The Golden Boat, part 9

1. When I see Death's hand

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When I see Death’s hand

On your face,

My heart just breaks.

How I wish you could stay

On earth

A few more good and God-years!

When I see Death’s hand

On your heart,

My heart just breaks.

I blame, I blame God

Because He has not granted you

Even an immortal human birth. ```

2. Two great ambitions

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Two great ambitions have I.

I want to see

If God can manage to exist

On earth

And

In Heaven

Without my conscious and constant support.

I want to see

If any soul

On earth

In Heaven

Has ever displeased God

More than my demanding and possessing life. ```

3. Two unborn dreams

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I long for the blossoming

Of two unborn dreams.

I wish to fly

From life to death

To change the face and fate of earth

In the world of death.

I wish to fly

From earth-failure to Heaven-triumph

To change the sorrows and pangs of God

In the world of man. ```

4. His name

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His name

Is no man’s inspiration-flow.

His name

Is no man’s aspiration-glow.

His name

Is no man’s realisation-flood.

Yet he is one,

Inseparably one,

With God’s Compassion-blood.

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5. None too small

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No Truth too small

To illumine me.

No Light too weak

To fulfil me.

No Bliss too little

To immortalise me.

No Perfection too insignificant

To claim me. ```

6. O my partners

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O Silence-partner

Of my heart,

I need your silence-peace

To feel the Heart of God.

O Light-partner

Of my soul,

I need your light-liberation

To see the Soul of God.

O Power-partner

Of my life,

I need your power-tower

To clasp the Hour of God. ```

7. Friend, I am sorry!

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Friend, I am sorry!

Your beauty-lustre is gone

Because

Earth has possessed you.

Friend, I am sorry!

Your duty-hour is gone

Because

Heaven no more needs you.

Friend, I am sorry!

Your realisation-height is gone

Because

God has discovered a new instrument

to replace you.

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8. His feet have no rest

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I saw the feet of a thief.

I felt sorry for them

Because

They have no rest.

Even during the night

Ignorance compels them to run.

I saw the feet of a saint.

I felt sorry for them

Because

They have no rest.

Even when he is in his own room

His followers cannot live

Without touching and polluting his feet.

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9. Father-Consciousness, Mother-Light

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Father-Consciousness,

I need You

To claim You —

Your Vision’s Reality.

Without it I am lost

In ignorance-night.

Mother-Light,

I need You

To claim You —

Your Reality’s Perfection.

Without it I am captured

By pleasure-snares.

Therefore,

Father and Mother,

I need You two

More than You

Can possibly think.

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10. Your presence

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Your presence manifests

God-light on earth;

Therefore,

I am safe.

Your presence manifests

God-delight on earth;

Therefore,

I am happy.

Your presence manifests

God-perfection on earth;

Therefore,

I am useful. ```

11. Rivers of sorrow

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Your life is a river of sorrow

Because

Nobody loves you.

Your life is a hundred rivers of sorrow

Because

Nobody needs you.

Your life is a thousand rivers of sorrow

Because

Man-confidence,

Self-confidence,

God-confidence,

Are all strangers to you. ```

12. My bondage reign

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My heart-pain

Has destroyed my beauty’s core.

My earth-chain

Has bound my freedom-shore.

My ignorance-reign

Has forgotten my reality-door. ```

13. O dream-bearer

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O dream-bearer,

My heart needs

Your heart of Golden Dream

To see Heaven’s silver fire.

O dream-bearer,

My soul needs

Your soul of Reality-Sun

To illumine earth’s black mire. ```

14. Dreamland

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When I first dreamt of you

I thought I loved you.

I really did.

But alas,

Reality is something else.

When I first spoke to you

I thought I had you.

I really did.

But alas,

Dreamland is the land where I live.

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15. A serious mistake

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O earth, you thought

You had possessed me

And I would please you

In your own human way.

Better late than never,

You have realised

That it was a serious mistake.

O earth, I thought

I had transformed you

And you would please me

In my own divine way.

Better late than never,

I have realised

That it was a serious mistake.

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16. God's two battlefields

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Earth is God’s battlefield.

Here He tries so hard

To give humanity

What He has: Perfection.

Alas, nobody knows

If ever He will succeed.

Heaven is God’s battlefield.

There He tries so hard

To give divinity

What He is: Realisation.

Alas, no soul knows

If ever He will succeed. ```

17. My dream in Your Eyes

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My dream in Your Eyes

Offers me the realisation

That You are

My God, my only God, my eternal God.

O dream, my dream,

How soulful you are.

My dream in Your Heart

Offers me the realisation

That I am

Your own, Your very own, Your eternally own.

O dream, my dream,

How fruitful you are. ```

18. God is God

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God is God

Because

He dares to believe

That I am another God.

God is God

Because

He dares to transcend

What He eternally is. ```

19. I need better thoughts

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I need better thoughts.

I need the thought that loves God

Unconditionally.

I need the thought that loves man

Soulfully.

I need the thought that loves

The animal kingdom

Carefully.

I need the thought that loves

The plant world

Ceaselessly.

I need the thought that loves

The stone life

Compassionately. ```

20. Try again

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Nowhere to progress;

Therefore,

You are unhappy.

Nothing to express;

Therefore,

You are unhappy.

No one to impress;

Therefore,

You are unhappy.

None to suppress;

Therefore,

You are unhappy.

If you progress

Your soul will love you;

If you express

Your heart will love you;

If you impress

Your mind will love you;

If you suppress

Your vital will love you.

Therefore,

Try and try again. ```

21. My great capacities

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My sorrows are great;

They want to be distributed.

My joys are great;

They want to be perfected.

My achievements are great;

They all came from God.

My surrender is great;

It is my only real life. ```

22. My mental progression

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O my mental clouds,

When are you going to be thinner?

O my mental cave,

When are you going to be wider?

O my mental plant,

When are you going to be taller?

O my mental cry,

When are you going to be purer?

O my mental life,

When are you going to be wiser? ```

23. When God invented

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When God invented Duty

He also invented Beauty.

When God invented Life

He also invented Love.

When God invented His Dream-moon

He also invented His Reality-sun.

When God invented His Silence-choice

He also invented His Manifestation-voice. ```

24. Two questions

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Lord, I have two childish questions.

Why did You create the world?

Are You not a fool?

Lord, I have two child-like questions.

Do you love me, Lord?

Will You make me as good as You are?

Lord, I have two God-like questions.

When will I be eternally happy?

When will I be completely perfect?

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25. Father and daughter

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Father, give me the capacity

To count the time

I have misspent.

Daughter, give Me the capacity

To count the good things

You have done for Me.

Father, why do You make fun of me?

Daughter, why do you make Me sad

By dragging yourself

Back to the fruitless past?

```

26. The dreamer tells me

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The dreamer from the East

Tells me:

God is Peace.

I believe him

And

I shall always believe him.

The dreamer from the West

Tells me:

God is Power.

I believe him

And

I shall always believe him.

The dreamer from Heaven

Tells me:

God is an eternal child.

I believe him

And

I shall always believe him.

The dreamer from earth

Tells me:

God is an ever-descending Light.

I believe him

And

I shall always believe him. ```

27. Ambassadors of God

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O Ambassadors of God,

What do you need

From earth and Heaven?

“We need earth’s confidence

In us

So that we can show earth

The golden Feet of God.

We need Heaven’s confidence

In us

So that Heaven does not point out to God

Our incapacities

While we strive hard

To manifest Him on earth.” ```

28. God does not mind

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God does not mind

The imperfections of my face.

God does not mind

The limitations of my eyes.

God does not mind

The incapacities of my arms.

God does not mind

The endless follies of my mind.

But

God objects to even an iota of a spot

On the hallowed tablet

Of my heart. ```

29. God is His own Father and Son

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God is His own interpreter.

He interprets His divine message to man

With His Compassion-height.

God is His own boss.

He directs man to do the right thing,

To be the right thing,

With His Concern-light.

God is His own Father and Son.

As a father, He needs His Son

To manifest His life of Immortality.

As a son, He needs His Father

To supply Him with

His ever-transcending Reality.

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30. Do not go!

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Don’t go

Near that hysterical woman!

She thinks even God

Has deceived her.

Don’t go

Near that neurotic man!

He feels even God

Is jealous of him. ```

31. Big questions

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Big questions

With no answer:

Will death punish me

Will death adore me

When I die?

Will there be another Lord

On earth

After my death?

Why is God

So insecure?

Why does He not make

Every man perfect like Him?

What is wrong with Him? ```

32. A better way

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A better way

To pass the morning:

I shall meditate every morning

For fifteen minutes

To love God in His own Way,

Plus cheerfully.

A better way

To pass the afternoon:

I shall meditate every afternoon

For fifteen minutes

To please God in His own Way,

Plus cheerfully.

A better way

To pass the evening:

I shall meditate every evening

For fifteen minutes

To fulfil God in His own Way,

Plus cheerfully. ```

33. Don't go near him!

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Don’t go near him!

He is practising selfish holiness.

Go near him!

He is practising simple kindness.

Don’t go near him!

He says God-power is on sale.

Go near him!

He says God-love cannot be described. ```

34. Try, you shall succeed

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You may not reach Heaven

At a single bound,

But

You can reach God without fail

At a single bound.

Try, you shall succeed.

You may not please Heaven

All at once,

But

You can please God without fail

All at once.

Try, you shall succeed. ```

35. God, are you discouraged?

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God, are You discouraged

When I make so many mistakes

Every day?

God, are You displeased

That I have not made You

The first thing in my life?

God, are You disheartened

That every day I fail you?

Son, if I am discouraged

Then I shall not

Look at you.

Son, if I am displeased

Then I shall not

Smile at you.

Son, if I am disheartened

Then I shall not

Bless you.

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36. I was born to be alone (I)

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I was born to see alone.

Whom have I seen?

An orphan soul.

What have I seen?

An infant world.

I was born to walk alone.

Whom have I reached?

The King of frustration.

Where have I reached?

Eternity’s nowhere.

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37. I was born to be alone (II)

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I was born to cry alone.

For whom do I cry?

I cry for my forgotten half:

God.

I was born to starve alone.

Why do I starve?

Because I fear to dine

With my absolute Lord Supreme. ```

38. Still God wants you to work for Him

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Although

You have fallen asleep,

God wants you to work

For Him.

Why?

God wants you to conquer sleep

So that you can be

His sleepless partner.

Although

You have told a good many lies,

God wants you to work

For Him.

Why?

God wants you to conquer falsehood

So that you can be

His perfect partner. ```

39. Something remains untold

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Something remained untold.

What was it?

God’s Compassion

For humanity.

Something remains untold.

What is it?

God’s Aspiration

In humanity.

Something shall remain untold.

What is it?

God’s Perfection

Of humanity. ```

40. A better world

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Daughter, I have been

Looking for you everywhere.

Where have you been?

What have you been doing?

“I have been inside my mind.”

Ah, that is why I have been missing you.

What have you been doing there?

“I have been thinking

Of how to create a better world.”

I see, daughter.

Please do Me a big favour.

When you create a better world,

Make Me an honorary citizen of your world.

Not only are you disappointed

In My world,

But I am also disappointed

Far beyond your imagination’s flight.

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41. Who fears?

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Who fears to follow?

Not the heart-man in me.

Who fears to follow?

The mind-man in me.

Who fears to lead?

Not the soul-man in me.

Who fears to lead?

The body-man in me.

Who fears to change?

Not the God-man in me.

Who fears to change?

The vital-man in me. ```

42. A favour

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God asked me for a favour.

I gave Him not what He wanted.

Can you imagine

What He wanted from me?

He wanted to have

All my ignorance.

I said to Him,

“If I give You all my ignorance

What will I have on earth

To live with and to live for?”

I asked God for a favour.

He gave me immediately what I wanted.

He gave me

His Infinity’s Love,

Eternity’s height

And

Immortality’s life.

He shared with me His supreme Secret:

That real joy is in self-giving.

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43. Their fees

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I will tell you

What I paid for my God-realisation:

To God I paid His Fee:

Surrender unconditional.

To my earth-teacher I paid his fee:

Love-flood.

To the Heaven-witness I paid his fee:

Smile-dawn.

To the Time-lawyer I paid his fee:

Silence-sky. ```

44. Carry them always

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Courage: carry it always.

It will help you.

Faith: carry it always.

It will save you.

Joy: carry it always.

It will feed you.

Love: carry it always.

It will immortalise you. ```

45. What is the matter?

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What is the matter with me?

Why do I not love God?

He does everything for me.

What is the matter with God?

Why does He not ignore me?

I deserve His indifference-blow.

What is the matter with earth?

Why has it lost all its hope?

Hope is the harbinger of achievement.

What is the matter with Heaven?

Why does it promise all the time?

Promise unfulfilled is insincerity’s betrayal.

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46. I warn you

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Why are you tormenting me, doubt?

I warn you once and for all,

I shall throw you into the lion-mouth

Of faith.

Why are you tormenting me, fear?

I warn you once and for all,

I shall throw you into the giant-heart

Of courage.

Why are you tormenting me, insecurity?

I warn you once and for all,

I shall throw you into the goal-height

Of oneness. ```

47. It is time to do more

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True, you have realised God.

But it seems that it is time for you

To learn something more.

True, you have revealed God.

But it seems that it is time for you

To do something more.

True, you have manifested God.

But it seems that it is time for you

To please your Inner Pilot more.

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48. For the time being

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For the time being

I shall think only of God,

Since He has promised me that

He will make me happy.

For the time being

I shall love only man,

Since I have promised man that

I shall make him happy.

For the time being

I shall adore only Heaven,

Since Heaven sincerely cares for me.

For the time being

I shall bless only earth,

Since earth always longs for me.

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49. My name

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Don’t trap me!

My name is a moment;

I shall unmistakably free you.

Don’t belittle me!

My name is a seed;

I shall eventually fulfil you.

Don’t forget me!

My name is an iota of perfection;

I shall definitely immortalise you.

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50. No difference

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Love of power:

What is the difference

Between

You and a ferocious tiger?

No difference, none!

Power of love:

What is the difference

Between

You and God?

No difference, none!

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From:Sri Chinmoy,The Golden Boat, part 9, Vishma Press, New York, 1974
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