Bahirer hasi nahi jachi mago
Jachi antara hasiNirabata majhe antar pure
Baje taba madhu banshiBahire bhitare kena byabadhan
Bahire janai natiPhire jena pai pujite tomai
Antare shubha mati```
```Mother, I do not seek for an outer smile.
I seek only for inner smile.I know perfectly well
That it is only in the inner silenceThat Your Nectar-Flute is being played.
I do not know, alas, why there is such a gulfBetween the inner life and the outer life
And why I always want to bow down to YouAs a mere show in the outer life.
Why do I get satisfactionOnly from my outer obeisance?
May I get back the inner devoted willTo worship You in silence,
Sincerely and devotedly, in my inner life. ```Swarup janite esechi e bhabe
Na janile nija rupHata shai bhara bhagna parane
Rahibo satata chupDurbal prane nahi raje kabhu
Ananda bichi malaDekha dao more ogo aparup
Hriday kariya ala```
```I have come into the world
To discover my self-form.If I do not discover my self-form,
I shall remain in silence with frustration-night.In a weak heart the waves of delight can never abide.
I am, alas, that weak heart.O Beauty Transcendental, do illumine my heart
And appear before me. ```Shukla rater swapane hasi
Jagarane ami gumari kandiTai paraner andhar nashi
Andhar prane amai bandhi```
```I smile in the heart of my dream.
In the dream of white night I smile,And when I wake up I cry and cry.
I try to put an end to my ignorance-life.Alas, I bind myself more
While I am trying to free myself. ```Jaha chai nahi pai tabu asha
Phire pabo manakasheMauna bhasha
Se bhashar prane rajeKanu alo benu
Nanda ankhi maniAmi taba jyoti dhenu
``````
Lord, why don’t You call me?Why do You always keep me away from You?
Why do You always deliberately forget me?Can You not once use Your Forgiveness-power
And call me to be before You? ```Sabar age habo ami
Tomar priyatamTai bujhi ma rakho dure
Anan manoramJayi hale jiban samar sheshe
Balbe amai madhur hasi heseTumiy amar chaowa shudhu
Tumiy amar chaowaTomar lagi dharar buke
Amar asa jaowa```
```I want to become Your most devoted child,
Your dearest child;Therefore, do You keep me aside on purpose?
If I become victoriousIn the battlefield of my life,
I am sure You will make me Your dearest child,And You will grant me Your transcendental Smile.
Mother, You are my only desire.Only to see You smiling
I come into the world-arena again and again. ```Hasi nahi jachi jachi shudhu priya
Hriday gahane santanaBastab prane rakhiyo amare
Nahi diyo kabhu kalpana```
```Beloved, I do not need Your Smile.
What I need in the depth of my heartIs Your Consolation-light.
Keep me always in the heart of Your Reality,And keep me not in the world of imagination-illusion.
```Gyan parabare dube jale mor
Hingsa dainya abiswasDayamoy tumi ati karunai
Hau tumi jani jagat tras```
```Let my animal nature drown
In the wisdom-sea.O compassionate Lord,
May Your CompassionRemove all my fear and doubt
And make me only a perfect instrumentOf Your Compassion-Sky.
```Sab abhiman bhenge dao mor
Ogo chira dayamoyTomar bijoy pratishtha lagi
Nahi jena kari bhoyTomar bijoye bijoy amar
Tumi mor pran pranE gopan katha karibe amar
Basanar abasan```
```O compassionate Supreme,
Do destroy my sulking nature.To establish Your Victory here on earth,
Let me not suffer from fear.Give me a dauntless heart.
Your Victory is my victory, indeed.You are the life-breath of my life.
I know, when I fulfil You,All my desires come to an end
In the twinkling of an eye. ```Rahiyacha ati kache
Bhabi dure bahu dureSupta e hiya mor
Jage taba banshi sureTumi nai bale jara
Chhale shudhu nija praneSanpi jena hiya mor
Tomarai jaya gane```
```You are near, very near,
Nearer than the nearest,Yet it seems to me
That You are far, very far,Farther than the farthest.
Lo and behold,Today my heart’s door is wide open.
My heart is fully awakeTo the soul-stirring music of Your Flute.
Those who say that You do not existAre only deceiving themselves.
I wish to offer my surrender-lifeAt every moment to You, to You alone.
```Tomar dake diyna sara
Tai bujhi aj sarba haraAmi sab harader dalapati
Kripamoyi tomai natiNa jadi pai amar khudha
Keman kare dhalbe sudhaJani ami gopan katha
Dur karo mor sakal byatha```
```I do not respond to Your call;
Therefore, I am all destitute.I know I am the supreme leader
Of all those who have nothing,Absolutely nothing.
O Mother of Compassion,It is not Your fault at all.
I do not have inner hunger.Since I have no hunger,
How can You feed me?Mother, I have a suffering heart.
Do console and illumine my heart of suffering. ```Swapane shuni hriday bane
Taba nupur dhwaniJagile dekha paina kena
Ogo nayan maniDin dupure swap mor
Satya hok satyaOgo arup amar majhi
Rahibe tumi nitya```
```In my heart-forest
I heard the jingling of Your ankle-bells.I see You in my dreams.
But alas, when I am awake,I see You not.
How I wish to see You during the dayAnd not at night in my dreams!
May the dream-reality be manifestedIn my outer life of existence.
O Beauty unparalleled,May Your Beauty be manifested
In my day-to-day activitiesAt every moment of my wakeful life.
```Dukher dine nitya tomai daki
Sukh pela ma diy tomare phankiDukher majhe bujhbe tomar daya
Kripamoyi ogo duka jaya ```Ami khunji amai shudhu
Amar prati kajeTaita dekha paina tomar
Bishwa bhuban majheJantri tumi jantra ami
Janbo mago ami jabeThakbena ar moher bandhan
Amar alor bhave ```I only look for myself, my satisfaction,
In all that I do;Therefore, I never see You
In all that I do.The day I come to realise
That You are the DoerAnd I am the mere instrument,
On that day all my bondage-shacklesWill be removed from me by You,
I know, I know. ```Urdhe chila sakal kichu
Hethai ami nishwaGyan jadi pai phire pabo
Mor puratan bishwaAgyanati dhruva nahe
Gyani amar chaowaTomar kache rakho mago
Amar sakal paowa```
```When I was in Heaven
I had everything,And now on earth I have nothing,
Absolutely nothing.When wisdom-sun will dawn,
I shall regain my own old Friend eternal.World-ignorance is not true existence;
Therefore, I long only for light.O Mother, may I place all my longings
At Your Lotus-Feet. ```Nirabadhi mago more tumi karo khama
Micha abhimane tabu ami basi bhaloDhara adharar ogo chira manorama
Antare mor gyana rabi dyuti jwalo```
```Every moment You forgive me,
Yet again and againFalse sulking nature comes
And ruins my life;Therefore, I fail to love You.
O Compassion-Beauty of this worldAnd the world beyond,
Do kindle the flame of knowledgeInside the depth of my crying heart.
```Dhulikana ami nikhil dharar
Ati chota dhulikanaChira sathi mor bishwa janani
Lavi sada mor santanaAlo shishu ami abhay mayer
Shashwata dinatamaHarashe bishate jay-parajaye
Ami chira manorama```
```I know, I am a speck of dust.
Yet the Mother of the UniverseEternally stays with me.
She is my eternal Companion.She is my only Consolation.
On the one hand, I am the poorest of all.On the other hand, I am the child of light
Of the Mother of the Universe.May I remain unperturbed
In all happiness and sorrows. ```Chira agyata ogo dui shishu
Unnati abanatiSabar jibane rayecha tomara
Heri tai labh khatiNarayan raje parane sabar
Ei katha barebarJanaite chaha bujaite chaha
Keha nahi shunibar```
```Progress and regress are two infants.
These two infants abide inside everyHuman being
And it is they who create in human beingsThe sense of loss and gain.
The Lord Supreme, who isSatisfaction Supreme as well,
Resides in every heart,Yet nobody wants to believe in this
Eternally sacred and secret message. ```Manaber bhalobasa
Nahi hai kabhu sumadhurBhalobasa shesh hale
Prane baje bishader surChirasukhi habo mora
Narayane jadi basi bhaloPran nave adharar
Birajibe shashwata alo```
```Human love can never be sweet.
At the end of human loveWe hear the frustration-tune.
If we love only the Inner Pilot,Who is all Love divine,
All-illumining and all-fulfilling,Then only can we have abiding joy in our love-life.
```Nahi jachi more basenai bhara
Khudra praner joyTomar ichchha hauk purna
Ogo chira dayamoyAbhipsa jachi tomar sakashe
Basanar nirbanTomar bijoy pratishtha lagi
Mora jagrata pran```
```We do not seek the victory of our little life,
O compassionate Lord.May we long only for the fulfilment
Of Your transcendental Will.Aspiration-light we long for
Only to extinguish the flamesOf countless desires.
To establish Your Victory here on earthWe are all wide awake.
```Satya senani amara sabai satyer hok joy
Prashanta mora langhiya chali badha bipatti bhoyPrati manaber bhranta parane achire karibo khoy
Sathi narayan jagat janani mora chira chinmoy```
```We are the soldiers of truth.
May the victory of truth be proclaimed.All obstructions along the way
We have passed through.Boundless peace we now embody.
The eluding and deluding mindWe shall illumine.
Our companions are World-Mother and World-Father,And we are nothing but consciousness-light.
```Jachi mora hasi sei
Shudhu mago sei hasiJe hasir prane raje
Amarar alo banshi```
```O Mother divine,
We cry only for the smileThat embodies Your life-transforming
Flute of light,Which is the course and source
Of earth’s fulfilment-day. ```Tomar sneha jachi mago
Tomar sneha jachiTomar asim sneha majhe
Nitya jena nachi ```Your Affection-Light I desire.
Your Affection-Light I desire.In this world of suffering,
I wish to dance only onceThe dance of light and delight.
I know it can only be doneBy the infinite grace
Of Your affection-light. ```Shunya tumi maha shunya
Purna tomar antareDibya tomar mukta dyuti
Sabar prane santareNikhil dhara tomar gara
Srishti tumi loyJay-parajay timir bhati
Tumi abhoy bhoy```
```O emptiness, vast emptiness,
Inside you is the satisfaction of completeness.Your boundlessly free liberation-light
Flows inside the heart-river of all aspiring souls.In you is the dissolution of creation.
In you is the insecurity-heart of earth-existence.In you is the confidence-perfection of Heaven-reality.
```Ami nai keha nai nai narayan
Maha shunya bakki ek labhechi saranAlik dharar maya nai hetha nai
Susuptir prane raje jagritir thai```
```I exist not, you exist not.
Nobody exists save and except the Inner Pilot.Today a great emptiness
Has offered its heartTo shelter my inner life and my outer life.
The attachment-night of the unreal worldNo more in me I see.
In my age-long sleepToday I feel the presence of the all-illumining Eye.
```Sukhi sei chira sukhi
Je tomare base bhaloPrane tar priyatam
Nahi rakho kabhu kaloSe tomai puje sada
Ogo pita sabakarPuta tar hiya majhe
Raje taba jaya bar```
```He alone is happy who loves You only.
In his heart, O Beloved Supreme,You do not keep ignorance-night.
He worships You at every moment,O Eternal Father of the human race.
In his heart of sanctity and purityYou place Your garland of Victory.
```Bhabi jakhan tomai jani
Janar amar kichui baki naiPrane amar aghat hani
Balo hese ebar ami jaiMan diye tui karbi more joy
Nahi mile bhakti binaDibya parichoy
``````
When I think that I have known You completely,And I have nothing more to know,
Alas, You strike me, my proud vital,And with a smile You tell me,
“Let Me go, let Me go.You want to conquer Me with your mind.
You can never do that.You can conquer Me only with your devotion-light.
You can know Me, what I truly am,Only with your devotion-light.”
```Akash amai dake nirabadhi
Batas dakiche oiBhalobese toma karai tader
Priyatama tumi koiTumi jare chao se tomare kabhu
Chahibena jeno priyaJiban ante shesh nati mor
Kripa kare tumi niyo```
```The sky calls me all the time.
The wind calls me all the time.I love You; therefore, I neglect them.
Because of my neglect, I have lost them.O Beloved Supreme, where are You?
I tell You, he whom You consider Your best instrumentIs not Your best instrument.
I am Your best instrument.May Your Compassion-flood
Fulfil my promise. ```E jiban khani tomare sampite
Bahubar ami cheyechiPaini tomar darashan priya
Byatha duksaha barechi```
```Many a time I have tried
To offer my life to You.Alas, I have failed to do so;
Therefore, excruciating pangsAre torturing my heart.
All in vain I try to please You,To surrender my existence to You,
To You alone. ```Abhinaba tomar mago
Dibya jiban khelaBaran karuk phullaprane
Amar jiban bhela```
```Beauty unparalleled
Is Your cosmic Game,O Mother Divine.
How I wish my life to accept it.How I wish my life-boat
To accept Your Life Divine,Your cosmic Game,
And how I wish it to sailIn the sea of Your Eternity’s cosmic Game.
```Sab chao mor shesh karogo
Shesh karoKhudra prane gyan diye mor
Hath dharo```
```O put an end to all my desires,
Put an end to all my desires.This little heart of mine
Make wide.O hold my hands
And make me vast and infinite. ```Ogo amar maner baner nil pakhi
Nayan mudi nitya tomar rup ankiSimar majhe drishti tomar
Asim lagi kandeSpriha tomar swarga martye
Alor setu bandheJatra sheshe pabo tomar
Purna parichoySedin habe tomar amar
Apurba bijoy```
```O blue bird of my mind-forest,
I close my eyes and draw your beauty.Inside the finite
Your vision cries for the Infinite.Your aspiration builds a bridge
Between earth and Heaven.At the end of my life’s journey
I shall know who you truly areAnd at that time
Your victory and my victory,Our joint victory,
Will have no parallel. ```Kena bhase mor e khina parane
Akash kusum kalpanaJadi nahi chao gabhir akuti
Karite tomar ar cha naHriday gabhire shanti na pai
Ashanta ami durbalRangin swapan ogo priyatama
Karibe ki more ujjal```
```I do not know why in this weak heart of mine
Lofty imaginations fly.Although I do not have immense aspiration
To worship You,I want to be real.
I wish to haveIn the depth of my heart
Boundless peace and love.Now I am restless and weak.
Will Your golden Dream, O Lord,Illumine me and make me immortal?
```Khulo amar hriday duar khulo
Chapal shishur sakal truti bhuloTomar asim khamar majhe
Mor paraner bayu rajeTumi bina jiban andhakar
Tumiy mago jyoti parabarBhul kare o bhulte nahi
Paro amar praneKripar bhore bhangicho mor
Sakal abhimane```
```Open my heart’s door,
O open my heart’s door.Forget this restless child of Yours
Has made many mistakes.Forgive all his mistakes.
Inside Your infinite CompassionAbides my life-breath.
Without You, my life is all darkness.You are the ocean of Light.
I know, even by mistake,You will not be able to forget me.
Through Your Compassion-LightYou are breaking and transforming
My ignorance-eye. ```Janale mor man gabhire
Mehat tumi khudraSabar prabhu tumiy priya
Tumi amar shudraHasi bipad eki sure tomar prane baje
Bripariter sakal lila nritye taba raje```
```You have made me discover
In the depth of my heartThat You are at once great and small,
You are at once the finite and the Infinite.You are everybody’s Lord
And, at the same time, everybody’s slave.Smiles and sorrows in one tune
Are being played inside Your Heart.The game of opposites always I notice in You.
The opposites always dance in You. ```Hasi mago naiba pelam
Peyechito dekhaOi anan pare madhu makha
Nitya jyoti rekhaKhudra paran jache hasi
Bishal paran mago tomar joyKon sudure mago tumi
Jachi tomar dibya parichoy```
```True, I have not seen You smiling,
But You have stood before me.That is more than enough.
I see light in Your FaceAlthough You do not smile.
My little life, insecure life,Wants Your Smile,
But my big heart wants only Your Victory.Not what I want, but what You want of me.
Where are You?Where are You?
I wish to know You totally, intimately, inseparably. ```Asim tomar sima karagare
Akhil manab ruddhaJanao ebar swarup moder
Mora je chilam buddha```
```O Infinite,
Inside Your finite prisonAll human beings abide.
Do once let us know who we are.We feel that once upon a time
We were all illumined souls.Do let us discover our true form.
```Naiba jani dibya bhasha
Naiba jani mor swarupTumi je mago karuna moyi
Tai rabena glani kurup```
```True, I do not know
The language divine.True, I do not know
My true self-form.But I know, Mother,
You are the Mother of Compassion;Therefore, ignorance-ugliness
Will not last in me for long.Your Light of Infinity
Will illumine me within and without. ```Kotha tumi bahudin
Moder hriday binNahi baje priya ar
Eso phire arbarTomar amar bani
Habena byartha janiEso phire eso phire
Taba tanu mandire```
```Where have you been for such a long time?
The violin of my heart does notProduce any tune.
O do come back once more.Your Message and my message
Will bear fruit.We shall not fail each other.
O my soul, come back, come back,To the temple of your body.
```Bishwa jaha dite pare
Tuchcha tuje atiSwarup shudhu jante chahi
Haye marthya pathi```
```What the world can give
Is absolutely meaningless,Is absolutely useless.
What I want from my lifeIs my self-form,
And for that I have to becomeA traveller, an eternal traveller,
Walking along the path of Eternity. ```Shunya bakke biraje purna
Simar bandhan jetha bichurnaShashwata sei mahanandamoy
Purna ghoshiche srashta bijoy```
```Inside emptiness
Fulness abides.And inside fulness
The bondage of the finiteIs totally smashed.
Once we are there,We hear the supreme Victory
Of the Absolute Supreme. ```Oi je heri tomar mago
Drishti manoramPhutao amar hriday kali
Agyanatar badha daliAmai karo tomar kabi
Tomar priyatam```
```O Mother,
Lo, I behold Your Face of Beauty.All my heart’s impurities have disappeared.
I am all purity now.I have crossed all hurdles of ignorance.
Now only make me Your seer-poetAnd Your beloved child.
```Diner alo dakena jare
Ratri kalo tarei chaiSatya jare deina dhara
Mithya shudhu tarei pai```
```Darkness-night invites him
Precisely because the light of dayDoes not need him,
Does not want him,Does not call him.
Falsehood invites him,Welcomes him,
Inundates him,For he is not needed
By the truth-light. ```Aghat haniya parane amar
Ja naile tumi karunamoyMithya bijoyi hate habe mor
Kiser chinta kiser bhoy ```You have struck me, my heart,
And then made me feelThat You are infinite Compassion.
I wanted to become a heroIn the world of falsehood;
Therefore, You have struck meAnd said to me,
“Be victorious.Only by conquering false thoughts, false ideas,
Will you become the victorIn the world of truth.”
```Asimer dake nayan meliche
Amar hriday bhashwarShashwata pran lila sathi mor
Nahi ami nashwar```
```I have listened to the call
Of the Infinite;Therefore, inside my heart
I see the knowledge-sun.I am no longer a mortal human being.
Inside me, I see the cosmic GameOf Eternity’s Life-Breath.
```Pritir bandhane khina e parane
Bandhite niyata chaoAnrite ami nachai chahite
Tai tumi chale jaoTumi chao mor dhalite parane
Dibya shanti dharaShudhu badha pao taba madhu dake
Hriday na dei sara```
```With Your Love-light
You want to bind me, bless me,My little heart, my feeble heart.
Alas, I do not want to give up my falsehood-life;Therefore, You go away.
You want to pour boundless Light and PeaceInto my heart.
You meet with only opposition from me,And get no response from my closed heart.
```Nai je keha mita amar
Bairi shudhu morKhulbe kabi priya amar
Ruddha hiyar dorSabar cheye adham ami
Khobh je tabu naiJachi shudhu tomar paye
Jiban sheshe thai```
```I have no friend, none.
All are my enemies,Here, there, everywhere.
O Lord, when will You open my heart’s doorWhich has been closed for aeons?
I know, I am inferior to everyone,Yet I do not grieve.
Only one thing I need:At the end of my journey’s close,
I want to be at Your Feet Divine. ```Jani ami jani
Ami amar sandhaniHethai habe sab kichu mor shekha
Simar majhe pabo tomar dekha```
```I know, I know,
It is I who have to discover myself.I am the eternal seeker of my own Reality.
Here on earth, I shall have to discover everything.Here in the finite, I have to see You,
O my Reality’s Form,O Infinity and Infinity’s immortal Life.
```Nirabata nirabata
Asimata asimataEbar amai nirab karo nirabata
Hok abasan khudra praner chapalata```
```Silence, silence.
O Infinity, O silence,You two are one, inseparable.
O Infinity, at last do grant meA life of silence.
Let the restlessness-life of my existence on earthBe transformed into a sea of silence,
Silence eternal. ```Khama tumi karbe more
Jani ami janiTaito prabhu tomar prane
Nitya aghat haniAndhar nishar agyanata
Amai base bhaloBaran kare nibe jani
Amar sakal kalo```
```I know You will forgive me,
I know You will forgive me;Therefore, O Lord,
Consciously or unconsciouslyI hurt You, I strike You.
Ignorance-night loves me, I know.Yet one day You will embrace me
And You will remove all darkness-night from meAnd make me free,
Make me beautiful,Make me immortal.
```Sathi amar bipal hriday
Nahi ami khudra jibChapal chatul prane amar
Nitya raje mukta shib```
```My companion now is a vast heart.
No longer am I a small, feeble creature.Even inside my childish and restless heart and life
I see the Liberation-flood of the transcendentalLord Shiva.
```Ami nai keha nai hai narayan
Maha shunya bakkhe ek labhechi sharanAlik dharar maya nai hetha nai
Susuptir prane raje jagritir thai```
```I exist not, you exist not.
Nobody exists save and exceptThe Inner Pilot.
Today a great emptinessHas offered its heart
To shelter my inner life and my outer life.The attachment-night of the unreal world
No more in me I see.In my age-long sleep today I feel
The presence of the all-illumining Eye. ```From:Sri Chinmoy,Pole-star promise-light, part 2, Agni Press, 1977
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