1 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I am all gratitude to You
For keeping Your Ear wide open
To my heart’s cries
And Your Eye wide open
To my soul’s smiles.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 April 1999, 8:23 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine.

1 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
To my greatest joy,
You are much closer to me
Than I thought.
You are doing much more for me
Than I ever expected.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 April 1999, 8:34 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 180 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

1 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I am my heart’s
Infancy-prayer.
You are Your Heart’s
Intimacy-sower
And intimacy-grower.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

1 April 1999, 8:50 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. twice with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lifts number eleven and twelve.

2 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Only a heart of true God-devotion
Can escape the snares of temptations,
Frustrations and destructions.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

2 April 1999, 8:19 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 150 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

2 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
A heart of true God-devotion
Is the fastest speed
In the world of aspiration
And in the world of dedication.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

2 April 1999, 8:31 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

2 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
A heart of true God-devotion
Is the pride-treasure of God.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

2 April 1999, 8:47 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. twice with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lifts number thirteen and fourteen.

3 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I have only one prayer:
Please use me
Only in Your own Way.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

3 April 1999, 7:54 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. three times with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lifts number fifteen, sixteen and seventeen.

5 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I must be committed,
Solely and sleeplessly,
Only to Your Compassion-Eye
And Forgiveness-Heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

5 April 1999, 5:34 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine.

5 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I must realise
That if I do not forgive
My enemies,
Then I shall lose You
As my Friend,
Specially as my only Friend.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

5 April 1999, 5:43 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

5 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My heart is all gratitude to You
For giving me the opportunity
To enjoy immensely
The nectar-delight
Of forgiveness-light.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

5 April 1999, 6:00 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. twice with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lifts number 18 and 19.

5 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I am offering
The smiles of my heart
To Your Eye unreservedly.

I am offering
The tears of my breath
To Your Heart unconditionally.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

5 April 1999, 6:23 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. fifty-two times with one arm. (25 right, 25 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

6 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Today my life and I
Are completely surrendering
To Your Will
So that our love for You
Can take infinitely deeper root
In our heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 April 1999, 9:07 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 150 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

6 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
To establish my inseparable oneness
With suffering humanity,
I must learn the art
Of being humble.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 April 1999, 9:19 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

6 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I know, I know,
Possession has no peace.
But oneness has peace,
And fulness founded upon oneness
Is bliss.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 April 1999, 9:32 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lift number twenty.

6 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You are so kind to me.
You are so compassionate to me.
Do allow the tears of my devotion-heart
To flow
Only towards Your Compassion-Sea.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

6 April 1999, 9:43 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. fifty-two times with one arm. (25 right, 25 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

7 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Smiling and smiling
You go before me.
Blessingfully and compassionately
You keep the path ready for me.
Yet my mind is so unmindful
And my heart is so ungrateful,
Alas, alas!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

7 April 1999, 3:26 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 150 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

7 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Please tell me, what actually happens
When I lose imagination?
“My child, when you lose imagination,
You become spiritually sick.”

My Supreme, what happens
When I lose inspiration?
“My child, your case becomes
Extremely critical.”

My Supreme, and when I lose
Aspiration?
“My child, you spiritually die.”

My Supreme, when I have imagination
In my spiritual life, what happens?
“My child, you become My joy.”

My Supreme, when I have inspiration,
What happens?
“My child, you become My pride.”

My Supreme, when I have aspiration,
What happens?
“My child, you become
An exact prototype
Of My Transcendental Dream
And My Universal Reality.”
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

7 April 1999, 3:30 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

7 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You are telling me not to be afraid
Of anything undivine.
You are also telling me to continue doing
Only things divine,
Sleeplessly and unconditionally.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

7 April 1999, 3:54 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lift number 21.

7 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I am placing my life’s progress-smiles
And my heart’s gratitude-tears
At Your Feet
Lovingly, prayerfully,
Soulfully and self-givingly.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

7 April 1999, 4:05 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. forty-two times with one arm. (20 right, 20 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

8 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
True, You do not respond
To each and every call of mine,
But You do respond
To my every tear-heart-call.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

8 April 1999, 8:03 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine.

8 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My heart’s newness
Inspires my life
To run fast, faster, fastest
Towards You.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

8 April 1999, 8:10 a.m. Before lifting 210 lbs. forty-nine times with one arm. (23 right, 24 left plus once each arm to greater extension)

8 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I do not want to find a way.
I want You to find me a way —
The Way —
To reach You and sit at Your Feet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

8 April 1999, 8:22 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. twice with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lifts number twenty-two and twenty-three.

9 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You are telling me
That You will leave an indelible mark
On my heart’s shrine
When I am eager to become
A constant self-giver to humanity.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

9 April 1999, 8:29 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine.

9 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When will You accept
The leadership of my life?

“My child, I shall accept
The leadership of your life
Only after you have established
Your devotional friendship
With Me and My Heart.”
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

9 April 1999, 8:41 a.m. Before lifting 220 lbs. fifty times with one arm. (24 right, 24 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

9 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You are telling me
That if I want to become
A joy-giver to humanity,
Then I must first become
A dreamer
Of Your Compassion-Eye
And Your Forgiveness-Feet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

9 April 1999, 8:54 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lift number twenty-four.

9 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My heart and I
Are missing You terribly!

“My child,
You and your heart will never miss Me,
Even for a fleeting second,
If you give Me your unconditionally
Self-giving breath.”
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

9 April 1999, 9:07 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 180 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

10 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Please bless me
With an ever-blossoming
Devotion-heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

10 April 1999, 7:57 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. New record.

10 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Please bless me
With an ever-growing
Surrender-life.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

10 April 1999, 8:10 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

10 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You love to examine
My aspiration-heart.
You love to examine
My dedication-life.
But You never, never care to examine
My qualification-mind!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

10 April 1999, 8:19 a.m. Before lifting 220 lbs. forty-two times with one arm. (21 right, 19 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

10 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You disarm me
With Your Heart’s untiring Love.
I disarm You
With my heart’s streaming tears.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

10 April 1999, 8:31 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lift number twenty-five.

12 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Today You have given my heart
A new name: joy,
And I am giving my life
A new name: gratitude.
I am placing my heart’s immensity-joy
And my life’s intensity-gratitude
At Your Compassion-flooded Feet.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

12 April 1999, 9:43 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine.

12 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I know, I know, I know,
If in the morning I offer You
A sincere prayer
And a deep meditation,
Then You will undoubtedly bless me
With a beautiful and fruitful day.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

12 April 1999, 9:55 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 140 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

12 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I am a constantly changing mind.
You are a sleeplessly unchanging
Heart.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

12 April 1999, 10:12 a.m. Before lifting 230 lbs. fifty-two times with one arm. (25 right, 25 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

12 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
May my faith
In my aspiration-heart,
In my dedication-life
And in Your Manifestation-Smile
Every day, every hour,
Every minute, every second
Increase.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

12 April 1999, 10:26 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lift number twenty-six.

13 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Thirty-five years ago
I came from India — the Old World —
To America — the New World.
Before I left,
I prayed to the soul of India
To bless me.
The soul of India compassionately
And tearfully
Fulfilled my desire.
On my arrival here in America,
I prayed to the heart of America
To embrace me.
The heart of America smilingly
And unreservedly embraced me.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

13 April 1999, 7:10 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. five times with both arms simultaneously.

13 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Thirty-five years ago
I stoically wanted
To change the world,
But now I am desperately trying
To change myself.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

13 April 1999, 7:25 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

13 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Thirty-five years ago
I thought that the world
Belonged to the strong,
Both inwardly and outwardly.
But now I see that the world
Belongs to the morally sick
And spiritually weak.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

13 April 1999, 7:37 a.m. Before lifting 230 lbs. forty-three times with one arm. (20 right, 21 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

13 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Thirty-five years ago
This world of ours
Was clear, pure and certain.
But now, alas, alas,
This world of ours
Is confused, blind and greedy.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

13 April 1999, 7:48 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lift number twenty-seven.

18 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Do give my devotion-heart
A handkerchief
To wipe Your Tears.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

[After the prayer:]

“The whole morning I had nothing but tears, tears for what is happening in Yugoslavia. God is so sad at what is happening there.”

18 April 1999, 6:19 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

18 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Who can console You,
If not Your own Eternity’s
Blue-gold Dreams?
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

18 April 1999, 6:29 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

18 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Who can console You,
If not Your smiling,
Singing, dancing
And perfection-dreaming
Children?
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

18 April 1999, 6:40 a.m. Before lifting 230 lbs. fifty-two times with one arm. (25 right, 25 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

18 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Who can inspire You
And encourage You,
If not my heart’s absolutely sincere
And pure promises?
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

18 April 1999, 6:47 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lift number thirty-two.

21 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Only the sacred dust-worship
Of Your Feet
I need, I need.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

21 April 1999, 7:15 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

21 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
What I need is more intensity
In my aspiring heart.
What I need is more immensity
In my God-searching mind.
What I need is more humility
In my God-serving life.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

21 April 1999, 7:25 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

21 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Your compassionate Heart
Responds immediately
Only to those who need You
Only, only, only.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

21 April 1999, 7:34 a.m. Before lifting 230 lbs. fifty-two times with one arm. (25 right, 25 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

21 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
How often I do things
And tell the world
That I am doing everything
For You,
When actually I am doing everything
For my own fulfilment!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

21 April 1999, 7:45 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. twice with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lifts number thirty-four and thirty-five.

22 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You have opened my heart-eye
So I can see and feel
How much You love me,
Care for me and need me —
And not so I can see
How many weaknesses I have
Or how insignificant I am.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

22 April 1999, 6:28 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine.

22 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Today do bless my mind
With a new inspiration-joy,
Do bless my heart
With a new aspiration-joy
And do bless my life
With a new dedication-joy.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

22 April 1999, 6:37 a.m. Before lifting 240 lbs. fifty-five times with one arm. (26 right, 27 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

22 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Mine are the self-giving dreams
To manifest You in Your own Way.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

22 April 1999, 6:51 a.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. twice with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lifts number thirty-six and thirty-seven.

25 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
No devotion,
No destination.
No destination,
No God-realisation.
No God-realisation,
No God-Satisfaction.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

25 April 1999, 8:24 p.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

25 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
You are telling me
That a seeker does not need
Strict spiritual disciplines.
He does not need austerities.
He does not need the highest
And deepest meditation.
What he needs to realise You
Is only pure, pure, pure devotion.
You are also telling me
That all are equal in Your Sight,
But those who have sincere
Devotion to You
Have a very, very special place
In Your Heart,
And their hearts
Are Your choicest homes.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

25 April 1999, 8:34 p.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 200 lbs. with each arm separately.

25 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Your Command is
My golden opportunity
To become all Yours
In the twinkling of an eye!
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

25 April 1999, 8:46 p.m. Before lifting 240 lbs. fifty-five times with one arm. (27 right, 26 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

25 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
O my stupidity-flooded mind,
Do not try to understand God.
You will never, never, never succeed.
Just try to love God.
Lo, you have already succeeded.
You have become
A truly choice instrument of God.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

25 April 1999, 8:59 p.m. Before lifting 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 400 lbs.) Lift number thirty-eight.

27 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My heart’s soulful smile
Is my God-satisfying
Sacred secret.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 April 1999, 7:21 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine.

27 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My heart’s streaming tears
Shorten
My God-Destination-distance.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 April 1999, 7:31 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 180 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

27 April 1999 (III)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
I need Your blessingful,
Infinite Grace
To change my inner life
Completely
And my outer life
Immediately.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 April 1999, 7:45 a.m. Before lifting 220 lbs. three times with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 440 lbs.) New record.

27 April 1999 (IV)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Your Forgiveness-Heart
And Your Compassion-Eye
Do not allow You to remember
How long You have been waiting for me.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 April 1999, 8:40 p.m. Before using seated double-arm machine up to 160 lbs. with both arms simultaneously.

27 April 1999 (V)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
When I breathe in,
Do allow me to breathe in
Gratitude-tears.
When I breathe out,
Do allow me to breathe out
Surrender-smiles.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 April 1999, 8:49 p.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 180 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 210 lbs. with each arm separately.

27 April 1999 (VI)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My prayerful and soulful determination
Has a special name given by You:
You call my determination
Your Heart-hero.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 April 1999, 9:01 p.m. Before lifting 250 lbs. fifty-two times with one arm. (25 right, 25 left plus once each arm to maximum extension)

27 April 1999 (VII)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
My faith-life
You have lovingly, compassionately
And unconditionally
Kept inside Your very Breath.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

27 April 1999, 9:12 p.m. Before lifting 230 lbs. three times with both arms simultaneously. (Total: 460 lbs.) New record.

29 April 1999

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Alas, alas, early in the morning
Why do I forget
To fold my hands devotedly?
Why do I forget
To bow to You prayerfully?
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

29 April 1999, 7:17 a.m. Before using seated double-arm machine.

29 April 1999 (II)

My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!
Do give me the capacity
To bind You inwardly,
Prayerfully, soulfully
And self-givingly
Only with my devotion
In my inner life of aspiration.
My Supreme, my Supreme, my Supreme!

29 April 1999, 7:25 a.m. Before using standing double-arm machine up to 200 lbs. with both arms simultaneously and 230 lbs. with each arm separately.

Editor's preface to the first edition

These morning prayers were offered by Sri Chinmoy during his weightlifting sessions at his home in New York in April 1999.