I am my life's God-hunger-heart, part 3

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I am

My life's

God-hunger-heart.

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My soul's highest promise

And my Lord's deepest Satisfaction

Are two immortal travellers,

Walking side by side

Along Eternity's Road.

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A perfect Truth-seeker and God-lover

Is not Heaven-born.

He is earth-born

From earth's sleepless and breathless

Tears and cries.

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Each and every God-thought

In my mind

Comes from the peace-fragrance

Of my heart. ```

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Ignorance-night invades us

Only when our hearts

Are empty of devotion.

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Aspiration

Is how I breathlessly feel

And not

What I ceaselessly talk about. ```

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My mind's fog and clouds

Cannot hide

The sunlit path of my heart.

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My aspiration-heart dearly loves me

Because I love God only.

My God-realisation-soul proudly loves me

Because God is my All. ```

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Today my mind's desire-night

Is over.

My heart's aspiration-dawn

Is blossoming. ```

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God cannot help feeling shocked

When He hears from me

That I am an utter failure.

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Peace-seed

Is my heart's inner name.

Bliss-harvest

Is my life's outer name. ```

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Each and every pure thought of mine

Is a direct and perfect representative

Of God's purest Dream

Here on earth. ```

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My Lord, I do so many things for You.

How many things do You do

For me?

"My child, since I am an old man,

I do only one thing for you.

Every day, for twenty-four hours,

I cradle you inside My Compassion-Eye

And Forgiveness-Heart." ```

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Our oneness-inspired actions

Are the only actions

That God treasures.

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May the beauty, purity and fragrance

Of my heart

Fly beyond time and space.

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During the day I amuse my Lord

With my life-stories.

At night I feed my Lord

With my soul-songs. ```

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God will tell the whole world

That I am a supremely choice instrument

Of His

Only when my eyes are filled

With the beauty of silence

And my heart

With the divinity of peace.

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I can clearly see that each time

I shake hands with desire,

The beauty of my aspiration-life

Is immediately marred. ```

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My aspiring heart is immortalised

By God Himself

Just because I am no longer

Victimised by my doubting mind. ```

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I was born of hope-seed

To fly

In Infinity's Promise-Sky.

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The farther I move away

From my own expectation-prison,

The closer my Lord Beloved Supreme

Comes to me

With His immortality's Joy, Love

And Pride. ```

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

When You bless me with Your Heart's

Compassion-Ocean,

What can I give You in return

To make You happy?

"My child, only a gratitude-drop

From your heart-cup."

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My Lord,

Is there any single piece of advice

You can give me

That will immediately illumine me

And satisfy me completely?

"Yes, My child, I have one.

At every moment listen

To your dreaming heart-whispers

And never listen

To your roaming mind-roar." ```

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I pray to sit

At God's Compassion-Feet.

I meditate to see

God's Illumination-Heart. ```

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Humanity's most deplorable audacity

Is its declaration:

"No oneness-heart-exercise!"

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Since you know that your mind

Is conscience-guilty,

Why do you hesitate

To correct your mind? ```

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As the desire-mind-attack is severe,

Even so is

The aspiration-starvation-attack.

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May my soul's rainbow-beauty

Brighten my heart-sky

Every day.

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Mine is the heart

That feeds on gratitude-blossoms.

Mine is the life

That feeds on surrender-blooms. ```

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The mind that thirsts

For the Newness-God-Beauty

I have.

The heart that hungers

For the Oneness-God-Fragrance

I am. ```

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My desire-mind wants to bind

God's powerful Hands.

My aspiration-heart wishes to touch

God's beautiful Feet. ```

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O my mind,

Stop broadcasting your ego-balloon-news!

God wants to hear

My heart's sweetness-oneness-flute-melody. ```

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God Himself has brought me

To the path of spirituality.

Therefore, it is my bounden duty

To love Him, please Him and fulfil Him

Only in His own Way.

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Each time I dive deep within,

My Lord Supreme blesses me

With the paradise-fragrance

Of the ever-transcending Beyond. ```

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Each man

Is a helpless victim-slave

To his own self-importance.

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Today I am a supreme enjoyer

Of two realities:

My fast-decaying doubt-mind

And my fast-blossoming faith-heart. ```

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Your progress-delight

Is guaranteed

The moment your heart can sing

A prayerful and tearful God-song. ```

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Beauty incarnate

Is a God-lover.

Delight incarnate

Is a God-server. ```

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A twenty-four-hour God-lover

Can never have a vulnerable point:

So says God.

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My mind is happy because

My mind is choosing God's Victory

Over my mind's victory.

My heart is happy because

My heart is choosing God's Needs

Over my heart's needs.

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Desire-mind-tragedy

I was.

Aspiration-heart-melody

I am. ```

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A stubborn unwillingness-mind

I was.

A docile willingness-heart

I am. ```

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Spirituality without purity

Is like

A boat without the boatman.

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Only a peace-bird-heart

Can fly

In God's own Rainbow-Sky.

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Only a peace-bird-heart

Can dance

To God's universal Oneness-Melody.

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Eagerness-sincerity

And aspiration-intensity

Always love to be

In each other's company. ```

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Forgiveness

And

Happiness

Are twins. ```

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Choose we must!

Desire's destruction-dance

Aspiration's liberation-song. ```

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God Himself nurtures

My heart's fondest hopes

And

My life's bravest promises. ```

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No one told me;

I just know that God's Eye

And His Compassion-Heart

Will help me hold

His flaming universal Peace-Torch.

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From:Sri Chinmoy,I am my life's God-hunger-heart, part 3, Agni Press, 1994
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