You have awakened me14
My Lord Supreme, my Beloved Supreme, You wanted to awaken my sleeping heart with Your Satisfaction-Heart. But alas, I did not allow You to succeed. Therefore, You badly failed.My Lord Supreme, my Beloved Supreme, You wanted to awaken my sleeping heart with Your Compassion-Eye. But alas, I did not allow You to succeed. Therefore, You badly failed.
My Lord Supreme, my Beloved Supreme, You even wanted to awaken my sleeping heart with Your Justice-Light. But alas, I did not allow You to succeed. Therefore, You badly failed.
Finally, my Lord Supreme, You awakened me with Your utter frustration, utter exasperation and utter disgust, plus Your Thunder-Blows and Thunder-Kicks. Now I am awakened, fully awakened. But alas, why did I prevent You from awakening me in Your own Way according to Your choice Vision?
"My child, you and I do not belong to the past. We do not even belong to the future. We only belong to the Eternal Now."
HPO 14. Stanford University, Stanford, California, 22 May 1989.↩
