The Wings of Light, part 10
451. Tomorrow
Tomorrow I shall get upEarly in the morning,
Since today I am dead-tired.
Tomorrow I shall meditate on God,
Since today my impure vital, jealous mind
And insecure heart
Are bothering me far beyond my
tolerance-might.
Tomorrow I shall definitely love God,
Since today I feel a kind of inner obligation
To please my body, vital, mind and heart.
After all, they comprise my own poor little life.
But tomorrow without fail
I shall love God.
452. You have to prove
You have to proveThat you are sincere.
You have to prove
That you are pure.
You have to prove
That you are real.
How can you prove
That you are sincere?
Just see everything rightly,
Feel everything timely,
And say everything soulfully.
How can you prove
That you are pure?
Just feel that your inner purity’s beauty
And your soul’s immortal duty
Are inseparable friends.
How can you prove
That you are real?
Just tell yourself today, tomorrow and every day
That you are of God alone
And you are for God alone.
453. My journey
Alas,My Heavenward journey
Is quite challenging.
My hellward journey
Is quite frightening.
My journey towards the Perfection-shore
Is quite discouraging.
But
My journey towards my Inner Pilot
Has always been encouraging,
most encouraging
And
rewarding,
most rewarding.
454. Needless to repeat
In my familyThere are only three members:
My father, my mother and I.
Father thinks and says
He is great,
Which he actually is.
Mother feels and says
She is good,
Which she obviously is.
And I just know and declare
I am perfect,
Absolutely perfect.
Needless to repeat,
Since everyone knows it.
455. Four dinner invitations
I have received dinner invitationsFrom God and man,
From Heaven and earth.
Earth will feed me
With earth’s food: doubt and fear.
Heaven will feed me
With Heaven’s food: faith and courage.
Man will feed me
With man’s food: depression and frustration.
God will feed me
With God’s Food: Light and Delight.
Doubt and fear will not be able to feed me regularly;
Therefore I don’t need them.
Faith and courage may be a bit slow in feeding me,
But I shall gladly wait.
Depression and frustration will poison me
With their food.
No harm!
I know perfectly well
That I shall not remain always dead.
For I clearly see that God’s Food,
Light and Delight,
Is fast approaching my eternally real hunger.
456. They are going back
My Lord Supreme,You say that I have made
Tremendous improvements
In various areas of my life.
You say that I am losing
Fast, very fast,
My heart’s insect-insecurity,
My mind’s elephant-doubt,
My life’s uncertainty-dream.
I know You are telling me the Truth,
My Lord Supreme.
But tell me, where are they going
After they have left me?
“Ah, My child, they are going back
Slowly and quietly
To their source: Ignorance.”
457. When I wanted to marry God
When I wanted to marry GodFor His occult power,
He insulted me mercilessly
For my stark stupidity.
When I wanted to marry God
For His spiritual power,
He scolded me privately
For my absurd greed.
When I wanted to marry God
To empty my ignorance-night,
He said in public:
“I am more than eager
To marry you.”
458. A sea of smiles
Divine Lord Supreme,How is it that You have given me
Trouble after trouble,
An endless series of troubles?
“Child, since you think and feel
That I am the only and real culprit,
Then the best thing is
For you to offer them back to Me.
I shall gladly accept them.”
Divine Lord Supreme,
How is it that I smile and smile
And have become a sea of smiles?
Who made me so?
For God’s sake, You have to tell me the truth!
“Child, for God’s sake,
I am telling you the absolute truth.
Ah, don’t you know that your divine smiles
Are the great and unchallenged contributions
Of your devoted heart and surrendered life?”
459. It is so easy
Lord Supreme,You have given me
A smart mind, a sweet heart and
A kind-hearted soul.
How can I best use them
In my day-to-day life
And become a perfect instrument of Yours?
“Ah, it is so easy, My son.
Just ask your mind not to see
Ignorance in mankind,
Including yourself.
Just ask your heart to feel
That the hearts of others are unquestionably
As sweet as yours.
Just ask your kind-hearted soul
To show you the real Face
Of the real God.”
460. Three compliments
God has offered youNot one, but two compliments.
His first compliment is:
You are His chosen child.
His second compliment is:
Your cry is of Him,
Your smile is for Him.
Man’s first and only compliment
To you is this:
He can perfectly live his life without you.
He is more than self-sufficient.
461. Regain and rediscover
You inherited Heaven’s property:Conscious, constant and inseparable oneness
With the Supreme.
Alas, you have lost it.
You now inherit earth’s property:
Frustration in depression.
No curse, soon you will lose it, too.
You shall in the process of your fast-evolving fate
Inherit God’s property:
Perfection.
Once you achieve Perfection
You will not only regain
Your conscious oneness with the Supreme,
But also you will rediscover and unearth
Your long-buried constant and inseparable oneness
With the Supreme.
462. A great understatement
God, I just thought of You.Let us resume our old friendship.
Let us not quarrel,
Let us not fight.
After all, we are no longer kids.
After all, once upon a time
We were not only good, but best friends.
And in the hoary past
Not only did we love each other,
But also we made tremendous sacrifices for each other.
So, God, let us resume our old friendship,
Since I cannot brook any further delay.
I am sure Your sufferings, too,
Are unbearable.
“Daughter, I loved and still love
And will always love you
Infinitely more than you have ever loved Me.
Therefore, for you to say my sufferings are unbearable
Is a great understatement.”
463. Lord I need you more
Lord, I need You more than You need me.I love You more than You love me,
At least on the physical plane,
Or at least that is what my proud discovery is.
So Lord, don’t make a fool of Yourself
By cherishing unhealthy thoughts
That I do not care for You at all.
I do care for You, hundreds of times,
But what actually happens is this:
Sometimes my old friends,
Fear, doubt, insecurity and anxiety
Make me feel that they need me
More than I need You.
Therefore, my ever-sympathetic heart
Overflows to them with diamond-concern.
Alas, at that time I forget You,
I don’t love You and I even ignore You.
Lord, since I love You and need You
More than You love and need me,
I am bound to return to You
And to You alone, without fail.
464. I almost
I almost saw GodWhen I was three years old.
I almost talked to God
When I was seven years old.
I almost embraced God
When I was thirteen years old.
I almost became God
When I was thirty-three years old.
465. In my case
Everybody needs something.Therefore,
In my case I need
My old friend, the Himalayan cave.
Everybody needs someone.
Therefore,
In my case I need
God the dream-boat Sailor.
466. Lead and follow
Sometimes I want to lead,Sometimes I want to follow.
It entirely depends on
Whose company I am in.
If it is God, then I want to lead;
If it is man, then I want to follow.
Why?
Why?
While leading God,
If I go astray,
He will correct me and perfect me
And guide me to my destination.
While following man,
If he makes a deplorable mistake,
My pure and sympathetic heart
Will want to share half the penalty,
If not more.
467. What shall I do?
What shall I doFor the rest of my life?
I shall build and break,
And break and build.
I shall build my Lord’s Palace
In the depths of my heart.
I shall break my giant ego
Right in front of my Lord’s Palace.
I shall break the bridge
Between the Bondage-Queen
And the Ignorance-King.
I shall build the bridge
Between the compassion-sky
Of my Father Heaven
And the perfection-sea
Of my Mother Earth.
468. The difference
The difference betweenYour emptiness and your Infinity is this:
Your emptiness embodies,
Your Infinity expands.
The difference between
My emptiness and my Eternity is this:
My emptiness listens,
My Eternity talks.
The difference between
His emptiness and his Immortality is this:
His emptiness welcomes the universe,
His immortality serves the universe.
469. Temptation
Man tempts himWith his world of pleasure.
God tempts him
With His sea of Delight.
He tempts man by saying
That he will give man
His future realisation.
He tempts God by saying
That he will help
In His future manifestation.
470. The heart of forgiveness
The Hand of blessing:How far is it?
Very near.
The Eye of compassion:
Where is it?
It is in your self-giving.
The Heart of forgiveness:
What is it?
Perfect self-extension.
471. When I weep
Sometimes I wake to weep,Sometimes I weep to wake.
My heart loves me
When I weep to wake.
My life loves me
When I wake to weep.
And I love myself
When I weep, only weep.
472. Smile, my body!
Learn, my heart, learn!Lo, your Lord is teaching.
Unlearn, my mind, unlearn!
Lo, your Lord is commanding.
Cry, my vital, cry!
Lo, your Lord is crying
Because of your misdeeds.
Smile, my body, smile!
Lo, your Lord is smiling
Because you are sleeping no more.
473. The blossoming of my world
Lord, batter my heartTo see the face of detachment-light.
Lord, better my heart
To see the smile of oneness-might.
Lord, repair my dream-boat
To see the shore of beauty.
Lord, perfect my reality-sun
To see the blossoming of my world.
474. My teacher
My soul of light was determined.Therefore,
My heart of love dared.
My heart of love dared.
Therefore,
My life of duty did.
But I must tell the world
How I did all this.
I did it
Because
I had my teacher: God.
475. Where is it?
Heaven’s compassion:Where is it?
It is inside my morning eyes.
Earth’s patience:
Where is it?
It is inside my evening heart.
God’s Perfection:
Where is it?
It is inside my undying surrender.
476. I owe God, I owe man
Do I owe God?Yes, I do.
Do I owe man?
Yes, I do.
I owe God because
He has made me the compassion-root.
I owe man because
He has made me the aspiration-tree.
477. I behold
Quickly and thoughtlesslyAn angel ascends.
I behold her beauty’s wings.
Slowly, steadily, gracefully and soulfully
An angel descends.
I behold her beauty’s light,
Offering’s might and duty’s height,
And something more:
God’s Compassion.
478. They have the power
Our desire-cave has the powerTo encage God.
Our aspiration-palace has the power
To liberate God.
Our realisation-country has the power
To fulfil God.
Our perfection-universe has the power
To own God.
479. When Time came back
When Time was awayI played with man,
I danced with man,
I dined with man.
When Time came back
I remembered to think of God,
I remembered to invite God,
I remembered God’s Will.
Also, I remembered who I was:
God’s sole representative on earth.
480. Only a grain
Only a grain of faithCan perfectly house
God, the universal Light.
Only a grain of surrender
Can shake hands with
God, the universal Power.
Only a grain of perfection
Is enough for God
To admire His Capacity in Humanity.
481. When I am conscious
When I am consciousOf my vast and sublime inadequacy,
God feeds my soulful heart,
Heaven illumines my searching mind,
Earth fortifies my striving vital,
The devil leaves my wakeful body.
482. Why do you hide?
Lord, I seek and You hide.I seek because without You
My life-flames do not and cannot burn.
Now Lord, tell me,
Why do You hide?
“Daughter, I hide because
My hiding intensifies your seeking.
It gratifies your loving,
Glorifies your achievement
And immortalises your enlightenment.”
483. His life was indispensable
His birth was a dropIn the sea of time.
His death shall be a drop
In the sea of time.
Yet God felt and declared
That his life was indispensable,
For he thought of God, prayed to God,
Fought for God and fulfilled God
In the battlefield of life.
484. For his private use
I have only two handsWhich I have used
Millions of times
To give and receive
While I was doing business with God on earth.
I have only two eyes
Which I have used
Millions of times
To admire and be admired
While I was playing with God
In the garden of Paradise.
I have only one heart.
I never use it,
But I always keep it clean
So that if ever God comes in,
I can offer it to Him
For His private use.
485. I wrestled
I wrestled with GodTo make myself strong.
I wrestled with man
To make him strong.
I wrestled with Heaven
To capture its transcendental Beauty.
I wrestled with earth
To remind it of its long-buried duty.
486. You will be loved
Bind not!You will be bound.
Lo, even the boundless time
Is bound by a tiny clock.
Love!
You will be loved.
Lo, even a tiny dew drop
Is loved by the morning God.
487. God's Compassion-sun
When I see my actual presence in God,I hate myself and want to crucify myself.
How weak and feeble
My aspiration-flames are!
When I see God’s actual Presence in me,
I love myself and want to glorify myself.
How strong and powerful
God’s Compassion-sun is!
488. My life-boat and my soul-boat
O failure’s life,Although your existence
Is grief in reality,
Yet you live so long.
O victory’s heart,
Although your existence
Is abiding reality,
Yet you seem so brief.
O failure’s life,
I need you
To make my life-boat
Strong and solid.
O victory’s heart,
I need you
To make my soul-boat
Undeniable and unmistakable.
489. Under control
Your fear is under control.Therefore
God the omnipotent Power loves you.
Your doubt is under control.
Therefore
God the transcendental Light loves you.
Your impurity is under control.
Therefore
God the supreme Pride loves you.
Your insecurity is under control.
Therefore
God the boundless Delight loves you.
490. The truth
My imaginationVisions the Truth.
My aspiration
Nears the Truth.
My realisation
Reaches the Truth.
My perfection
Becomes the Truth.
My smile
Is the Truth.
491. Alone I live
I avoid GodWhen I want to lead
My animal-pleasure life.
I avoid my lower self
When I want to drink
God’s ambrosial Light.
Alone I live to dig my mortal grave,
Alone I live to quench my eternal thirst.
492. Just love and love more
No remedy for black hate?Who says?
Just love
And love more,
That’s all.
No remedy for helpless fear?
Who says?
Just love
And love more,
That’s all.
No remedy for blind darkness?
Who says?
Just love
And love more,
That’s all.
No remedy for lengthy bondage?
Who says?
Just love
And love more,
That’s all.
493. They do not believe it
My body is ignorance.Alas,
My body does not believe it.
My vital is arrogance.
Alas,
My vital does not believe it.
My mind is pretense.
Alas,
My mind does not believe it.
My heart is indulgence.
Alas,
My heart does not believe it.
My soul is impatience.
Alas,
My soul does not believe it.
494. Leave yourself to me
Leave yourself to me, Heaven.I shall serve you devotedly.
Leave yourself to me, earth.
I shall guide you relentlessly.
Leave yourself to me, God.
I shall please You unconditionally.
Leave yourself to me, man.
I shall glorify you unreservedly.
495. I see no difference
When I obey my heart,I see no sovereign on earth
Save me.
When my heart obeys me,
I see no beggar on earth
Save me.
When I obey God,
I see no difference
Between God the Head
And God the Feet.
When God obeys me,
I see no difference
Between my frustration-height
And my destruction-length.
496. They belong
Rest sublime belongs to work,And not to the worker.
Delight endless belongs to love,
And not to the lover.
Peace immense belongs to service,
And not to the server.
God Himself belongs to the search,
And not to the searcher.
497. God's Will in me
God’s Will in meIs to sing.
Therefore
I sing
Before I even pray to God.
God’s Will in me
Is to dance.
Therefore
I dance
Before I even meditate on God.
God’s Will in me
Is to play.
Therefore
I play
Before I even love God.
498. I just wanted to remind you
Earth,I just wanted to remind you,
Heaven’s compassion
Is an honoured guest.
Heaven,
I just wanted to remind you,
Earth’s patience
Is an honoured guest.
God,
I just wanted to remind You,
You once told me
That my surrender
Is Your honoured guest.
499. I taught
I taught my soulWhat to speak:
The power of love.
I taught my heart
How to speak:
Devotedly and soulfully.
I taught my life
Where to speak:
In the garden of Love-light.
500. I give
I giveMy thoughts no voice.
I give
My mind no choice.
I give
My unaspiring life no nest.
I give
My aspiring life no rest.