What do I do?
I meditate.On whom?
On God.For whom?
For God.And what do I do
In my spare time?I write love-letters to God.
I compose love-songs for God. ```I know that
My Lord SupremeWill come at His choice Hour.
I know that everything in meWill reach Perfection’s height.
Devotedly I can wait for Him.I certainly can.
```Father Supreme,
You know what I am thinking,You know what I am planning,
You know what I shall be doing.In case You do not know,
Let me tell You:I am thinking of loving You more.
I am planning to serve You more.I shall be doing everything for You
Unconditionally.Beloved Supreme, I sincerely mean it.
```My sweet Lord,
I am happyBecause
I am always in Your world.I am happier
BecauseYou are always in charge of my life.
I am happiestBecause
I need You only. ```Why did he leave his church?
He left his churchNot because it was unaspiring.
Why did he leave his priest?
He left his priestNot because he was uninspiring.
He left his church,
He left his priest,Because he needs his life’s
Total and immediate transformation.And for that what he needs
Is the beauty of Eastern light. ```Doubt, I am sorry,
I have already told youThat I shall go with somebody else.
I may, however, do you a last favour.You want to know who he is?
He is my very old, forgotten friendAnd your eternal enemy:
Oneness-heart. ```Earth, what is happening?
Why are you so sad?You mean you do not know
That God needs you?I tell you, He definitely needs you.
For God’s sake, do not treasureFalse thought-world.
Heaven, what is happening?
Why are you dancing?You mean God always needs you?
Don’t be a fool.God can perfectly live without you.
I warn you,He certainly can.
```Yesterday
I was super-confidentOf my success-life.
Today
I am confidentOf my progress-life.
Tomorrow
I shall rely only on God’sUnconditional Compassion-Life.
```O my surrender-light,
All the divine qualitiesAre beautiful,
But you are more than beautiful;You are fruitful.
Love I need
To see the Face of God.Devotion I need
To feel within my heartThe Presence of God.
ButYou I need
To please God constantly,To fulfil God unconditionally.
```Earth, I need you,
AlthoughWe do not have anything
In common.Heaven, I love you,
AlthoughWe do not have anything
In common.God, I need you,
I love YouSince
You and I have many thingsIn common.
Alas, where are You?
And where am I? ```Alas, why did I fall
In love with ignorance-night?I should have known long before
What it was really like.Now God is unmistakably
Charmed by me.Alas, will I be able to give Him
All my attentionAnd
Pay Him His absolute due?I hope it is not too late —
Alas, alas! ```When
You are on earth,Be pure in your heart,
Be sure of your life.When
You are in Heaven,Be sincere to your earth-promise,
Be careful of your Heaven-indulgence. ```Lord Supreme, the difference
BetweenMy presence in You
AndYour Presence in me
Is this:My presence helps You
To relax and rest.Your Presence makes me
Feel safe and secure. ```Lord Supreme, what is worth loving?
“Son, oneness-beauty.”Lord Supreme, what is worth doing?
“Son, satisfaction-duty.”Lord Supreme, what is worth becoming?
“Son, perfection-reality.” ```Alas, why do I overestimate
The power of my ignorance-life?No matter how long I swim
In the sea of ignorance-nightMy Beloved Supreme shall love me
And give me another chanceFor His tomorrow’s Life
In me to blossom. ```I was inattentive;
ThereforeGod denied me His Message.
I was selfish;
ThereforeGod denied me His Smile.
I was impure;
ThereforeGod denied me His Dream.
```My Lord, there are things
I would like to do infinitely better.Do give me another chance.
My Lord, there are human beings
I would try to love infinitely more.Do give me another chance.
My Lord, there are many promises of mine
Remaining unfulfilled.Do give me another chance.
Although I do not deserve it,Do give me another chance, my Lord Supreme.
```Your experiences have enriched me, my heart.
How can I be jealous of you?His realisation has enriched me, my soul.
How can I be jealous of him?Earth’s sacrifice has enriched me, my aspiration-cry.
How can I be jealous of earth?Heaven’s concern has enriched me, my confidence-life.
How can I be jealous of Heaven? ```My Lord, I am grateful to Your Perfection-Eye,
For it knew meLong before I knew myself.
My Lord, I am grateful to Your Compassion-Feet,
For they will continue to know meLong after I have totally forgotten myself.
```God likes me
BecauseI do not find excuses
In my ignorance.God loves me
BecauseI never put
My own concerns first.God embraces me
BecauseI never defy
My conscience-sparks. ```In the physical world
I am grateful to GodBecause
He has forgiven meAnd
My over-indulgence.In the vital world
I am grateful to GodBecause
He has forgiven meAnd
My over-confidence.In the mental world
I am grateful to GodBecause
He has forgiven meAnd
My self-absorption. ```I never want to forget
How ruthlessly I have ignored God.I never want to forget
How compassionately God has forgiven me,My darkness-pride
AndMy ignorance-night.
```Time goes so fast!
I simply can’t believe my eyes.Just yesterday I had breakfast with God
In Heaven.Today I am having luncheon with the prince
of gloomOn earth.
Tomorrow I shall have dinner with deathIn death’s private chamber.
```Lord, You have not chosen me
To play in Your Dream.Now can You do me a small favour?
Can You not make of me a good sportsman?Can You not give me the strength
To face the disappointment-nightLike a hero-warrior?
Lord, I am sure You canAnd You will.
```Earth, I like being what I am:
Heaven’s descending smile.Heaven, I like being what I am:
Earth’s ascending cry.God, I like being what I am:
Your Eternity’s Dream-BoatAnd
Your Immortality’s Reality-Shore. ```I have enjoyed every minute
Of my stay on earth,But I do not want
To come back to earth.You may wonder why.
My sincerity speaks:Earth-life is too risky.
It is only for the brave.I have enjoyed every minute
Of my stay in Heaven,But I do not want
To come back to Heaven.You may wonder why.
My sincerity speaks:Heaven-life is quite colourless.
It is only for the dull. ```Earth, you do not care
If I ruin my lifeBy serving you.
Heaven, you do not care
If I ruin my lifeBy dreaming of you.
Who cares for me?
Nobody.And what do I do?
I just don’t care. ```I am sure
Earth sees something special in me.What is it?
Perhaps my soul’s God-promise.I am sure
Heaven feels something special in me.What is it?
Perhaps my heart’s surrender-satisfaction. ```Lord, I do not hide my weakness from You
BecauseYour Compassion-Sea
Is my only strength.Lord, I do not hide my thoughts from You
BecauseYour Illumination-Sun
Is my only salvation. ```Your mind offers its unreserved respect
To the world-mind;Therefore
Your mind is unmistakably great.Your heart offers its unalloyed concern
To the world-heart;Therefore
Your heart is divinely good.Your life offers its unconditional love
To the world-life;Therefore
Your life is supremely perfect. ```I have two serious problems —
One on earthAnd
One in Heaven.On earth I love myself
Infinitely more than I love God.In Heaven
I do not value GodSupremely and constantly.
```Earth wants me to grow up.
Heaven wants me to glowWithin, without.
God wants me to be perfectIn the heart of silence
AndIn the body of sound.
```Christian life, as he knew it then,
Was pure but not sure.Christian life, as he knows it now,
Is sure but not pure. ```Sister-earth is at your door.
Give her something;Give her at least your love.
Brother-Heaven is at your door.
Give him something;Give him at least your concern.
Father-God is at your door.
Give Him something;Give Him at least your gratitude.
```I don’t allow you
To impose your mind’s futilityUpon my devoted head;
Therefore,In your eyes, I am bad.
I don’t allow him
To impose his heart’s insecurityUpon my aspiring heart;
Therefore,In his eyes, I am bad.
I am sorry.
You both are knockingAt a wrong door.
```Heaven, do you really want to know
What I have found on earth?I have found only one thing:
Necessity’s cry.Earth, do you really want to know
What I have found in Heaven?I have found only one thing:
Promise-light. ```He is watching me.
If only I could feelWhat is inside his heart.
Perhaps his compassion-sea.He is watching me.
If only I could readWhat is inside his eyes.
Perhaps my liberation-sky. ```Use your humour-weapon.
Earth will be afraid of you.You will be able to stay on earth
At least ten more years.Use your perfection-weapon.
Heaven will adore you.Heaven will immediately
Welcome you. ```You are deliberately vain.
Who needs you?He is insanely vain.
Who needs him?I am unconsciously vain,
ThereforeI have a little hope,
But not much. ```Don’t be so unthinkably impatient.
After all, you are not the wind.Don’t pretend to be supremely calm.
After all, you are not another God. ```True, you are Heaven’s representative
On earth.But alas, I am not sure
Of your compassion-light.True, he is earth’s representative
In Heaven.But alas, I am not sure
Of his sacrifice-height.Poor me,
Heaven does not want me, my ignorance.Earth does not need me, my indolence.
```I don’t have to go very far
To see the mouth of hell.Yesterday I was nothing but that.
I don’t have to go very far
To feel the heart of Heaven.Tomorrow I shall be nothing but that.
And what am I today?
Frustration-killerAnd
Hope-builder. ```Fear is separation-life.
Doubt is destruction-life.Faith is satisfaction-life.
Love is perfection-life. ```Toleration by earth-necessity
Is never good.Surrender by Heaven-pressure
Is never good.Oneness for God-satisfaction
Is always good,Supremely good.
```Let me face
All world-problems.After all, they are all
Temporary.Let me not be over-eager
To receive Heaven-Delight.After all, it will eventually come
AndOnce I receive it
I will drink itEternally.
```My sweet Lord, at long last
Today I am thinking less of myselfAnd more of You.
My sweet Lord, at long last
Today I am loving myself lessAnd loving You more.
My sweet Lord, at long last
Today I have realisedThat I am not only of Your Realisation-Seed
But also for Your Manifestation-Tree. ```I was a real fool
To come to earth.Neither earth nor I need each other.
I am a real fool
To go back to Heaven.Heaven will plead with me
To return to earth.What for?
To sow the seeds ofEarth-perfection
AndGod-satisfaction.
```I should not have stayed
Those extra ten years on earth.Now I have to pay a heavy duty
In HeavenFor my prolonged, unnecessary stay
On earth.God, do tell me:
Have You ever createdA greater fool
Than this blind creation of Yours?God, why are You so silent?
Let me then take Your silenceAs a supremely sincere
“Yes”. ```In your case
God-realisation is a mere desire.In his case
God-realisation is a mere dream.In my case
God-realisation is more than a living reality;It only is.
```Yours is the God
Of perpetual illumination.Yours is the soul
Of perpetual meditation.Yours is the heart
Of perpetual aspiration.Yours is the life
Of perpetual dedication.Therefore
You alone I love;You alone I need.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,The Golden Boat, part 20, Agni Press, 1974
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