I climb up
ImmediatelyWhen I love God only.
```I fall down
JustifiablyWhen I want God
To love me only. ```I climb up
When I have dedication-smilesInside my aspiration-tears.
```I fall down
When my aspiration is empty of tearsAnd my dedication is empty of smiles.
```I climb up
When my mind's equanimityAnd my heart's divinity
Enjoy their transcendentalAnd universal partnership.
```I fall down
When my mind and my heartAre at daggers drawn.
```I climb up
When my heart becomesA God-obedience-feast.
```I fall down
When I attend my mind'sGod-unwillingness-banquet.
```I climb up
When my heart's sincerity-tearsAnd purity-smiles
Grow, glow and flow together. ```I fall down
When I jump intoThe hostile turmoil
Of my mind's confusion-life. ```I climb up
When I pine forMy Lord's Forgiveness-Smiles.
```I fall down
When I indulge inMy God-unawareness
And God-unwillingness-life. ```I climb up
When I readily, gladlyAnd eagerly accept
My heart's God-wisdom-light. ```I fall down
When I greedily, stubbornlyAnd willfully cherish
My mind's ignorance-futility-night. ```I climb up
And fly and fly in Infinity's SkyOn God-Compassion-Plane.
```I fall down
And fracture all my limbsWhen I board my
Ego-gratification-plane. ```I climb up
When my heart becomesThe quintessence
Of angelic sweetness. ```I fall down
When my mind becomesThe epitome
Of satanic bitterness. ```I climb up
When my aspiration-heartIs supercharged
With God-manifestation-eagerness. ```I fall down
When I consciouslyAnd deliberately enjoy
My God-indifference-mind. ```I climb up
When I prayerfully long forGod-Satisfaction-Breath.
```I fall down
When I arrogantly enjoy my mind'sSelf-aggrandisement-game.
```I climb up
When I stoically and callouslyDisregard my mind's
Doubt-summons. ```I fall down
When my heart deliberately embracesGod-faith-famine.
```I climb up
When I have an allergic reactionTo name and fame.
```I fall down
When I richly indulgeIn name and fame.
```I climb up
The moment I becomeMy desire-cremator.
```I fall down
The moment I becomeMy frustration-follower.
```I climb up
When I burn downMy doubt-bridge.
```I fall down
When I sleeplessly and breathlesslyBuild my doubt-bridge.
```I climb up
The day my mindWillingly goes with my heart
To visit God. ```I fall down
The day my mindVehemently rejects the idea
Of visiting God. ```I climb up
When I have complete faithIn my soul-compass.
```I fall down
When I take my suspicion-mindAs my polestar.
```I climb up
When I am in perfect harmonyWith the world.
```I fall down
When I cherish my mind'sDisharmony-discovery.
```When I forcefully tear down
My mind's towering doubts,I climb up
High, higher, highest. ```When I sumptuously feed
My mind's brooding doubts,I fall down
Far, farther, farthest. ```I climb up
When I becomeMy oneness-purity-heart.
```I fall down
When I becomeMy division-impurity-mind.
```When I cry for the
God-necessity-experience,I climb up.
```When I take pride
In my self-analysis-experiment,I fall down.
```I climb up
Extremely highThe moment I relinquish
My ego-crownAnd my ego-throne
Forever. ```I fall down
To the very depthsThe moment I proudly
And sovereignly enjoyMy ego-crown
And my ego-throne. ```I climb up
When I just ringMy aspiration-heart-bell.
```I fall down
Even when I gently strikeMy ostentation-mind-gong.
```I climb up
When I useMy aspiration-eye
And my faith-heart. ```I fall down
When I employMy overconfidence-mind
And my arrogance-vital. ```When I take God
As my only escort,I climb up
Immediately. ```When I take either my mind
Or my vital as my escort,I fall down
Unavoidably. ```When I awake
From my spirituality-coma,I climb up.
```When I enjoy even unconsciously
My ego-drama,I fall down.
```When I use my God-devotion
To raise the world's standard,I climb up.
```When I use my pride-mind
To raise the world's standard,I fall down.
```When I pray to God:
"My Lord, do not loseYour Grip on me,"
God smilesAnd I climb up.
```When I think I can steer
My life-boatEasily and perfectly all by myself,
I fall down. ```When I receive enormous joy
From every little thing I do,I climb up.
```When I get no joy
No matter what I doOr how I do,
I fall down. ```When I enjoy
My God-obedience-bliss,I climb up.
```When I enjoy
My God-disobedience-volcano,I fall down.
```When I become
My God-devotion-heart,I climb up.
```When I become
My confusion-addiction-mind,I fall down.
```When God's Compassion
Steers my heart-boat,I climb up
Into the skies. ```When I allow my mind
To steer my life-boat,I fall down
Into the abysmal abyss. ```From:Sri Chinmoy,I climb up, I fall down, Agni Press, 1998
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