My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 9
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My Lord’s Correction-HandIs upon my life.
I must never
Draw back.
APR 834. These prayers were given in Kauai, Hawaii — 3 December 2001.↩
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My Lord asks meTo give equal value
To His Compassion-Eye
And His Correction-Rod
For my ultimate good.
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My Lord cradles my heartBetween the newness of the morning
And the stillness of dew.
4
My Lord,Out of Your infinite Compassion,
You are paving the way for me
To arrive at the highest destination.
Alas,
Why am I drawing back
In self-doubt?
Why?
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God can do thingsInfinitely more for us
If we can feel
That He is astonishingly nearer to us
Than we think.
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When I hungerFor God’s Love,
His Concern-Heart
Comes first.
His Compassion-Eye
Follows.
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Right from this very moment,No anxiety will be able to find
A nesting place
Inside my thoughts.
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If I do not love sleeplesslyMy Lord Beloved Supreme
Out of the fulness of my heart,
Then I shall fail,
I shall definitely fail.
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Every day I must makeMy morning meditation
Rich, very rich,
By obeying the Voice within.
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God tells me,“My child,
I am eager to make you
An exact prototype of Myself.
Are you ready?”
My Lord,
I am ready.
I am at Your express Command.
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My Lord,I am seriously angry with You.
I do not need Your Power.
“What else, My child?”
I do not need Your Love.
“What else, My child?”
I do not need Your Compassion.
“What else, My child?”
I do not need Your Attention.
“What else, My child?”
My Lord,
Truth to tell,
I do not need anything from You.
“My child,
Is your exceptionally powerful sermon over?” Yes, my Lord.
“My child,
My pithy Sermon begins.
Just because you do not need anything
From Me,
That does not mean
That I am not entitled
To have anything from you.
In no way you can prevent Me
From desiring things from you.
I need your affection.
I need your sweetness.
I need your fondness.”
My Lord,
As I do not need anything from You,
Even so, You have to be fully prepared
To live
All by Yourself.
“My child,
You are My Eternity’s Heart.
You are My Immortality’s Breath.
You want to play the role
Of your volcano-anger.
I want to play the role
Of My Forgiveness-Fountain.”
APR 844. These prayers were given in Kauai, Hawaii — 4 December 2001.↩
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“My child,Why are you so ungrateful?
Can you not see
That I have put My Arm around you?
Can you not see
That with My Vision-Eye-Wings
I am sheltering you?
Can you not see and feel
That you are the sole object
Of My very, very special Concern?
My Concern for you
Shall remain forever unparalleled.
My child,
If you continue to displease Me,
Then I shall compel you
To take human incarnations
Countless times.
Needless to say,
This will be My last resort.”
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My Lord,I am now so miserable.
I really do not know
What to say and what to do.
“My child,
Keep your confidence in Me.
You will never be disappointed.
Your life-boat shall ply
Between the success-shore
And the progress-shore.
I shall garland you
With My
Immortality’s Transcendental Pride.”
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SolitudePrepares me
Multitude
To feed.
15
My philosophyAnd God’s Philosophy
Are totally different.
God loves me.
Therefore He needs me.
I need God.
Therefore I love Him.
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In the spiritual life,The inner awakening
Safeguards again and again
Our outer life.
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The human in mePrays for God’s Love.
The divine in me
Prays for God’s Victory.
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My Lord,Please do not allow my desire-life
To draw me away from You
And scorch me
In the wildfire of the world.
APR 851. These prayers were given in Kauai, Hawaii — 5 December 2001.↩
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I must be the absolute masterOf my mind.
I must mould it and shape it
The way my Inner Pilot commands me.
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God asks me onlyTo keep my mind pure.
He will gladly
Do the rest.
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By this time I must realiseThat my own desire-life
Is the only culprit.
I must not blame anybody else
For my sufferings.
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The river of time is flowing on.It does not wait for anyone.
Swimming, we must cross the river.
Singing and dancing,
We must spend all the time
At the Destination.
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When attachment disappears,Detachment brings God to us
Immediately.
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My Lord, my Lord!Do save me
From the snares of self-interest.
Self-interest has caught me taut
In its grip.
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Living for the mindIs the spiritual death.
Living for the heart
Is the spiritual life.
Living for the soul
Is the spiritual Immortality.
Living for God
Is becoming a God-representative
Here on earth.
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By saying that the worldIs a bad place,
We are not making the world good.
To make the world good,
We must become good first.
How to become good?
Only by loving God the man
And serving man the God.
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To please GodIn His own Way,
I must become a giant personality
In spirituality.
I must become unique
In God-achievements
And a real asset to humanity.
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The seeker’s inner peaceIs the strongest power
In his outer life.
APR 861. These prayers were given in Kauai, Hawaii — 6 December 2001.↩
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The supreme victory is certainOnly when God’s Eye
Touches our hearts.
What is the supreme victory?
God-realisation for God’s Sake.
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An obedience-mindReceives
God’s proudest Smile.
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A disobedience-mindIs a seeker’s greatest failure
In his spiritual life.
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When I pray,The sound-life of the day
Joins me proudly.
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When I meditate,The silence-heart of the night
Joins me self-givingly.
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God’s Sadness is measurelessWhen He sees
My world-aloofness-mind.
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God sees inside my sweetness-heartThe blooms and the blossoms
Of His own countless divine Qualities.
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The unaspiring life livesIn the thickening clouds
Of the mind.
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The aspiring life livesIn the brightening sun
Of the heart.
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My happinessDoes not start
Until God’s Compassion-Eye
Arrives.
APR 871. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 10 December 2001.↩
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My Lord is alwaysAn eager Listener.
Can I not be the same,
At least once in a while?
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My Lord has His ownDaily challenges:
My mind-illumination
And my life-transformation.
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At last,After a very long time,
Today my sincere need of God
Has come back.
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During the dayI see my Lord Supreme
In the waves of my heart-sea.
At night
I see my Lord Supreme
In the silence of my soul-sky.
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God HimselfFinds the right path
For my crying and weeping heart.
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My heart and I are determinedTo spend Eternity
With my Lord’s Compassion-flooded Eye.
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God’s Forgiveness-HeartIs never
Pressed for time.
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My mind,Just for this very moment
Please try to please only God.
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Sooner or later,My heart shall hear
God’s Whispers.
Sooner or later,
My mind shall hear
God’s Commands.
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My Lord lovesTo wait and hope.
From now on
I shall do the same.
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My Lord wants me to show HimOnly what He wants to see:
My ignorance-pleasure-life.
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We can serve and worship GodAt any time we want to,
But during the day
Is the best time to serve God
And during the night
Is the best time to worship God.
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Perfection and satisfactionShall dawn
Only after we have known God
In all His Aspects.
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Alas,We are all satisfaction-seekers
And not aspiration-lovers.
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If I see myselfThe way my Lord sees me,
Then I am on the verge of
God-realisation.
If I see myself
The way others see me,
Then my God-realisation
Shall forever remain
A far cry.
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Every dayThe mind delivers
Destructive blows.
Every day
The heart delivers
God’s express Messages.
APR 887. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 11 December 2001.↩
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My prayer-lifeLoves to live
On bended knees.
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My body loves to walkTowards the goal.
My vital loves to march
Towards the goal.
My mind loves to jog
Towards the goal.
My heart loves to sprint
Towards the goal.
My soul loves to fly
Towards the goal.
My Lord tells me
That I do not have to walk,
I do not have to march,
I do not have to jog,
I do not have to sprint
And I do not have to fly
Towards the goal.
The goal will come to me
If I can become
A sea of silence-peace.
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A perfection-lifeIs very slow in blossoming,
But it does blossom
Eventually.
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Every morningMy Lord teaches me
How to breathe in
His Oneness-Fulness-Breath.
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I am heartsickAnd homesick
For my Lord’s
Compassion-flooded Eye.
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Every morningGod wants me to garland Him
With my devotion-heart-roses.
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Slowly the body dies.Quickly the soul flies.
Self-givingly the Lord feeds
Earth’s sighs and Heaven’s promises.
APR 894. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 12 December 2001.↩
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The power of silenceHas enriched my life
Far beyond the flights
Of my imagination.
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Sleeplessly and breathlesslyGod wants my God-devotion-flame
Burning.
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God tells meThat I must bring with me
My loving words and my smiling heart
When I come to visit Him.
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Alas,Why do I get frightened
When my soul wants me to have
A guided tour of Heaven?
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God most proudly treasuresThe devotion-fragrance
Of my aspiration-heart.
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The less possessionMy life has,
The more aspiration
My heart offers to God.
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God is always eagerTo lead us,
But will we ever be ready
To follow Him?
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O my mind,For such a long time
I have been with you.
Can you not now allow me
To be alone?
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God’s every VisitMy every breath
Treasures.
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What each human being hasIn common with God:
Tears and smiles.
APR 904. These prayers were given in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia — 13 December 2001.↩
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Alas,By constantly listening
To my desiring and doubting mind,
I have now become
My own unfortunate victim.
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To please our Lord Supreme,Equality is not enough.
We needs must have oneness.
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God’s Compassion-SmilesAnd my gratitude-tears
Are successful in merging.
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The things that God touchesEvery day in my life:
My sincerity-heart
And my simplicity-life.
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I speak to my shrine:Where is our Lord Supreme?
My shrine speaks to me:
“Our Lord Supreme
Is right here with me.
But where are you,
And where is your heart?
What are you both doing?”
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The mind lovesTo be the expectation.
The mind loves
To be the exception.
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The heart lovesTo be the aspiration.
The heart loves
To be the perfection.
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If we look at lifeFrom the divine angle,
We see God blooming
Here, there and allwhere.
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May I help You, my Lord?“Correction, My child.”
Yes, my Lord.
May I serve You, my Lord?
“Correction, My child.”
Yes, my Lord.
May You be my All, my Lord?
“Correction, My child.”
Yes, my Lord.
My Lord, You are my All.
“Correction, my child.”
Yes, my Lord.
My Lord, I am Your doll.
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The less I haveIn my mind-jungle,
The more I am
In my heart-garden.
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I have learnedSomething absolutely new today.
God has given my mind
An ultimatum:
The mind has to choose
Either God or ignorance.
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Start is here,Where my heart cries.
Finish is there,
Where my Lord smiles.
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The doubting mindDeserves life-imprisonment.
The aspiring heart
Needs heart-enlightenment.
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My heart is in betweenMy life’s sorrows
And
My soul’s consolations.
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When we do not aspire,Life remains an imperfect bloom.
When we aspire,
Life becomes the perfection-blossom.
Editor's note
Sri Chinmoy offered these prayers during his visit to Hawaii, Cambodia, Viet Nam and Malaysia from November 2001 to February 2002.