The Wings of Light, part 18

851. They are pleased with my books

I am truly grateful
To man and God,
To earth and Heaven,
Because
They are pleased with my books.

God is pleased with my books,
Because
My books devotedly manifest Him
On earth.

Man is pleased with my books,
Because
My books represent him
Adequately.

Heaven is pleased with my books
Because
My books carry many seekers
To Heaven.

Earth is pleased with my books
Because
My books embody earth-pangs
And earth-smiles.

852. Surrender is the answer

Desire receives the answer
From the world of night.

Aspiration receives the answer
From the world of Light.

Meditation receives the answer
From the world of Peace.
But
Surrender receives no answer.
Surrender needs no answer
Because
Surrender itself is the Answer
Of answers.

853. Why are you so late?

Is that you, daughter?
Why are you so late?
“Father, I thought I could do
Without You.
I thought You could do
Without me.
Therefore
I found no necessity to come
Earlier.”

Is that You, Father?
Why are You so late?
“Daughter, I am late
Because
You have made Me late.
Until now,
You thought your
Desire-life was all.
That is why.”

854. How it ended

My animal life,
How it ended:
It ended when mind
Knocked at its door.

My human life,
How it ended:
It ended when love
Knocked at its door.

My divine life,
How it began:
It began when oneness,
Universal oneness,
Was released from my
Transcendental Being.

855. I await your command

Captain, O captain
Of my outer world,
My desire-life is waiting
For your command.

Captain, O captain
Of my inner life,
Your command is waiting
For my inner preparation.

Captain, O captain
Of my God-life,
Will you ever command me?
Will you ever guide me, will you?

856. The choice:

Whom am I going to choose
This time?

I chose Satan once,
And then we two
Fought and fought against God.

I chose man once,
And then we two
Cried and slept, slept and cried.

This time I am definitely planning
To choose God.
Let me see what we two
Together can do.

857. I shall offer

To the sun-power
I shall offer my newly acquired power:
Aspiration.

To the moon-beauty
I shall offer my long treasured beauty:
Heart.

To the God-light
I shall offer my ever-deepening light:
Surrender.

858. I could have done far better

When I study my life
I see clearly
How foolish I was.
I could have done far better.
I wasted all my precious time
In the company
Of brooding fears,
Shooting doubts
And dying insecurities.
Yet
God loves me compassionately.
Yet
I love God unknowingly,
Unwillingly,
Undivinely.

859. I wrote a book

I wrote a book on Satan.
He wanted to read my book
But unfortunately,
Time was hostile to him.

I wrote a book on man.
Man had the time
But
He did not care to read it.
Unfortunately, he did not want
To waste his precious time.

I wrote a book on God.
God immediately read it,
And then
He smiled and cried.
He smiled at my moon-white
Sincerity;
He cried at my sun-vast
Stupidity.

860. What happened?

When I sat at God’s Feet,
What happened?
He blessed me with His infinite
Compassion-Light.

When I shook hands with God,
What happened?
He gave me His infinite Love
Freely to use.

When I embraced God,
What happened?
I totally forgot
That I was a lump of clay.

861. I thought

I thought God did not care for me.
Therefore
I paid no attention to God.

I thought only man cared for me.
Therefore
I paid all attention to man.

Although
I have changed my opinions
Totally,
Will I succeed?
Will I ever?

862. He is master of himself

Fear has left him.
Therefore
Once more he is master of himself.

Doubt has left him.
Therefore
Once more he is master of himself.

He is master of himself.
Therefore
He knows how God in him proceeds
And
How man in him succeeds.

863. Before and after

Before my realisation
My inner cry
Was a loving guest of peace.

After my realisation
My divine smile
Became a fulfilling host of peace.

864. I love you, I hate you

O machine-loving man,
I love you.
I shall always love you
Because
You love something.

O God-doubting man,
I hate you.
I shall always hate you
Because
You doubt Someone.

865. Goal

O curious traveller in me,
Your Goal is very far.
O laborious traveller in me,
Your Goal is absolutely sure.

O precious Goal,
How far are you?
O gracious Goal,
I love you.

866. Three new ways of thinking

I have discovered
Three new ways of thinking:

Man can think
With his heart of love-light.

Man can think
With his life of surrender-might.

Man can think
With his soul of God-right.

867. They always come

My body knows
Darkness always comes.

My vital knows
Night always comes.

My mind knows
Evening always comes.

My heart knows
Noon always comes.

My soul knows
The sun always comes.

And I know
Grace from Above always comes.

868. Grace

You want to know
The history of the world?
Grace!
I tell you, it is so simple
And
It is so clear.
The father of Grace is all-illumining Concern.
The mother of Grace is all-fulfilling Love.
Grace has only one brother
And
Only one sister.
Brother’s name is Courage-prince,
Sister’s name is Faith-princess.

869. I assure you

You say
God does not love you.
I say
Just love God.
I assure you
He cannot and will not
Remain indebted to you.

You say
God does not care for you.
I say
Just use your concern-machine.
I assure you
God will use His Concern-machine
To claim you today,
To fulfil you tomorrow.

870. The greatest man

In the human world
The greatest man is he
Who dares to love
Cheerfully,
Ceaselessly
And
Selflessly.

In the divine world
The greatest man is he
Who dares to try
Soulfully,
Untiringly
And
Unconditionally.

871. A proposal

God, it is just a proposal:
Kindly come and share
With me my food, ignorance.
“Man, in My case
It is more than a proposal,
It is My most sincere request:
Just come and share
With Me My food, Light.
And I assure you, man,
My food is infinitely more
Than yours
Both in quality and in quantity.
Therefore
You can easily eat
My food with Me
Through Eternity.”

872. Imagination, inspiration, aspiration

I need imagination,
I need inspiration,
I need aspiration.

Imagination I need
To invite God.

Inspiration I need
To love God.

Aspiration I need
To serve God.

873. An insecure life

Who is most afraid of death?
Fear.
Who is most afraid of fear?
An insecure life.
Who is most afraid of an insecure life?
God, God Himself.
Do you know why?
Here is the answer:
God just does not know
How to satisfy
An insecure life.

874. Since God is kind to me

For the time being
I am kind to God.

For the time being
God is kind to me.

Since I am kind to God,
Let me give Him what He has been
Asking me for all the time:
Aspiration.

Since God is kind to me,
Let me at least ask Him
For a favour:
God-realisation.

875. The achievement

Compassion, what is it
If not the achievement of concern?

Concern, what is it
If not the achievement of sacrifice?

Sacrifice, what is it
If not the achievement of love?

Love, what is it
If not the achievement of
Man in God
And God in Man?

876. The supreme power

Inspiration is the brightest power
Of the poet in me.

Aspiration is the purest power
Of the seeker in me.

Surrender is the strongest power
Of the lover in me.

Oneness is the supreme power
Of the Yogi in me.

877. The eternal student

To you, God is a loving Teacher.
To him, God is a strict Teacher.
To me, God is a wise Teacher.
To earth, God is a compassionate Teacher.
To Heaven, God is a kind Teacher.
To God, God is the Eternal Student
Of our never-dying ignorance.

878. Your God, my God

You stay with your God;
Let me stay with mine.
Your God tells you
That I am unrealised,
That I am undivine
And
That I am imperfect.

My God tells me
That I am realised;
More than realised,
That I am divine;
More than divine,
That I am perfect.
My God tells me something more:
“My son, you are My
Only successor.”

879. Three lives

I have three lives.
I will gladly offer
The first to the animal kingdom,
The second to the human kingdom
And the third to the divine Kingdom.

The animal kingdom
Admires my destruction-life.

The human kingdom
Admires my aspiration-life.

The divine Kingdom
Admires my dedication-life.

880. The difference

The difference between your God
And my God is this:
Your God may not know
How great, how powerful
And how kind you are;
Whereas
My God does not know
And yet
Does not want to know
How stupid, how worthless
And how useless I am.

881. What do you mean?

What do you mean
When you say that God is very kind?
“I mean that God has a big heart.”

What do you mean
When you say that God has a big heart?
“I mean that God has two big eyes.”

What do you mean
When you say that God has two big eyes?
“I mean that
God watches me,
Examines me,
Perfects me
And
Fulfils me.”

882. I forgot and God forgave

How did it happen?
How did you forget God?

How did it happen?
How did God forgive you?

“I deliberately forgot God
Because
He did not care to fulfil
My sweet and strong desires.

“God forgave me
Because
His Compassion gave Him
No other choice.”

883. Who is God?

Who is God?
You asked me
The same question before.
I shall give you the answer
Lovingly and cheerfully again.

Who is God?
God is the son
Of your teeming desires.
God is the father
Of your blossoming aspiration.
God is the number-one enemy
Of your insecurity-heart.
God is the number-one friend
Of your courage-life.

884. When I surrendered myself

When I surrendered myself
To the morning light,
God’s Eyes of Beauty
Blessed me.

When I surrendered myself
To the midday light,
God’s Heart of Beauty
Blessed me.

When I surrendered myself
To the evening light,
God’s Hands of Beauty
Blessed me.

When I surrendered myself
To the inner light,
God the Eternal Beauty
Blessed me,
Embraced me,
Claimed me.

885. The unknown and the immediate

O silence of death,
I love you.

O sound of life,
I love you.

O silence of death,
I love you
Because
I love the unknown.

O sound of life,
I love you
Because
I love the immediacy of today.

886. By this time

Why don’t you care for God?
“Why should I?”

The reason is quite obvious.
“Did God ever care for me?”

How do you know
That God did not care for you?

“I know it,
And I tell you
From my own personal experience,
Had God cared for me
By this time I would have
At least
Become a demigod.”

887. Perhaps I am wrong

Perhaps I am wrong,
Totally wrong,
When I criticise humanity.

Perhaps I am wrong,
Unmistakably wrong,
When I speak ill of Heaven.

Perhaps I am wrong,
Unpardonably wrong,
When I ridicule earth-aspiration.

O how I wish to be wrong,
Always wrong,
When I deliberately find fault
With my Inner Pilot!

888. Therefore I am happy

My vital is unused to tears.
Therefore
I am happy.

My heart is used to tears.
Therefore
I am happy.

My mind judges the world.
Therefore
I am happy.

My soul embraces the world.
Therefore
I am happy.

My body is the innocence-world.
Therefore
I am happy.

889. Tomorrow

Yesterday
Unwillingly your vital and mind
Fulfilled God.

Today
Willingly your heart and soul
Are fulfilling God.

Tomorrow
Your body will fulfil God devotedly,
Your vital dynamically,
Your mind consciously,
Your heart unconditionally,
Your soul constantly.

890. My gratitude-flames

Thorns die,
Roses live.

Hate dies,
Love lives.

Desire dies,
Aspiration lives.

The human in me dies,
The divine in me lives.

My gratitude-flames
In the Heart of God
Never shall die.
Eternally they breathe,
Eternally they sport,
Eternally they manifest
The Supreme,
My Supreme.

891. I do not deserve it

Lord, I ask You humbly:
Throw me not
Ruthlessly
Into the world again.
I do not deserve
Such severe punishment.

Lord, I ask You sincerely:
Accept me not
Compassionately
Into Heaven again.
I do not deserve
Such a high blessing.

892. Wherever we are free

We never speak to God,
But we love God
Wherever we are free.

We never think of God,
But we love God
Wherever we are free.

We never serve God,
But we love God
Wherever we are free.

Where are we free?
We are free
In our sweet imagination,
In our bold declaration.

893. His own descending self

He likes man
But
Not men.

He likes God
But
Not the cosmic gods.

Who is his man?
His own ascending self.

Who is his God?
His own descending Self.

894. A serious commitment

Earth, my sister earth,
I cannot die with you
Because
I have made a serious commitment
To Heaven.
I have told Heaven
That I shall establish
Heaven on earth.

Heaven, my brother Heaven,
I cannot fly with you
Because
I have made a serious commitment
To earth.
I have told earth
That I shall transform
Her untold sufferings
Before I do anything else.

895. Your sweet imagination and your bold will

Here is the difference
Between
Your sweet imagination
And
Your bold will:
Your imagination
Lovingly and soulfully
Speaks to God,
Speaks about God;
Your will
Consciously and unmistakably
Becomes God,
Fulfils God.

897. Leave yourself to me

Leave yourself to me.
I shall look after you.

Leave yourself to me.
I shall perfect you.

Leave yourself to me.
I shall immortalise you.

I leave myself to you
For your service.

I leave myself to you
For your pleasure.

I leave myself to you
For your consideration.

898. Can you?

Lord, can You see my face?
My face is bleeding.

“Daughter, can you feel My Grace?
My Grace is working.”

Lord, can You make me
Worthy of Your Compassion?

“Daughter, I shall try.
But I cannot guarantee it.
But if you want Me to make you
Worthy of My Pride,
I assure you,
I shall undoubtedly succeed.”

899. Love shall be my perfection

Lord, service was my imagination,
Service is my aspiration,
Service shall be my realisation.

Daughter, love was My Realisation,
Love is My Manifestation,
Love shall be My Perfection.

900. Your pilgrimage

I tell you once and for all:

Simplify your life-pilgrimage.
God will be proud of you.

Intensify your heart-pilgrimage.
God will be proud of you.

Purify your mind-journey.
God will be proud of you.

Cancel your vital-journey.
God will be proud of you.

Expel your body-journey.
God will be proud of you.

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