How?

How can it be true?

How, my child?

That is the only time

That you think of Me.

```

7.

```

My Lord,

How can I become perfect?

My child,

You can become perfect

Just by teaching Me

For 99 years and 365 days

All that you have learnt.

From your ignorance-teacher. ```

8.

```

My Lord,

Have You ever

Told me a lie?

Many, many times.

Why, my Lord, why?

Just to be even with you,

My child.

As you know,

I never accept defeat

From anybody.

```

9.

```

My Lord,

Will You help me

To be as great as You are?

No.

I can't allow you

To be as great as I am.

Why?

My ego-head will be crippled.

```

10.

```

My Lord,

Will You allow me

To be as good as You are?

Certainly.

Do you know why,

My child?

Why, my Lord?

Because,

If you become as good as I am,

Then I will be able

To enjoy My retirement,

Which I so desperately need.

```

11.

```

My Lord,

Do you enjoy it

When I quarrel with You

Unnecessarily and foolishly?

My child,

Let Me add —

And unpardonably as well.

Am I correct,

My son?

My Lord,

Perhaps You are.

My Lord, tell me,

Why do You allow me

To indulge

In quarrelling with You?

My child,

If I do not allow you

To empty

Your overflowing poison-ocean into Me,

Then who will and who can?

```

12.

```

My Lord,

People say that I am

Extremely beautiful.

Do You agree with them?

No, never!

My Lord,

Why are You so cruel to me?

Because you do not

Give any credit

To the Source.

Who is the Source

And what has the Source

Done for me?

I am the Source

And I tell you once and for all,

The beauty that you have

Is a loan from Me.

At any moment

I can compel you

To return it.

My child,

I can never understand

How a beggar-borrower

Can ever be happy and proud.

```

13.

```

My Lord,

I wonder how You answer

All my questions

So easily and perfectly.

My child,

Don't forget that I am

A little bit older than you.

My Lord,

That means when I equal

You in age,

I shall be able

To answer all Your questions.

No.

I shall always remain

Older than you.

```

14.

```

My Lord,

What shall I do

With my mind?

Do give me some advice.

I do not want you

To live without a mind.

Again, with a mind either.

```

15.

```

My Lord,

I am always afraid of You.

Are You ever afraid of me?

Of course, of course.

I am always afraid

Of your tearful eyes.

```

16.

```

My Lord,

What are You doing now?

I am arguing with Myself.

My Lord,

What are You arguing about?

My child,

I want to know for sure

Whether I am a failure

Or you are a failure.

Also, I want to know

If both of us are failures.

My Lord,

You may be a failure,

But I am not, never.

```

17.

```

My Lord,

They tell me that

When everything else fails,

Try prayers.

My Lord,

Is it true?

No, it is not.

When everything else fails,

Start blaming Me.

My Lord, why?

Why?

Because My world-happiness-machine

Is always out of order.

```

18.

```

My Lord,

If I give You

My mind's precious hallucinations,

What will You

Give me in return?

My child,

I shall immediately give you

My Heart's spacious Reality.

```

19.

```

My Lord,

Do You want to know from me

Why I am so fond

Of my ego?

I am so fond of my ego

Because my ego is the only thing

That I can always depend on.

It always claims me.

Vice versa.

```

20.

```

My Lord,

Now that my mind

Is in abysmal abyss,

What shall I do?

Tell your mind

That there is only one direction left —

Up.

```

21.

```

My Lord,

Please tell me if I am alive.

My child,

Resurrect Me first. ```

22.

```

My Lord,

Even when I do not

Have the right questions,

How do You

Have the right answers?

My child,

At least one of us

Has to be right.

```

23.

```

My Lord,

When I do not allow You

To be inside my heart,

Where do You go?

My child,

No particular place.

I become a homeless vagabond,

Plus a sonless Father. ```

24.

```

My Lord,

I forget so many things so often.

Do You ever forget anything?

My child,

You are very rich,

Specially in your mental world.

I am not as rich as you are.

Therefore, you can afford to forget.

Poor as I am,

I cannot afford to forget.

```

25.

```

My Lord,

I am so grateful to You,

For You have given me so much.

My child,

I want to remain satisfied

With your gratitude-heart.

Don't ask Me for anything more.

Who knows?

This time I may disappoint you. ```

26.

```

My Lord,

How can I shut up my mouth?

My child,

Just open up your heart.

Your mouth will automatically

Be sealed. ```

27.

```

My Lord,

I have discovered happiness

By deceiving myself.

How have You discovered

Your happiness?

My child,

I have not yet discovered happiness.

Perhaps you can teach Me.

Who knows, your way may be

The only way for Me to be happy.

```

From:Sri Chinmoy,My child, you and I are in the same boat, Agni Press, 1991
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