Silence-blossoms have awakened my mind.
My tears and God's Smiles clasped I find. ```My orphan tears begin my day.
My princely smiles blaze the Way. ```I keep my heart's streaming tears
Sleeplessly alive,So that my Lord's beaming Smiles
In me can thrive. ```Energised by my self-improvement task,
In my Lord's Transcendent Sun-Flames I bask. ```Obedience longs to feed the Lord
Infinitely more.Self-deleted, fastest it runs, arrives
And touches the Shore. ```I shall climb up
My soul's dream-flooded staircase.Endless obstacles
Dauntless my heart shall face. ```Fastest runs to the Goal Supreme
My Lord's Love-Train.Singing and dancing, therein my breath —
No bondage-chain. ```Be not empty of light and joy,
My foolproof mind.Heavenward race you never win,
Always behind. ```His Face, my face, my Lord together saw,
And said, "Yours is perfect like Mine, no flaw." ```Ecstasy-flooded is the road of Love divine,
Divinity's oneness-fulness-sun-shrine. ```God is weeping for you;
Oh, do not cry.You are bound to succeed:
Just once more try. ```Each time I shake hands with hostile desires,
My God-oneness-visa-delight expires. ```Battered by teeming doubts
And blinding fears,I compel my Lord Supreme
To swim in tears. ```Break not your God-gratitude-promise-height;
Yours will be Infinity's Silence-Light. ```The starved desires that stormed my mind
Are now deceased, left far behind. ```Only in God's Orbit I choose to live,
And my mind-thorns, heart-fragrance I shall give. ```When God's God-deep Love-Light-Fragrance appears,
To the Golden Shore His dream-life-boat man steers. ```Oh, if I never fail my Lord,
Oh, if I never fail,His Heart will be eager to know
My life's every detail. ```Alas, like me, God also has bad days,
And more so when I doubtHis all Compassion-Eye, Forgiveness-Heart.
Totally insane I shout. ```God comes to me
Precisely in the form I need.Him I must feed
The way His Heart wants me to feed. ```God pressures my mind
Because of its stark unwillingness-flow.God treasures my heart
Because of its sleepless eagerness-glow. ```Silence I choose to play with my heart-flames.
Every single day my monkey-mind God tames. ```An immediate 'Yes!' to God's every Command,
O my hesitant mind, from you I demand. ```Heaven is so far from the human mind,
But the heart is extremely close.Heaven commands the mind to halt its journey,
And calls the heart its rose. ```With my gratitude heart-tears and smiles
My Lord I greet.My Lord gives me His All,
The moment I clasp His Feet. ```Delight is born of obedience-willingness;
Perfection born of sleepless, selfless oneness. ```My sunlit path, no fog, no cloud can hide.
My heart-flames enjoy God's sunrise-ride. ```My soul has silenced my stark confusion-mind;
Peace-bliss-blossoms within, without I find. ```Life is so brief, alas, life is so brief.
Why delay in catching ignorance-thief? ```Before I compose my God-worship-song,
My heart strikes His Compassion-Victory-Gong. ```Since God is God's Forgiveness-Breath,
I must declare my ego's death. ```Oh, permit not your ego-lion to roar,
If you desire your heart-bird to soar. ```I know what is great is splendid;
I feel what is good is candid.Far from God, my splendour-craving mind;
My heart-candour in God's own Breath I find. ```My doubting mind deserves an early death.
My self-giving heart implores God's Nectar-Breath. ```No earthly force can be a true remedy,
Only a oneness-heart ready and steady. ```My sweet Lord is lonely for my love.
I shall make Him my fondness-dove. ```My Lord Himself applauds
My aspiration-comeback.No more shall I run
On ignorance-studded track. ```Ever kind to me my Lord's Forgiveness:
His Justice is all blind to my weakness. ```Do not destroy
The sweet fragrance of hope.It will give you
The Heaven-climbing rope. ```Earth's hunger-cry
One soul can feed.Earth's progress-smile
One soul can speed. ```Mankind's freedom-peace-discovery —
Only when no God-faith-robbery. ```When our earth-necessities decrease,
Our real God-essentials increase. ```God-Satisfaction-Smile-Birds fly
Only when I have a silence-heart-sky. ```Doubt is afraid of silence-light.
Doubt surrenders to oneness-delight. ```Willingness and eagerness together run the fastest.
To God's Lotus-Feet these two are the nearest. ```When God says 'No', my desire-mind-dog cries and cries,
My aspiration-heart-bird high-higher-highest flies. ```No more shall I remain
A fallen victim to desire.Behold!
I now have broughtTo the fore my inner fire.
```No matter where I go,
My heart carries the rainbow-hopes.In despair-night-prison,
Mine is the mind that never gropes. ```Each time my Lord's Compassion-Eye I see,
A nectar-dream blossoms in our oneness-fulness-sea. ```Within, without, the doubting mind lies.
Below, above, the praying heart cries. ```Because I want to please my Lord in His own Way,
Surrender-gratitude-game my life must play. ```Freedom complete, perfect I love to choose.
To ignorance-night no more my life shall lose. ```Oh, where are you, my heart's fount-delight?
I live in my ruthless mind's destruction-night. ```My Lord, I need the Song
Of Your Compassion-EyeTo catch my jungle-misdeeds
And quickly nullify. ```In God's Heart-Garden I grow
With my obedience.In my heart-nest God glows
With His Confidence. ```No more am I in my tear-flooded shore.
I am in my heart's God-blossoming lore. ```My perfection rests not upon my skill.
It rests upon my Lord's Compassion-Will. ```He who never forgets his goal
Is indeed a Heaven-chosen soul. ```My Lord's Sun-Smile-Presence is near and dear
Only when my ego-sword I smash and tear. ```From:Sri Chinmoy,My Silence-Heart Blossoms, part 1, Agni Press, 1995
Sourced from https://srichinmoylibrary.com/shb_1