4. 'Pagla hoiya bane bane phiri'

After my mother passed away in 1944, for three or four months I studied in a school in Chittagong that was founded by one of my eldest brother’s friends.

Once they had a function, and there I recited this particular poem of Tagore’s.

I was eleven years old.

Still I like it.

It is a short poem.

The meaning is:

```

Like a madcap I roam,

as a deer looks for the fragrance.

The fragrance is inside the deer,

but the deer cannot find it.

Similarly, I am also searching for my own fragrance.

Whatever I ask for, it is all by mistake.

And whatever I get, I am never satisfied. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Rabindranath Tagore: the moon of Bengal’s Heart, Agni Press, 2011
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