Mother, if I lose to You

Mother, if I lose to You,
That is my only Victory.
Whatever I have given into Your Hands,
Is only my savings.
To me the rest is of no value,
A mere waste,
And it only tortures me and
Stands as a burden on my way.
I cannot put it to use.
When I lose to You,
After I have achieved
My full realisation,
I know my greatest reward I shall receive.