I was a willing slave to ignorance-night,
And now I am a messenger of Heaven's Delight. ```I am a volley of man-complaints, I am.
Yet my heart-door my Lord does not slam. ```The bitterness of my mind
I must erase.The oneness of my heart
Chase I must, chase. ```My mind is a ruthless heart-attacker.
My soul is a sleepless heart-poise-backer. ```O God's Thunder-Justice, my only hope
To stop me climbing temptation-rope. ```Ah, who am I?
A poor oneness-performer.Ah, who is God?
An indulgent Observer. ```I want my life to live
On God-hunger-cry.I want my breath to fly
In God-Fragrance-Sky. ```Mine is the soul
That loves to be an ignorance lighter.Mine is the heart
That loves to be an ignorance-fighter. ```Meditation, meditation, my meditation,
You are my soul-life's happiest vacation. ```My surrender is my Lord's
Deepest Love-Pride.My gratitude is my Lord's
Fastest Joy-Ride. ```Now that I am no longer stupid and blind,
My Lord, take me, my forest-density-mind. ```God's Compassion-Eye is my only Home.
My mind's wild life no more shall roam. ```When it is a matter of God,
I am consciously forgetful.When it is a matter of man,
I am helplessly frightful. ```The mind that tries and tries
God smilingly needs.The heart that cries and cries
God lovingly feeds. ```Alas, for my poor heart
There is no golden to-morrow.Alas, for God's poor Heart
There is nothing but helpless sorrow. ```I have resolved never to complain;
Therefore, no more my bondage chain. ```My complete God-surrender-song I have sung;
My ego-funeral-bell is already rung. ```With God no God-lover disputes;
With God they play their oneness-flutes. ```My Lord's Heart and Eye
Weep and weep and weep,Oh, when my life enjoys
Ignorance-sleep. ```My Lord, bless me to think of You, to think,
So that my earth-life does not fall and sink. ```Since to the end my sweet Lord's Tears
Care for me, care,Ignorance-blows I shall bravely
Ignore and dare. ```Heaven gives my heart-breath Heavenly instructions.
Earth gives my mind-life earthly distractions. ```I shall be there where God's Compassion is found.
Mine is the life-train my Lord's Forgiveness-bound. ```My heart of love God remembers
And not my doubting mind.My face of smile God remembers
And not my torturing blind. ```My instant peace is God's Silence-Delight.
My instant bliss is my heart-cry-flight. ```My discipline-life is not self-torture.
My discipline-life is my God-rapture. ```A truth-seeker is a God-thinker.
A God-thinker is a bliss-drinker. ```I shall not permit myself
To be abandoned by hope.Hope is my only strength,
My only God-climbing rope. ```A sleepless, breathless faith-follower
Can never be pleasure-wallower. ```No more self-confidence-crisis!
I am now a God-dependence-oasis. ```My faith-success-story I enjoy sleeplessly.
My surrender-progress-song I love breathlessly. ```Expect not!
You will win the God-Race.You and your eyes shall see God face to face.
```Humility, humility, humility!
My receptivity's multiplicity. ```My Lord is proud of my heart's delight
And not of my mind's highest flight. ```A mind of failure, a heart of success
No more can shackle me.My Lord's Compassion-Eye has made
My life utterly free. ```My success-life brings me nothing but pride;
My progress-life gives me a longer God-ride. ```My mind betrays my Lord
Time and again,Yet He desires my freedom
From bondage-chain. ```The path of doubt leads me
To blind nothingness;The path of faith
To constant God-oneness. ```God is making my life a sweet peace-song.
My gratitude-heart shall strike His Victory-Gong. ```Oh, I want not my mind's foolish fantasy!
I long only for my heart-ecstasy. ```My dream-awakened life,
You I breathlessly love.You are my heart's only
Sweet fondness-oneness-dove. ```Be heart-wise and not mind-clever:
Obedience-road never fails, never! ```O keep your mind mountain-high, holy;
Your life will be punctured by no folly. ```My heart-room is all made of hope.
No sad failure therein can grope. ```Oh, how can my life ever thrive
If my heart was not born to strive? ```O try and try and try, O try!
Your mind will be a freedom-sky. ```O doubting mind,
I tell you once and for allFast approaching
Your inevitable downfall! ```My God-dreaming heart
Is the voice of my soul.My God-pleasing soul
Leads my life to my Goal. ```The courage of my heart's God-conviction
Shall bless my life with God-perfection. ```To shatter ignorance-grip,
Cancel your pleasure-trip! ```My heart's aspiration-train,
Fear no obstruction-chain! ```Satisfaction is neither here nor there;
Madly we are hurrying towards nowhere. ```Oh, nothing can be marred by man;
Perfection-delight is all God's Plan. ```No one can change the world-no one!
All are needed for transformation-crown. ```God is speaking to my heart directly;
My gratitude-heart is blossoming devotedly. ```Smash not God's Heart any day
By devouring ignorance-clay. ```My soul and my Master are one, I know.
They enjoy deep pride in my wisdom-glow. ```Quickly empty your ignorance-mind-night.
God is arriving with His Ecstasy's Height. ```My mind was Eternity's darkest night;
My mind now Infinity's brightest Light. ```Victory to God's Compassion-Flood, victory!
Today begins my life's God-Smile-story. ```I love my Lord only:
This is not my mere pronouncement.Indeed, this is my life's
God-Satisfaction-Fulfilment. ```From:Sri Chinmoy,My Silence-Heart Blossoms, part 3, Agni Press, 1995
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