Silence speaks, part 1

1.

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All I need

Is my soulful heart-access.

All God wants

Is my fruitful life-progress. ```

2.

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My heart, O my sweet little heart,

Cry not for great comfort-pleasure,

Cry for duty's measureless delight.

Lo, you are now God's secret Treasure. ```

3.

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Alas, I have a body-bound soul-cry.

Therefore, my heart suffers a

mountain-pain.

My faith, half-strangled by its enemy:

doubt.

Long lost God's Vision-embraced

Oneness-Chain.

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4.

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I love my mind, but my love for my heart

And its purity is infinitely more.

My mind, my life-journey's confusion-mart.

My heart has reached its silence-flooded

shore.

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5.

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My Heaven's blue vision-life

Never enjoys division-pride.

My earth's green reality-heart

Never enjoys ignorance-ride. ```

6.

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No hope, no hope!

Each heart is stung by the destruction-doubt-bee.

No hope, no hope!

Each life is the failure-cry of a helplessness-sea. ```

7.

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I shall not fail, I shall not fail.

For me exists no dark frustration-jail.

I shall not fail, I shall not fail.

My heart is daily fed by God's Concern-Mail. ```

8.

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My beauty's soul was raised on Love.

My purity's soul was raised on Grace.

My freedom-life a runner great

In God's Vision-Reality-Race. ```

9.

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My heart loves the ancient message:

"Love all, all one, no big, no small."

My mind loves the modern message:

"Behold, I have far surpassed all." ```

10.

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I know I am always afraid of God,

Not because He is His Infinity's Power,

But because His Eye wants me to give

A new life to the long-deceased earth-flower. ```

11.

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Ignorance-snake has bitten me.

My life, a slavery of self-servitude.

I see nowhere, I feel nowhere

My soul's birthless, deathless certitude. ```

12.

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Untouched by temptation-fire

My silence-heart ocean-deep.

Dark-hued ignorance-giants

Are doomed to eternal sleep. ```

13.

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In the inner world my Lord Supreme

Has made my life-tree tall.

Sleepless I sing, breathless I dance

With the trance-bound oneness-all. ```

14.

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For God my mind desires to die.

For God my heart aspires to live.

For God my soul sleeplessly flies.

For God I take, for God I give. ```

15.

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I cannot imagine

Why my mind's thought-world is so impure.

I cannot imagine

Why my heart's feeling-world is

so insecure.

I cannot imagine

Why my soul's hunger-world is

still starving.

I cannot imagine

Why my Lord's Vision-World

is still hoping.

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16.

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My Lord, I have too much pressure-fire.

"My child, you enjoy too much pleasure-mire."

My Lord, my life has done so much for You.

"My child, why then am I not close to you?" ```

17.

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Are you watching your mad elephant-mind?

It wants completely to destroy

The beauty's world that your heart

sleeplessly loves.

Delay not, God's Grace-Eye employ.

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18.

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Something is definitely wrong

With me, I see today.

Long-disowned insecurity-game

I am dying to play. ```

19.

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My mind, my earth-bound mind,

Sleep no more in a tiny body-cage.

God's God-Hour has arrived.

Wake up and be the vastness-oneness-sage. ```

20.

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Hurry, my Lord Supreme!

How can You completely forget

Your Freedom-Promise to me?

Am I not still in a bondage-net? ```

21.

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O when I join the bright company of saints,

I feel I can become their crown.

O when I join the dark company of fools,

Impossible to be their greatest clown. ```

22.

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Soulfully and gloriously I have passed

Inspection on my life's assembly line.

My sacred secret you want to know:

Desire's hunger-breath I ruthlessly fine. ```

23.

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Nobody desires to draw

My heart's weak aspiration-face.

My Lord, tell me not why.

Just make me Your Perfection-Grace. ```

24.

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Do you secretly love and adore

Your life's ignorance-queen and king?

If so, how can the Lord Supreme

Inside your heart-garden ever sing? ```

25.

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Before I discovered my hunger-heart

Mine was the life of a long-lingering sigh.

Now I sleeplessly sing and sport and dance

And hoist my Pilot's Victory-Banner high. ```

26.

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No more my mind shall prepare

ignorance-feast.

No more ignorance-boat my heart shall sail.

Inside my new life's perfection-camera

My Lord's Delight-Smile-Film

will never fail. ```

27.

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Once more I see my heart's

Sunrise, once more.

My Lord's Compassion-Eye

My Haven-Shore. ```

28.

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I can separate my life

From my hunger-desire,

But never my Lord Supreme

From His Perfection-Fire. ```

29.

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My immediate aim is to become

A lamb of God Supreme.

My ultimate Goal is to touch, spread

His Oneness-Lion-Dream. ```

30.

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Alas, I barter not

With God's sleepless Affection-Light.

Yet He abandons not

My life-journey's perfection-flight. ```

31.

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My soul is breathlessly drawn

To my Lord's Vision-Delight.

My heart is tenderly drawn

To His Compassion-Height. ```

32.

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I shall safely go Home.

My inner storms have died away.

My heart is silence-smile.

I see the ignorance-shunned day. ```

33.

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My earth-life is no more

The same unhappy story's tears.

No phantom-thoughts I breathe.

Within, without, God's Victory-Cheers. ```

34.

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My mind, you are nothing

but a flood of talk.

In vain I protest, alas, in vain I protest.

But today my silence-soul has just arrived

To whisper: "You are under

permanent arrest." ```

35.

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A never-ending struggle

With a soulless unreality's stark frown

Can never be my life.

Mine is the life for God's supernal Crown. ```

36.

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My heart breathlessly loves

God the Creator.

My life sleeplessly serves God the creation.

Therefore, within, without, my body sees

No sombre death, no ruthless destruction.

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37.

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Alas, there was a nothingness-time

When my earthly breath was a long and heavy sigh.

But now it only sings and flies

In my Pilot's Satisfaction-Welkin high. ```

38.

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O when I pray and pray and pray,

My life becomes my Lord's

Partnership-Height.

And when in silence I meditate,

My life becomes His

Oneness-Fulness-Delight. ```

39.

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My heart's self-giving inner love,

My life's sky-climbing outer height,

My soul's God-spreading silence-peace,

Have covered the body of ignorance-night. ```

40.

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My Beloved Lord Supreme,

Because You are Your Vision's

descending Grace,

Do I not safely belong

To Your Perfection's Satisfaction-Race?

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41.

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My Lord, I love You only, not because

You are within, without, below, above,

But because Your Heart has made

my surrender-life

Your Eternity's sweetness and

fondness-dove. ```

42.

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The only song I wish to sing

Is my Lord's Vision-Grace.

The only dance I wish to dance

Is His Oneness-Embrace. ```

43.

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God has a very good memory.

He will keep His Promise, He will.

But where is your heart's climbing cry,

Where is your life's expanding thrill? ```

44.

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I always forget that God is an old Man.

Easily He can teach my mind.

I always forget that God is a little Child.

A playmate in me He will surely find. ```

45.

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I think I am a mistake made by God.

God knows I am His Perfection-Dream.

I think my God is not here, but elsewhere.

God knows I am His Oneness-Scheme. ```

46.

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My blue-red heart shall face ignorance-base,

My blue-red heart shall face.

My green-white life shall fly

in oneness-sky,

My green-white life shall fly.

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47.

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Only one line in God's entire Life-Book:

"Soulful is My seeker-child's heart-cry."

Only one line in the child's entire life-book:

"My Lord, perfect to be, I shall try." ```

48.

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My purity-heart is my blue-gold crown

That none can take away.

My oneness-life is my deathless smile

For God's God-Victory-Day. ```

49.

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O my heart-flower,

Close not your sweet, pure eyes.

O my life-fruit,

For all, your promise-skies. ```

50.

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Tearfully I pray, soulfully I pray

To drown my life's ignorance-stay.

Sleeplessly I pray, breathlessly I pray

To be God's earth-transforming ray. ```

51.

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No more, no more, I see no more

My eyeless journey's barren shore.

Flooded with my soul's vision-birth,

I drink deep freedom's silence-mirth. ```

52.

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I shall not blame the world,

I shall not blame.

I shall just increase my heart's

blue oneness-flame.

The world will never blame my life,

never.

We are ready to play God's

nectar-drinking Game. ```

53.

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Just close your huge thought-gate

To keep your mind-room clean.

Your earthly life will be the owner

Of a transformed fate. ```

54.

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O where is the soulful cry

That touches every heart?

O where is the powerful smile

That smashes death's death-dart? ```

55.

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The silver purity of my heart

Is God's Victory-Light.

The golden divinity of my soul

Is my self-transcendence-height. ```

56.

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My God-drinking faith forecasts

My long journey's delight.

My God-serving peace forecasts

The end of division-night. ```

57.

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I have been enjoying watching my mind's

Coiled confusion-cobra all along.

I know not when I shall be ready to sing

My heart's climbing aspiration-song. ```

58.

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Mine is the mind

That swims in the sea of energy-delight.

Mine is the body

That is ever doomed to lethargy-blight. ```

59.

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O do you know why

You are always spiritually ill?

Because you do not

Dare to outwit the stark desire-devil. ```

60.

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Now that I have declined

To recline upon my ego-pleasure-chair,

My Lord shall permit me

To rise above the mad elephant-world-fair. ```

61.

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My mind, do you know what I want?

I want an abrupt end to your stupidity.

My heart, do you know what I need?

I need for you my soul's deathless purity. ```

62.

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O I shall strive and strive

For my soul's winning stride.

I know I shall succeed,

For I am God's Compassion-Tide. ```

63.

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My mind demands and demands.

The Absolute reprimands.

My heart soulfully needs.

At once my Beloved feeds. ```

64.

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How can you please Heaven's Cashier

Without your oneness-life?

And how can you please earth's cashier

With your division-knife? ```

65.

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Wherever he goes, he creates

An atmosphere of Heaven's Delight.

His inner beauty's lustre

Shortens the breath of ignorance-night. ```

66.

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Seeker-friend, what you need

Is a security-scaffold.

Then the whole world will see

In you your divinity's gold. ```

67.

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Swiftly, bravely I passed

Through stark ignorance-fog.

And now I long to be

My Master's faithful dog. ```

68.

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My mind-tree was destroyed

By confusion-cannon.

My vital-tree was devoured

By frustration-dragon.

Yet God's Compassion-Eye

Waters my heart-plant green.

His great Perfection-Dream

In me shall ever be seen. ```

69.

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I shall celebrate

The ceremony of my God-choice.

The vast Witness-Light

I need is my Lord's Silence-Voice. ```

70.

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I daily think of my Lord Supreme.

Behold, my outer success-light.

I daily offer my action-fruits.

Behold, my higher progress-flight. ```

71.

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Ah, what I did before

Was to cater to self-indulgence.

Oh, what do I do now?

I now admire my soul's effulgence. ```

72.

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Now that my mind

Is not a stranger to purity,

I shall easily and perfectly be able

To see God's Face.

Now that my heart

Is not a stranger to aspiration,

I shall not be asked to remain away

From God's fond Embrace.

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73.

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My silver faith has just returned

From my mind's cruel exile.

Who can defile now my heart's cry,

Who can dare to defile? ```

74.

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O earth, I shall no more

Use your yesterday's bondage-rope.

O Heaven, my life is flooded

With your tomorrow's vision-hope. ```

75.

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My earth-bound life is touched today

By God's Liberation-Torch.

Nowhere my freedom-life shall see

The old world's passion-scorch. ```

76.

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Every day I commemorate

The lucid birth of hope.

Therefore, my life and I see not

The long depression-rope. ```

77.

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No more my stupid mind shall live

In a wasteland of fruitless desire.

To please my Lord like my crying heart

My life shall become a flaming spire. ```

78.

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How can you read

The transcript of the highest Truth

If your inner life

And outer life are not bridged by ruth? ```

79.

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Alas, my mind's

Daily friendship with doubt

Is now plagued by

Dauntless destruction-shout. ```

80.

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Your heart's aspiration-cry

How can you raise

If you always gorge yourself

On earthly praise? ```

81.

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The human mind lives on

The feast of hope's possibilities.

The heart divine lives on

The feast of God's Love-Necessities. ```

82.

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To be a spokesman for the Lord

My heart sleeplessly cries.

Who can tell me how far I am

From vast ecstasy-skies? ```

83.

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God's Fondness-Heart

Soulfully I shall become today.

Lo, I have stopped

My proud, self-styled darkness-play. ```

84.

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My little, brittle heart

For You, my Supreme Lord.

Save my death-captured life

With Your Oneness-Love-Cord. ```

85.

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My sleeping body has sprung to life.

No doubts have I, no fears.

Delight within, delight without -

My heart in gratitude-tears. ```

86.

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My insecurity-thief my soul has caught

With its confidence-light.

Now is the time for me to bravely reach

My forgotten Heaven-Height. ```

87.

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I came to You, my Lord Supreme,

In my silver silence-dream.

You came to me with all Your Grace,

Oneness-Fulness-Embrace. ```

88.

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O when your mind's doubt-thorns

Torture you ruthlessly,

Hide your heart's faith-flowers

At once plus breathlessly. ```

89.

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I read my eyes and not my palm.

I see within and not without.

I love my heart and not my mind.

Ignorance-seeds have failed to sprout. ```

90.

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What I sleeplessly need

Is a flaming, climbing hope

Before my heart is caught

By stark doubt's strangling rope. ```

91.

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Do not exploit your crying heart.

Do not forget your serving life.

Your beauty's heart, your duty's life

Shall smash the world's ignorance-knife. ```

92.

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An unfamiliar God-Mouth

Fascinates my mind.

My old familiar God-Heart

Ah, nowhere I find. ```

93.

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No more my heart shall cry,

No more my soul shall sigh, no more.

Today my Lord Supreme

Has touched my orphan hunger-core. ```

94.

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Receptivity soulfully receives

God the eternal Lover.

Spontaneity sleeplessly reveals

God the immortal Knower. ```

95.

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I shall fulfil, I shall fulfil

My Lord Supreme.

My heart shall be His sweet and fond

Sun-Oneness-Dream. ```

96.

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Never say no, never say no,

O never say,

When God's Compassion-Eye desires

Your heart to play. ```

97.

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O all day long

My heart and I desire to hear

Only God-Song;

No song of doubt, no song of fear. ```

98.

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My Lord Supreme,

You are my darkness-failure-night.

But I shall be

Your heart-vast Victory-Delight. ```

99.

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Be not afraid to strike your mind!

Be not afraid to feel your heart!

Be not afraid to watch your life!

Be not afraid to smash death-dart! ```

100.

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From morn to eve

I love to be the oneness-sky.

From eve to morn

I want no empty question "Why?" ```

101.

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The lessons taught by my eyes,

The lessons taught by my mind

Have the same magic power

To tempt my breath and bind. ```

102.

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Beneath my thought-debris

My eyes are seeing today

A flower of God's new Dawn

In His Heart's Love-Garden-Play. ```

103.

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To have a richly happy life

My restless mind I have confined.

To be a flawless God-lover

A oneness-life my heart has designed. ```

104.

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I have seen in my heart

My Supreme's Beauty-Light.

Therefore no more am I

My mind's abysmal night. ```

105.

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Your hungry vital-tiger knows no rest.

How can you dream of sunny days ahead?

Your mind, your life, have both disobeyed God;

Yet God grants you His Eye's Compassion-Bread. ```

106.

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The same sublime Perfection-Truth

Is told and retold:

God treasures my sleepless inner cry —

His Ecstasy-Gold. ```

107.

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My life's dedication-smile,

My heart's aspiration-cry,

The same dialect they speak

In oneness and fulness-sky. ```

108.

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O failure-world, O how can I

Ever disown your sinking breath?

With you, my friend, ever with you

My oneness-life, my oneness-death. ```

109.

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O doubtful venom-mind,

O joy-devouring foe,

My pure God-dreaming heart

Nowhere with you shall go. ```

110.

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My Lord Supreme has fed

My hungry heart-cries just today

With His Vision-Delight.

Ready to start our oneness-play. ```

111.

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How can anything of yours

Fail

If your heart's silence-smiles

Sail? ```

112.

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Depending on human beings

Is like depending on weak crutches.

Depending on God's Grace-Concern

Is like depending on Heaven-touches. ```

113.

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Can you not finish

The work that God has begun?

You will then know

Life is only a costly fun. ```

114.

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Tell me, where do you hide,

My heart's silence-delight?

Long lost am I in stark,

Soulless ignorance-night. ```

115.

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My prime suspect, my evil mind.

Its ruthless eye strangles my breath.

I sail my boat to a goalless shore.

Within, without, the dance of death. ```

116.

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Lo, lost and found-today

My old God-hunger lost,

My new God-meal now found

Completely free, no cost. ```

117.

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I shall not permit my ego-life

To outgrow my oneness-light.

My Lord ere long must see in me

His own Perfection-Height. ```

118.

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O one deep breath,

O one self-giving breath!

I am ready

To smash the pride of death! ```

119.

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My Lord, I have nothing but faith,

And faith is all I need.

It has shortened my longest trip.

Smiling, my faith You feed. ```

120.

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My heart knows how to beg.

My mind knows how to nag.

My vital knows how to brag.

My body knows how to lag. ```

121.

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My aspiration-cry

Is my heart's sound-might.

My meditation-smile

Is my soul's silence-height. ```

122.

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My heart of love shall go

Far, very far, today.

Nothing can dare to bar,

None can mar my God-way. ```

123.

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My fulness-soul will change my fate.

My oneness-heart will open God's Gate.

My foolishness-mind, never too late

To start and reach perfection-date! ```

124.

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My Lord, are You angry with me?

My Lord, are You withdrawing from me?

My Lord, if You leave me alone,

Who will fell my life's bondage-tree? ```

125.

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The heart's innocence

Eventually conquers

The mind's insolence,

The body's indolence. ```

126.

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Yesterday

He knew how to desire.

Today

He knows how to aspire.

Tomorrow

His doubt-friends he will fire. ```

127.

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Man's teeming plans

Confuse man terribly.

Man's action-life

Pleases God immediately. ```

128.

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Your mind is pining

For world-attention.

Your heart is longing

For God-Compassion.

Your life is nothing

But expectation. ```

129.

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Unless you are ready

To change your own earthly life,

How can you dare to brave

The world's ignorance-knife? ```

130.

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In the outer life nothing is easier

Than self-deception.

In the inner life nothing is mightier

Than self-perfection. ```

131.

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My lost aspiration-key

I now have found again.

This time I shall destroy

My earth-bound bondage-chain. ```

132.

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Think not of the mind's

Great success-height.

Feel only your heart's

Breathless delight. ```

133.

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My doubting mind,

Today I must teach you

How to believe.

My timid heart,

Today I must teach you

How to receive.

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134.

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Although suddenly

I am too old,

I still maintain

My heart of gold. ```

135.

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What is your soul's other name

If not God's Satisfaction-Game?

What is your mind's other name

If not a ceaseless hunger-fame? ```

136.

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What your mind has

Is a venom-doubt-lance.

What your heart has

Is a nectar-service-dance. ```

137.

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No more sufferings, no more,

Because my Lord's Compassion-Rays

Are blessing me today

With their ecstasy-days. ```

138.

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It is not required to pay

The frustration-toll

In order to reach

The fulfilment-goal. ```

139.

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Ah, yesterday my mind gave me

Its deaf ears.

Today my heart is giving me

Its blind tears. ```

140.

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Between my mind's

Inspiration

And my pure heart's

Aspiration

No shadow of

Separation. ```

141.

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God does not believe

In privacy.

God does not believe

In supremacy.

God believes only

In His Ecstasy. ```

142.

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Your Compassion-Eye,

Lord, gives, sleeplessly gives.

My aspiration-heart

Receives, breathlessly receives. ```

143.

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His mind

Is a complicated fool.

His heart

Is a sophisticated fool.

His life

Indeed, a frustrated fool. ```

144.

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My Lord Beloved Supreme,

Once more I need my inner strength

To see Your Beauty's Eye,

To feel Your Heart's measureless Length. ```

145.

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His life has made

A fatal choice:

It loves stark death's

Soulless death-voice. ```

146.

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Now that my life has become

A sky-blue heart-room,

I see nowhere the shadow

Of destruction-doom. ```

147.

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O you cannot be

A perfect God-lover

Unless you remove

Your own heart's huge cover. ```

148.

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If you care not to live up to

Your heart's purity-reputation,

Your life will never be granted

Your high soul's illumination. ```

149.

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A God-seeker must always fight

Against ignorance-night

To scale quickly and breathlessly

His soul's Everest-height. ```

150.

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I saw in him yesterday

Flame upon flame of aspiration.

Today I am seeing him

With his heart's grand renunciation. ```

151.

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My life on earth can never be

A multiple-choice examination.

It is only one sacred question:

Am I ready for God-realisation? ```

152.

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If you truly have a key

To the aspiration-door,

Then your life cannot be far

From the perfection-shore. ```

153.

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Heart-hunger unfed,

Heart's beauty,

Life's purity

Completely dead. ```

154.

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My life's examination

Without fail I shall pass

When my heart's perfection

Grows humility-grass. ```

155.

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Challenge your failure-life

Fearlessly.

Lo, your heart is growing

Beautifully. ```

156.

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I know each Heaven-Dream

Is a promise of fire-beauty

To completely destroy

The ignorance-night of impurity. ```

157.

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My Lord has hired

My happiness-heart.

No more friendship

With ignorance-dart. ```

158.

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How can satisfaction

Be ever at your disposal

When your own mind rejects

God's Perfection-Proposal? ```

159.

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Be brave within,

Without be brave.

If not, desire

Will dig your grave. ```

160.

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The rest of my life

Begins today.

My offering-game

My life shall play. ```

161.

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O blind

Nothingness-death,

Long lost

Your feeble breath. ```

162.

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Supreme,

Your Hand I hold.

Give me

A heart of gold. ```

163.

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My human body's clay

Enjoys God's Cosmic Play. ```

164.

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Purity-smiles are found

Perfect in silence-sound. ```

165.

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Slowly I came,

To see and be

One with the earth's

Self-giving flame. ```

166.

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Although you hurt me, Truth,

My heart shall love your voice.

In life and death, all-where

You will remain my only choice. ```

167.

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My Lord, my Lord,

I shall please You someday.

In You, for You

Alone my heart shall play. ```

168.

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I love my heart,

I love my soul.

In them my journey's

Blue-gold goal. ```

169.

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Far, very far,

From impurity's core,

Purity's sea

And perfection-shore. ```

170.

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At last, my soulful heart

Has reached today my goal.

God-Satisfaction smiles,

No more my sombre dole. ```

171.

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O swift-moving and powerful hand of fate,

When will you open my soul's golden gate? ```

172.

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Because you do not love

God's Compassion-Play,

I see ruthless death-frown

Devouring you today. ```

173.

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Heaven has disowned me

Because my mind is not pure.

Earth has disowned me

Because my life is not sure. ```

174.

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Your searching head is in Heaven,

Your aspiring heart on earth.

Therefore with you, in you I see

The beauty of a new creation's birth. ```

175.

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My life-clock ticks on

Faithfully.

Therefore I am loved by the higher worlds

Richly. ```

176.

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Each mortal dream

Awakens a deathless Reality.

Each fleeting day

Paves the road to Eternity. ```

177.

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What do I truly enjoy?

I enjoy the celebration

Of my Lord's birthless

And deathless Compassion. ```

178.

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My friend, since free access

To your Lord's Silence-Nest

You have not yet established,

No rest for you, no rest. ```

179.

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When will you stop

Watching your mind's boastful glories?

When will you start

Hearing your heart's soulful stories? ```

180.

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Do you not see that your

Aspiration-passport has long ago expired?

With whose clear permission

From life's battlefield have you retired? ```

181.

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How do I deserve the Supreme,

O how do I?

For He Himself has shown me

Our oneness-sky. ```

182.

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Surrender not

To your frustration-sigh.

Your life is meant

To fly and fly and fly. ```

From:Sri Chinmoy,Silence speaks, part 1, Agni Press, 1990
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