I am praying
To have a white birdFlooded with purity
To fly in my heart’s blue sky. ```Alas, because of my weak body,
Vital, mind and heart,I have been unable to manifest
My Beloved SupremeAccording to the promise I made Him
Before I came into the world-arena.Alas, alas!
```The human philosophy runs:
The mind cannot be separatedFrom doubt-thorns.
The divine philosophy runs:God will be satisfied
Only when He can show the mindThat it has the capacity to go beyond
Its own self-styled discoveries —Doubt, suspicion and frustration —
And sing and danceWith God’s perfection-children —
Peace, Light, Delight and Power. ```My child, I have given you
My most precious Wealth:My Heart’s Satisfaction-Smile.
Will you not give MeYour most precious wealth:
Your heart’s oneness-cry? ```My Beloved Supreme
Most sincerely loves me.Therefore, He does not answer
Quite a few prayers of mine,Especially prayers of my mind.
```I may fail.
You also may fail.But somebody will definitely succeed
In proving to the world at largeThat the Supreme’s Message
Is absolutely perfect. ```Since I have no strong liking
For my inner cry,I do not know how my Lord Supreme
Can ever grant meHis Infinity’s Perfection-Core.
```Your mind lives
In the house of negligence.Your heart lives
In the house of impatience.Therefore, you do not realise
That you have already uprootedYour life’s hope-tree
For good. ```Nobody is safe!
Even excellent instrumentsOf the Lord Supreme,
Devoted pilgrims on the spiritual path,Can become lame and crippled
And be totally devouredBy ignorance-forces.
```The ferocious ignorance-tiger
Is all around us.This tiger may not be about to leave us
Right now,But eventually it has to leave us
For good. ```Now that you have discovered
The incense-purity inside your mind,You will be liberated from the prison-cell
Of your fast-approaching spiritual death. ```Vital tears are born
In the soil of self-deception-night.Psychic tears are born
In God’s God-Eternity’sSelf-amorous Delight.
```Yesterday you disobeyed
Your Inner Pilot.Today you do not believe in
Your own inner capacity.Tomorrow you will utterly ruin
Your life. ```An outer smile carries
Today’s earthly dawn to Heaven.An inner smile carries
Tomorrow’s Heavenly sun to earth. ```At long last my mind
Has gone beyond itselfTo grant me the joy
Of the unknown. ```Conquer ignorance here and now!
If you think you can go elsewhereAnd escape your enemy,
You are totally mistaken.For even while you are planning
Your escape,Your enemy will devour you.
```When ignorance-tiger attacks you,
Just remind yourself who you are:The supremely chosen instrument
Of your Beloved SupremeFor His divine Manifestation
On earth. ```Why do you hesitate
To talk to God?He never demands
Silence from you.On the contrary,
He is expecting youTo say something to Him,
Even if it is not something nice. ```If at every moment
I can convince my mindThat I am of God alone
And I am for God alone,Then my love for God will grow
And inundate my lifeWith light and delight.
```My Lord’s Heart of Compassion-Beauty
Not only saves my life time and againBut also assures me
That it is my Eternity’s only WayAnd my Immortality’s only Goal.
```When you forget
Your connection with God,Ignorance attacks you
Because it sees a yawning gulfBetween your aspiration and God’s Compassion.
But if you can strengthenYour oneness with your Beloved Supreme,
Ignorance is bound to leave you alone. ```What do I see in others?
My own imperfection-spots.What do I see in God?
My own dissatisfaction-panther. ```If your heart is inspired
To cry like an orphan,Then God the Father and God the Mother
Will definitely come to youAnd teach you how to dance with Them
Their own Immortality-Dance. ```As you run along the Path of Eternity,
Pay all attention to your own inner race.If you try to carry
Your slower brothers and sistersWhile running fast, faster, fastest
To your goal,Your own frustration will come forward
Again and againAnd unmistakably delay
Your spiritual progress. ```Just because another seeker
Has failed in the spiritual life,Does that mean you also will fail?
No, you have your own name.When your Beloved Supreme
Calls you,No other person will come
And appear before Him. ```Every day is your birthday
When you are good.Every day is your death day
When you are bad. ```Yesterday, for the first time,
I appreciated something in myselfThat I had never before appreciated,
And that was my thirsty heart.Today I am appreciating
Something in myselfThat I never thought I would appreciate
In this life,And that is my Lord’s
Uninvited Compassion-Tears. ```You want to know
What God looks like.I tell you,
He looks exactly likeThe beauty of your hope
AndThe purity of your promise.
```Yesterday God came to me
With a blue and hungry heart.Today God has come to me
With a green and nourishing hope.Tomorrow God will come to me
With a golden and fulfilled promise. ```If you stay in the Golden Boat,
You will be called.But if you are no longer in the Boat,
Why should the Boatman call you?So stay with your Beloved Supreme,
O seeker, stay in His Golden Boat. ```If you have faith in the spiritual Teacher
You have chosen,Then your sincere devotion to him
Will make you feelThat what he has inwardly and outwardly
Is more than enough for you. ```The human in us
Wants to knowGod’s secret Dreams.
The divine in us
Wishes to become one withGod’s open Realities.
```If you have an inner will,
Then use it properly!Use it to control
Your outer life.If you have an outer will,
Then use it properly!Use it to feed and please
Your inner life. ```If you withdraw from your inner bank
All the good qualitiesYou have put into your spiritual life —
Gratitude, love, devotion, surrender,Concern and affection —
And do not deposit anythingIn their place,
Then your account will become emptyAnd your inner life
Will be totally bankrupt. ```If you withdraw one dollar
From your inner bank account,Then the next day, without fail,
You should be sure to depositFive dollars in its place.
This will be all your own wealth.Nobody else can claim it.
```You can unmistakably know
Your soul’s willBy discarding once and for all
The messages of your bindingAnd blinding mind
And by consciously and sleeplesslyLoving and embracing
The messages of your cryingAnd dreaming heart.
```The seeker’s highest reality
And his lowest realityAre all the time fighting against each other.
For the sincere seeker,The highest is bound to win
In the near future.For the insincere seeker also,
The highest is bound to win,But in the far distant future.
```It is not necessary
For me to knowWhat God the Perfection
Does for me.But it is absolutely necessary
For me to knowWhat I the imperfection
Do for God. ```If your life is your own dream
And not God’s Dream,Then you are bound to live inside
Your own mind’s illusion-prison. ```How can you survive
The attacks of ignorance-nightWhen your mind loves to dance
In darknessAnd your heart is too timid and weak
To protest against your mind’s behaviour? ```If you know that God
Is all for you,Then you are also bound to be
All for God,No matter how much others
Speak ill of God,No matter how much others
Speak ill of you. ```To have a true friend
Is to have an added opportunityTo increase your spirituality,
For two friends can easilyOffer to each other
What they inwardly receive. ```Each good thought is a new Heaven.
Each new Heaven is a new perfectionOf God’s Vision
And a new satisfactionOf God’s Reality.
```When I look at God,
I see His Eternity’s sleepless Eye.When I look at myself,
I see my insecurity’s helpless “I”. ```If your heart-delight
Is walking with God,That means your body-consciousness
Also is walking with God. ```When I live inside my mind,
I offer my Lord SupremeAn unparalleled frustration-prison.
When I live inside my heart,I grant my Lord Supreme
An unparalleled opportunityTo receive me, shape me,
Mould me and make meAn exact prototype of His own
Heaven-Vision in earth-Reality. ```As long as I live in the hope-world,
My Lord Supreme will appearTime and again.
But when I no longer live in the hope-world,Not only will my Lord disappear,
But also my own Heaven-free realityWill disappear.
```Frustration and satisfaction
Stand before you side by side.It is up to you to choose.
While you are cherishing frustration,Satisfaction remains out of reach.
But the moment you cast frustration aside,Satisfaction is yours.
```Your mind does not aspire.
Therefore, your heart suffers.Your heart aspires,
But not to the satisfaction of your soul.Therefore, your soul suffers.
```You are walking
Along the wrong roadBecause you are not feeding
Your mind’s little thoughtsWith your purity-sincerity-flames.
```Promotion:
This is what my mind demandsFrom the world.
Protection:
This is what my heart needsFrom Above.
```In the morning
I am the beggarOf my Lord’s Compassion-Eye.
At noon
I am the beggarOf my Lord’s Oneness-Heart.
In the evening
I am the beggarOf my Lord’s Satisfaction-Breath.
```When you love yourself
And nobody else,You must know that
Your heart is not,And perhaps will never be,
As vast as you think. ```His clever vital
Is torturing his uncertain mind.His intelligent mind
Is torturing his loving heart. ```If you know that a negative force
Is bound to attack you,Do not delay!
Attack that forceBefore it attacks you.
```If you see the ignorance-tiger
Standing in front of youAbout to attack,
Do not run away.Do not wait for the hour
When Peace, Light, Bliss and PowerWill descend into you in infinite measure.
Do not wait until you have more strengthIn your mind and heart.
The hour of battle is now!Just conquer and destroy the tiger
Immediately. ```Nobody is my enemy
Except my mind,The manufacturer
Of my restlessness-life. ```If your mind enjoys
Living inside the prison cellOf dark impurity,
How can poor God grant youHis Heart’s Love-Nectar-Delight?
```My life’s hesitation
Is cleverly beckonedBy my mind’s imperfection.
```An imperfect
Institution-mindIs a perfect
Destitution-life. ```I am so glad that my mind
Is now totally blind.It can no longer see
The falsehood-mountain.I am so glad that my life
Is now totally blind.It can no longer see
The deception-volcano.I am so glad that my heart
Has regained its perfect vision.It can not only see God once more
But also feel God’s Satisfaction-Heart. ```There may be a great difference
Between the peaceThat I receive from within
And the peaceThat I offer without.
```I love the world
Not because the worldIs trying to be perfect.
I love the worldBecause my Lord is evolving
Through the world’s constant failuresAnd rare successes.
```I have already found my Lord
Inside my heart-garden,And now I am looking for Him
In the depths of my mind-forest. ```One divine message is flowing down
And touching my earth-home:My Lord Supreme will make my life
His own Illumination-Joy. ```Because I have not disciplined my life
I am forced not only to seeThe dance of darkness
But also to participate inThe dance of destruction.
```The blue bird of my green heart
Has a special message today:Before long I shall see
The lotus-red Feet of my Lord SupremeInside my surrender-life and gratitude-heart.
```Man is happy only when
He has his powerful imagination with him.God is happy only when
He has His fruitful Satisfaction with Him. ```There are many ways for a seeker
To acquire overwhelming joyInside the depths of his heart.
But the easiest and most effective wayIs to tell the world:
“I am in you, true!But I am for God,
I am of GodAnd I am with God.”
```Because of your flower-fragrance-humility
God enjoys inside youThe Delight of His own Divinity.
```My only freedom
Is my constant obedienceTo my Inner Pilot.
```He has definitely descended
Because his mindHas stabbed his heart.
```I sincerely do not mind
Who thinks of you,So long as you are thought of
Affectionately, sleeplesslyAnd unconditionally.
```My heart’s sleepless progress
Is my life’sShadowless destination.
```When you lose your outer strength,
You can gain it back againAlmost at once.
But when you lose your inner strength,Recovery is more difficult.
For that you have to cry and cry to GodWith all the sincerity
At your command. ```In the outer life
If you do not eat for two days,Nothing serious will happen to you.
But in the inner lifeIf you do not aspire for even one day,
All the world’s hostile forcesCan attack you,
And your inner wounds may lingerFor many days.
```My mind’s inspiration
Is divinely beautiful.My heart’s aspiration
Is supremely powerful.My life’s realisation
Is eternally fruitful. ```Each man
Is his yesterday’sHeavenly promise
And his today’sEarthly hope.
```My Lord has saved me
By fulfilling my heart’s cry.My Lord has saved me
By refusing to fulfilMy vital demands.
```The mind thinks
That any changeIs painful.
The heart feels
That any changeIs powerful.
```A crystal-clear glimpse of reality
Has shown him that each heartIs a green plant of hope
And each lifeIs a blue tree of promise.
```It is the hostile forces
In the inner world —Not those in the outer world —
That try to take you awayFrom your spiritual life.
These hostile forces take your faithAnd give you doubt,
Take your securityAnd give you insecurity.
But as long as you are vigilantly cultivatingThe seeds of faith and security
In the inner world,You do not have to worry.
```The seeker can stop
His yesterday’s inner stormsOnly if he knows how to smile
A soulful surrender-smile. ```His heart is completely lost
Between Heaven’s chilling indifferenceAnd earth’s burning attachments.
```My mind is demanding
A newness-world.My heart is crying for
A fulness-world. ```Self-giving is not
The climbing of my heavy bodyBut the coasting of my light life.
```It is not inevitable
That some people become richWhile others remain poor.
No, it entirely depends onTheir eagerness for wealth.
Even so, your spiritual wealthDepends on your eagerness
To become spiritually rich. ```You may tell the whole world
That your Inner Pilot is not responsibleFor your destruction.
You may rightfully blameYour previous negligence
And present unwillingness.But do you think that your Inner Pilot
Will be satisfiedBecause you are not blaming Him?
On the strength of His Eternity’s OnenessWith you,
He feels your failure is unmistakablyHis failure too.
```If your heart can bask
In its own open smile,Then all the deathless dreams
Inside your heartWill blossom into perfect realities.
```His mind enjoys
The trumpet of prophecy.His heart enjoys
The flute of soul-illuminingAnd life-transforming
Oneness-satisfaction. ```With your soul’s mustered might
You can easily destroyYour mind’s age-long slumber.
```Gratitude is an inner flower
That can never dieOnce it has blossomed
Inside your heart-garden. ```Human friends are good
If they inspire and encourage youOn the journey along Eternity’s Road,
But God is your only real divine Friend. ```My life needs only three things:
An emptiness-mind,A oneness-heart,
A fulness-soul. ```Oppression’s volcano-mind
And depression’s thunder-vitalAre his inner and outer companions.
```If you are ready to suffer
For other’s misery,Then you are fiercely thirsting
To disperseThe ignorance-clouds
Of humanity’s cruelty. ```If you can give the hostile forces
A serious warning,You are bound to see a new light
Inside your heart,Rising suddenly like the moon.
```If you want to have,
Then talk to others.But if you want to become,
Then talk to God. ```My mind’s faithfulness
Considerably adds toMy heart’s soulfulness.
```Your mind is learning
The language of surrender-light.Therefore, your Lord Supreme has granted you
His own Flute of Oneness-Delight. ```From:Sri Chinmoy,Ten Thousand Flower-Flames, part 65, Agni Press, 1983
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