Bahirer Hasi Nahi Jachi Mago

Mother, I do not seek for an outer smile.
I seek only for inner smile.
I know perfectly well
That it is only in the inner silence
That Your Nectar-Flute is being played.
I do not know, alas, why there is such a gulf
Between the inner life and the outer life
And why I always want to bow down to You
As a mere show in the outer life.
Why do I get satisfaction
Only from my outer obeisance?
May I get back the inner devoted will
To worship You in silence,
Sincerely and devotedly, in my inner life.