Pole-Star Promise-Light, part 3

Uthe Jakhan Pub Gagane Savita

```

Takhan ami likhte basi kabita

Swarna jaba phulti jena hasichhe

Nami tomai bhakti bhare prabhate

Translation

```

I make friends with my poetry.

Right above the blue sea.

Is there anybody on earth, O Sun,

No, nobody.

I, too, want your smile

I want to bow to you

Basundhara Tomai Bhalobasi

```

Tomar tare kusum rashi rashi

Parab bale tomar kalo chule

Sajabo shune tomare taba dane

Translation

```

For you I have brought

That I have collected early in the morning.

Ah, you are smiling at me because you know

I am decorating you with your own gifts.

Din Chalechhe Khela Dhulai

```

Dakbo kabe prabhu tomai

Bidya nai buddhi nai

Jethai dekhe sethai ghrina kare

Translation

```

O Lord, I know not when I shall call You.

No knowledge have I, no intelligence have I;

Alas, they also do something more unthinkable:

My innocent ignorance.

Andhar Ghare Jwalchhe Ek

```

Chhota pradip shikha

Khudra ahamika

Kehai dekhe nai

Bale sabar thai

Translation

```

A small candle is burning.

What I have is only eyeless pride.

That nobody is as wise as it is

All in hyperbole.

Mayer Kachhe Jabo Mora

```

Mayer kachhe jabo

Mora shudhu gabo

Jabo mora sabai sethai

Joy giti tar gabo

Ure phuler kachhe

Thakbona ar pachhe

Kusum dibo ajke prate

Joy giti tar gabo

Translation

```

We shall go to the Mother.

Day in and day out

With a smiling face.

To collect the honey,

And be around Her for Her Compassion.

We shall offer Her flowers of devotion.

We shall all together sing Her Victory-Song.

Kulu Kulu Kulu Rabe

```

Maha sindhu pane jabe

Gati kabhu nahi bhule

Parashiya tumi jabe

Karuna tomari name

Translation

```

Murmuring.

It never swerves from the right path.

You will appear before it,

In the hill and the forest,

Your Compassion-Light reigns supreme.

Ajike Amar Hridaya Duar

```

Khule dao prabhu khule dao

Muchhe nao prabhu muchhe nao

Adhikari karo santane

Niyata tomar sandhane

Translation

```

All the ugliness, darkness and ignorance

Do remove from the depth of my heart.

But do make me worthy.

May I cry only for You.

Janam Mor Hoini Bale

```

Achal bale sabai kahe chalina kona kale

Rekhe amai deina keha jatana kare tule

Amai peye sakale hoi dukhe bharapur

Ek konite pariya thaki kathati nahi bali

Achal bale churiya phele rakhena keha tenke

Asiya juti punya phale kakhano sanj rate

Apamaner bojha amar apan kare nen

Tanhar hate sakal chala shesh kari amar

Translation

```

In the government mint,

Alas, if by mistake somebody gets me,

He waits for a golden opportunity

Nobody wants me, yet I move from one to another.

They throw me into one corner of the room

If only I was not a false coin.

When my fate changes for the better.

A religious, spiritual man.

To deceive the world with me, through me.

He just places me in one corner of the room

That were heaped upon me by others.

That my false journey’s false hope

Amar Hriday Hate He Managalamoy

```

Dur kare dao sab man lajja bhoy

Dur karo sab bhoy haite amar

Toma kachhe bali mata bhumi nata shire

Translation

```

Take away all shyness and fear from my heart.

Fear in every form, in every way

All my sufferings I place at Your Feet.

If not You, O Lord?

Do me this great favour:

Of darkness, ignorance and death.

Tomar Apriya Jaha Charan Aghate

```

Dur karo sei sab shubha e prabhate

Ashroy laibo ami praphulla anane

Tomar kamal pade dio ma sharan

Mile jai jena ami unmukta batase

Translation

```

Strike it hard, strike it today!

Like a lotus I wish to blossom

O Mother, allow me to place my existence

I shall be happy.

Into the realm of aspiration

In the sky of boundless reality.

Sukha Dukher Katoi Katha

```

Bahan kari buke

Apan mana sukhe

Raja bhikhari sab

Bibidha kalarab

Keha hasichhe sukhe

Keha rakichhe buke

Sukher bani ani

Birat bojha khani

Boner priti makha

Katoi anka banka

Jatna kare rakhe

Dada pherat dake

Jatna kare dithi

Rakhiye tar dithi

Tomra balo kham

Ghuri abiram

Khabar jai niye

Kato mulya diye

Translation

```

Some are sad, sorrowful, unhappy;

I fly in all directions

Some cry the moment they get me,

Some throw me, cast me aside;

I bring to the child his mother's affection-letter.

I bring letters of the sister's love and affection

And although he does not know how to read,

And his joy knows no bounds

He places the concentrative power on it

Finally he takes shelter in the elder brother's affection

Or the father sends an affectionate letter to the son

While observing me,

You call me only an envelope, but you should know

From one country to another.

Darkness I see not,

Sorrow I do not have for my own existence.

In their happiness, in their joy

How will it ever be possible for you

Andharer Buke Kendechhi

```

Asim jatana peyechhi

Shanti shanti shanti

Dur karo mor klanti

Aparup aji hasibe

```

Translation

```

I have suffered endlessly.

Where is peace? Where is peace?

When we dive deep within,

And that somebody is nobody else

Kata Kichu Chahi Kabhu Nahi Pai

```

Tabu ami cheye jai

Khunji mago mor thai

Nehari amai tumi pao klesh

Tomare tyajiya basanare je chai

Basanare nai khunje dashadishi

Shanti kothao nai

Tabu ami cheye jai

Translation

```

I get nothing,

There will be no end to them;

Forever I look for my own existence-reality

I know why all this happens.

Alas, I want You not,

You bring me nectar and call me.

Here, there, everywhere; within and without.

There is no peace of mind within me.

I still long for You,

Ogo Amar Man Gaganer Rabi

```

Dekhao tomar shaman jayi chabi

Tumi moder praner amar bani

Translation

```

Do appear before me with the form

We are victorious

Again, it is you who are the divine,

Of our life-breath that knows no halt.

Ogo Ananta Simar Bandhane

```

Rahibena ar rahibena

Ghor andhiyare rahibe abani

Gyana bhaskar rahibe je dure

Ogo ananta simar bandhane

```

Translation

```

Do not remain any more bound in the finite.

I know if you do not look for earth-liberation,

O Knowledge-Sun.

Only song of darkness

Duhsaha Byatha Kemane Sahibo Balo

```

Prabhu jetha jabe tumi niye more chalo

Dharanir upahas

Tomar hridaye tani

Kuruper halahal

Ogo chira akkhoy

Duhsaha byetha kemane sahibo balo

Translation

```

Unbearable sorrows, O Lord?

Take me with You.

The world laughs at me

Everything that the world

I draw You towards my heart.

And the poison of ugliness.

With my heart’s adoration-light.

Kothai Tumi Jabe Prabhu

```

Dekha tomar hiya amar nitya jani pabe

Laho amar bhakti dhara

Bindu ami he parabar

```

Translation

```

To whose distant world do You go?

May my heart be blessed to see You every day.

Accept my devotion-flood, devotion-flow.

I am the tiny drop.

Ebar Amar Shesh Aratir Dhup

Ebar amar shesh aratir dhup

Simar majhe asim prane pabo

Ei jibaner sakal kanna hasi

```

Translation

```

Of lasting adoration,

Inside the heart of the finite

I shall go to You, I shall go to You.

All my heart’s sorrow and joy.

In the garden of my heart.

Bhalobasa Ore Amar Praner Bhalobasa

Bhalobasa ore amar praner bhalobasa

Tori majhe pabe sabai amar parichoy

```

Translation

```

Inside you, new hope blossoms every day.

Will come to realise who I eternally am.

You have made me immortal.

Amai Tumi Dekhechho Ma (1)

Amai tumi dekechho ma

Andhar rate jariye dhare

Tabu tomai rakhi dure

Mukti dite amar prane

Pashan diye gara e pran

Tomar sakal sneha bibhav

```

Translation

```

You have called me.

You have loved me.

To give me liberation, how many times

A stone-heart is mine;

I keep You aside.

And I abide in the life of darkness-night.

Eso Eso Eso Mago Khama Ebar Karo

Eso eso eso mago khama ebar karo

Mahat tumi khudra ami taita tomai hani

Kintu mago adhir ami ar thekona dure

```

Translation

```

Do give me peace of mind, do embrace me.

And I am helpless and hopeless;

I know when the divine Hour strikes

Do come to me, do not remain afar.

Inside the city of my heart.

Kamana Diye Bendechhi More

```

Keman kare tomar sathe habe e pran jukta

Amar prane taito ami andhar buke lupta

Mago amar ek nimeshe bandhan karo churna

Translation

```

How can I be liberated?

Right now Your Victory I cannot ask for.

Therefore, I am always lost inside the heart of night.

Do fulfil me, make me complete.

It is You who can smash asunder the bondage,

Gan Geye Jai Dibanishi

```

Dashadishi

Charan rekha

Udar mahan

Kothai jabo

Hriday pure

Aji jago

Translation

```

For whom?

Who will make me see His Lotus-Feet.

Where have I to go to see Him?

All alone, beside my heart?

And show me Your Heart-Life of

Alor Pane Chai Jabe

```

Sneha tomar niye jai ma na jani kon phanke

Nithur haye tomar prane nitya jabe hani

Asim ami habo jani tumi je mor phul

Translation

```

How is it that darkness calls me?

I cry for one thing;

Mother, I cry for You

And when I become angry with You,

You remain silent.

My heart’s gratitude-flower.

I will grow into the sacred flower

Sabai Amai Dake Mago Sabar Kachhe Jai

```

Sabar prane khunji ami amar praner thai

Aji hate tomar ami tumi amar bishwa

Translation

```

Everybody calls me.

In every human heart.

I see not my true form,

I see they are all helpless;

From today I shall consider You,

And I shall not try to discover my world

Se Bhalobasar Nai Je Mrityu Kabhu

```

Jei bhalobasa dhalen parane prabhu

Manusher prane kebal mithya asha

Translation

```

From our Eternal Lord

Any other love

It is but false hope

Only the Love

Will everlastingly last.

Or in the near future,

Jukti Ogo Jukti

```

Tomar lagi ami

Ebar hau chup

Prabhur bijoy gao

Translation

```

Today I am praying for your liberation.

If you become silent,

And if you really live,

The Lord’s Victory-Song,

Shakti Ogo Ei Prithibir Shakti

```

Tomar cheye baro amar bhakti

Tahar majhe phute mayer jatna

Translation

```

My devotion is far superior to you.

You know, it is inside my devotion

Nahi Heri Unnati

```

Charidike abanati

Prane mor mago alor bahni jwalo

Ebar janani chai

E prane jagao madhu ananda sur

Translation

```

Regress I see all around.

I see darkness.

Inside my heart.

To place myself at Your Lotus-Feet.

And awaken inside me

Dhire Dhire Dekhi Mora Purnatar Rup

```

Samayer krore raje bhalo manda stup

Sathe kare sugopane asimer priti

Translation

```

We see the form of fulfilment.

Good and bad abide.

What eternally remains is reminiscence,

And it is always accompanied

Sadhan Samare Satyer Shudhu Joy

Sadhan samare satyer shudhu joy

Mithyar asha habe bichurna jani

Je peyechhe kabhu jananir barabhoy

```

Translation

```

Only truth will be victorious.

Can be revealed.

Delight will be the real message, only message,

He who has received

Becomes divine, immortal,

Amije Amar Srashta

```

Ami je amar drashta

Amar karma ghor agyanmoy

Hase nirabadhi dure rahe ullas

Translation

```

My work makes me, my work destroys me,

As I swerve from the path of truth;

Real delight always remains away from me.

Ashar Pradip Khani (1)

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Nibe kigo jai

Bidhatar mauna bani

Naba janma naba parichoy

Translation

```

Be extinguished in the end?

With the Lord’s silent Message

And have a new identity?

Tamasi Nishai Ankhi Dube Jai

Tamasi nishai ankhi dube jai

Ar nai asha bani

Chira jagrata jage abanati

Ananda uchcchash

Timir dainya jatanar manihar

Translation

```

My restless life suffers excruciating pangs.

It is all in vain

It is all in vain

To reach some height.

Again and again, I wish to become

How I wish to receive once more the sea of delight,

Jare Dekhi Se Je Amar

```

Ei kathati abasheshe

Mago madhur hasi hese

Translation

```

I wish to consider him mine.

From You I have learned

That we all are one inside.

And reality-existence.

Ar Noi He Janani Ebar Shanti Jachi

```

Tomar hriday kusum kanane anande jena nachi

E jiban maru pabe kigo hai tomar charane thai

Translation

```

Now I need the life of peace.

May I sing and dance with delight.

Nobody else is to be blamed.

See Your Feet for its shelter?

Satya Mor Dak Diyechhe

```

Chalechhi ami sakashe tar madhur hasi hese

Bishal mor pran gabhire sabare bendhi rakhi

Translation

```

Through falsehood-world

I am appearing before truth

Truth tells me:

I arrive at the right person.

With my freedom-light.”

Ekti Katha Balar Lagi

```

Bhaye lage tomar pane kabhu nahi chai

Hriday bane mukti giti kahar tumi gao

Translation

```

I often come to You.

Through fear and through shame,

Mother, is it I who want You

Tell me, for whom and in whose heart

Abar Amai Dakbe Tumi (1)

```

Ei asha ma nitya prane raje

Katai dibas marina je laje

Mukher bhranti bachalata

Jadio ami khudra ati khudra

Amar nachan nachbe prane Rudra

Translation

```

This hope dwells inside my heart;

I spend my days and my nights in silence.

You know the secret thoughts of my heart.

You will make me great,

You will make me divine.

With Your boundless Grace I shall

Lord Rudra will dance in me,

The dance of life-immortalising ecstasy.

Jedin Tomai Dakina Ma Sedin Ase Shanti

```

Shranti majhe bhese uthe agyanatar bhranti

Tahar dake sara diye byetha e pran pai

Smari jena nitya tomai prane amar jago

Translation

```

Only during the days I do not think of You,

In my tiredness, the mistakes of ignorance

Mother, I do not want,

But darkness wants me and needs me.

Boundless sorrow tortures my heart.

Do awaken my heart and make me feel

Hatashai Bhara E Jiban Mor

```

Ke parabe dehe asaktihin dhruba karmer saj

Purnata ar amarata taba mor shudhu abhilash

Translation

```

Is this life of mine.

Who will help me don the robe of detachment?

O Beautiful One,

Give me faith in boundless measure.

Can alone please me,

Sundar Ese Dekha Dibe More

```

Ei bharasai chale gelo hai sudirgha kato rat

Translation

```

You will come to me

This is the hope that I treasure.

Has come and gone by.

Waited for You, for You alone.

Hasi Amar Dekhte Giye

```

Bhalo amai karte giye haye gelam nashta

Shanta hate chahi jabe dake bachalata

Ei dharanir gehe bujhi raina keha sukhe

Translation

```

Alas, instead of seeing my happiness

I wanted to make myself good.

I see I have totally spoiled myself.

When I want to remain silent, alas,

Come and torture my earthly existence.

In problem-worlds?

And can be nobody who is happy

Dure Jadi Jete Chao Jao Tabe Dure

Dure jadi jete chao jao tabe dure

Phule phale sushovile taba asha taru

Taba abhilash mor hridayer hasi

```

Translation

```

Then You may do so;

In the city of my mind.

I am sure my life-desert, too,

My heart-smile lies in the fulfilment

I want not anything from You to satisfy me.

Amar Priya Tumi Prabhu

```

Tabu kena tomar paye nahi mora chumi

Ghor bipade bhaye mari taito tomai smari

Andhar pathe mrittyu ele dharo more dharo

Abodh mora tumi je ke kabhu nahi jani

Translation

```

You are dear to everybody else, too.

Kiss Your Feet, knowing perfectly well

This is but our lip service,

We do not take You

You know the poison of our mind,

When death wants to capture us,

Therefore, ignorant we are.

We offer You not our gratitude-heart.

Asha Amar Purna Halo

```

Churna halo sakal byetha

Hase jyoti nirabata

Bina dake akarane

Nitya bahe prane mane

Translation

```

All my sufferings have come to an end.

In my heart’s garden

I know not why and how.

Of Your unconditional Concern and

Kato Shata Bhabe Dako Tumi More

```

Tabu jai dure chale

Biraje praner tale

Joye bhabi parajoy

Mithya dainya khoy

Translation

```

Yet I go away from You.

Which tortures me all day and night.

I feel it is the beginning of my defeat.

I feel it is the beginning of something

I know this is the only reason why within and without me

Agyanatar Bojha Gurutor (1)

```

Jeno janina rahiyachhi ami nithur ama nishai

Translation

```

That the weight of ignorance-night is extremely heavy

Yet there is something in me

Of being constantly and ceaselessly tortured

Phanki Diye Cheyechhilam Karte

```

Prabhu tomar sneha dhara halo apabyay

Ghor timire nachi pran taranir majhi

Abar prabhu dio dekha ei dharanir buke

Dur karo aj moder praner klanti mithya bhoy

```

Translation

```

Lord, all Your Affection and Love

All human beings are blind.

We dance in darkness tenebrous.

Do come to me with new light

O Lord, do appear once more before me.

Through ever-new sorrows and delight.

Drive away all falsehood and fear from me.

By deceiving You.

Amar Swapan Tomai Diye Ebar

```

Satya katha balchhi mago ebar ami klanto

Ar katokal raibo mago swapan niye mane

```

Translation

```

And then become totally silent.

That I am completely exhausted.

And not a dream-world.

In my mind?

Inside the forest of my heart.