Question: Why do you sleep a lot when we are riding on the bus? Is it to do your important inner work or to escape from us?
Guru: True, I sleep on the bus considerably. My body is here in the bus, and I find it difficult to read or write here. But my power of concentration does not depend on my sleeping or waking. I can most powerfully meditate even when I am enjoying so-called perfect sleep. The body may rest like a dead elephant, but at that time I am the soul itself. I have the body, but even in sleep I am the soul itself. While the body is sleeping I can enjoy my realisation and my perfect oneness with the creation and the Creator.Here on earth I have quite a few problems. When I look at someone or speak to someone, in a fleeting second there are quite a few others who immediately attack me with jealousy. Jealousy-arrows are immediately hurled at me. When I say something nice to someone, others become sad, mad, furious and in a moment they start, quite cleverly, taking away the joy that I have given to that particular person, by talking. It has happened on the outer plane many, many times.
On earth, as soon as I open my eyes, I am at fault or I am misunderstood. Let us say “misunderstood.” If I say something, I am misunderstood. If I say something nice, people ascribe motives to it. If I don’t say anything, they feel miserable that I don’t pay any attention to them. So no matter what I do, immediately I am subject to criticism. But when I am sleeping, at that time your minds will say, “He is useless, as he is sleeping now.” If you call me useless, no harm, as long as I can enjoy my own inner reality and divinity. Inwardly if I bless you, others will not be able to see it, so they won’t become jealous. And if I say something to you in the inner world, your doubtful mind will not pay any attention or try to interfere. Whatever I say or do there, I don't have to get the support, approval or acceptance of your body, vital and mind.
In the inner world, no matter what I say, no matter what I do, your aspiring soul knows my heart and will accept it gladly, devotedly and cheerfully. I can accomplish much more in the inner world, because there I get no resistance when I do something. All the resistance starts here on the physical plane because of a sense of separativity. In the inner worlds there is no separativity; it is all oneness, oneness. So when I am resting or sleeping, I can accomplish much more than when I chat with you. Some of you will get a kind of excitement or pleasure or fleeting joy when I chat with you. But there will be others who are sitting in the back of the bus who will curse themselves and curse me because they are too far back and they can’t hear or enjoy the conversation. Again, when I pay special attention to someone, there are many who will become totally jealous. But in the inner world I can act like a clever thief. If I want to pay attention to an individual, I can do so to my heart’s content, and if I see that an individual is aspiring, then I can help that person as much as I want to. In the outer world even if one is aspiring, I often find it very difficult to speak with that person because of others who are what you call vultures, v-u-l-t-u-r-e-s. And they have vulture-eyes, very keen eyes, to see what I am doing. Then they inwardly curse my forefathers, and I can’t bring my forefathers from Heaven to fight with them, so I have to accept their curses. So instead of all this, what I do is to do the needful in the inner worlds, while outwardly you may say that I am enjoying sleep. As long as I can do the needful, as long as I can act satisfactorily and fruitfully in the inner worlds for the individuals who are aspiring, let the world think that I am peacefully sleeping. I know that I am more that justified in my inner approach to the real in you, to the soul.