Kavya kusum chayan karibo
Jyotir kanan hateTaito chalechi akashe uriya
Dakhin bayur sroteSathe nai keha ar
Nahi dekhi kona parAbiram chali chalar birati nai
Dur hate dure megher aralePulake bhasiya jai
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I shall collect flower-poemsFrom the garden of Light;
Therefore, I am flying in the skyWith the southern wind.
I have no one with me.All alone, endlessly I am flying,
And I am all lost in the beauty of teeming clouds. ```Akasher pare akash rayeche
Batas bahena arAmi chaliyachi paraner tane
Anite kusum harTomar pujar thali
Ajo je rayeche khaliKabitar hare purna karite tai
Jibaner jato hasi o ashruBhule jena ami jai
``````
An endless series of skiesWhere there is no air.
An inner urge compels me to bring downA garland of poems
To worship You.The shrine is now all empty.
I wish to fill it;I wish to cover it with poems,
A garland of poems.I know that it is only this way
That I can forget my life’s sufferings and joysThat have to be forgotten.
```Dhara jadi tumi nahi dite chao
Ei dharanir bukeBritha kena ar kataiba din
Marmo piran dukheDhan man jash gyaner garima
Kamya kichui naiShudhu abhilash sri charane jena
Pai ekbar thai```
```If You do not want to be caught in this world,
Then why do I have to stay in excruciating pangs,And waste my time on earth?
I do not want name, fame, wealth, knowledge.No, no, I do not want anything.
I desire nothing.There is only one aspiration burning in my heart
And that is to be always at Your Feet. ```Mandire masjide sandhyadip
Jwalena ekhanKemane bishwas kari
Eisab bidhir likhanBishwa shrashta apan atmaje kare
Ashroy bihinPangu dinhin
``````
In the temple, in the mosque, there is no light.How can I believe that this is what God wants?
How can God allow His children to beHelpless, orphaned, lame and destitute?
I know not.It is beyond my imagination.
```Jahar mangal hasta ashish barshan
Kariteche sarbajana shireJogya jogya sama gyane
Tahar charan bandi bhaktir sisireSabinaye kari anunoy
Kon lila khelitecha ohe dayamoyManaber prane base eta dukha
SahitechaKon abhipraye
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I wish to bow down to HimWhose loving, compassionate Hands
Are blessing all and sundry.I wish to know from Him, to learn from Him
How and why He is suffering in and throughAll human beings,
Why so mercilessly He is suffering an endless pain.Is there any special reason?
I wish to hear from Him. ```Lakka lakka grihahin
Annahin tomare smarilePlabaner dhara sama
Tomar nayaneBahe naki dukha ashrunir
Tumi ki thakite paraSukhe dukhe niret pashan prai
Nirbichal sthir```
```Millions of people have no home,
Have no food.The flood has caused untold suffering.
A flood of tears I see within and without the world.O Lord, how can You remain unperturbed?
How can You act like an indifferent, senseless, ruthless stone? ```Juga juga dhari katobyatha sahi
Ei prana nadi khaniPashan girir bakka chiriya
Shunite tomar baniOgo parabar jana naki tumi
Kato akutite o charan chumiMilaye diyechi apanar chaya rup
Tabu je rayecha chup```
```Through aeons this life-river has been suffering
Excruciating pangs.This life-river wants only to hear Your message,
O Ocean.Do You not see, do You not feel
How sincerely I treasure the aspirationOnly to touch Your Feet and march into You
And embrace all-fulfilling silence-life? ```Amal dhabal charan kamal
Kemane pujibo balo aji baloKemane gahibo sumadhur sure
Tomar bijoy ganNai bhav bhasha
Chanda o talNai parijat marma maral
Ache shudhu hai katha balibarSutibra byakulata
``````
Pure, unalloyed Lotus-Feet of Yours,How can I wash You?
Do tell me today.How can I sing Your victory-song
With a sweet, melodious voice?I have no tune, no words,
No metre, no rhyme,No flowers, no heart’s want.
I have only a quenchless inner urge. ```Bhoi nai kichu bhoi nai ar
Abhoy peyechi katha balibarTaito sakal bandhan bhengeche
Paraner nirabataBalak balika jubak jubati
Shyamal banani harit bratatiEk sathe mile gahe bidhatar
Chira bijayer gan```
```No fear, no fear, no fear.
Today I am fearless.My heart’s silence has smashed asunder all bondage.
Today all children and green forests,Everything, everything that is new,
Has joined me to sing this victory-song of the Supreme. ```Shashwata ogo chira bhashwar
Pran kananer phulBarek herile manase tomai
Rahibena kona bhulGabhir nishar supti bakke
Hariye phelechi dibya rupDekha dao more ogo pran phul
Shanta hridaye rayechi chup```
```O eternal sun,
O flower of my heart,Once if I see You, then all my mistakes
Will be rectified and illumined.In the heart of deep night
I have lost my divine form.O my heart’s beauty,
I am always waiting in calm silence to hear from you. ```Hriday puja sanga halo
Bedan giti geyeKothai tumi nayan mani
Jiban tarir neyeDibya jiban jachi priya
Janma naba jachiSukha dukha dhewer majhe
Nitya jena nachi```
```The worship of the heart has come to an end
By singing the song of sorrow.O presiding deity of my eyes,
O my life’s Boatman,Where are You?
I need a life divine, a new life.I wish to dance on the waves of joys and sorrows.
This is my constant prayer. ```Jiban sandhya dekeche amai
Tai aji ami kandiNahi jena hai kena je amai
E dharar prane bandhiAshesh jatana peyeche hethai
Tabu kena micha ashaKane kane koy heribe sahasa
Marter bhalobasa```
```The evening of life has set in;
Therefore, I am weeping today.I do not know why I bind myself to this world.
Even now, endless sufferings I have gone through.Yet I treasure hope.
False hope even nowTells me in a whispering manner,
“You will very soon receive world-loveIn boundless measure.”
```Milaner banshi jachi ami mago
Nahe biyoger banshiEkatar majhe janani tomar
Heribo dibya hasiAshru jhariche pratiti jiber
E bhave mukti lagiBijoy tomar pratishtha lagi
Thaki jena sada jagi```
```Mother, today I am crying for the flute of union.
When I am away from You,My separation-life from You
I do not want any more.It is in unity that I shall see Your divine Smile.
Tears I am shedding bitter tearsFor the liberation of each individual soul on earth.
To establish Your Victory, Mother,May I remain always alert and awake.
```Hriday pakhi na jadi gahe gan
Keman kare tutbe abhimanAbhimaner tibra jala
Chitta amar daheMago tomar shanti sudha
Kon sudure rahe```
```If my heart-bird does not sing,
How can my sulking nature come to an end?I have been suffering for a long time
Because of my endless sulking.Mother, where is Your Peace?
Where is Your Delight?Are they in the farthest corner of the globe?
I need peace, I need nectar,From You, from You.
```Janani tomar heribona ar
Labani makhan rupTripti na pele antara tale
Rahibo satata chupTomar amar byabadhan nabhe
Bishader banshi bajeShashwata smriti bhule gechi hai
Tai bujhi mari laje```
```Mother Divine,
I do not want to see any more Your Lustre-Form.I shall remain in my own heart’s silence.
You have not given me satisfaction.First, I shall try to derive satisfaction in life
In my own way.Between You and me there is a flute
Playing notes of tenebrous sadness.I have forgotten my Eternity’s Self-form.
Perhaps for this I am sulking todayIn utter shame.
```Joy gane bidhatar
Kanthe duliche jarGyan o bibeka mala
Hiya tar shudhu ala```
```Singing the Victory-Song of the Lord Supreme
I am placing a garland around my neck.Knowledge and conscience-light
Will illumine my heart, my all-existence. ```Abhiman more niye jai dure
Spriha ane taba kacheChale jai jabe timir dainya
Hriday amar nache```
```O sulking nature of mine,
You have taken me far awayFrom my reality-life.
It is my aspiration that brings me again to my real life.When I go away with you, O sulking nature of mine,
All dark weaknesses dance before me the dance of victory. ```Bhuler anta nai je amar
Bhuler anta naiMithya dainya kuruper glani
Sabiy je ami chaiAsim kripai tabu tumi more
Nirabadhi basa bhaloHutashan jele antare mor
Tumiy ghuchabe kalo```
```There is no end to my mistakes,
No end to falsehood.Destitute in darkness and disgrace
I am totally lost.Yet Your boundless Compassion still loves me.
It burns the flame of aspirationAnd wants to illumine my agelong darkness.
```Hriday nabhe andhar jabe dhake
Paina khunje kripa sindhu makeGyana rabi prane jakhan phute
Timir bandhan nimeshe jai tute```
```When darkness sets in my heart’s sky
I see not Your Compassion-Ocean any more,No matter how hard I try to see it.
When the knowledge-sun breaks forth fromEternity’s bondage,
Darkness is smashed and illumined all at once. ```Hriday gabhire oi dake shuni
Madhumoy nirabataNahi rabe ar kutil manase
Samasya jatilotaAlo shishu ami alo parabare
Duliche amar bhelaJiban amar maha varidhir
Shata taranga khela```
```Yonder I hear in the depth of my heart
Your Nectar-Silence.There shall be no problems, no complications
In my life any more.From now on I shall be the child of light
In the ocean of lifeAnd there my little boat is sailing,
Sailing with enormous delight.My life is the game of hundreds of waves
In the great ocean of life. ```Antare mor phute nai shatadal
Tai bujhi ami ashthayi durbalBishwa chetana amar chetana
Bajibe jakhan ekai sureHriday gabhire heribo tomai
Rahibena kabhu janani dware```
```Inside my heart the lotus has not yet blossomed;
Therefore, I am restless, I am weak.When the universal Consciousness and my consciousness
Sing together and play one tune,I shall see You, You alone,
In the very depth of my heart,And You will no longer remain far beyond my ken.
```Ki diye tomare pujibo janani
Kon upachare pujiboJibaner shata miche abhimane
Kon jadubale nashiboAbhiman hane bhaktire more
Nahi kate tai paraner ghorBhasibar lagi bhakti sagare
Nai je amar taraniJani ami mago tumiy amar
Jiban lakya sarani```
```I do not know, Mother, how to worship You,
How to adore You.All false sulking, I do not know how to destroy.
I have no magic word to transform all my sulkingInto love divine for You;
Therefore, darkness of my heart never leaves me.I want to sail in the sea of devotion.
Alas I have no boat of my own.I know, I know, Mother,
You are my only road,You are my only goal.
```Gabhir asha prane amar
Ekti shudhu gabhir ashaMayer kache pabo ami
Bishwajayer bhalo basaMayer sena habo ami
Habo mayer drashta kabiRup sagare bhasbe jani
Amar hiyar gyana-rabi```
```There is only one hope,
One hope inside my heart.From You I shall get
The world-conquering Love.With Your Love and Affection
I shall become Your seer-poet.My knowledge-sun will blossom above the horizon
On the sea of Your translucent beauty, O Mother. ```Amare keha chahena jani
Sabare ami chaiTomar majhe pratiti jibe
Herite je ma pai```
```I know nobody wants me, nobody needs me.
Yet I want everyone.Yet I need everyone.
One desire I have, Lord:I wish to see each and every one in You
And love them as my own. ```Nil akasher alor tari
Hridaye mor bhaseKusum kalir mauna bhasha
Byatha amar nasheAmai jara dake mago
Ami tader dakiModer majhe tomai jena
Nitya mago rakhi```
```O boat of light in the blue sky,
I see you floating in my heart-river.I see the flowers that you are carrying.
The fragrance of these flowersHas destroyed all my sufferings.
Like you, I call those who call me,I see in you the bond of all-loving,
All-illumining and all-fulfilling unity. ```Dhyane magna kajer phanke phanke
Hiya amar dake tomari dakeKena tabu paina sara
Kon sudure tumiDhanya hate chai ma ami
Ratul charan chumi```
```My heart is all absorbed in selfless service,
And, while doing selfless service,From time to time it most sincerely longs for You,
Yet I see You not.I know not where You are, how far You are.
I wish to be fulfilled by being at Your Feet,Kissing Your Feet and claiming Your Feet
As my only salvation. ```Kato jatil chinta mane
aina samadhanTaito mago haina suru
Alor abhijanJiban amar gahan andhar ban
Bhul pathe jai nitya amar man```
```Endless problems are inside my mind
And I see no way to solve them;Therefore, my journey of light never starts.
My life is all darkness.My mind walks along a wrong path,
Along a wrong road. ```Mukti shudhu amar lagi
Chahina ami kabhuPrati jiber mukti lagi
Kande e pran prabhuSabare jadi dite na chaha
Ashesh taba dhanKeman kare tripta habe
Bishal mama nan ```I never want liberation for my own sake.
For everybody’s liberation my heart cries.If You do not want to give liberation to everyone,
Liberation, which is an endless gift,How can I be truly satisfied,
For am I not one with them?Am I not in them?
Am I not for them? ```Asimer dake nahi dei sara
Mor hridayer pakhiTai bujhi mago khule nahi dao
Dibya amar ankhi```
```The bird of my heart does not respond
To the call of the Infinite;Therefore, You do not open up my vision-eye,
I know, I know. ```Hriday dware rayecha daraye
Nahi khulo kena dwarAkuti bhakati nahi mago mor
O charane pujibarByatha diye more jani tumi dibe
Charan atmagyanPabo ami mago jatil maner
Samasya samadhan```
```You remain standing at my door,
Yet You do not open my heart’s door.Devotion I don’t want from You.
Aspiration I don’t want from You.I don’t want to worship You.
I feel that You will torture meAnd then give me my highest realisation.
I think this is the way You have decidedThat You will solve all my mental problems.
```Akarane taba prane kena sada hani
Nahi jani mago taha kabhu nahi janiPriyatam beshe more baso tumi bhalo
Tai bujhi niye mor sab kalo```
```I do not know why,
Without any rhyme or reason, I torture You.I know not why I do this.
You love me as Your dearest child.I know this is the only reason why You take away
All the darkness that I have andI treasure unconsciously.
```Ekti katha balo mago
Ebar amai ekti kathaKabe pabo tomar sneha
Shanti jyoti nirabataRanga paye na pele thai
Jiban habe dhudhu maruBarek dekha dile amai
Dibya jiban habe suru```
```Tell me, Mother, only one thing.
Tell me only one thing.When will I get Your Peace, Light and Silence?
When shall I get them in You?The day I see You.
If I do not get my salvation at Your Feet,My mind will become a wild, barren desert.
If You, Mother, stand before me only once,My life divine will immediately find its way
Toward Your Reality-height. ```Nil akasher alor pakhi
Eso amar chotra praneMukti lagi gabhir asha
Amai tane tomar paneTumi bina jiban amar
Gahan andhakarTomai pele habo ami
Jyoti parabar```
```O blue bird of the sky,
Do descend into my tiny heart.My heart is pining for you.
It wants to bring you close to its existence,For in you it feels the liberation-song.
Without you, my heart is all darkness,And with you, my life will be transformed
Into the ocean of Light. ```Shanta saral hate pari jakhan labhe gyan
Dure thake pira dayi bhranta apamanSaman bhebe man apaman
Chalte habe jiban patheThai pabo ma takhan ami
Taba bijoy rathe```
```When knowledge dawns I become sincere,
I become simple, I become pure.I cast aside all failure, all defeats,
All the things that drag me down.Success and failure, victory and defeat
I shall encounter while walking along Eternity’s road.But if I take them as one, not two,
Then You will offer me Your Victory’s chariot. ```Juktir majhe samasya raje
Bhaktite samadhanTaito biraje jukti urdhe
Mukta manab pranAndharer buke alo darashan
Bhakta paran paiJukti kebal murkha manabe
Bhul pathe niye jai```
```When I care for the reasoning mind,
I see there nothing but problems.And when I take shelter in devotion,
I see all my problems solved.Far above the questioning mind
Is the liberation of our earthly existence.Inside the heart of darkness
A real devotee sees the presence of lightAnd the smile of light.
A reasoning mind, what does it do?It just tells the human being
To swerve from the path of Truth. ```Kon sudure mago tumi
Se kon sudurePaina dekha gabhir rate
Dibas dupureDekha jadi na pai mago
Jachi tomar santanaShanta karo chapal prane
Laho amar bandana```
```Where are You, where are You?
Where is that farthest land?I see You not
Either in the morning or in the evening.No time.
If You do not want me to see You,At least offer me Your Consolation-Light.
Do transform my mind of restlessnessInto a serene sea of calmness.
And do accept my heart’s homage,Heart’s offering, heart’s adoration.
Even if You do not want to fulfil this desire of mine,Do accept what I have for You.
```Nil baridhir atal tale
Hariye jabo lilar chaleKeu pabena dekha amar
Shudhu ma tor madhur hashiJagabe mor bishal hiya
Khudra praner timir nashi```
```I shall enjoy the cosmic Game.
I shall lose myself inside the heartOf the blue ocean.
Nobody will be able to see me, nobody.Only one person, and that is You, Mother,
And Your Smile.Your Smile will awaken a boundless heart in me
By destroying all finite darkness in me. ```Chapal prane shanti jachi
Labhi shudhu byarthataKhina hriday sathi amar
Kon sudure purnataSimar majhe asim tomar
Na jadi pai dekhaCharam gyaner dibya hashi
Habena mor shekha```
```I long for peace and silence
In my restless vital and my mind.Alas, I meet with frustration and nothing else.
I have only a weak heart as my companion.My heart and I never hope to see
The fulfilment-dawn.O Infinite, inside the heart of the finite,
If I do not see YouI shall never learn the smile
Of highest wisdom-light. ```Ratri nai diba nai
Jhup jhup brishtiDekhite dekhite koi
Dibaser khudra parisareBhese gela srishti
Chhanna chhara griha haraManab santan shata shata
Kanditecha artaswareNirashroy nir hara bihanger mato
Nahi anna nahi bastraCharidik shudhu jalomoy
Apar baridhi bakke bhese asaJena khanda bangsha danda
Kariya ashroyAjio rayeche benche
Hatobhagya sarbanashaJara tahader rekeche banchaye
Kon marichika sei konKuhakini asha
``````
Day in, day out it is raining heavily,A deplorable sight.
Birds are helpless, human beings are helpless.Flood, a merciless flood has taken millions
Away to the other world.And those who are still alive
Are building their hopes in the world of nowhere. ```Tapane gheri jimut dole
Sunil ambareE shobha heri baridhi kule
Base balir pareLilamayer bishwa lila
Kare nirikkhanHiya amar tar mahima
Karechila smaranE hena kale badla rani
Namila dhire dhireChute gelam gharer pane
Chere sindhu tire```
```Teeming clouds are dancing around the sun in the sky.
Noticing this panorama on the sunset I was watching,I was deriving boundless joy.
My aspiration-heart was singing His Glory.Alas, all of a sudden, I know not how,
The queen of rain descended,And I returned home, to my sweet home,
Leaving aside the Golden Shore of life’s ocean. ```Tomar parane aghat haniya
Nitya e pran haseTabu je tomar bishal hriday
Mor prane bhalobaseNandan bane thai dibe more
Nahi habo kabu sarba haraAntare mor bhase nirbadhi
Taba karunar snigdha dhara```
```I strike Your Heart and thus I derive joy.
Yet Your magnanimous Heart does not leave me.In the Garden of Eden You will give me shelter.
I will never be all destitute.In my heart constantly flows
Your Compassion-River sweet. ```Phul haye mor
Phutibe sakal ashaJanibo jakhan
Samarpaner bhashaBasana anale
Jwalibena ar pranJachile shanti
Manas bhramyaman```
```All my hopes will be blossomed like flowers
When I learn the language of surrender.When I do not burn myself
In the fire of desire,And when peace is desired by my restless mind,
Then my life will grow intoThe flower of beauty divine.
```Rajanir buke snigdha prabhat alo
Manda gahane rayeche gopane bhaloMara tanu majhe amar atma hase
Kuruper prane aruper rup bhase```
```Inside the heart of night I see the dawn of light.
Inside the heart of the undivineIn secret looms large the life-light of the Divine.
Inside a mortal frame smiles the immortal soul.Inside the beauty unparalleled floats teeming ugliness.
```Puratan smriti mane mor jage
Bahu puratan smritiE dharar lagi atma tyajiya
Chahi nai kabhu pritiNahi jani hai dainya kemane
Hanila aghat shireBishal hriday jachi ami mago
Phirite shanti nire```
```Today my old reminiscences take shelter in my mind.
I have offered myself to please this world,Yet I have not asked for its love in return.
I do not know why I am in the poverty world today.I need world-appreciation.
O Mother of the Universe, I need a boundless heart.What for? To enter into the nest,
Illumining and fulfilling, of Yours. ```Ure amar chitta pakhi gagane
Gabhir rate pai dekhatar swapaneBishwa sathe jukta haye mukta
Pran pakhi mor rabena ar supta```
```The bird of my heart flies in the sky.
I see this bird of mine only in my dreams.This bird is united with the world.
Again, it is totally free.The bird of my heart, I know,
Will never go to sleep.It will remain awake for You,
Throughout Eternity. ```Bipul harashe nabin barashe
Jagiche moder pranBanglar pran ek hok aji
Subishal sumahanKhandita nahe janani banga
Antare raje bishwa pritiGupta danab bhrukuti moder
Parane jagai bhranta bhitiTamasi rajani haye jabe bhor
Udibe tapan purbachaleSonar bangla amar bangla
Jagibe abar amita baleNaba barasher hriday gabhire
Rayeche gopane mukti ashaChira adrita arjya rishir
Phire pabo mora mauna bhasha```
```With great joy in the New Year
Our hearts are awakening.Let the hearts of all the Bengalis
Become one, great and vast.Bengal is not two, Bengal is not divided;
In one Bengal, let the world-love abide.The torture of the undivine hostile forces
Creates false fear in the heart of Bengal.A tenebrous night will blossom into beauty’s day.
The sun of wisdom-light will dawn.O golden Bengal, O immortal Bengal,
Will once more see the light of the Infinite.In the heart of the new year
The liberation-hope will feed us,We shall once more receive the silence-language
Of ImmortalityFrom the Aryan sages of the hoary past.
```Saral parane gahibar ajo
Kato gan ache bakiAntar gane pujibo tomai
Nahi diye kabhu phankiBishwa bijayi ami hate pari
Tumi jadi hao tushtaAnrita srote nahi jena bhasi
Tomare karite rushta ```With a sincere heart
I have many more songs to sing.With my heart’s song I shall adore You
Without deceiving You any more.I can become the world-conqueror
If I ever satisfy You.May I not float anymore in the current of falsehood
To cause displeasure and anger in You. ```Sabai amai pagol dake
Ami ki ma pagol tabePagol ke noi tomar kache
Balo mago nikhil bhabeBoka ami pagol ami
Ami tomar koler shishuBishwajayi habo ami
Param gyani Buddha Jishu```
```Everybody calls me mad.
Am I really mad then?Tell me, Mother, is there anybody who is not mad
In Your eyes, in Your vast world?I am ready to be known as a foolish and mad fellow
As long as You will place me on Your LapAnd there I shall become another Christ
And another Buddha of Compassion-Illumination. ```Na jani hai kiser lagi
Rayechi ei bhabeAmar prane shoker chaya
Ar katokal rabeJogomaya mago amar
Kon sudure haiKeman kare phirbo mayer
Hridoy anginaiTibra aghat trishul dhari
Prane amar haniKon ajanai niye gela
Tomai nahi janiAmi tomar sonar jadu
Tomar ankhi maniJogomaya jogabale
Shunao tomar dhwani```
```I do not know why
I am still here on earth.Am I not suffering an excruciating pang
From the loss of my mother?O my mother, Yogamaya!
O my physical mother, where are you?I know not how I can return to you
Or how you can return to me.I know Lord Shiva has taken you away
Into the world of the Unknown.I was your dearest, I was your fondest child.
If you cannot come and appear before me,For me to see you with my physical eyes,
Then do open my inner eyeAnd make me see your ecstasy’s song and dance,
Which you do in the inner world. ```Swapane nehari atmaswarup
Basi tare ami bhaloKhaniker tare dure chale jai
Jiban andhar kaloJagarane hai phire ase mor
Andhiyar byatha praneNahi pari tai sampite amai
Bidhatar jaya gane```
```In my dream I see my real form,
My soul-form, and I love it.And I see in the twinkling of an eye
That all my sufferings,All my darknesses have disappeared.
Alas, when I wake upI see them all around me, inside me.
I become once again darkness andIgnorance incarnate;
Therefore, I never can offer my existenceTo the Lord Supreme
For His constant Victory here on earth,There in Heaven.
```From:Sri Chinmoy,Pole-star promise-light, part 4, Agni Press, 1977
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