Illumination-Song and Liberation-Dance, part 4

Editor's note

Ami Pathhara Pathik

```

Ami dikhara nabik

Ami ashahara premik

Translation

```

I am the sailor

The destination is.

Who has lost his job.

Devoid of hope-flames.

Amrita Amrita Amrita

```

Tumi atmar chira parichita

Mor hridayer ankhi kusumita

Translation

```

I have known you through Eternity.

You are my heart’s eye fully blossomed.

Jara Jete Chai

```

Jete de tadere

Tader lagiya amar swapan

Tora ai tora ai

Asimer simanai

Translation

```

You come, you come.

Garnered my sweet dreams

You come, you come.

Carry you all

Of the infinite Beyond.

Shudhu Sei Din Dekhi Jibaner Bhor

```

Aj heri shudhu maraner kalo ghor

Aj mor nam hatasha hriday bhasha

Charidhare aj bastabatar rati

Translation

```

My life’s hallowed dawn.

Only the other day my name was hope.

A broken heart-world.

Was a sweet and golden dream.

The reality-night.

Amar Hriday Pakhire Pushibe

```

Amar ashru kanna rodhibe

Amar khudhita jibane tushibe

Tabu kena hai taba prane hani

Andhiyar ghore buke mor tani

Translation

```

My heart-bird.

And extinguish the tear-flames of my eyes.

O Lord of Compassion.

And yet, why do I torture You,

I completely forget

I draw into my heart

Shuno Shuno Ogo Banshidhari

```

Taratari karte sabi pari

Dharte ami pari

Kandte ami pari

Haste ami pari

Translation

```

I can accomplish everything quite fast.

In the twinkling of an eye.

With the bleeding Mother-Earth.

With the ever-happy sky.

Ghure Amar Man

```

Bhul kare o bishwa prabhur

Ghure amar man

Kare alapan

Praner deshe bhalo lage

```

Translation

```

Even through oversight

My mind wanders.

With darkness-night.

It enjoys the restive life

Akash Amai Jane

```

Taito akash tane

Taito rabi tane

Ankbo ami tader chhabi

Pabe moder supta dharar jib

Translation

```

Therefore, it pulls me towards it.

Therefore, the sun invites me.

I shall draw them,

We shall become

Brahma, Vishnu, Shiva.

Is for the great success and

Esechhi Ei Dharai Eka

```

Pete tomar charan dekha

Amar jiban bhelai kabhu

Tumi prabhu asim dayal

Esechhi ei dharai eka

Translation

```

To see Your Lotus-Feet.

In my tiny life-boat, I know,

I know my greed knows no bounds.

Your constant Self-Giving shows

Therefore, I know I am still able to live on earth.

Parabo Mala Tomar Gale

```

Base tomar charan tale

Laho amar hiyar byatha

Translation

```

O Lord, around Your Neck,

Only one word I shall utter:

Ami Nirmam Ami Naradham

```

Ami naradham

Karuna plaban

Laho mor ama deha

Translation

```

I am the worst possible mortal on earth.

O Heaven of my Eternity’s soul,

Ogo Amar Pather Sathi

Ogo amar pather sathi

Ami jabo tomar deshe

Tomar kripa amar jiban

Niyechho mor maran rati

```

Translation

```

You and I walk along Eternity’s Road.

Of Transformation-Light.

Your Compassion is my life.

It is flooded with Your Dream-Light.

Mahiruha Mato

```

Habo ami nato

Habo unnata

Sada jagrato

Bandana rato

Translation

```

Like the mountain I shall forgive

Like the mother I shall always remain awake.

Dharar Buke Esechhilam Eka

```

Hayechhi bahu tomar peye dekha

Tumi amar maran bhati

Merir kole jeman Jishu

Translation

```

But now I have become many.

Precisely because I have seen You.

You are the Light in my death.

Like Jesus in the lap of Mary,

Jiban Maran Hasi Bedan

```

Hasi bedan

Ashar prabhat

Ke janena ke janena

Mukti sadhan

```

Translation

```

Who is not aware of them?

Who is not aware of them?

And liberation-practice —

Shudhu Asha Shudhu Asha

```

E jiban nadi mor sarba nasha

Pratikkhan prane shaman jatan

Translation

```

This life-river of mine

My eyes see nothing but false dream.

Day in and day out.

Abichar Charidike Abichar

```

Anyayer anirban adhikar

Jani ami nahi habe kabhu ala

Translation

```

Injustice-night has enveloped the entire world.

But animal kingdom.

Remain a far cry.

Chahi Shudhu Puta Pran

```

Nahe dhan man

Amrita sandhan

Udar mahan

Translation

```

And not for name and fame.

I always look for nectar-delight.

Of Sacrifice-Light.

Je Jibane Nahi Kono Dosh

```

Se jibane param santosh

Se jiban pai prabhu pade thai

Translation

```

Enjoys satisfaction-delight.

Receives the Blessing-Light

He Mor Jiban Nadi

```

Chalo tumi nirabadhi

Amiyer sandhane

Ghuchaibe pran nisha

Translation

```

You always run and run

For nectar-delight.

My life of darkness will cease once and for all.

Ogo Amar Prane Durbalata

```

Tumi chalo amar sathe sathe

Tumi jedin jabe amai chhere

```

Translation

```

You always follow me.

My life will become success and glory

Ami Nutan Sebak Chai

```

Ami nutan hriday chai

Ami nutan srishti chai

Ami nutan hasi chai

Translation

```

I wish to have a new heart.

I wish to envision a new creation.

I soulfully desire a new smile.

Jyotir Sathe Thakbo Ami

```

Timir sathe thakbona

Bastabatai raibona

Amai je ar bandhbona

Translation

```

And never with darkness.

And never with hard reality.

With the restive vital.

Ekla Chalar Ananda Dheu

```

Habo ami prabhu

Thakbona ar kabhu

Puta swapan bhor

Rupantarer dor

Translation

```

The wave of delight

I shall no more walk along

I shall become the dawn of Your Heart.

The door of transformation beckons me.

Ami Jabo Eka Ami Jabo

```

Dekha pabo eka dekha pabo

Dure jao chale moha nisha

Translation

```

I shall see You alone.

O attachment-illusion-night,

Amar Ashar Nabhe

```

Tomare heribo jabe

Mithibe juger khudha

Tomar karuna bale niye more chalo

Translation

```

My agelong hunger will be fed

In the firmament of my hope.

Do tell me where You are.

Can You not exercise Your infinite

And take me where You are?

Amar Hiyar Gan Nahi Habe Abashan

```

Nahi habe abashan

Nahi habe abashan

Nahi habe abashan

Translation

```

Will never come to an end.

Will never stop.

Will never come to an end.

Andhiyar Charidike Andhiyar

```

Nahi heri hasi pran sushamar

Madhu khama nahi shudhu aparadh

Swarge martye amader nahi thai

Translation

```

I see not the life of beauty anywhere.

Sweet forgiveness nowhere exists.

And a sea of punishment.

Neither Heaven nor earth

Ashar Jibane Krandan

```

Swapane parane bandhan

Charidike nache bedan

Translation

```

Is tortured by bitter tears.

Is devoured by wondrous night.

Is the stark frown of death.

Bhagaban Niye Jao Mor Shata Abhiman

```

Niye jao mor shata abhiman

Dao more taba nil tarikhan

Kripa karo udar mahan

Translation

```

Do take away my sulking nature.

Do grant me Your blue Boat.

Your Compassion-Light

Bhalobese Hasi Mukhe

```

Daki ami jare

Mor hiya dare

Jare ami chai

Tare nahi pai

Translation

```

“Come to me,”

My heart’s door remains sad and lonely.

I meet with a strong refusal.

Ghor Basana Hane Amar Pran

```

Akuti bhor kande aphuran

Ashar brishti dhalo

```

Translation

```

The dawn of aspiration is bitterly

A darkness-life loves me.

Hriday Tale Bhasbo Nayane Jale

```

Dibarati ashesh kanna bale

Moher deshe jedin nahi jabo

Translation

```

Inside my heart.

I shall receive Your Compassion-Blessings

Jwalo Amar Hiyar Nibir Andhare

```

Amar hiyar nibir andhare

Jwalo jwalo jwalo

Amare basibe bhalo

Translation

```

Inside the depth of my darkness-heart.

The conqueror of death.

And grant me the flute of my beloved Krishna.

Jani Prabhu Ami Jani

```

Ami barai abhimani

Maha dhangser aj sandhani

Translation

```

I always sulk without any reason whatsoever.

I am looking for the great destruction-night.

Jante Chaha Kothai Ami Jai

```

Jante chaha kothai amar thai

Jante chaha kothai premer dhup

Taito ami rahi mriyaman

Translation

```

You want to know where I stay.

My heart has.

My love-incense-purity.

Hurled at me.

The life of a lifeless soul.

Karbona Bhoi Karbona

```

Bandhbona ar bandhbona

Jiban juddhe harbona

Translation

```

I shall not fear.

I shall not bind.

I shall not lose on the battlefield of life.

Kemane Janabo Pranati

```

Jadi nahi dao bhakati

Jadi nahi dao akuti

Jadi nahi dao shakati

Translation

```

If You do not give me devotion?

If You do not give me aspiration?

If You do not give me inner strength?

Maha Satyer Anusandhan

```

Parama mukti amrita pan

Jachichhe amar trishita paran

Translation

```

I desire only three things:

The taste of the highest Liberation,

Nupur Baje Nupur Baje

```

Khudra hiyar ankhi majhe

Amar prabhur amar prabhur

Atmatyager putagane

Translation

```

Inside the vision-eye of my tiny heart.

My Lord’s, my Beloved Lord’s.

Are in the nectar-forest of silence.

Of sacred self-giving.

Sanga Habe Jiban Khela

```

Tai heri aj alor bhela

Ami kritagyatar mela

```

Translation

```

Therefore, today I see

My earth-pilgrimage will before long stop.

Nothing but a humble gratitude-fair.

Tomar Khamata Jenechhi

```

Tomar mamata peyechhi

Tomar charan bendhechhi

Translation

```

I have received, Lord,

Countless times I have hurt

And then I have bound

Swarga Duare Taba Madhu Bani

```

Martyer ghare taba ankhi duti dekhechhi

Martye ekhano uthi nai ami jagiya

Translation

```

At Heaven’s door.

In earth’s home.

I was only for You.

Enjoying imponderable

Tomar Karuna Amar Kamana

```

Taba paye mor hiyar jatana

Mukti nritya amar eshana

Bhaba guha ghore amare rekhona

Translation

```

I place my heart’s sorrowful pangs

I meditate to watch

Do grant me Your Liberation-Dance.

Leaving me here alone.

Inside the tiny earth-cage.

Tomar Lagi Ratri Jagi

```

Daki tomai daki

Amar paran ankhi

Balbe ki hai more

Asim kripar dore

Translation

```

You I call upon.

Will never deceive You.

At the farthest corner of the globe?

With Your infinite Compassion-Light?

Tara Amai Dake

```

Tara amai tader shire rakhe

Puta hiyai ashru bhara gane

Tader sathe dur nilimai

```

Translation

```

They place me on their heads.

With their tearful songs,

I shall go with them

And enjoy with them

Tomar Dekha Pabar Lagi

```

Sanpi nayan jale

Tomar kripar bale

Tumi amar mukti swapan

Amar hriday dale

Translation

```

Only to see You once.

Only on the strength

You are eternally mine.

O Lord Supreme, do descend

Tumi Aso Tumi Haso

```

Mor hiya bane

Mor achetane

Taba pada lagi

Ami sada jagi

Translation

```

Inside my heart-forest.

Even when I am totally unaware

I cry all day and night to see Your Feet.

Your Compassion-Blessing.

Rakhal Raja Tomar Smriti Tomar Priti

```

Tomar smriti tomar priti

Tomai aji

Barai anurage

Translation

```

Your sweet reminiscences,

are sporting in my mind.

with my heart’s oneness-joy.

inner eagerness-cry.

Bahudur Hate Esechhi

```

Bahu asha buke rekhechhi

Muktir lagi chalechhi

Translation

```

In my heart I have collected

I have struck the life of wild despair.

Of liberation-delight.

Bandhu Amar Ghor Abhiman

```

Bandhu amar baddha paran

Chaudike mor shaman andhar

Translation

```

A narrow and tight life has become my friend.

Within and without, I see the darkness of death.

Prabhur Bijoy Habe

```

Jadio janina kabe

Jadio janina kabe

Jadio janina kabe

Jadio janina kabe

Translation

```

Although I know not when.

Although I know not when.

Although I know not when.

Although I know not when.

Puta Hese Basbo Ese

```

Tomar padatale

Atmahutir bale

Translation

```

And then sit at Your Lotus-Feet.

In the golden dawn of sweetness-light

Sabai Amar Bhai

```

Mukti giti dibas rate

Sabai amar mita

Hase bishwa pita

Translation

```

We sing the song of liberation together

All are my friends.

The Lord Supreme of the creation vast

Tomar Sathe Tomar Pathe Chalbo

```

Tomar paye matha nata karbo

Chira apan kare tomai rakhbo

Translation

```

I shall bow down only to You.

I shall keep You eternally as my own, very own.

Tomare Ami Chharibona

```

Basana ghare rahibona

Dinatar sathe kandibona

Translation

```

I shall not remain inside the room

I shall not respond to the call of the finite.