You are at once my life’s Hero and my heart’s Idol.
Sri Chinmoy October 15th, 2006Forward I march
To surprise man. ```Inward I dive
To surprise God. ```Upward I fly
To surprise my eyes. ```I wish
To be fruitful. ```God wants me
To be faithful. ```God loves to be
An incognito silence-traveller. ```I love to be
A thunderbolt-traveller. ```The doubting mind
IsA God-deserter-rogue.
```The blossoming heart
IsA God-asserter-hero.
```The world is full of
God-talkers,But shockingly short of
God-lovers. ```God Himself
Is cherishingMy farewell-surprise-speech
To ignorance-night. ```All problems disappear
When my streaming tearsAnd God’s beaming Smiles
Appear. ```I need
A flood of tearsFor my flight to Heaven.
```God needs
A chorus of cheersFor His flight to earth.
```To be happy,
I need my mindTo unlearn.
```To be happy,
I need my heartTo expand.
```To be happy,
I need my lifeTo forgive.
```Helpless,
God was caughtWhen He was sought
By my heart’s bleeding tears. ```God appreciates me
When I write Him a letterEvery day.
```I appreciate God
When He writes meAt least
Three letters a day. ```Glorify
Your blue-gold soul. ```Feed
Your hungry heart. ```God is pleased with me
Only when I haveA soaring heart
AndA roaring life.
```Man cleverly shelters
His weaknesses. ```God fondly shelters
Man’s virtues. ```When I become
One hundred per centGod-dependence-Grace,
God immediately shows meHis descending earth-bound Face.
```When I am
In love with God,I am perfect perfection.
```When I am
In love with myself,I am minus perfect.
```When I am
In love with the world,I sadly fail
And my life beginsIts life-imprisonment.
```When the souls share
Their sweetness-fondness-dreams,God immediately begins
His self-amorous Dance. ```A success-life
May enslave us. ```A progress-life.
Without fail,Embraces the whole world.
```God constantly
Thinks of me —That is no new news.
```When I think of God
Once in a blue moon,It becomes universally
The top news. ```The Source and the Destination
Are fond of playingHide-and-seek.
```While I am on earth,
I can frequentGod’s Heights.
```I can frequent
God’s climbing HeightsOnly when I am up to date
With God’s ever-blossoming Dreams. ```My unconditional God-surrender
Means that I am at onceExcellent and perfect
At playingGod’s birthless and deathless Games.
```I love to speak
To God’s golden Feet. ```God loves to speak
To my broken heart. ```God can wait for me
Eternally. ```I cannot wait for God
Even momentarily. ```When I see God’s Face,
I am only half-satisfied. ```When I clasp God’s Feet,
I am fully satisfied. ```When God and I
Walk together,God leads me cheerfully.
```When God and I
Walk backwards,I lead God proudly.
```God is eager to take care of
My unworthiness,But He will never take care of
My unwillingness. ```Insincerity came —
I fought and won.Impurity came —
I fought and won.Desire came —
I fought and won.Finally, God-surrender came —
I won and won, forever. ```God tells me,
If I am ready to be responsibleFor my present blunders,
Then He will be responsibleNot only for my past blunders
But also for my future blunders. ```My soul laughs and laughs
When the hostile forces speakIn God’s Name.
```Alas, I am waiting for the day
When I shall wake upIn God's Promise-Land
Smiling, singing and dancing! ```When we pray to God
To protect us from disobedience,He not only saves us from disobedience,
But also increases our obedience-capacity. ```By blaming God,
We get happiness. ```By claiming us,
God gets Happiness. ```God-disobedience
IsA spirituality-fracture-experience.
```“No more God!”
Says the mind. ```“God, more ever more!”
Is the need of the heart. ```My Lord,
Do increase my aspirationInfinitely more
So that I can come out ofMy mind-world-prison
And run intoYour Heart-Home.
```What cripples a seeker?
Self-doubt. ```What cures a seeker?
God-longing-tears. ```I chose to remember
All my mistakes,But God chose not to.
```Every day I pray to God
To bless meWith the rebirth
Of my surrender-life. ```My heart-dictionary
Houses only one word:God-surrender.
```Intelligence
Sprouts everywhere. ```Diligence
Is scarcely available. ```Mysticism
Is the harbingerOf an unseen Reality-Hand.
```The raining Grace of God
Is the fragrance-heartOf man.
```Wake up, my heart, wake up
To see the setting peace-sunAnd the rising beauty-moon!
```Yesterday
Was my mind’sDesire-extinction-day.
```Today
Is my heart’sAspiration-illumination-day.
```Tomorrow
Will be my life’sLiberation-celebration-day.
```There shall come a time,
I am sure,When God’s Compassion-Eye
Shall fulfilAll my sweet
God-manifestation-dreams. ```God drastically ignores
My impatience-mind. ```God blessingfully, unreservedly
And unconditionally embracesMy patience-heart.
```The mind needs
A round of applauseFrom the world,
But the heart needsOnly one Affection-Bliss-Embrace
From God. ```From:Sri Chinmoy,The lotus-grove of my heart, Agni Press, 2006
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