I shall forgive my past

1. At last, at last

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At last, at last,

His promise vast

He bravely kept,

For earth he left.

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2. O glowing smile of beauty's day

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O glowing smile of beauty’s day,

I love your sun, I love your play.

O teeming frowns of sombre night,

Behold the death of your ruthless might.

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3. Three wishful thoughts have I

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Three wishful thoughts have I:

I shall forgive my past,

I shall purchase God’s Eye,

My smile ever shall last.

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4. O world of peace

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O world of peace, O world of light,

How long shall I with darkness fight?

How long my heart shall cry in vain?

This eyeless world has nothing but pain.

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5. O lightless eyes of mine

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O lightless eyes of mine,

I say, starve not, starve not, just cry.

The golden hour shall dawn

In the feeble mind of desert dry.

Your hope-life shall not die,

Your doleful fate is bound to change.

Your cry shall fly and fly

To the cosmic Spirit’s Vision-range.

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6. O wings of eternal flame

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O wings of eternal flame,

Blame not my service lame.

I try, I cry, I sigh;

You are too high, too high.

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7. Drunk deep with black despair

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Drunk deep with black despair,

He left for his Heaven nest.

And what forces his return?

His grace, his highest best.

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8. A sweet and soulful voice

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A sweet and soulful voice

Inspires my heart to fly.

Earth-tears still need my smile.

Alas, I have no choice.

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9. My human life shall die

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My human life shall die a thousand times

If I go on feeding my inner crimes.

My inner crimes are dark jealousy-flood,

Wild doubt and feeble fear and impure blood.

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10. O shore of silence-light

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O shore of silence-light,

I love your heart’s delight.

O boat of journey’s glow,

I love your service-flow.

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11. I test you not, never

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I test you not, never,

In the inner world.

I just show you my heart’s

Sweet oneness-way.

I test you not, never,

In the outer world.

I just tell you to claim

My Eternal Day.

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12. Each man is a challenge vast

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Each man is a challenge vast.

Each thought is a world supreme.

Each act will fruitfully last

In God’s Perfection-Dream.

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13. O Lord! I have the pass-key

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O Lord! I have the pass-key to Your Heart.

Therefore mine is the heart of beauty’s light.

Nowhere I see the dauntless ignorance-dart.

In God my life has won its eternal right.

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I love the glow of beauty's dream

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I love the glow of beauty’s dream.

I love the flow of duty’s joy.

I love the blows of my Lord Supreme.

His is the love my pride to destroy. ```

15. God says: “My life is endless breath”

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God says: My life is endless breath.

I say: My life is constant death.

Earth says: I am my only soul.

Heaven says: I am my vision’s goal.

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16. Your gold and silver wealth

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Your gold and silver wealth

Shall rust,

Your heart of soulful love

Shall last

To grant your life

Freedom-speed

And Eternity’s Perfection-seed. ```

17. No soul in Heaven loves his soul

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No soul in Heaven loves his soul.

Him ever loves no soul on earth.

And yet he truly loves the role

Of each and every soul and their worth.

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18. He once was a useless thing

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He once was a useless thing

And now he is God’s Power.

His heart has grown today

Joy and gratitude-flower.

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19. Aspire, your life shall become

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Aspire, your life shall become the hope of earth.

Surrender, your soul shall grow into Gods Voice.

Who says earth has no lasting mirth?

Never delay, make your own choice. ```

20. I live to please my Lord Supreme

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I live to please my Lord Supreme.

I glow to please His eternal Flow.

I serve to please His Beauty’s Height.

No ignorance-night for me to fight.

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21. I and my glowing hope ascend

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I and my glowing hope ascend

To see the heart and smile of Truth.

My fear and doubt, helpless, descend

To touch the feet of my silence-ruth.

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22. My inner sun is climbing high

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My inner sun is climbing high.

My outer darkness-day no more.

My life of service-love shall sail

To God-Beauty’s Ecstasy-Shore.

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23. His name expired before his body

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His name expired before his body.

Before he smiled his body expired.

And yet he is never alone.

Eternity’s peace he has hired. ```

24. The future years have finally come

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The future years have finally come.

Your life is still truly asleep.

Your old life’s self-indulgence-days,

Lo, still enjoy ignorance deep.

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25. I braved despair's destruction-night

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I braved despair’s destruction-night.

Doubt I devour at will.

In me God-light is in thrill.

I, indeed, am God’s pride of light.

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From:Sri Chinmoy,I shall forgive my past, Agni Press, New York, 1976
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