God and I
Have a joint bank account.He earns and deposits;
I neither earn nor deposit.“Son,” He says, “why don’t you
Withdraw and buy your desiresSo that at the end of the year
We shall be payingLess income tax to Satan?
And also for another reasonI would like you to withdraw
Our wealth from the bank:If you issue cheques to others,
The world will see thatYou and I are good partners,
Loving partners, eternal partners.” ```I am not going to talk back
To anyone any more.No, not even to God.
Let Him scold me,Let Him insult me.
I shall prove to HimThat I have not one,
But three striking qualities:I know how to hear,
I know how to bear,I know how to transfigure.
Of course,It is for our mutual good.
If I become perfect,
God will definitely be proud of me.If I become perfect,
I won’t have to fightConstantly against Him.
```In the morning
When I look in my mirrorI see the face of pure aspiration.
At noon
When I look in my mirrorI see the face of sad dissatisfaction.
In the evening
When I look in my mirrorI see that I am totally lost.
At night
When I look in my mirrorI see my broken heart
Replaced by God’s Heart of Determination,And my sunken face
Replaced by God’s Perfection-Grace. ```A monkey climbed down a tree;
Lo, he became a man.A man looked up;
Lo, he became a god.A god looked within;
Lo, he becameThe energy of a monkey,
The patience of a tree,The forgiveness of a man,
The dedication of the Supreme. ```I hoped to get a better Guru;
Alas, there was none.I hoped to get a better disciple;
Alas, there was none.I hoped to get a better God;
I saw so many,I saw them so willing,
I immediately feltThat
They were worth lovingAnd
Worth becoming. ```Rabelais said:
“A mother-in-law diesOnly when another devil
Is needed in hell.”I say:
“A seeker is bornOnly when another God
Is needed on earth.” ```The biggest secret
Came out of my little mouth:God is still alive.
The sweetest secret
Came out of my little mouth:God loves me.
The purest secret
Came out of my little mouth:God is for all,
Including me:My uselessness,
My unwillingness. ```Conversion is not a religion,
But a religious disease.Yoga is not a religion,
But a religious cure.Fear of God is not a religion,
But a fatal disease.Love of God is not a religion,
But a normal life,A perfecting soul,
A fulfilling Goal. ```The vital Napoleon
Braves and wins.The mental Napoleon
Unlearns and becomes the knowledge-sun.The psychic Napoleon
Surrenders and becomes the God-Love. ```I borrow
Everything from GodSave and except His Perfection.
I borrow
Everything from GodSave and except His Realisation.
I borrow
Everything from GodSave and except His Aspiration.
God never borrows.
He just grabs my ignoranceAnd claims it as His, His alone.
```My hope celebrates
The arrival of the New Year.My doubt celebrates
The survival of the old year.My soul celebrates
The arrival of my realisation-year.My God celebrates
The survival of my aspiration-year. ```In six days, God,
You created and completedHeaven and earth.
How is it that my love-roomStill remains unfinished,
My devotion-room untouched,My surrender-room unbuilt?
God, tell me the reason, please.“My son, to complete your love-room,
I need more satisfaction-power.Unfortunately
I have run short of it.“My son, in order to start working
On your devotion-room,I need more determination-power.
UnfortunatelyRight now I don’t have it.
“My son, you want Me to build
Your surrender-room.Believe Me,
I am desperately searchingFor My patience-power.”
```Father, how is it that
You do not love meAs You did before?
Have I done anything wrong?“My son, ask your doubt-friend.”
Father, how is it that
You do not care for me any more?Have I done anything serious?
“My son, ask your insecurity-friend.”
```Father, how is it that
You love me nowadaysMuch more than You ever did before?
Have I done something inwardly special for You?“My son, ask My Compassion.”
Father, how is it that
You care for me nowadaysAt every second of my life,
And You are making me feelMy real closeness to You,
My divine oneness with You,My supreme fulfilment in You?
Have I done something special for YouIn the inner world?
“My son, ask My unconditional Compassion.”
```When I look at myself
I forget to learn.When I look at the world
I learn to listen.When I look at God
I listen to learn. ```Without air
Man cannot live.Without the sun
Earth cannot live.Without love
Life cannot live.Without man’s smile
God cannot live. ```I remember everything
Except three things:God Himself sent me
Into the world;God Himself gave me
His Message of love to offerTo the world;
God Himself asked meTo be one with the world
For God-manifestation,For God-perfection
On earth. ```God’s Compassion is blind,
ButHis Wisdom is not.
God’s Love is blind,
ButHis Concern is not.
God’s Promise is blind,
ButHis Fulfilment is not.
God is blind;
Therefore He is available.God is not blind;
Therefore He is unapproachable. ```No is not
A rejectionFrom a woman’s heart.
Yes is not
An acceptanceOf a man’s heart.
Cosmic Law is not
A rejectionFrom God’s heart.
Forced Smile is not
The fulfilmentOf God’s Promise.
```The most difficult thing on earth
I have done:I have squared the circle.
The easiest thing on earth
I have not doneAnd I cannot do.
I cannot make my disciplesFearlessly and soulfully
SMILE! ```How to know
If you have done the right thing?Ask your soul.
How to know
If you are doing the right thing?Ask your heart.
How to know
If you will be doing the right thing?Ask your Will.
Your soul can unlock the door of the past.
Your heart can unlock the door of the present.Your Will can unlock the door of the future.
```No vital world means
What it says.No mental world says
What it means.No psychic world says
If it does not mean. ```He believes
In divine miracles.Therefore
He believesThat the earthly marriage-oneness can last and fulfil.
He believes
In human miracles.Therefore
He believesThat God-realisation can be achieved
With no aspiration and with no dedication. ```He is a puritan friend of mine.
He wants me to liveMy life in his way.
Why should I?I am a seeker.
I want to live my lifeIn my own way.
Why should I not?To the puritan friend of mine, God says:
“Don’t be a beggar,You will fail.”
To me, God says:
“Don’t be a chooser,You will fail.
Follow My Way:My Way is the only filler
Of your empty life.My Way is the only fulfiller
Of your soul’s ancient promise.” ```Opportunity knocked
At my door only once.Opportunists knocked
At my door thousands of times.God knocked
At my door twice:Once after I dined with ignorance,
Once before I went to sleep with inconscience. ```The soul proposes,
The vital opposes.The mind hesitates,
The heart dedicates.The body fears,
God cheers. ```Adam and Eve
Had no human parents;Yet
They were not orphans,For God the divine Father became their Father
AndGod the divine Mother became their Mother.
I
Have two visible and tangible parents;Yet
I am an orphan,For my father
Does not know how to feed me with wisdom-light,And
My motherDoes not know how to feed me with concern-might.
```My Lord,
How is it that there is nothingPermanent on earth?
“Who told you so?
Is jealousy not permanent on earth?Is doubt not permanent on earth?
Is insecurity not permanent on earth?”My Lord,
True, they are.But when are You
Going to make them impermanent?“Son, the moment the world wants Me to.”
My Lord,
Why do You blame the poor innocent world?After all, who created the world?
“Son, by creating the world
I feel I have played My role.Now I feel the world should play its role
By embracing love,Faith and oneness.
And you know, son,I am more than ready,
I am more than eagerTo assist the world
In its noble adventure.” ```Is your goal to love?
Then here is the place.Is your goal to love God in His own Way?
Then here is the place.Is your goal to become another God?
Then here is the place.Is your goal to transcend the previous God?
Then here is the place.Is your goal to transcend the present God?
Then here is the place.Is your goal, your only goal, to become the future God?
Then here is the place.Here is the place:
Earth, Mother Earth. ```Disease is the revenge
Of a neglected thought.Death is the result
Of a forgotten will.God is the prize
Of a remembered love. ```Since
I escaped from Dream,I have grown blind.
Since
I escaped from Reality,I have become lame.
Since
I escaped from God,I have become helpless.
Since
I escaped from myself,I have become worthless.
```Where is God?
“I don’t know.”How is God?
“I don’t know.”Who is God?
“I don’t know.”Who is the future God?
“Ah, I know, I know.Not one but three future Gods:
My Transformation-Feet,My Illumination-Mind,
My Oneness-Heart.” ```Where do I look for guidance?
I look for guidanceIn the body of grey fears.
Where do I look for guidance?
I look for guidanceIn the vital of red jealousies.
Where do I look for guidance?
I look for guidanceIn the mind of black doubts.
Where do I look for guidance?
I look for guidanceIn the heart of white insecurities.
My Lord says:
“If you need further guidance,Then
Think of Me,Count on Me,
I am at your disposal.My Light is at your disposal,
My Delight is at your disposal,My Perfection is at your disposal.”
```Don’t just exist.
Live!Don’t just live.
See!Don’t just see.
Feel!Don’t just feel.
Become!And what happens
When you become?When you become,
You really existBoth on earth
And in Heaven.You proudly live
In God’s Heart.You use God’s Eye to see.
You use God’s Heart to feel.When you see,
You see your own omnipotence.When you feel,
You feel your own omnipresence. ```Lord, can faith be increased
By personal effort?“Yes, faith can be increased
By personal effortProvided
One knows the real meaningOf personal effort.”
What is personal effort?“Personal effort is nothing but
Unseen and unrecognised Grace.”What is the other Grace,
I mean normal Grace?“That Grace is called
Universal shower.” ```He needed
Only three personsIn this vast world:
A constant praiser,A grateful learner,
An unconditional lover.Alas, he found not even one.
SinceAll mortals with no exception failed him,
He appointed God.God touched his feet
And emphatically praised his ignorance.God touched his feet
And unmistakably learnt from himHow to drink ignorance.
God touched his feet
And unconditionally becameHis eternal Lover.
```When I
Live in the mind,I know less but say more.
When I
Live in the heart,I know more but say less.
When I
Live in the soul,I know most but say least.
When I
Live in God,I know most and say most.
```What?
Do I have to see any miracle?Am I not the world’s greatest miracle?
Who can equal me in performing miracles?
One miracle I have already shown:I was the God supreme,
And now I am a feeble man.My second miracle will take place
In the distant future:I shall become
Once more the Lord of the Universe. ```I appreciate myself not;
ThereforeI deserve more appreciation.
I admire myself not;
ThereforeI deserve more admiration.
I love myself not;
ThereforeI deserve more love.
But, since
I love not God,I deserve no love, no admiration,
No appreciation, nothing,Absolutely nothing.
```He says
He is a self-made man.I pity him.
I feel sorry for him.I accept his apology,
Immediately.He says
He is a self-made man.I hate him.
I hate his haughtiness.I trust not his insincere claim.
I discard his meaningless lifeWith its useless achievements,
Immediately. ```God loves me
For one particular reason:I take my service
More selflessly than I take my life.I love God
For two particular reasons:He has forgotten how to think,
AndHe is never busy.
```When I preach,
My preaching finishesLong before it actually stops.
When I meditate,
My meditation continuesLong after it has definitely stopped.
```The mind says:
Love is sex.The vital says:
Sex is love.The heart says:
Love is love.The body says:
There is no such thing as love.The soul says:
There is nothing but love. ```I love God
For two special reasons:He is not afraid
Of my ignorance-seaAnd
I am not afraidOf His Omnipotence-Reality.
```My Lord, I have thousands of friends;
Of course, that includes You.Now tell me, please,
How many friends do You have?“Son, I have only three regular friends:
World-love is My one-half friend,World-devotion is My one full friend,
World-surrender is My one-and-a-half friend.“If I have not miscalculated,
Then I have three friends.Son, this is, of course, excluding you.”
```Lord, I am sufficient
Only when I have YouOn my side.
“Son, I am sufficient
Only when I takeYour side.
“When I add Peace
To your achievements,I become complete.
“When I add Light
To your achievements,I become perfect.”
```I am a dependent genius.
I depend on the world’s appreciation.I am happy.
I am a dependable genius.
The world depends on me.I am really miserable.
I have no holidays.I am an independent genius.
I am really happyBecause
I don’t depend on the world’s appreciationAnd
The world does not depend on my genius.The world is free to bark.
I am free to bray. ```If I could only love myself
Divinely,I would become
Another God.If I could only reveal myself
Selflessly,I would become
Another God.If I could only manifest myself
Unconditionally,I would become
Another God.If I could only forget and forgive myself,
I would becomeThe only God.
```She cries every second
To please the Lord.She cries every second
To love the Lord.She cries every second
To serve the Lord.The Lord cries every second
To make each of them feel thatShe is indispensable,
She is indispensable,She is indispensable,
And alsoHe grants them the boon
That they will have three hundred incarnations lessTo realise His Transcendental Height
And become His Universal Life. ```She jumped and jumped
Before the Lord.She ran and ran
Before the Lord.She dived and dived
Before the Lord.Finally the Lord
Jumped with His jumper-seekerOnly to break His knees,
Ran with His runner-seekerOnly to damage His heart,
Dived with His diver-seekerOnly to break His head.
Lo,
The jumper reachedThe Height of the Supreme.
The runner reachedThe Length of the Supreme.
The diver reachedThe Depth of the Supreme.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,The Dance of Life, part 9, Aum Press, Puerto Rico, 1973
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