Sail my heartbeat sail, part 1
Introduction
This series of rhyming poems was commenced on Sunday, 14 June 1998 in New York. The first volume was completed in three days.It is Sri Chinmoy's ardent aspiration to offer 7,000 Sail my heartbeat sail poems to his Lord Beloved Supreme.
2. Choice hour
How can I not loveThe beauty of a flower!
How can I not rise
At my sweet Lord's choice Hour!
3. Rainbow-dream
To devour the Dust-Gold-FeetOf my Lord Supreme
Every morn my heart becomes
A rainbow-dream.
4. Perfection-dream
To be a chosen childOf my Lord Supreme,
My crying-smiling heart's
Perfection-dream.
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5. God-climbing fire
Once more I shall becomeMy heart's God-climbing fire.
My eyes shall see nowhere
The face and body of mire.
6. Impurity-insecurity
Sleeplessly I keep my mindFree from impurity-ties.
Breathlessly I keep my heart
Empty of insecurity-cries.
7. The right to choose
Oh, what I have and what I am,Am I ready to lose?
If so, my Lord Supreme tells me:
Him I have the right to choose.
8. My dream
Mine is a birthlessAnd deathless dream:
To breathe the Heart
Of my Lord Supreme.
9. Mind-tears versus heart-smiles
My newness-mind-tearsKeep me glowing.
My fulness-heart-smiles
Keep me sailing.
10. My gratitude-heart
The fragranceOf my God-gratitude-heart
Has smashed
My mind's ego-pride-dart.
11. Ecstasy's endless road
I see no more my earth-bound mind'sDespair-gloom-cave.
Ecstasy's endless road my life
Is ready to pave.
12. Negativity-mind
A ruthlessNegativity-mind
In every
Corner of my heart I find.
13. Silence
From the Silence UnknowableTo the Sound knowable I came
To play and sing and dance
With a tiny, fragile frame,
And build a rainbow-bridge
Between Heaven and earth
For my sweet Supreme to travel
And flood all-where His Birth.
15. Halt
Not my mind-cherishing life,But my heart-blossoming breath
I need, I love, I treasure
To halt the pride of death.
16. Emptiness
Empty of heaviness-darknessMy mind, my heart today;
Behold, my soul-ecstasy
And I together play!
17. My paintings
My paintingsTell me what they are.
Their message
I share near and far.
18. My poetry
My poetryTells me about its Heaven-Source.
Its sorrows
And joys — my journey's course.
19. My music
My musicTells me where to dive
And fly
To clasp ecstasy's drive.
20. My sports-life
My sports-lifeShows me the pride of speed;
Excellence,
Transcendence-together lead.
21. My tennis
My tennisTells me how to serve and love
And claim
To be my Lord's choicest dove.
22. My prayer
My prayerTells me Whom to beg only,
Deep within,
Wide without, sempiternally.
23. My meditation
My meditationIs compelled by God to be His Voice,
And only Him
To fulfil all-where His express Choice.
24. My aspiration
My aspirationTells me I can reach God's Eye,
And also God's Feet
In prayer-tears I can tie.
25. My dedication
My dedication,My God-manifestation-bloom
To reserve a seat
In God's hallowed Heart-Room.
26. My dear, sweet Lord
My dear Lord,How can I live
Without Your Life's Compassion-Eye?
My sweet Lord,
How can I breathe
Without Your Heart's Forgiveness-Sky?
27. Forward and backward3
I look forwardTo see my Lord's Face.
I look backward
To garner my disgrace.
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28. Soothsayers and truth-prayers
Indeed, this mystery-world of oursIs full of soothsayers;
Empty within, empty without —
Nowhere truth-prayers.
29. Smiles and miles
Each timeMy happiness-heart smiles,
My life
Enjoys expanding miles.
30. Liberation-shore
No relaxationUntil you have reached the Liberation-Shore.
No satisfaction
Until you have clasped the Supreme Lord's Heart-Door.
31. Fast forward
Your mind'sCeaseless, worthless worries fast forward
If you
Desire from God His Peace-Award.
32. Ignorance-life-tree
Certainly we knowGod loves the world through you and me.
We needs must fell
Our venomed ignorance-life-tree.
33. Detachment-songs
In the morning,My life and my heart together sing
Detachment-songs
From world-castigation.
In the evening,
My life and my heart together sing
Detachment-songs
From world-ovation.
34. Soul divine and life human
Every dayMy soul divine
Endlessly flies and flies and flies.
Every day
My life human
Pitifully cries and cries and cries.
35. Complains and contains
My mindComplains, complains, complains.
My heart
My Lord's Fondness contains.
36. What else?
What else is my desire-life,If not exasperating?
What else is my aspiration-heart,
If not exhilarating?
37. Two thirsty eyes
AwayMy Beloved flies.
Mine are
Two thirsty eyes.
38. His Nectar-Rays
In scanning the longest road,My orphan eyes pass their futile days.
Where is my Beloved sweet?
Oh, where are His Nectar-Rays?
39. The all-devouring night
My Beloved sweet, let my sightDissolve in Your
Self-Effulgence-Light
Before You depart.
Helpless shall cry
The all-devouring Night.
40. Mind-mart
My Beloved sweet,Your Love-Dagger has pierced my feeble heart
To raise my life
Far above mankind's wild confusion-mind-mart.
41. Until You claim me
My Beloved sweet,Until You claim me Your own,
My heart shall sob,
My breath and I shall moan.
42. My heart-nest
My Beloved sweet,Your cruel Absence gives me no rest;
Empty of love
My sleepless, tear-flooded heart-nest.
43. Indifference-absence
My Beloved sweet,In the indifference-absence
Of Your Compassion-Heart-Sky,
Do You desire
To know what I
And my heart do?
Ceaseless we pant, we sigh.
44. I have exiled
My Beloved sweet,Drunk in devotion-smiles-tears,
I have exiled
My brooding self-doubts and fears.
45. Your Dream-Boat
My Beloved sweet,Your Dream-Boat You want me to sail.
My promise august:
Succeed I must — and never fail!
46. Your abandoned child
My Beloved sweet,Why are You duty-free,
Careless, senseless and wild?
Tell me, who else if not me,
And me alone —
Your bewildered, abandoned child?
47. God's right-hand man
Every soulIs a God's right-hand man.
Every heart
Is a God's masterpiece-plan.
48. Torture me not
Yesterday,How do you dare
To torture me today?
Can you not see
I have joined
My Lord's Oneness-Heart-Play?
49. Easy solution
Focus not on the dire problem,But on the easy solution.
Live not on an empty promise,
But be a true man of action.
50. My Lord expects
My Lord expectsMy heart's devotion
To be fully empty
Of commotion.
51. My heart-intimacy
My Lord SupremeCares not for my life's supremacy.
Sleepless He desires
My surrender-heart-intimacy.
52. Intricate and intimate
My suspicion-mindMakes everything intricate.
My aspiration-heart
Makes everybody intimate.
53. A new way
Discover an utterlyNew way
To love your Beloved
Every day.
54 Who cares?
I am certain, O world,Where the Absolute Lord Supreme is.
But who cares,
If He gives me not an iota of peace!
55. Below, above
Within if I hadThe snow-white love,
God I could feel
Below, above.
56. Silence-seas
Do you not haveEven an iota of peace?
Did you look inside
Your heart's silence-seas?
57. Why am I?
My Lord, why am ISmitten with insecurity?
"My child, cast aside your
Jungle-mind-impurity."
58. My sincerity-mind
My sincerity-mind,Silent remain not.
This world of ours
Needs to be taught.
59. Invitation
My purity-heart,Inactive why you are?
Accept invitation
From everywhere, near and far.
60. Perfection-Hand
My Lord Supreme, Your SmileIs my salvation-land,
And You are Your Divinity's
World-Perfection-Hand.
61. Cry and sigh
My Lord Supreme, do tell meWhy I do not even try;
Why have I for good forgotten
Even to cry and sigh?
62. Compassion-Eye
My Lord, connect my heart-wingsTo Your Compassion-Eye-Light;
I shall fly and fly far beyond
The domain of ignorance-night.
63. An ageless child
Happiness is an ageless childIn my pure heart-garden.
Nowhere I see and feel
The world's heavy burden.
64. The Sunshine-Love
To limit God's infinite Love,An impossibility-task.
Therefore, in God's Sunshine-Love
My life and I ever bask.
65. Infinity expands
My soul-ImmortalityFlies and flies.
My life-Eternity
Cries and cries.
My heart-Infinity
Expands and expands.
My mind-stupidity
Everything disbands.
66. Popularity
Perfection-popularityWe needs must need
Our divinity's God-hunger
Perpetually to feed.
67. Fulfilment-Command
May my heart beMy Lord's Fulfilment-Command.
May my life be
With no expectation-demand.
68. Golden Shore
My Lord HimselfCloses my temptation-door
And shows me the sunlit path
To the Golden Shore.
69. God claimed
Before I knew,My mind God tamed.
Before I knew,
My heart God claimed.
70. Paradise
Paradise isWhere my sweet Lord is.
Paradise is
Where I bend my knees.