My life's sixty-three heart-blossoms

One

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

On my birthday I am praying to You

To make me a member

Of Your inner Circle. ```

Two

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

On my birthday I am praying to You

To make me realise

That my Master is my soul-heart-life-lover

And not my soul-heart-life-dictator.

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Three

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

On my birthday I am praying to You

To make me realise

That I am Your Heart's golden Dream,

That You are my life's only Reality.

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Four

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

On my birthday I am praying to You

To grant me the capacity

To keep my mind-telephone-line

Open only to You.

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Five

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

On my birthday I am praying to You

To make me realise

That my life is not a false hope's dead end

But a true, illumining and fulfilling hope's

Continuous journey. ```

Six

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

On my birthday I am praying to You

To give me the capacity

To stop broadcasting

My mind's giant-ego-news

Once and for all. ```

Seven

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

On my birthday I am praying to You

To compel my fighting mind

To completely surrender

To my embracing heart.

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Eight

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

On my birthday I am praying to You

To torture me, to punish me

In the forest

Of my disobedience-repentance-tears.

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Nine

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On my birthday

My Lord Beloved Supreme

Is commanding me

Not to underestimate

My God-manifestation-capacity.

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Ten

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On my birthday

My Lord Beloved Supreme

Is telling me

That although He is omnipotent,

Although He is the Possessor

Of infinite Power,

He is my heart-happiness-Beggar

And my life-smile-Dreamer. ```

Eleven

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On my birthday

My Lord Beloved Supreme

Wants me to answer

A few Compassion-questions:

"My child, who told you

To swim in the sea of stupidity?

Who prevented your life

From progressing?

Who gave you the capacity

To decide your fate?

Who compelled you to sing

Your life's failure-song?

And who compelled you to stop dancing

Your life's victory-dances?" ```

Twelve

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I am thirsty

For my Lord's Compassion-Eye.

My Lord is hungry

For my satisfaction-heart. ```

Thirteen

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I call it

My great concentration.

God calls it

My indomitable will. ```

Fourteen

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Alas,

My mind's fatal frustration

Has eclipsed

My heart's sunlit smile. ```

Fifteen

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Alas,

I do not know who has stolen

My heart's fountain-hope

And my soul's mountain-promise. ```

Sixteen

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I do not want to thrive

On my desire-greatness-splendour.

I want to thrive

Only on my aspiration-goodness-candour. ```

Seventeen

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Impurity, you destroy

The beauty of my eyes,

The sincerity of my mind,

The purity of my heart

And the simplicity of my life.

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Eighteen

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God smiles at my readiness.

God sings for my willingness.

God dances in my eagerness.

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Nineteen

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The desiring mind

Loves division-campaign.

The aspiring heart

Loves union-refrain. ```

Twenty

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The God-intensity-heart

Purifies

The man-impurity-mind.

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Twenty-One

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The mind that longs for light

Consciously

Can never be caught

In jealousy-current. ```

Twenty-Two

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Where do I live?

I live in between

My receptivity-heart-tears

And God's

Infinity-Heart-Smiles.

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Twenty-Three

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My willingness-heart

And God's Availability-Heart

Inseparably live.

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Twenty-Four

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I am so happy that at long last

My heart-faith-friend

Is challenging

My mind-doubt-intruder. ```

Twenty-Five

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There was a time

When I was my mind's

Unwillingness-lethargy,

But now I am my heart's

Enthusiasm-energy.

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Twenty-Six

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The mind-grandeur

Is a sleeping breath.

The heart-surrender

Is an everlasting life. ```

Twenty-Seven

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My real love of God

And my God-disobedience

Can never be together.

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Twenty-Eight

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When I get up early to meditate,

My Lord says to me:

"You are My Victory-Crown!"

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Twenty-Nine

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If You at all love me, my Lord,

Then keep me away from

My mind's desire-jungle.

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Thirty

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God's Signature is always glowing

Inside the life

Of an unconditional surrender-heart.

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Thirty-One

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One must look for

Only one thing:

The Smile of God's Heart

In God's Eye. ```

Thirty-Two

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Two things I have

To make me happy:

The hope that soars beyond

And the promise that touches

Earth-life.

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Thirty-Three

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Very few are those

Who recognise God,

And fewer still are those

Who are ready to welcome God. ```

Thirty-Four

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This morning I said farewell

To my suspicion-mind

And hesitation-heart.

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Thirty-Five

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Sleeplessly God calls your name,

Expecting a prayerful

And grateful answer.

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Thirty-Six

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What has earth given me?

Earth has given me

Its helpless sorrows.

What else has earth given me?

My dream-fulfilment-tomorrows.

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Thirty-Seven

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I am proud of my mind

Because it is a sleepless

God-seeker.

I am proud of my heart

Because it is a breathless

God-lover. ```

Thirty-Eight

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The mind's insincerity

Has no friends.

The heart's purity

Has no enemies. ```

Thirty-Nine

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When you become

A God-ingratitude-heart,

You score a decisive goal

For your own worst enemy:

Ignorance.

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Forty

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Alas,

God-disobedience-drums

Are deafening

Mother-Earth's ears. ```

Forty-One

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Each time I meditate well,

I become Heaven's

Flowering and illumining

Silence-joy. ```

Forty-Two

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Each suspicious thought,

No matter how small it is,

Has the capacity to eclipse

The seeker's heart-sun. ```

Forty-Three

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Only two times I am truly fulfilled:

Once

When I am an open heart

And once

When I am a closed mouth!

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Forty-Four

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God is always beautiful,

But He is infinitely more beautiful

When He shows me His Compassion-Eye.

My heart is always beautiful,

But it is infinitely more beautiful

When it becomes a gratitude-heart.

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Forty-Five

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If we do not appreciate

God's Appearance,

Why should God appreciate

Our performance? ```

Forty-Six

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Both are equally needed:

The astrology

Of the inner life

And the technology

Of the outer life.

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Forty-Seven

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The mind loves to listen

To doubt-recordings.

The heart loves to listen

To faith-recordings.

The soul loves to listen

To promise-recordings.

God loves to listen

To perfection-recordings. ```

Forty-Eight

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When you reach your heart-home,

You will discover that your God-Guest

Has been waiting for you

For a long time. ```

Forty-Nine

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The pulse of a purity-heart

At every moment

Can see the universal Beauty

Of the Transcendental God. ```

Fifty

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Be not late in sending

Your aspiration-application to God

If you really need God.

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Fifty-One

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Prayer

Is my heart-song.

Meditation

Is my soul-dance. ```

Fifty-Two

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My Lord Supreme

Openly admires me

When I secretly love Him.

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Fifty-Three

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God does not want you to carry

The ashes of your old desires.

He wants you to carry with you

The fragrance of your heart's

Flower-beauty.

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Fifty-Four

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The seeker's disobedience

Expedites his spiritual death

And also changes

God's opinion of him drastically. ```

Fifty-Five

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At long last

I have vehemently chased away

All my God-disobedience-thoughts!

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Fifty-Six

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If you follow the mind's road,

Then you are bound to meet

With doubt-hooligans

On the way. ```

Fifty-Seven

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Slowly and secretly

The mind-thief enters

Into the heart's purity-room

To steal the faith-fragrance

Of the soul.

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Fifty-Eight

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I must reject

What God has already

Rejected for me:

Ignorance-dream. ```

Fifty-Nine

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The mind's obedience-smile

Is beautiful.

The heart's oneness-dance

Is perfect. ```

Sixty

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Yesterday's dream-flute

And today's reality-drum

Can awaken and illumine us

In God's own Way. ```

Sixty-One

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Each undivine thought

Is nothing but

Useless dust

Of its own nothingness. ```

Sixty-Two

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The mind compiles

A complaint list.

The heart supplies

The aspiration-flames

To burn it.

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Sixty-Three

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My Lord,

When I call others my own,

They invariably deface me.

But when I call You my own,

You invariably embrace me.

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From:Sri Chinmoy,My life's sixty-three heart-blossoms, Agni Press, 1994
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