My Lord,
Without You I may at mostTry to be good,
But with YouI am perfectly perfect.
```Time’s wild flood is rising
Because you have befriendedYour impure mind’s dark doubts.
```Today’s keen pangs of separation
May turn into tomorrow’sStupendously illumining
Oneness-satisfaction. ```Each earth-bound
Human breathIs a never-fading
Desire. ```I love You, my Lord,
Not because of whatYou are going to do for me,
But because of what You areIn Your Eternity’s Vision-Delight.
```My Lord,
You have made me Your friend.Can You not make me Your slave instead,
To give me more joy? ```Two unimaginably valuable things
You may never recapture:Your sincerity’s cry
And your humility’s smile. ```I am,
Not because I do.I am,
Because my heart sleeplessly criesAnd my life breathlessly smiles.
```My life’s chief concern
Is to wait soulfullyFor God’s choice God-Hour.
```Alas, there are so many
Unbridgeable misunderstandingsBetween man’s binding desire-life
And his liberating aspiration-life. ```An experience-life
Is beautiful.A realisation-life
Is fruitful.A satisfaction-life
Is divinely beautiful,Supremely fruitful
And absolutely perfect. ```God has taught me
How to work.I am begging Him to teach me
How to continue. ```Our outer intelligence-conversation
Is artificial.Our inner intuition-communication
Is always beautiful. ```My good fortune’s greatest smile
Is the blue depthOf my heart’s golden sky.
```The human in me
Helplessly calls it compulsion.The divine in me
Lovingly calls it liberation. ```On the whole
I do not hate anybody,But I do have a deep-rooted hatred
For power-hungry human authority. ```My Lord Supreme tells me
How I can either receive Him soulfullyOr deceive Him successfully.
```If you make greatness your companion,
You may suffer.If you make goodness your companion,
You will not only prosperBut you will also have God
As your Companion. ```My Lord Supreme,
Do tell me once againWhy You love my heart
And why You need my life. ```Alas, how is it possible for Heaven
To disown my human breath?Alas, how is it possible for earth
To disown my divine life? ```Deliberately
My mind doubts.Helplessly
My heart suffers. ```Heaven is cruel.
Therefore, it delaysMy God-realisation.
Earth is ignorant.
Therefore, it delaysMy God-manifestation.
```When I was about to fall down
From the wisdom-tree,My Lord’s Compassion-Eye caught me
Lovingly and powerfully. ```My mind does not want to unlearn.
Therefore, I am sufferingFrom the worst flood
Of ignorance-torture. ```You call it
A mere hesitation.I call it
Your armour of suspicion. ```At first the enormity of truth
May bewilder you.But later the divinity of truth
Will illumine you. ```His all-loving heart
Sincerely dislikes wrestlingWith his all-doubting mind.
```You want abiding happiness,
Yet you do not want to surmountThe mountain-barriers
Of your confusion-enjoying mind. ```Do you know why I cannot aspire?
I cannot aspire because ofHeaven’s sleepless indifference
AndEarth’s shameless interference.
```What is the difference
Between a complicated mindAnd contradictory thoughts?
No difference, none! ```To please my Lord Supreme
Every day I shall cryWith earth’s heart
And every day I shall smileWith Heaven’s soul.
```As the human mind is the master
Of useless swiftness,Even so, the divine heart is the master
Of useful fulness. ```My mind consciously enjoys
Reckless confidence.My heart smilingly enjoys
Doubtless confidence. ```His mind is permanently employed
By the owner of doubt-factory:Ignorance-king.
```O earth, from you
I do not need anything moreThan a few comforting words.
O Heaven, from you
I do not need anything moreThan an illumining message.
```What will you do
With your random flood of words?Live instead in your silence-heart,
For your Silence-Lover: God. ```What has betrayed me?
No, not my teeming doubts,Not my Himalayan pride,
But my eyeless unwillingness. ```Alas, I am not ready
With my receptivity,But God is all ready
With His Infinity. ```Alas, what I have
Is a greedy mindAnd what I am
Is a starving heart. ```My Lord granted me
His Compassion-SmileLong before I even wished
To deserve it. ```If God can be
His own Goodness,I can at least try to be
My own soulfulness. ```What I need
Is a desert of thoughtAnd a mountain of will-power.
```My Lord,
My heart has only one questionTo ask You:
Will it have the capacityTo satisfy You eventually?
```The moment I touch
My Lord’s Protection-Feet,My Lord’s Compassion-Eye gives chase
To my roaming thoughts. ```The beauty of human perfection
Is the unparalleled necessityOf human aspiration.
```Either defy or deny
Your sombre pastIf you wish God to certify
Your heart’s present smile. ```Every day there is only
One thing to learn:How to be honestly happy.
```God’s Heart has a special love
For himBecause he has unconditionally placed
His heart at God’s Feet. ```Two things God wants
To do for you cheerfully:He wants to celebrate
Your mind’s self-mastery,And He wants to celebrate
Your heart’s God-discovery. ```My heart’s only unfailing desire
Is to remain perpetually a God-lover,A perfect stranger
To the world of fame. ```My mind never dares
To wanderInside my heart’s
Will-power-garden. ```I may not be helpful to you,
But I shall always be hopefulFor your success-life
And progress-heart. ```Although my mind is useless,
Although my heart is worthless,Although my life is soulless,
I shall not give up,Never!
```Let me see who can and will
Answer my two questions:Why do I still love man
When he secretly thinks so poorly of me?Why do I not think of God
When He openly speaks so highly of me? ```Your mind’s bondage-night
You must defyIf you want to enjoy
Your heart’s freedom-sky. ```You may offend my mind’s pride,
But my heart shall alwaysDefend your right to do so.
```I carry only one thing:
My Lord’s sleepless Smile.My Lord carries only one thing:
My shadowless satisfaction. ```My heart’s sacred flame
Sings only one song:Earth’s self-transcendence-song.
```When my teeming doubts
And my tormenting fearsAre in collusion,
Frustration becomes my outer nameAnd destruction becomes my inner name.
```Your mind-boat is plying
Between criticism-shoreAnd cynicism-shore.
```I bow to the light
That never dims.I bow to the delight
That never fades. ```If you wage war against fear,
You are divinely great.If you wage war against doubt,
You are supremely good. ```You do not have to seek
Your mind’s imperfection-impurity.Your mind’s imperfection-impurity
Will inevitably find you. ```Another opportunity-smile
God has granted me todayTo meditate on Him unconditionally.
```If your heartbeats cling
To God’s Golden Boat,Then your life will never sink.
```May all my achievements,
Good and bad,Die of inattention.
```He is his mind’s inner poverty.
No wonder his outer lifeIs a barren desert.
```I have already gone
To the very endOf the world’s doubt-voyage.
Now I am going back
To the very beginningOf my faith-voyage.
```Two unnecessary questions:
Does God love me?Do I need God?
```I am crying inside
My sincerity-heartTo humble the pride
Of my haughty intellect. ```Since your heart
Is not used to deception,Your life will before long
Be granted perfection. ```Your simplicity-mind-tree
Must not bend.Your sincerity-heart-tree
Must not break. ```Alas,
His heart’s silence-smileHas been chased away
By his mind’s reckless thoughts. ```The thoughts that nestle
Inside his searching mindAre pure, man-loving
And God-serving. ```Celestial compassion-moon
My aspiration-heart todayAgain and again implores.
```His searching mind
May be obscure,But his aspiring heart
Is revelation itself. ```I think of God
Because I know I need Him.God thinks of me
Because of my wisdom-filled need. ```A cynic does not walk alone.
He walks with his monstrous eyeAnd murderous tongue.
```Keep on steering straight ahead.
The Golden Shore will notBe denied you.
```My mind is destined to become
The morning’s deep glow.My heart is destined to become
The sun’s golden lustre. ```To me,
Each heavy thoughtIs an unanswerable
Plus unpardonable question. ```Each beautiful thought
Comes from a far-off land,Cradled by God’s compassionate
Vision-Eye. ```My heart is exactly the place
Where yesterday I saw my Lord,The Satisfaction-Giver.
```If you are brave enough
To sing through darkness,Then light will sing through you
And for you. ```Each human mind
Is a demanding question.Each divine heart
Is a loving answer. ```On earth I expected to see
The same God I knew in Heaven,My soul’s God.
But instead what I see hereIs my mind’s newly-invented God,
The Science-God. ```How can you expect to see
Your heart’s silvery beamsUnder your mind’s gathering shadow?
```My heart is gazing into
Tomorrow’s distance-light.It is empty of even
A speck of fear. ```My mind wants to be satisfied
With astonishment.My heart wants to be satisfied
With enlightenment. ```Your mind’s
Lack of enthusiasmAnd your heart’s
Lack of determinationWill, before long,
Cripple your spiritual life. ```Is there no greater purpose
For your existenceThan mere thinking and brooding?
```The hallucination-foundation
Of his outer life-tower crackedWhen he saw that his grandiose achievements
Were nothing short of painful imperfections. ```If your heart is not
With me,That means your mind
Is against me. ```Each beautiful and soulful morning
Is the havenOf my thirsty and hungry hopes.
```From Nothingness-Fulness
We came.To Fulness-Nothingness
We shall retire. ```The desire-bound world
Is not for my aspiring heart.The aspiration-free world
Is not for my desiring vital. ```The swiftness of his own uncomely thoughts
Not only puzzles his mindBut also weakens his heart.
```My heart does love God
And my mind does need God:Now is the moment of certainty.
```His aspiration-heart bitterly cries
When his mind is engulfedBy endless thoughts.
```My heart tells me
That I have not offered anythingTo my Lord’s Heart
Unless and untilI have placed everything
At my Lord’s Feet. ```From:Sri Chinmoy,Ten Thousand Flower-Flames, part 70, Agni Press, 1983
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