My Lord reads my letters

1.

```

My Lord reads

My gratitude-surrender-letters

Long before

He does anything else. ```

2.

```

The mind

Satisfies itself

By criticising God.

```

3.

```

The vital

Satisfies itself

By disobeying God.

```

4.

```

The body

Satisfies itself

By forgetting God.

```

5.

```

The heart

Satisfies itself

By worshipping God.

```

6.

```

The soul

Satisfies itself

By manifesting God.

```

7.

```

I satisfy myself

By devouring

The dust of God's Feet.

```

8.

```

My mind

Wants to possess

God's Height.

```

9.

```

My heart

Wishes to be possessed

By God's Depth.

```

10.

```

My philosophy

Is

An independent life.

```

11.

```

God's Philosophy

Is

An interdependent existence.

```

12.

```

My philosophy

Is

The manifestation of my

Supremacy-mind. ```

13.

```

God's Philosophy

Is

The manifestation of His

Intimacy-Heart. ```

14.

```

Alas,

My heart is afraid

Of diving.

```

15.

```

Alas,

My mind is afraid

Of climbing.

```

16.

```

Alas,

My vital is afraid

Of surrendering.

```

17.

```

Alas,

My body is afraid

Of waking.

```

18.

```

Alas,

I am afraid

Of transcending.

```

19.

```

When God comes to me

As God,

I do not understand Him.

```

20.

```

When God comes to me

As man,

I do not believe Him.

```

21.

```

When God comes to me

As God,

I ignore Him.

```

22.

```

When God comes to me

As man,

I ridicule Him.

```

23.

```

When God comes to me

As God,

I hide from Him.

```

24.

```

When God comes to me

As man,

I run away from Him.

```

25.

```

When God comes to me

As God,

I instruct Him.

```

26.

```

When God comes to me

As man,

I betray Him.

```

27.

```

When God comes to me

As a flower,

I love Him.

```

28.

```

When God comes to me

As a child,

I treasure Him.

```

29.

```

When God comes to me

As His Life-Breath-Sacrificer,

I immediately become Him.

```

30.

```

I forget

To tell God

That I love Him.

```

31.

```

God forgets

To tell me

That He needs me.

```

32.

```

I forget

To tell God

That He is extraordinary.

```

33.

```

God forgets

To tell me

That I am not transitory.

```

34.

```

I forget

To tell God

That He is always perfect.

```

35.

```

God forgets

To tell me

That I am always correct.

```

36.

```

I forget

To tell God

That He is indispensable.

```

37.

```

God forgets

To tell me

That we are inseparable.

```

38.

```

I intentionally forget

To touch

God's blessingful Feet.

```

39.

```

God intentionally forgets

To touch

My boastful mind.

```

40.

```

I forget

To ask God

Who I am to Him.

```

41.

```

God forgets

To ask me

What I have for Him.

```

42.

```

My forgetfulness

Of God,

God does not announce.

```

43.

```

God's forgetfulness

Of me,

I vehemently and openly

Denounce. ```

44.

```

My Lord,

Please tell me frankly

What You think

Of my spiritual life. ```

45.

```

"My child,

Please tell Me frankly first

What you think

Of My unconditional

Forgiveness-Heart."

```

46.

```

My Lord,

Please tell me

Once and for all

If You really love me. ```

47.

```

"My child,

Please tell Me

Once and for all,

If you really love Me,

Then why do you always

Remain far away from Me?" ```

48.

```

My mind

Cannot imagine

How my heart

Can be so self-giving. ```

49.

```

My heart

Cannot imagine

How my mind

Can be so unwilling. ```

50.

```

My mind

Cannot imagine

How the Heart of God

Inspires my heart. ```

51.

```

My heart

Cannot imagine

How the very thought of God

Bewilders my mind. ```

52.

```

God wants

Our minds to see

That His creation

Is divinely beautiful. ```

53.

```

God wants

Our hearts to feel

That His creation

Is supremely fruitful. ```

54.

```

God wants me

To add to

His eternally blissful creation.

```

55.

```

May my mind

Every day

Play its role nobly.

```

56.

```

May my heart

Every day

Play its role prayerfully.

```

57.

```

May my life

Every day

Play its role unreservedly.

```

58.

```

May I

Every day

Play my role unconditionally.

```

59.

```

May my heart's aspiration-tree

Every day grow to reach

The highest height.

```

60.

```

May my life's

Dedication-branches

Every day try to reach

The longest length. ```

61.

```

May my outer life

Belong

To Eternity's Tears.

```

62.

```

May my inner life

Belong

To Immortality's Smiles.

```

63.

```

The desiring mind

Competes

With the world.

```

64.

```

The aspiring heart

Completes

The world.

```

65.

```

The desiring mind

Is indeed

A possession-hunger.

```

66.

```

The aspiring heart

Is indeed

A renunciation-meal.

```

67.

```

The desiring mind

Is our life's

Backward march.

```

68.

```

The aspiring heart

Is our life's

Forward run.

```

69.

```

The desiring mind says:

"I want,

Even if God

Does not want me to have." ```

70.

```

The aspiring heart says:

"I need

Only what God

Wants me to need." ```

71.

```

Sorrows and tears

Torture

The desiring mind.

```

72.

```

Smiles and cheers

Promptly welcome

The aspiring heart.

```

73.

```

The desiring mind

Does not realise

That its search for satisfaction

Is useless. ```

74.

```

The aspiring heart

Cannot even imagine

That God has infinite Love, Peace

And Bliss

For the aspiring heart.

```

75.

```

The desiring mind

Is the inevitable

Kiss of death.

```

76.

```

The aspiring heart

Is the imperishable

Embrace of life.

```

77.

```

The desiring mind

Kills the true fragrance

Of our inner life.

```

78.

```

The aspiring heart

Creates a new beauty

In our outer life.

```

79.

```

The desiring mind

And Infinity

Are not destined to meet.

```

80.

```

The aspiring heart

And Immortality

Are destined not only to meet,

But also to become

Inseparably one.

```

81.

```

When I go to God,

God asks me:

"My child,

When will you

Come back again?"

```

82.

```

When God comes to me,

I say to God:

"I never thought

That You would

Come back again!"

```

83.

```

When I go to God,

God asks me:

"My child,

Do you not know

Who you really are?"

```

84.

```

When God comes to me,

I ask God:

"My Lord,

Do You ever care to know

What I am suffering from?"

```

85.

```

When I go to God,

I am astonished to see

God's unimaginable Hospitality.

```

86.

```

When God comes to me,

He is shocked to see

My irresponsible unreceptivity.

```

87.

```

When I go to God,

God surprisingly asks me:

"My child,

What has brought you

To Me today?"

```

88.

```

When God comes to me,

I angrily ask Him:

"My Lord,

What has kept You away

For such a long time?"

```

89.

```

When I go to God,

He reminds me

Of the fact

That I am at once

His partner and collaborator.

```

90.

```

When God comes to me,

I tell Him that

My mind is His secret admirer,

My heart is His sleepless lover

And my life

Is His breathless worshipper. ```

91.

```

A peace-dreamer is he

Who sows peace-seeds

Everywhere.

```

92.

```

A peace-lover is he

Who grows bliss-truth

Everywhere.

```

93.

```

I am desperately trying

To change

God's Mind.

```

94.

```

God is desperately trying

To open

My mind's eye.

```

95.

```

I do not know

Where the salvation-food

Is prepared —

Perhaps in Heaven. ```

96.

```

I definitely know

That the realisation-meal

Is prepared

Here on earth. ```

97.

```

I pray to God

To give me

All that He has and is.

```

98.

```

God prays to me

To give Him

All that I do not actually need.

```

99.

```

I pray to God

To give me

His Beauty and Divinity.

```

100.

```

God prays to me

To give Him

My duty and responsibility.

```

101.

```

The doubting mind

Cannot preface

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Easily can.

```

102.

```

The doubting mind

Cannot efface

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Easily can.

```

103.

```

The doubting mind

Cannot chase

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Easily can.

```

104.

```

The doubting mind

Cannot race with

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Easily can.

```

105.

```

The doubting mind

Cannot face

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Easily can.

```

106.

```

The doubting mind

Cannot trace

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Easily can.

```

107.

```

The doubting mind

Cannot embrace

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Easily, definitely

And lovingly can. ```

108.

```

The doubting mind

Can obviously ignore

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Cannot.

```

109.

```

The doubting mind

Can obviously belittle

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Cannot.

```

110.

```

The doubting mind

Can obviously ridicule

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Cannot.

```

111.

```

The doubting mind

Can obviously falsify

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Cannot.

```

112.

```

The doubting mind

Can obviously berate

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Cannot.

```

113.

```

The doubting mind

Can obviously torture

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Cannot.

```

114.

```

The doubting mind

Can obviously bisect

The aspiring heart,

But the aspiring heart

Cannot.

```

115.

```

God does not understand

The most complicated prayers

Of the mind.

Therefore

He fails to answer.

```

116.

```

God easily understands

The most simple prayers

Of the heart.

Therefore

He immediately answers.

```

117.

```

The real friends

Are those

Who unburden your life.

```

118.

```

The real friends

Are those

Who minimise your sorrows.

```

119.

```

The real friends

Are those

Who maximise your joys.

```

120.

```

The real friends

Are those

Who cannot brook

Insults and humiliation

Thrust upon you.

```

121.

```

The real friends

Are those

Who dine with your success

And progress. ```

122.

```

The real friends

Are those

Who brave your dire enemies

To save you. ```

123.

```

The real friends

Are those

Whose lives are made

Of sacrifice-delight. ```

124.

```

The real friends

Are those

Who unreservedly

And unconditionally

Help you

In secrecy supreme. ```

125.

```

The real friends

Are those

Who sincerely connive

At your mistakes. ```

126.

```

The real friends

Are those who take

Your Himalayan-tall blunders

As short as anthill foibles. ```

127.

```

God the invisible

Becomes visible

In the beautiful eyes

And powerful hands

Of the real friends.

```

128.

```

God the Heart

Lives most proudly

In the oneness-heart

Of the real friends. ```

129.

```

Self-glorification

Delays

Our Godward journey.

```

130.

```

Self-deprecation

Delays

Our Godward journey.

```

131.

```

Self-affirmation

Delays

Our Godward journey.

```

132.

```

Self-negation

Delays

Our Godward journey.

```

133.

```

Self-mortification

Delays

Our Godward journey.

```

134.

```

Self-acceptance,

Founded upon God-dependence,

Expedites

Our Godward journey. ```

135.

```

God asks me:

"How are you?"

And not:

"Who are you?" ```

136.

```

I ask God:

"Who are You?"

And:

"Why are You?" ```

137.

```

God asks me

To do Him

A big favour:

"Smile." ```

138.

```

My mind,

On my behalf,

Answers and shares with God

Its philosophy,

Free of charge:

"Give not and take not." ```

139.

```

My mind wants to teach

My heart

Everything that it knows.

```

140.

```

My heart wants to teach

My mind

Whom to love: God.

```

141.

```

My mind

Is

My morning God-queries.

```

142.

```

My heart

Is

My evening God-answers.

```

143.

```

Now is the time

To make ourselves

Perfect.

```

144.

```

Here is the place

For us to fulfil

Our Lord Supreme.

```

145.

```

Determination is an award

That my mind gives

To my heart.

```

146.

```

Satisfaction is an award

That my heart gives

To my mind.

```

147.

```

God the Eye

Secretly

Scolds me.

```

148.

```

God the Heart

Openly

Praises me.

```

149.

```

My joy is in

My heart's

Pulling my life upward.

```

150.

```

When I become

A man of success,

Worries chase me.

```

151.

```

When I become

A man of progress,

God Himself comes

And embraces me. ```

152.

```

My mind saddens me often

With its

Superiority-hunger.

```

153.

```

My heart always gladdens me

With its

God-Compassion-hunger.

```

154.

```

I am complete

Not when others

Love me.

```

155.

```

I am complete

When I love and need

Only God.

```

156.

```

When I am in my soul,

I am

All illumination.

```

157.

```

When I am in my heart,

I am

All aspiration.

```

158.

```

When I am in my mind,

I am

All inspiration.

```

159.

```

When I am in my vital,

I am

All determination.

```

160.

```

Alas,

When I am in my body,

I am

All frustration. ```

161.

```

Try to please your own mind.

You will have a new name:

Failure.

```

162.

```

Try to please your heart.

You will have a new name:

God's Smile.

```

163.

```

My mind has to arrive

At God's

Perfection-Shore.

```

164.

```

My heart has to arrive

At God's

Satisfaction-Shore.

```

165.

```

I must arrive

At my

Self-transcendence-shore.

```

166.

```

In the morning

God gives my heart

His special Love.

```

167.

```

In the evening

God gives my life

His special Peace.

```

168.

```

My heart

Satisfies God

With its devotion-tears.

```

169.

```

God

Satisfies my heart

With His Compassion-Smiles.

```

170.

```

God

The Compassion-Heart

Gives.

```

171.

```

Man

The confusion-mind

Refuses.

```

172.

```

When God speaks,

The mind

Does not care to listen.

```

173.

```

When God speaks,

The heart readily,

Willingly and eagerly

Cares to listen. ```

174.

```

My heart

Is well-known

For its streaming tears.

```

175.

```

God's Heart

Is well-known

For its Fountain-Forgiveness.

```

176.

```

God's Eye

Frightens

The animal in us.

```

177.

```

God's Heart

Awakens

The human in us.

```

178.

```

God's Life

Feeds and treasures

The divine in us.

```

179.

```

The aspiring heart

Throws itself into

Each and every project

Of God. ```

180.

```

The doubting mind

Interferes in

Each and every project

Of God. ```

181.

```

May our aspiration

Be the hope

Of the present generation.

```

182.

```

May our realisation

Be the promise

For the future generation.

```

183.

```

My mind

Shows my heart

The wrong way.

```

184.

```

My heart

Shows my mind

The right way.

```

185.

```

My Lord shows my mind

And my heart

His Way:

"Come My children,

Come to My Heart-Home."

```

From:Sri Chinmoy,My Lord reads my letters, Agni Press, 1999
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/lrl