I am my life's God-hunger-heart, part 1

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1

I am
My life's
God-hunger-heart.

2

Mind
Is by nature bitter.
Heart
Is by nature sweet.

3

The unknowable God
May be honoured,
But the knowable God
Must be loved.

4

Just because my soul's love
For me is unimaginable,
My soul has the right
To chastise and punish me
For my life's
Perfection-dream-fulfilment.

5

A division-mind
Is not only to be doubted
But discarded.
A oneness-heart
Is not only to be loved
But treasured.

6

"Morning shows the day."
There is much truth in it.
A God-seeker
Must be an early bird
If he wants to proceed
In his inner life of aspiration
And if he wants to succeed
In his outer life of dedication.

7

Expectation does not want
To converse with frustration.
Frustration is always tempted
To converse with expectation -
And sometimes it succeeds.
I want my mind to be as wise
As my heart is.
Therefore, I command my mind
To keep out of
The expectation-frustration-
Conversation.

8

My seeker-friend,
Pray and meditate soulfully
Every day, without fail,
So that in this lifetime
You can realise God.
Even so,
God does not expect you
To be in a hurry.
At God's choice Hour,
You will definitely realise God.
Rest assured,
There is no deadline.

9

Do you believe in
The existence of your soul,
Who is the direct representative of God
In your life?
If so,
Then do try to make your soul happy.
How will you do that?
It is by cheerfully acting in obedience
To the orders of your own inner Pilot.

10

I came into the world to prove
That our soul's powers
Are next to God's only,
And no other power
Can ever dare to equal
The powers of the soul,
The God-representative on earth.

11

I came into the world
Sleeplessly to produce
God-Smiles.

12

My Beloved Lord Supreme,
I wish to become an eternal traveller
In distant galaxies.
Will You help me, my Lord?
"My child,
I shall help you.
I am asking your ageless
And deathless soul-bird
To do the needful."

13

My Lord Beloved Supreme,
Although I do not obey You,
Do You have any specific advice
For me today?
"My child, your conscious and deliberate
Refusal to comply
With My Compassion-Request
Will unmistakably destroy
Your aspiration-hunger
And dedication-thirst."

14

My Lord Beloved Supreme,
I am completely lost
Between Your Justice-Light
And Your Indifference-Might.
Do forgive me.
Do give me the capacity to please You
In Your own Way.

15

My Lord Beloved Supreme,
I am not praying to You
To shorten my road.
I am praying to You
To strengthen my heart.
I am praying to You
To grant me liberation.
I am praying to You
To grant me Compassion.

16

My Lord Beloved Supreme,
I am not praying to You
To give me what You have
And what You are.
I am praying to You
To take what I have
And what I am.

17

My Lord Beloved Supreme,
I am not praying to You to bless me
With a larger than the largest home.
I am praying to You to bless me
With a oneness-heart-home
Where Your Infinity's Peace
And Immortality's Bliss
Together sing, together play
And together dance.

18

My Lord, I bow to You,
O God the Creator.
My Lord, I bow to You,
O God the creation.
My Lord, I bow to You,
O today's God the man.
My Lord, I bow to You,
O tomorrow's man the God.

19

If your love of God is not enough,
If your devotion to God is not enough,
If your surrender to God is not enough,
Then employ your gratitude-tears
To increase your love, devotion
And surrender.
Your gratitude-tears can and will be
Of immediate help.

20

Short is the forgiveness-supply
The world receives from my mind.
Abundant is the forgiveness-supply
The world receives from my heart.
Unlimited is the forgiveness-supply
The world receives from my soul.

21

Alas, I am totally lost
Between my mind's ego-volcano
And my heart's oneness-fountain.

22

As long as man
Just thinks of God,
No life will be a failure.

23

Alas,
The insecurity-guest
That I love so much
Is my real enemy.

24

I vehemently ignore
My decision-making mind.
I self-givingly implore the presence
Of my direction-giving soul.

25

Doubt is something we acquire
But do not require.
Fear is something we acquire
But do not require.
Impurity is something we acquire
But do not require.
Ignorance is something we acquire
But do not require.
Divinity is something
We not only require
But also acquire
Only on the strength
Of God's Willingness to give
And our willingness to receive.

26

Every day my compassion-flooded soul
Feeds my Heaven-climbing heart
And silences my cyclonic questions.

27

My soul knows
My mind's room number.
It comes to my mind-room
To be of help,
But my mind vehemently rejects
My soul's unconditional help.

My soul knows
My heart's room number.
It comes to my heart-room
To be of help.

My heart not only receives
Unconditional help
But also offers ceaseless
Gratitude-tears in return.

28

My sleepless faith-heart
Is my peerless
Confidence-life-builder.

29

My Lord,
I am ready to wait,
Wait for Your Eternity's
Compassion-flooded Call.
"My child, cry,
Cry only one more time
For My Arrival.
This time I will definitely come."

30

God was waiting,
God is waiting
And God will always wait
For my life's
Perfection-satisfaction-sunrise.

31

The mind's obedience-necessity
Has no limit.
The heart's compassion-capacity
Has no limit.

32

God tells me that because
I am a true God-lover,
He will never allow me
To go my own way.

33

God-obedience has to be
The strongest point in my life
If I want my heart to be hungry
For God's Compassion-Eye-Favours.

34

God wants me to have
A very special fondness
For my oneness-heart-sky
And not for my vastness-mind-desert.

35

God
Is God-Eternity's
Forgiveness-Sweetness.

36

The most sacred duty
Of a God-server
Is his desireless and sleepless
Self-offering.

37

I am supremely happy
Because my heart-master
Is always exceptionally kind to me.

38

The path of God-obedience
Is the only path
That I sleeplessly and breathlessly need.

39

Each pure thought
Embodies the beauty and sweetness
Of paradise.

40

When I become a soulful lover
Of God's Dream,
God becomes a fruitful Fulfiller
Of my reality.

41

What am I doing?
I am exploring my own
Aspiration-surrender-gratitude-selves.

42

May I grow in the silence
Of Eternity's Heart.
May I glow on Infinity's Face.

43

Start, start, start!
Delay not
Your God-dedication-day.

44

There is no difference between
My surrender-heart
And
My happiness-life.

45

Finally I have convicted
My doubting mind,
Which is not only usually
But constantly guilty.

46

My Lord of Compassion whispers,
But, alas,
I am always talking and talking
With my stupid mind.

47

When my heart makes
Innumerable mistakes,
My compassionate Lord Supreme
May leave my heart for a short time.
But like a traveller
Who covers some distance
And comes back,
My Lord Supreme also comes back
To my heart-home.

48

Is there any human being on earth
Who has never suffered
From expectation-headache?

49

Each soulful meditation
Has the capacity to show me
Where God is hiding.

50

My sweet Lord Supreme,
My mind is too old.
Do give me a new mind.

My sweet Lord Supreme,
My heart is too weak.
Do give me a strong heart.

My sweet Lord Supreme,
My life is too useless.
Do give me a useful life.

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